Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Walking the aisle ❯ He ( Chapter 2 )

-Darien's thoughts-

"How can one not be happy, when in spite of all the black that we see in our future, always there is somebody that is able to show the light at the end of the tunnel? How we can get to think that if we moved away the light we can survive better the dark? It is that perhaps we are so little believing of miracles in our lives that we must deny them, although they touch us to the door?

I lost everything in a moment and I woke up without soul; I let myself overcome by the dark during 17 years of my life. I did not leave anybody approached me. I refused to think that my life would have an intention, and I refused to accept that i could find a way like the others, that i could be like the others.

I wandered for years between doubts, indecisions, fears, denying me to feel, from fear of the pity that the others could feel for me. I closed my life to the feelings and the rest of the world............ If I cannot feel anything I would not suffer......... and when doing it I closed the doors to company, to friendship, and to love..........I surrendered my life.

And nevertheless life did not surrender me. Suddenly I was with a friend that in spite of my rejections and fears showed me that sometimes, it is good trusting somebody else. I thought that that would be enough to fill my solitary existence..........but God had more for me.

Neither I finished to accustom the company of other human being, when a hurricane with the wings of an angel and eyes the color of the sky, brilliants like mirrors, sent me of head in my destiny...........what to me before were nightmares without reason, became dreams, yearnings for that angel...... for that guide towards my own self........demanding me that I felt, trusted......... loved.

I made fun of it, I denied........I tried to remain foreign to it, but my heart did not let me sink in the drowsiness of the forgetfulness......... refused to listen my reason and destroyed one by one the barriers that contained my heart........ Soon no longer I could be far from that tiny angel......... the warm light that emanated from her.

And as a nightmare I forgot everything of it when I began to believe it, to feel it, to love it.......because of a sickly jealousy woman whom I never had seen.........

I discovered that I had to prove me to her, to prove my love......... to surpass those new barriers......... to prove that in spite of the fights, of my fears, my doubts I was able to let enter light in my dark life...... to let her illuminated me.

And the tests never have been easy, nor common........even today do I have nightmares.......reminiscences of the obstacles that our enemies have planted in our way to be together............ I will be able to protect my angel, that angel that God let live in the Earth, so that all of us can understood the important thing that it is to give us to life, to enjoy her, to love and to give us second opportunities in spite of all the bad that we have committed?

I see she comes towards me, with her father, her eyes mirrors of her soul, expose her thoughts......... she watches me with those eyes so full of love..........she smiles to me.......I return the smile. I know that she knows of my doubts, my fears......... and nevertheless she trusts me.

She trusted me when I denied my love for her.......by fault of Beryl and Alan and Ann.......she rescued me of the dark then...... she rescued me of my own self, when refusing to accept my nightmares........... when she had the opportunity to leave me back did not accept it.

Although she thought that I had forgotten her......... she did not let believing in me...... she did not stop spilling her crystalline tears........because her feelings are so pure, that her eyes do not spill tears but gems.......

I return to watch her, now with her hand in mine............, together for, yes, always......for eternity..........our dream finally made reality..........I look her father with tears in his eyes, to let go his greater treasure.........I understand him..........probably I will also have doubts in my moment ........... but now I am going to let go the fear of future .........my dreams of then were only that dreams..............no I cannot live believing in them......... I must live to make my dreams, and those of my angel......a reality............beginning today."

The end