Saiyuki Fan Fiction ❯ Duplicity ❯ coming together ( Chapter 7 )

 

 

 

 

Duplicity 7

 

 

 

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Chapter 7

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The smile on Gojyo's face freezes. “Wait a minute, are you still fucking with me, Sanzo? How are you going to make my hurt go away and you're the one in pain?”

 

Sanzo takes a pull on his cigarette and blows smoke in the air. He holds out his hand to Gojyo, handing him the cigarette. “Take this and put it out for me.”

 

The hanyou takes the cigarette and puts it out in the ashtray. He turns back to Sanzo and walks over to the bed. “Okay, I put your smoke out, now what? Are you going to take me in your arms and make, mad passionate love to me or are you under the influence of pain killers?”

 

The monk looks up at him and gives him a smirk, “Lock the door baka. We don't want anyone coming in disturbing us, now do we?”

 

Gojyo backs up watching the monk and locks the door. He pulls on the knob and satisfied that it is locked, he returns to the bed. He licks his bottom lip as he looks down at the monk and sits on the side of the bed. He reaches out, pushes the hair off Sanzo's forehead, and presses his lips there instead. “Are you sure this is what you want Sanzo? You are still recuperating, you know. Although this will be the height of my day, I don't want to take advantage of you.”

 

“No one takes advantage of me.” He smiles up in Gojyo's face, “Unless…that is what I want. I want you Gojyo and I know you want me…am I right?”

 

The hanyou leans down and kisses him on the lips, sliding his tongue in and tasting the tobacco, “I always want you monk…always.”

 

Sanzo chuckles and wraps his arms around his broad shoulders. This is what he almost missed, had he succumbed to the poison that was flowing through his body. Thank the goddess for Hakkai because without him he would have perished. Right now, he should be feeling guilty…strangely enough he just feels content to be with Gojyo at this time. Guilt is something he hasn't felt in a long time and now is not the time to bring up old feelings and regrets.

 

Gojyo looks down in his face, “What's so funny?”

 

“Nothing.”

 

“Then why are you grinning like the cat that swallowed the canary?”

 

“No reason, just smiling.”

 

Gojyo kisses him on the chin and laves his tongue down his neck. “If you think this is amusing than you're gonna love this.” He slides down the monk's chest, takes one of his pink nipples in his mouth, and proceeds to suck on it bringing it to a blushing hue. Sanzo moans in the back of his throat and slides his fingers through the hanyou's hair. “You're right, I do love this. Just don't stop.”

 

Gojyo whispers against his pale chest, “I don't want too hurt you Sanzo…are you sure you are up to this? I want you so badly right now I don't think I can control myself.” He kisses down the monk's chest to his navel and swirls his tongue inside as he slides his hands down the outline of his slim body. “Umm, you have a beautiful body Sanzo. If I taste you once, it won't be enough for me. I want you to belong to me. Can I have you Sanzo?”

 

Sanzo strokes his hair lovingly as he looks down at him, “Baka…what are you talking about? I can't belong to you or anyone else. We're men for goodness sake! Don't get carried away, Gojyo.” Sanzo is secretly pleased at this declaration but he knows the two of them can never be together the way things are now.

 

Gojyo looks up at him with his red eyes aflame, “So you're willing to let me make love to you knowing nothing will come of it? Whenever you look at me, I get carried away and when you touch me, I melt. My desire for you knows no bounds, Sanzo. Why can't we be together?”

 

Sanzo pushes him away and lets out an exasperated sigh, “Call Hakkai in here, I'm feeling pain in my leg.”

 

The hanyou looks at him in surprise, “Wh…what! Are you serious? You want him in here now?”

 

The monk turns his face away from the kappa and clears his throat, “Yeah, I do. Can you call him for me…please?”

 

Gojyo stands and looks down at the monk with something akin to fury, “What the fuck is going on Sanzo? First, we're making love and now you're in so much pain you want Hakkai in here?”

 

Sanzo says nothing as he faces the wall so he doesn't have to see the pain in Gojyo's face. He can hear it in his voice and that is enough for him. This is not the way it was suppose to have ended. He wants the hanyou as much as he wants him but…a commitment at this time is not something he is ready to do. Making his feelings clear to Hakkai at the beginning of there relationship only to have the baka fall in love was a mistake. He doesn't want this to happen with Gojyo because he knows he can be swept away by the hanyou.

 

“Look at me Sanzo!” He reaches down and grabs the monk's face turning him around. “What's the problem, you don't want to look in my face now? Have I grown horns and a tail all of a sudden?”

