Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ The Loveless Goddess ❯ Chapter 1
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By: HimeVenus 
Anime/Manga: Sailor Moon Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 07.05.2003 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.2K | Visits: 290 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Sailor Moon Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 07.05.2003 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.2K | Visits: 290 | Status: Completed
Chapter 1 of the Loveless Goddess
The Loveless Goddess
Chapter One
Makoto ran after her friend and leader, Minako of Venus. Minako had never been one for small talk, and she had received an anonymous letter in the mail. Makoto matched Minako's speed, almost running.
"Minako, what was that letter? Please tell me. I'm your friend." Makoto said. Minako stopped and Makoto stumbled to a halt. Minako's face was expressionless as usual.
"It's from my home," she said. Makoto gasped as she remembered the date. Today was the anniversary of the death of the Venus Queen. No one actually knew how she was killed or where she was buried. The south wing where the death of the king and queen took place was off limits to all.
"Minako… I'm sorry, I should have…" Makoto bowed her head. Minako nodded.
"Thank you, but there is no need for you to say sorry. It's normal," Minako said, and fought back tears she had saved up all year. She wouldn't cry, not now. It was too early. She turned to leave, rushing down the hall.
"You know something… don't you…?" Makoto whispered.
********************
All the senshi and the princess, and other allies of Venus were dressed in black. Minako lingered in the entrance of the south wing. Everyone was lingering and talking of all the great times that Aphrodite had experienced with them, Each tale was collected in Minako's memory. She wanted to cry and tell the world of her pain, but for her mother, she kept silent.
Then Minako's eyes met up with another's. Warm blue eyes. Butterflies formed in her stomach. A young man, her age probably, was looking right at her. For a while she seemed content. She wanted to walk over and tell him not to pity her every again… she wanted to slap him. Minako looked away, blinking. She had to remember that she must hate all men, all the love between lovers, to keep her mother's wish alive. To never become the loveless goddess.
She looked out the corner of her eye. He was still watching her. Why wouldn't he go look at some other senshi? She cursed under her breath and tapped Rei of Mars's shoulder. Rei turned around, sadness for Minako in her eyes. Minako covered an unladylike curse. ~ Don't look at me like that, ~ she wanted to scream.
"I'm going to... look at a few things. In my mother's room," she said quietly. Rei looked like she was going to cry.
"Ok… I'll keep watch as usual Minako. But please remember, I'm here," she said. Minako nodded.
~ Don't pity me! ~
"I'll meet you at the station this time, ok?" Minako whispered. Rei blinked then nodded, understanding how Minako
felt.
"The last shuttle leaves at eleven. We'll wait until then." Minako nodded and headed for the south wing. She left someone following her and turned around. No one. ~ Minako, calm down. Soon everything will be at rest. ~
Minako walked down the twists and turns of the hall and saw herself running that day. She passed the study and went still. The light lingered in her eyes. The blood trail was dry and soiled the tile, making stains. She followed it outside to a place where her mother was buried. No one knew where the queen had been taken. Some say the king killed her then killed himself. Minako would always just listen.
The mound of dirt was covered in flowers and the cross still stood. Minako kneeled down, looking over it. The she cried. For one whole year she had held back so many tears so that she would only cry at her secret spot. The warm tears splashed down, making a sizable puddle. When she was fresh out of tears she began to speak.
"Hi mom… It's me. Your little goddess." She smiled at her mom's nickname for her. "I'm grown up mom, and I've kept your wish alive. I've turned down all men, so I'll never be betrayed." She laid down on top of the mound and whispered to the dirt.
"But I'm not happy. I can't be like this anymore, yet I don't ever want to speak of this." She then reached behind the cross and pulled out a slightly buried dagger. Even after all these years the blade was still sharp. Minako lifted it up, holding it to her heart.
"Don't look at it badly. I'll be with you, and I'll be happy. I'm not happy, yet I'm not strong. I'm glad I'm a senshi, but knowing that I can't protect my princess to the fullest makes me useless. This is my place," she whispered. She closed her eyes and pulled the dagger to her heart.
…………………. ~ No ~ ……………
In a blinding flash the dagger was gone, out of her hands. Minako frantically looked around thinking she dropped it. A soft chuckle floated around her. Minako's eyes widened and she stood up, whirling around. That guy. That same guy from earlier, the one who had pitied her, he had followed her. Why? ~ But most importantly, how long was he watching me in my secret place? ~ she thought, getting angry. There went those butterflies again.
