Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Whirlwind of Fate ❯ Whirlwind of Fate ( Chapter 8 )

[ P - Pre-Teen ]

Title: Whirlwind of fate
By: Silver sun
Genre: Alternate Reality
Rate: PG
Email: Silversun80@hotmail.com
Disclaimer: I OWN SAILORMOON!!! *Silver-chan gets dragged away by several armed
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A.N: *sigh* The very last chapter, *sniffles* I'm about to finish my very first fic, isn't it so emotional? ^^;; After I finish this fic, no one will email me anymore...*pouts* So please, minna-chan, email me! I NEED 'EM! And don't forget, an Epilogue will also be written if requested! Minna-chan, Please, request it for my sake, I want to write the Happy, Mushy Epilogue Damn it!

In Chapter 7...
Seiya turned to Darien. His voice was calm, but unusually quite.
"Do you think I don't know that? Darien? Do you think I don't know how lucky
I am? Do you think that I don't treasure her love? You fool. I don't have her
love, I don't have her heart. Stupid fool. You're the one that she loves"
The deadly silent filled the room. He felt his the world around him spinning
right in front of his eyes, like a whirlwind, sucking him, slowly killing
him. Seiya was joking, but he didn't know how hurtful it would be to play
with a broken heart.
"She said no"
No. The word played in his head over and over again. Seiya was calmer now,
carefully and slowly, he said.
"She loves you, come to her, Darien"
He heard it, but didn't dare to believe it. But his mind wasn't thinking
clearly, and frankly he didn't care if Seiya was lying. Like an bolt of
lightning, he was out of the room in seconds.
He ran and ran, blindly, and desperately. His heart was beating hard, shaking
his rib cage, looking at the busy stream of people, he kept running.
He couldn't think for he knew if he did, he'd turn back. But Seiya's words
kept repeating and repeating in his head.
She said no.
She said no.
"You stupid fool. You're the one that she loves"
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Whirlwind of Fate
Chapter 8
By Silver Sun
Email: Silversun80@hotmail.com (hints minna!)