 

Sanzo looks up at him slowly and recoils from the bitterness in his face. He pulls his head away and backs up. “What do you want from me?! I can't do this, Gojyo! You don't understand what I will have to go through if I allow myself to give to my emotions.”

 

The hanyou stands back and looks down at him with his arms folded across his chest. He has been in love with this man almost from the beginning of this mission and now he tells him it was all for nothing! No, that isn't good enough! He will not let him get away so easily when he knows he feels the same way! This must be fear and nothing more. He has to show him that loving him will be on his terms and only his terms.

 

He sits down on the side of the bed and strokes the side of the monk's face. “Sanzo…I'm sorry for backing you into a corner. You don't have to do anything you don't want too do.” He kisses him lightly on the lips, “I'll take you anyway I can have you. If it is only for a short time…I'll accept that too. We'll go at your pace…I promise.”

 

The monk looks up in his eyes, sees he is sincere, and gives him a small smile. “I'm sorry Gojyo but when someone expresses love, I only want to run and hide. I can't bear to lose anyone else. That's why, I try not to care to deeply for anyone, it only leads to heartache”

 

Gojyo pulls him into his arms and kisses the side of his face, “I'll never hurt you, Sanzo, you can trust me.”

 

He takes his lips in a passionate kiss and gently falls on top of the monk as he kisses him. Sanzo wraps his arms around him and returns the kiss wholeheartedly. Maybe he can give in a little if he keeps his word. It would feel so great to just let go and pretend this will last forever.

 

Gojyo slides the monk's pants below his hips and strokes his growing erection, “Does this mean I have the go ahead to continue what we started earlier?”

 

“Of course idiot. I want this as much as you do, so shut up and kiss me.” He pulls back and looks in Gojyo's eyes, “And the only thing I want to hear right now, is you saying my name.”

 

Gojyo chuckles as he whispers the monk's name over and over while plying him with feather like kisses. “Sanzo, umn, Sanzo, Sanzo.” As he strokes the monk's erection and calls out his name, Sanzo is falling deeper into oblivion.

 

His eyes roll to the back of his head as he moans loudly. “Yes…yes, this is what I want.” He arches his back as he throws his arms around Gojyo.

 

As Gojyo replaces his hand with his lips, Sanzo bucks into his mouth as his swollen member twitches. Gojyo laps up the pre-cum on the tip and sucks it in his mouth as he drags his finger down the split between his cheeks. He stops at the narrow opening and Sanzo jerks away. Gojyo pulls his finger away and strokes his hip as he lifts his head up. “Is something wrong, Sanzo?”

 

“No…it's nothing. I know it doesn't make a difference. At least I know it shouldn't make a difference between lovers…right?”

 

Gojyo sits up and pulls Sanzo in his arms. “Are you telling me, you're used to being on top, is that it?”

 

“And if I say I am, then what?”

 

Gojyo chuckles as he presses his lips into the monk's hair, “I really don't know how to answer that. I've never been with a man before and I just assumed I would top you, so much for assumptions, huh?”

 

“I've never been on the bottom before and I've been with a few men. It has never occurred to me to be fucked. Pardon my French.” He slides his finger up the hanyou's chest and stops at his lips as he pushes it inside. Gojyo takes it in his mouth and sucks on the digit slowly. He laves his tongue around it sending shivers down the monk's spine. He closes his eyes and Gojyo watches as a look of passion washes over his face.

 

He lays the monk back gently as he takes his member in his mouth once again. Sanzo looks down at him through eyes gone deep violet, as Gojyo sends him over the edge once again.

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Hakkai tosses on his lone bed and decides to give up on trying to sleep. His mind is on the monk and if he is doing okay. He turns on his back and puts his arms behind his head as he looks up at the moonlit ceiling. As he sighs and looks towards the window, he thinks about the way Sanzo refused to accept his feelings and broke it off with him. However, he couldn't get angry because he did warn him from the beginning not to get too involved.

 

It seems that Sanzo has been through something like this before and it ended badly. Hakkai smiles, as he thinks about warning someone not to fall in love is futile. How can you not fall in love with a man like the monk? He oozes sex appeal and he the most sensual man he has ever had the luck to make love too. Feeling the softness of his lips, as they melted against his own makes him hard just thinking about it.