The guy looked familiar. Although he was dressed in black, his uniform was that of earth. His silver white hair blew in the soft wind and his eyes… cast a spell. ~ Why the hell is he laughing? Dose he find something funny about my dead mother and me? ~ Minako's face scrunched up.
"Don't look so angry with me Lady Venus I only wanted to see where you were headed."
"Why are you here? What do you want?" Minako asked. Her eyes were still puffy from crying so many tears.
"Well, you know why," he said. Minako frowned.
"Leave now," she hissed. The man shook his head.
"No, no my lady. At lest let me introduce yourself, and I shall do the same. My name is Kunzite, leader of the prince's generals," he said. Minako knew he looked familiar.
"You can call me Venus, leader of the princess's senshi," she said. Kunzite balanced the dagger. Minako eyed it.
"I'll leave you in peace Lady Venus, if that's your real name, but this will go with me." Kunzite took the dagger and slipped it in his belt, walking back in the palace. Minako gasped and ran after him.
"Give that back! It's not yours!" she yelled.
"True, but I am only protecting you," he said. Minako almost stumbled.
"You? Protect me? From who? From what?" she asked sarcastically. Kunzite laughed. Minako was confused.
"Yourself my lady. You did try to kill yourself didn't you?" he stopped walking and turned to face her.
"It's none of your business," she yelled. Kunzite shook his head.
"Yelling doesn't become such a beautiful face." Minako almost blushed, and fought it down.
"Don't make fun of me," she said, this time in a normal tone.
"I'm not," Kunzite said innocently. Minako reached for the dagger but he pulled away. Minako recovered and
slapped him. Kunzite stood still, shocked. Minako was just as surprised, but held her emotions at bay.
"I don't need your pity. I'm not just some sorry chick who'll fall for any guy that gives them sympathy." Kunzite
recovered as well.
"I don't know why you would think that, you should go home, and it's getting late." He took her hand. Minako tried to move away, but couldn't. For the first time in a long time she let her inner shyness show. Kunzite didn't want to laugh. Instead he tucked the dagger hilt in her upturned hand.
"Where ever your home is. I hope to see you again," he said, and left her standing in the hall. Minako's heart beat hard in her chest. Why was she reacting to this, this, guy. Minako tried to shake the feeling, but it kept getting to her. The clock in the palace struck ten. If she left now she would make the flight back to the moon.
Kunzite sat comfortably in his chair in the shuttle. The princess and the prince looked longingly at each other from their seats. The ship was set up with the Moon dwellers on one said and the Earth dwellers on the other side. Jedite and Mars exchanged cold glances while Mercury and Zoicite tried not to make eye contact. Nephrite, obviously saddened because Jupiter had volunteered to stay behind to wait for Venus, was looking at the stars. Kunzite watched the stars too.
When he had first seen his Lady Venus, she was a vision that hit him. Yet her sadness had tugged at his heart. He wanted to make it go away so that he could see a gleeful spark in her lovely eyes. Why he wanted to make her happy was beyond him, but when he saw her cry he just wanted to hold her.
"Kunzite, hey Kunzite." Nephrite nudged his shoulder. Kunzite blinked and cast a questioning look.
"Yeah?"
"You look preoccupied. What's up? He asked. Kunzite shrugged.
"Nothing really, just thinking about how sad this day was for Lady Venus, he said simply. ~ "Don't pity me." ~ The words echoed in his head.
"Yeah, it's sad. I wouldn't know cause my parents are still alive, old, but alive.
"I don't think that any of us really know how Minako feels," Mars said, overhearing the two. ~ Minako ~ Kunzite thought, ~ so that's your name? Minako? ~
~ "You can call me Venus." ~
"I feel sorry for her," Mercury said. ~ "Don't pity me! ~ Kunzite thought of her words.
"No one could possibly understand. I mean her parents were murdered, and no one knows how," Princess Serenity said.
"I think someone knows, but won't tell," Kunzite said quietly. ~ "I don't want to speak of our secret, but it hurts
not to tell." ~
"Really?" everyone cried, almost falling out of his or her seats. Kunzite stayed calm and nodded.
"Who? Minako has to know!" said the princess. She wanted Minako to be happy.
"I don't know," he said. Mars sighed.
"Poor Minako. She always likes to be alone," Mercury sighed.
"I've noticed," Jedite spoke up. "That when we travel in groups she sits in that chair in the far corner." Zoicite
nodded.
"She's so quiet. I wonder what she thinks about," Mars speculated quietly. ~ She probably thinks of ways to get through the next day without tears. ~ Kunzite thought.
~ "It hurts." ~
*************
"Princess, please. Your not suppose to be here! We have to go." Minako pulled on the princess's shoulder.