Have you ever wondered what souls do to you?
They make you believe in love. They keep you believing. Without love, soul is
nothing. You're nothing but an empty shell, emotions are shut away, your
heart no longer does what it's supposed to do, flutter, fall, leap even
break. You need souls, you need to love and to be loved.
It was hard not to feel anything, but at that moment, I felt like crying. I
felt like dieing, I felt like killing myself. It was as if my soul was
leaving me, forever, never to return. It hurt. Oh how much it hurt. Gripping
me apart, tore my into pieces, like blades going through me, thousands and
millions blades. My soul was bleeding, my heart was aching.
I prayed and pleaded, for signs, for anything that could have kept my soul
alive. But it died. He was my soul, he was everything, he was me. It was
strange how I always knew I loved him, but never never I would think of what
would happen to me if he was no longer in my life. It was as if the sun has
gone, everything that was left was thunder, and lightning. I'm just a little
girl, afraid of darkness and thunders, lost in the rain, empty and lonely.
I cried. Salty, bitter rains of tears fell from my face, washing away his
memories. They slowly burried his face, his smile, his words. Everything.
I knew that it was the end. I had to leave this place. Far away from
everyone, from him. I knew it was a coward thing to do, but running away, it
seemed was always the only thing that I could do.
Run.
I told Raye, Lita and Amy, and they of course thought I was a stupid, crazy
fool. They didn't know the real reason why I was leaving, but they didn't
need to. It was something that I liked keeping for myself, a piece of myself
that was gone, gone in the wind of Fate. I told them that I would come back,
for them, and may be I one day I will, to find the missing piece of myself.
But now, I needed a break, from everything and everyone, I needed to be set
free.
"Are you sure this is the right decision, Sere?"
"Raye, I've never been so sure of anything in my life. I need a vacation.
Haven't you guys always told me to take a vacation?"
"Serena, we all know it is not the vacation that you want. You're running
away" Raye softly said, looking straight into my eyes, reading me like she
always could.
I sighed heavily. They weren't making this easy for me. Just one little push,
a sign, any sign, would have kept me there. With the place, where I grew up,
with my friends, my family, with him.
"Raye, don't, don't do this to me. Please, let me go. I need to go" I looked
back into her eyes, pleading, trying to make her understand.
Ami and Lita put their hands on my shoulder. I felt comforted, but lonely I
was. I needed to go, I needed to run away.
"Serena, if this is the way you want it, then have it your way. But running
away is not the right thing today. You have to face it. You need to face it.
That is what you need. Not runing away. You'll regret this, It'll come back
and haunt you, may be forever" Raye said again, her voice was strangely
determined. Could she have known? Could she have guessed?
"Raye, leave me be. I need to go"
That was the final thing I said to her. She nodded and walked away. She left
me be, that was what she did.
And alone I was, once again, lonely and empty I felt.
Sitting in the empty apartment, everything packed, I knew and felt it
stronger than ever.
I was alone.
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I opened the door, a small suitcase in my hand. I wonder how I managed to fit
everything into that tiny suitcase. But what was there for me to bring along,
I was leaving, I was leaving everything behind. Everything that would remind
me of him.
"Hello, Serena!"
The deep voice starled me, but what startled me more was the voice, the same,
familiar voice that had rarely called me Serena. But every time he speaks of my name, I felt this strange sensation, something that I couldn't name. I
told myself to be calm, but I felt anything but calm.
I didn't turn around, just kept moving forward. Until' I felt a strange
sensation running through me, the feeling so strangely familiar. Our first
meeting, when we bump into each other, when I knew I was in love with him,
when we danced in the moonlight, when he left. I felt his grip on my wrist
tighten.
I sighed and felt like throwing up. No, please God, don't let him do this to
me, don't let him keep me here. I need to go.
He felt my hot tears tingling on his hand, and turned me around so quickly,
he crushed me againts his embrace.
So warm, so homy.
But so hurtful.
"Darien, let go of me" I shouted but could not move, tears just kept
streaming down my face, wetting his neck. But I didn't care anymore, I cried,
I broke, like a fragile glass doll.
"No, I can't let you go, and I won't" He said, his voice breaking. I looked
up and then realised that all those times, I had never recognised that look
in his eyes, and now here it was again.
"Please, Darien. I need to go". I felt like a fool crying in front of him,
holding him, not being able to let go of him.
"No, Serena- he gently stroke my hair, as if sensing my thoughts- I was the
fool, not realising what I had, ignoring, surrendering. But I can't and won't
let this happen, even if this is that last thing I do.."
I felt my knees weakened, my voice somehow could not escape my throat. What
was he saying? Please, dear god, don't let me believe again.
"Please, Darien, don't say anything. I need to go, the plane is leaving in 2
minutes. I need to go"
I freed myself from his hold.
"Damn the plane. It could crash for all I care. Don't you understand Serena,
I need you!" He shouted desperately, his soul reaching for my own, but it
wasn't there anymore. It had died.
"No, I..I...I..guess I don't" I said, and fresh tears made it to my face,
every time, breaking me more, shattering me more.
I saw determination in his eyes, like fire, like wind, like storms and
thunder. Then the next thing I knew, I was in his arms again, his lips were
on mine, desperate and hard. Hungry and hot, like burnt Iron, like expolosive just waiting to explode. It was as if all
those yeas of love, hunger, and miseries had finally came out, and blended
into something stranger, so foreign, so exotic. Like rains of pains, sun
shines of memories, butterfly wings of longings. I felt it again, the strange
feeling, pain, anger, and...and....love.
I broke down into tears again, not wanting to believe it. I felt a hold of
soul, trying to tell me that it was true, that I wasn't dreaming, that the
nightmare is over, and all that mattered was that he was here now.
We broke apart and I heard his voice, shivering.
"Do you understand it now?"
"Darien, I..."
"No, let me finish this, Serena. Have you ever had something, so precious to
you, have you ever had a taste of something so sweet, so beautiful to you
just for it then to be taken away? You were hurt, you were crushed, and then
never again, you want to have anything like that. Because you were afraid,
you were scared that you'd be hurt again?"
I was silence. Painful memories came back to me, I closed my eyes tightly,
trying desperately to stop the emotions flowing through me.
"Serena, I was always confused, but I wonder why I couldn't see it before.
Everything is so clear now, so clear and cleansing like crystal, like your
tears. It was the first time that we met, it was the first time that I bumped
into you, and picked up your test paper. It was that moment that I've fallen
in love...with you, Meat Ball Head" His voice was hoarse, so scared but so
confident in a way...
I didn't no what to feel, but tears kept streaming down my face, like an
endless river. Emotions took over me, like wings, I felt my knees shaking,
like I'm standing in between a mist of smoke.
"I didn't know what was happening to me, but I knew that you were doing it to
me again. You tasted like impossible strawberry, sunshine, like flowers, I
can never forget that time. I was afraid, and I did what I had always did
before, I ran away"
I couldn't believe what I was hearing. He couldn't mean...
"I tried to forget about you, and I fooled myself into believing that, so I
could see you again, thinking that I could not fall in love with you again.
But falling, it seemed, you've bewitched me, enchanted me with your words,
your smile, your soul. I had never felt so complete. I fell in love with you
again"
"Stop Darien. Stop lying to yourself. Stop doing this to me. You've hurt
me...I broke into tears again. I fell into his arms, and that familiar
feeling crept in me again, the warm, comforting feeling of protection. He
stroked my hair, and that was the first time I saw tears in his eyes.
"Hush, it was all my fault, me and my stupid heart. Afraid of being crushed,
and hurt, afraid of seeing you and Seiya getting maried. That night, I died
when I thought you had said Yes to him. I didn't want to live anymore. I just
didn't know what I would do without you"
He was crying. I was crying, too. Our tears blended together, and fell into
my heart, breaking the seal, releasing my soul, my beliefs, my love for him.
Then I knew that nothing else mattered anymore. Just on plain, simple fact.
Why couldn't I see it before? Why did I make it so complicated? It was so
simple...so clear...like crystal, like tears...
"Darien, I'd hate to say this, but you shouldn't have said all these things.
You've wasted so much time, you know that? Because ...you already had me at
Hello"
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The End - Just kidding, an Epilogue is due to be out soon, so look out for
it.
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