 

Gojyo is with him and it's a good thing he is in ill health right now or he would have never left the two of them alone. Gojyo is a player and if he ever gets his mitts on Sanzo, he knows he will never have a chance to get the monk back in his bed. After breakfast, Goku is to spend time with him but more than likely, he will be with him also. Just thinking about how close they came too losing him, makes him shiver in relief. Right now, the monk is the most important person in his life and if something were to happen to him, he knows he will fall apart.

 

He sighs again as he turns on his side, brings Sanzo's black shirt to his lips, and falls in a fitful sleep.

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The next morning Gojyo awakens with Sanzo curled up in his arms. He kisses the top of his head and lightly brushes the hair from his eyes. “Wake up sleepy-head.” He tilts the monk's chin up and kisses him on the lips.

 

Sanzo opens his eyes slowly and looks up in his face. “Is it morning already and what are you still doing here, baka?”

 

“You wouldn't let me go last night, so I had to stay with you. Didn't you have pleasant dreams in my arms?” He kisses Sanzo's forehead and leans back looking in his face with a smirk on his own.

 

“You should get out of my bed before the others come in and we have to explain why you're holding me.” The monk tries to pull away but Gojyo tightens his hold on him.

 

“So what if they do? Now you're playing shy. You weren't shy last night as I recall, as a matter of fact I think half the inn heard you as you moaned in pleasure, love.”

 

Sanzo hits him on the side of his head, “Shut up! Get out of my bed now, you water sprite! I'm not moaning now am I?”

 

Gojyo chuckles as he ducks the next blow and scrabbles to get away from an early morning monk, feeling all his glory. “Okay, okay, you win, I'm leaving!” He gets up and grabs his pants as the monk watches him with a smile on his face. He looks at him as he puts his belt around his waist. “Now you're smiling? What's so funny?”

 

The monk lies back on the pillows, “Ow, what the …?” He rubs his backside and glares at the hanyou. “You bastard…you knew this would happen didn't you?”

 

Gojyo looks at him in concern, “I'm sorry and no, I didn't. This is my first time remember? Do you think you'll be able to stand?” He walks over to the bed and reaches out for the monk.

 

Sanzo slaps his hand away, “Don't touch me, baka! You've done enough already. I just want to lie here for awhile…if I can.”

 

Gojyo looks at him with a frown on his face, “I didn't mean to hurt you Sanzo. Are you going too be okay?”

 

Sanzo looks up at him and can see he is genuinely concern so he smirks, “I'll be fine, and I'm sorry I yelled at you. It isn't your fault. I guess I'll have too get used to it.”

 

Gojyo stares at him and it dawns on him what he just said, `he'll get used to it! That means they will be doing it again!' His heart is so full it takes everything he has, not to take the monk in his arms and lay a big, wet, sloppy kiss on him, right this minute!

 

Sanzo looks up in his face and blushes “Don't go getting any ideas, I can totally read your mind right now.”

 

“What, I didn't say anything and you can't stop me from wishing, can you?” He smiles over at the monk as he pulls his t-shirt over his head and there is a knock at the door. The two lovers look at each other in surprise.

 

Sanzo lays back with the thin blanket pulled up to his waist and the hanyou walks over unlocking the door. When he pulls it open, Goku and Hakkai are standing on the other side. Hakkai looks over Gojyo's shoulder at Sanzo and then back at Gojyo. “Is there a special reason the door was locked?”

 

Goku pushes past the two and hurries over to the monk, “How you feeling Sanzo? You look better than you did yesterday, that's for sure! Are you going to have breakfast with us or are you eating in here?” Sanzo shakes his head as he lights a cigarette, “Clam down monkey!”

 

Gojyo looks at Hakkai and back at the monk, “Ask him, I'm going to take a shower. Don't let the monkey eat everything up from me.” He walks through the door without a backward glance. If Hakkai wants to know what's going on, then let the monk be the one to break the news to him.

 

The chi-healer walks over to the monk's bed and listens as Goku badgers him with twenty questions about his health and breakfast. Hakkai touches him on the shoulder and tells him, “Calm down, Goku. Give him a chance to answer at least one question before you ask him another.” He smiles at the monk, “You look as if you're feeling better today Sanzo. Let me look at your wound to see how it's healing.”

 

Sanzo says nothing and pulls his leg from under the covers. He leans back and blows a stream of smoke towards the ceiling as Hakkai unwraps the bandage to get a better look. He keeps the blanket over his lap because he is nude underneath and he does not want to explain why he doesn't have on clothes. He watches Hakkai's face but he says nothing as he looks at the wound.