"Please Venus, couldn't we stay just a little while longer?" Serenity whined.
"No. We have to go now. If your mother finds mother finds out that you've been seeing the prince against her wishes, we're done for."
"Hard to have such a curious princess isn't it," said a familiar voice. Minako whirled around to see Kunzite chuckling
at her. She blushed and then remembered that she wasn't supposed to, but it was too late. Kunzite had seen. Endymion was behind him.
"Kunzite, don't say anything please," he asked. Kunzite looked at Minako. It has been two weeks since he had seen her, and he wanted to speak with her. Alone.
"Have you found your home Lady Venus?" he asked. Minako looked franticly around.
"W… what do you mean?" she asked. ~ Damn, my emotions. ~
Well last time we met you had a dagger-" he was cut off as she grabbed his arm and dragged him off. The prince and princess looked at them, and then at each other. After a minute they fell into another embrace.
************
"What the hell do you think your doing?" Minako yelled. "If the princess knew what I did she would throw me out!"
"Then you would have to go home?" Kunzite whispered. Minako stopped, wanting to cry.
"Shut up. How could you possibly understand?"
"Your hurting Minako," he said, and she gasped. How did he know her name, and why did he speak it so softly?
"Shut up!" Minako turned away, a tear running down her cheek. ~ No! I won't cry! ~ Kunzite's arms slipped around her. To his surprise she didn't try to fight him. He rested his head on her shoulder and whispered in her ear. Minako stiffened.
"I've wanted to hold you for a long time. You're so sad. Let me fight your demon memories for you. You shouldn't have to do it alone." Then, in just a quick second, Minako was facing him from three feet away.
"Stop! Leave me alone. You don't understand anything at all."
"When are you going to stop fooling yourself? You're not alone. You don't have to be. Minako I-" he stopped. "I'm
worried about you."
"Then don't worry," she snapped, storming out of his sight.
************
Makoto yawned, walking through the halls. A soft scream caught her hearing. She looked around and followed the sound to Minako's room. A bouquet of yellow roses were scattered on the floor. Minako was screaming and muttering to herself, tearing a card apart.
"Minako…" Makoto whispered. Minako gasped and turned to look at her friend.
"Just leave Makoto," Minako whispered in an icy tone. Makoto shivered. Something was up, but knowing Minako, she would never tell. Even is the Moon decided to explode, she would not part her lips.
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The Loveless Goddess
Chapter One
Makoto ran after her friend and leader, Minako of Venus. Minako had never been one for small talk, and she had received an anonymous letter in the mail. Makoto matched Minako's speed, almost running.
"Minako, what was that letter? Please tell me. I'm your friend." Makoto said. Minako stopped and Makoto stumbled to a halt. Minako's face was expressionless as usual.
"It's from my home," she said. Makoto gasped as she remembered the date. Today was the anniversary of the death of the Venus Queen. No one actually knew how she was killed or where she was buried. The south wing where the death of the king and queen took place was off limits to all.
"Minako… I'm sorry, I should have…" Makoto bowed her head. Minako nodded.
"Thank you, but there is no need for you to say sorry. It's normal," Minako said, and fought back tears she had saved up all year. She wouldn't cry, not now. It was too early. She turned to leave, rushing down the hall.
"You know something… don't you…?" Makoto whispered.
********************
All the senshi and the princess, and other allies of Venus were dressed in black. Minako lingered in the entrance of the south wing. Everyone was lingering and talking of all the great times that Aphrodite had experienced with them, Each tale was collected in Minako's memory. She wanted to cry and tell the world of her pain, but for her mother, she kept silent.
Then Minako's eyes met up with another's. Warm blue eyes. Butterflies formed in her stomach. A young man, her age probably, was looking right at her. For a while she seemed content. She wanted to walk over and tell him not to pity her every again… she wanted to slap him. Minako looked away, blinking. She had to remember that she must hate all men, all the love between lovers, to keep her mother's wish alive. To never become the loveless goddess.
She looked out the corner of her eye. He was still watching her. Why wouldn't he go look at some other senshi? She cursed under her breath and tapped Rei of Mars's shoulder. Rei turned around, sadness for Minako in her eyes. Minako covered an unladylike curse. ~ Don't look at me like that, ~ she wanted to scream.
"I'm going to... look at a few things. In my mother's room," she said quietly. Rei looked like she was going to cry.
"Ok… I'll keep watch as usual Minako. But please remember, I'm here," she said. Minako nodded.
~ Don't pity me! ~
"I'll meet you at the station this time, ok?" Minako whispered. Rei blinked then nodded, understanding how Minako
felt.
