Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Starry eyes ❯ The Depression ( Chapter 7 )

Starry Eyes

Haruka can't focus. She can't sleep, she can't race, all she can think about is him. What's going on? Will it ever stop? And what the hell is she going to do about Michiru? - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -Sailor Moon is not mine. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

 

Haruka ran down an oh so familiar path, the one down to the racetrack, letting the wind carry away her tears faster than they could fall. She rushed down to the garage, raced past the few early workers that were there already, and locked herself into her favorite racecar, the black charger with purple velvet suede interior, the one she hadn't touched in years. It had always helped Haruka sort out her problens before, but Michiru thought it hideous, so she locked it up in the race track's garage. Now, as she sat curled up in the back seat, she began to think about what she would do next. She couldn't go back to live with the others, she just couldn't, so she'd have to buy a house, or rent an apartment. That shouldn't be too hard, seeing as Haruka, being a celebrity racer, had no shortage of money. Then, she would have to, she would have to… at that point, Haruka was lost. Once she established a new residency, she had nothing else to do, nothing else she could think of. Before, when she came home, she would greet Michiru, and they would either go on a date, or hang out at the pool, but now… Haruka once again began sobbing. `Why is it always me?' she thought to herself. `None of the other senshi has had to put up with this. Usagi's got Mamoru, Ami doesn't have time for a steady relationship, and even then she can call that Urawa guy. Sure, Minako and Makoto have had theuir share of breakup's, but they've never been truly serious, and their boyfriends never just held on to them for the sake of who knows what. Rei's got Yuuichirou but she's too naïve to admit it, and the starlights…' Then it hit her. She knew pratically nothing about the three “male” members of the senshi group, and just a little about Seiya, only that he was kind, caring, and there when she needed h- `WHOAH! HOLD IT TENOH! WHERE THE HELL IS THIS COMING FFROM!' She tried desperately to shake the image of Seiya holding her on the rooftop, in her bed, in his bed, in her dream… The dream! She had totally forgotten about it! Well, it had been two weeks, who could blame her? This got her worrying. `What if, what if the dream was a glimpse of the future?' she thought. `I mean, I guess I'm free now, since I broke up with, with…' She flinched, swallowed, and continued thinking. She was scared, scared about the `what if' question the dream was now posing. She was scared, since the last time her dream left off, she didn't like where it was going. So, she lay there, with mixed emotions of despair, sorrow, curiousity, and dread, and found the mix too overwhelming for her. She turned around, buried her face into the upholstry and screamed.

 

Back at the apartment, a worried Seiya was pacing the floor as Yaten and Taiki just shook their heads, now coming in from the grocery store.

“Not back yet?” Taiki ventured, and Seiya just shook his head no.

“C'mon Seiya!” Yaten took over. “It's like eleven o'clock at night, seriously. She said she didn't need your sympathy, so she's probably out sleeping in her newly bought home. Besides, it's Haruka, so who cares?” Yaten started up the stairs Taiki glaring at him as he followed.

“I care…” Seiya whispered to his self. He widened his eyes in the realization that he did, in fact, care. He grabbed his car keys, and burst out of the door. Taiki, who was busy scolding Yaten on his tactlessness, didn't hear the bike rev up and head out of the driveway.

 

Seiya raced along every path he could possibly think of that Haruka could be on. He checked the park, the arcade, everywhere. She wasn't even on the racetrack! Well, at least not anymore. One of the workers had seen her come in and leave earlier that morning. He suddenly got an idea. A crazy one, one that Haruka would kill him for, and turned his motorcycle towards Usagi's house. He only hoped that it wasn't too late, seeing as it was now one in the morning.

 

Usagi jolted out of bed.

“I'm up Luna, hold your horses,” she muttered, still groggy. Then she realizecd it wasn't Luna who woke her up. She raced down tho the door, cautiously opened it, then yanked Seiya inside.

“Seiya! You are soo lucky my parents are out of town, otherwise you'd be soooo dead right now! Why on earth are you knocking on my door at one in the morning?” Seiya took a breath and said, “I need to ask you something. This may not seem important to you, and I can't tell you why, but I really need to know.”

“Okaaay, shoot.”

“Is there any place or anywhere that Haruka might go when she feels like she needs help, ot when she's confused, and needs to be alone?” Usagi raised an eyebrow. “Yeees, but whe told me not to tell anyo-“

“”Please! I have to know! She may be in big trouble, and I need to find her!” `And I'd die before I let anything happen to her.'

“What! Well, there is this cliff, overlooking the sea. Just drive to the west entrance of the beach, and look for a cliff with a rock pool at the bottom. Haruka always went there becausese it had a perfect view of the ocean, and she said the wind picked up gre-“

“Thakns, gotta go!” Usagi just shook her head and laughed at her friends gall to wake her at one in the morning, ask her a question, and be gone, just like that.

“Only Seiya.”

 

Haruka just sat there, on the edge of her cliff, just looking at the ocean.The full moon was out, and it cast gorgeous shades of silver and navy blue on the water. Haruka couldn't help but think about how much Michiru would have loved it.

“Iie, stop thinking about her Haruka. Your only hurting yourself more.' She sighed. `Is it really over? Is she really gone from me? Why, what is wrong with me?” Haruka was sure that it was her fault Michiru had left her. She peered over the edge of the cliff at the rocks below.

“I wonder what it would be like, to just, end it all,' she thought as she looked down. `I mean, no one needs me now. Michiru was really the only reason I lived. Our princess has grown stronger, and Setsuna has assured us that there would be no more enemies untill the creation of Crystal Tokyo. Eve then she has the inner scouts. What does any one need me for?' She leaned over more, and more, until she began to skid a little. `Can I really do this?' She let go of her hold, and slid more towrdads the sloped end of the cliff, over the rocks. As she neared the edge, she grasped the edge ready to vault herself over. Just before she thrust out her arms, she thought she heard a voice calling to her.