 

“You look as if you are good to go, Sanzo. Have you tried standing on it yet?” He raises his head meeting the monk's eyes. Sanzo turns away and looks at Goku, “Bring me an ashtray, Goku and go order breakfast. That will save some time when we all make it down there.” He turns to Hakkai, “hand me my pants. I don't see my shirt anywhere.”

 

Hakkai reverts his eyes and clears his throat. “I have your robes and shirt in my room. I'll go get them now.” He turns with a blush on his face and heads for the door. Sanzo chuckles under his breath “Bring me my revolver also. I feel naked without it.” The chi-healer nods, he, and Goku leave Sanzo alone.

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Gojyo steps in the shower with a smile on his handsome face. Last night was a night to remember. Sanzo was so warm and delicious he can't wait to taste him again. Being with a man is something he has never considered before he met the monk, but now he wouldn't change it for anything in the world. Not having the monk in his arms every night is the last of his worries.

 

Sanzo may think this is only temporary but he feels this is just the beginning of a lasting relationship. Sanzo is afraid to allow himself to love because he has suffered the lost of his parents and his master that he loved so much. Growing up an orphan in the care of the monks that called him a river rat, must have hurt also. Knowing the monk has trust issues, he can understand his attitude of keeping people at arms length.

 

Breaking down the monk's resistance to open up to him is going to be hard but Gojyo knows it is well worth the effort. Somehow, Hakkai wasn't able to do that and he feels the two of them are no longer an item. There is no way he would have given himself to him in complete abandonment the way he did. Sanzo wanted him as much if not more than he is willing to admit. There was something about the way he kissed him, that made Gojyo think he really cares for him.

 

Maybe he needs to be trained in the ways of love and not just sex. He needs to know someone cares and what he feels for him goes beyond a physical thing. Gojyo slings his hair back as the warm water cascades down his slim but muscular body.

 

`Now will be the true test. I have to see if he is serious or not. I don't want this to be a one-night stand and I don't want to pretend that nothing has happen between the two of us. I'm sure he is the one that made Hakkai keep their so-called little affair a secret. However, you seduced the wrong man Sanzo. It's hard for me to keep my feelings inside and I'm not about to start now. I'm sorry but I have to be me.'

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Sanzo groans as he sits on the side of the bed. He stands and pulls the sheet off the bed wrapping it around his slim waist. He tests his leg by bending at the knee and can tell it will hold his weight. He limps to the shower and turns it on. While the water runs, he looks at his reflection in the mirror. He needs a shave and his hair is all over his head.

 

He turns to the shower, lets the sheet drop from his waist, and steps in the shower. He hears the door open and close and thinks nothing of it because Hakkai is supposed to bring him his shirt and robes. He lathers up the towel and is about to wash his chest when he feels the presences of someone else. “Who's there?” He stops as he turns towards the curtain.

 

“Who else would be in here while you're in the shower? Were you expecting Gojyo perhaps? It looks as if the two of you had a reason to lock the door last night, didn't you? I saw the evidence on the sheet.”

 

Sanzo laughs, “How do you know I didn't have a wet dream? You're always jumping to conclusions, Hakkai. You have an over active imagination. You should write for the funny papers. Get out of here so I can finish my shower in peace. I'll meet you downstairs for breakfast.”

 

“I do know one thing, if you did have a wet dream it wasn't about me. If you and Gojyo are together, you should tell me. He's not the type to let something like this stay a secret. He's not like me Sanzo; he's honest and open.” Hakkai stares at the shower curtain waiting for the monk's response.

 

“I told you before; let me take my damn shower in peace. I don't owe you or anyone else shit! And I don't owe you an explanation about my actions; now get the hell out of here!” Sanzo stands under the running water trying to take deep breaths to clam himself down. He listens as Hakkai leave out and slams the door behind him.

 

“Shit! Fuck! Why do I have to go through this with him? Why can't everyone, just leave me the fuck alone!” He takes a few more deep breaths and turns the cold water on high, hoping it will cool him off.

 

This is the very reason he doesn't like getting involved more than once with anyone. Gojyo's face flashes in his head and he cringes as he thinks about the kappa. Last night was the first time he has ever had someone make love to him quite like that. Even now just thinking about the way he slid his hands over his body makes him have goose bumps. Now he understands why women were all over him. Gojyo has talents, no one man should know.

 

He turns the water off and pulls the curtain back to see the kappa with a towel in his hands and a sinister smile on his lips. Sanzo steps out of the tub and into his waiting arms with a welcoming smile of his own.

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