"The last shuttle leaves at eleven. We'll wait until then." Minako nodded and headed for the south wing. She left someone following her and turned around. No one. ~ Minako, calm down. Soon everything will be at rest. ~
Minako walked down the twists and turns of the hall and saw herself running that day. She passed the study and went still. The light lingered in her eyes. The blood trail was dry and soiled the tile, making stains. She followed it outside to a place where her mother was buried. No one knew where the queen had been taken. Some say the king killed her then killed himself. Minako would always just listen.
The mound of dirt was covered in flowers and the cross still stood. Minako kneeled down, looking over it. The she cried. For one whole year she had held back so many tears so that she would only cry at her secret spot. The warm tears splashed down, making a sizable puddle. When she was fresh out of tears she began to speak.
"Hi mom… It's me. Your little goddess." She smiled at her mom's nickname for her. "I'm grown up mom, and I've kept your wish alive. I've turned down all men, so I'll never be betrayed." She laid down on top of the mound and whispered to the dirt.
"But I'm not happy. I can't be like this anymore, yet I don't ever want to speak of this." She then reached behind the cross and pulled out a slightly buried dagger. Even after all these years the blade was still sharp. Minako lifted it up, holding it to her heart.
"Don't look at it badly. I'll be with you, and I'll be happy. I'm not happy, yet I'm not strong. I'm glad I'm a senshi, but knowing that I can't protect my princess to the fullest makes me useless. This is my place," she whispered. She closed her eyes and pulled the dagger to her heart.
…………………. ~ No ~ ……………
In a blinding flash the dagger was gone, out of her hands. Minako frantically looked around thinking she dropped it. A soft chuckle floated around her. Minako's eyes widened and she stood up, whirling around. That guy. That same guy from earlier, the one who had pitied her, he had followed her. Why? ~ But most importantly, how long was he watching me in my secret place? ~ she thought, getting angry. There went those butterflies again.
The guy looked familiar. Although he was dressed in black, his uniform was that of earth. His silver white hair blew in the soft wind and his eyes… cast a spell. ~ Why the hell is he laughing? Dose he find something funny about my dead mother and me? ~ Minako's face scrunched up.
"Don't look so angry with me Lady Venus I only wanted to see where you were headed."
"Why are you here? What do you want?" Minako asked. Her eyes were still puffy from crying so many tears.
"Well, you know why," he said. Minako frowned.
"Leave now," she hissed. The man shook his head.
"No, no my lady. At lest let me introduce yourself, and I shall do the same. My name is Kunzite, leader of the prince's generals," he said. Minako knew he looked familiar.
"You can call me Venus, leader of the princess's senshi," she said. Kunzite balanced the dagger. Minako eyed it.
"I'll leave you in peace Lady Venus, if that's your real name, but this will go with me." Kunzite took the dagger and slipped it in his belt, walking back in the palace. Minako gasped and ran after him.
"Give that back! It's not yours!" she yelled.
"True, but I am only protecting you," he said. Minako almost stumbled.
"You? Protect me? From who? From what?" she asked sarcastically. Kunzite laughed. Minako was confused.
"Yourself my lady. You did try to kill yourself didn't you?" he stopped walking and turned to face her.
"It's none of your business," she yelled. Kunzite shook his head.
"Yelling doesn't become such a beautiful face." Minako almost blushed, and fought it down.
"Don't make fun of me," she said, this time in a normal tone.
"I'm not," Kunzite said innocently. Minako reached for the dagger but he pulled away. Minako recovered and
slapped him. Kunzite stood still, shocked. Minako was just as surprised, but held her emotions at bay.
"I don't need your pity. I'm not just some sorry chick who'll fall for any guy that gives them sympathy." Kunzite
recovered as well.
"I don't know why you would think that, you should go home, and it's getting late." He took her hand. Minako tried to move away, but couldn't. For the first time in a long time she let her inner shyness show. Kunzite didn't want to laugh. Instead he tucked the dagger hilt in her upturned hand.
"Where ever your home is. I hope to see you again," he said, and left her standing in the hall. Minako's heart beat hard in her chest. Why was she reacting to this, this, guy. Minako tried to shake the feeling, but it kept getting to her. The clock in the palace struck ten. If she left now she would make the flight back to the moon.
Kunzite sat comfortably in his chair in the shuttle. The princess and the prince looked longingly at each other from their seats. The ship was set up with the Moon dwellers on one said and the Earth dwellers on the other side. Jedite and Mars exchanged cold glances while Mercury and Zoicite tried not to make eye contact. Nephrite, obviously saddened because Jupiter had volunteered to stay behind to wait for Venus, was looking at the stars. Kunzite watched the stars too.
When he had first seen his Lady Venus, she was a vision that hit him. Yet her sadness had tugged at his heart. He wanted to make it go away so that he could see a gleeful spark in her lovely eyes. Why he wanted to make her happy was beyond him, but when he saw her cry he just wanted to hold her.
"Kunzite, hey Kunzite." Nephrite nudged his shoulder. Kunzite blinked and cast a questioning look.
"Yeah?"
"You look preoccupied. What's up? He asked. Kunzite shrugged.
"Nothing really, just thinking about how sad this day was for Lady Venus, he said simply. ~ "Don't pity me." ~ The words echoed in his head.
"Yeah, it's sad. I wouldn't know cause my parents are still alive, old, but alive.
"I don't think that any of us really know how Minako feels," Mars said, overhearing the two. ~ Minako ~ Kunzite thought, ~ so that's your name? Minako? ~
~ "You can call me Venus." ~
"I feel sorry for her," Mercury said. ~ "Don't pity me! ~ Kunzite thought of her words.
"No one could possibly understand. I mean her parents were murdered, and no one knows how," Princess Serenity said.
"I think someone knows, but won't tell," Kunzite said quietly. ~ "I don't want to speak of our secret, but it hurts
not to tell." ~
"Really?" everyone cried, almost falling out of his or her seats. Kunzite stayed calm and nodded.
"Who? Minako has to know!" said the princess. She wanted Minako to be happy.
"I don't know," he said. Mars sighed.
"Poor Minako. She always likes to be alone," Mercury sighed.
"I've noticed," Jedite spoke up. "That when we travel in groups she sits in that chair in the far corner." Zoicite
nodded.
"She's so quiet. I wonder what she thinks about," Mars speculated quietly. ~ She probably thinks of ways to get through the next day without tears. ~ Kunzite thought.
~ "It hurts." ~
*************
"Princess, please. Your not suppose to be here! We have to go." Minako pulled on the princess's shoulder.
"Please Venus, couldn't we stay just a little while longer?" Serenity whined.
"No. We have to go now. If your mother finds mother finds out that you've been seeing the prince against her wishes, we're done for."
"Hard to have such a curious princess isn't it," said a familiar voice. Minako whirled around to see Kunzite chuckling
at her. She blushed and then remembered that she wasn't supposed to, but it was too late. Kunzite had seen. Endymion was behind him.
"Kunzite, don't say anything please," he asked. Kunzite looked at Minako. It has been two weeks since he had seen her, and he wanted to speak with her. Alone.
"Have you found your home Lady Venus?" he asked. Minako looked franticly around.
"W… what do you mean?" she asked. ~ Damn, my emotions. ~
Well last time we met you had a dagger-" he was cut off as she grabbed his arm and dragged him off. The prince and princess looked at them, and then at each other. After a minute they fell into another embrace.
************
"What the hell do you think your doing?" Minako yelled. "If the princess knew what I did she would throw me out!"
"Then you would have to go home?" Kunzite whispered. Minako stopped, wanting to cry.
"Shut up. How could you possibly understand?"
"Your hurting Minako," he said, and she gasped. How did he know her name, and why did he speak it so softly?
"Shut up!" Minako turned away, a tear running down her cheek. ~ No! I won't cry! ~ Kunzite's arms slipped around her. To his surprise she didn't try to fight him. He rested his head on her shoulder and whispered in her ear. Minako stiffened.
"I've wanted to hold you for a long time. You're so sad. Let me fight your demon memories for you. You shouldn't have to do it alone." Then, in just a quick second, Minako was facing him from three feet away.
"Stop! Leave me alone. You don't understand anything at all."
"When are you going to stop fooling yourself? You're not alone. You don't have to be. Minako I-" he stopped. "I'm
worried about you."
"Then don't worry," she snapped, storming out of his sight.
************
Makoto yawned, walking through the halls. A soft scream caught her hearing. She looked around and followed the sound to Minako's room. A bouquet of yellow roses were scattered on the floor. Minako was screaming and muttering to herself, tearing a card apart.
"Minako…" Makoto whispered. Minako gasped and turned to look at her friend.
"Just leave Makoto," Minako whispered in an icy tone. Makoto shivered. Something was up, but knowing Minako, she would never tell. Even is the Moon decided to explode, she would not part her lips.
You like? I hope you do. I have to give major thanks to
Afrodite Angel for her e-mail. It really helped me out.
Thank you! ^_^