Saiyuki Fan Fiction ❯ Living on Empty ❯ Giving in to desire ( Chapter 2 )

 

 

 

 

Living on Empty 2

 

 

Minekura Kazuga owns Saiyuki and all the lovely sexy men.

 

 

 

Chapter 2

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Sanzo has just turned his back on Gojyo who is contemplating whether he should actually try tucking the blonde monk in.

 

“You know I'll come and do it don't you. It might be like holding a tiger by the tail but I'm willing to give it a try. Hell, you might even enjoy it!” He walks over to the bed and bends down. As he puts his hands out, Sanzo puts his gun in his face.

 

“Touch me kappa and you'll draw back a nub! Get the hell away from me, now!” His purple eyes are blazing with unconscious passion. His lips are pulled back in a snarl, he is so furious.

 

The problem is, he is furious with himself and not Gojyo. He is furious the kappa is causing these feelings and furious, he cannot control them, all he knows to do is lash out.

 

The kappa throws his hands up in front of his chest. “Whoa there, Master Sanzo. Don't go all half cock on me…I'll back off, all you got to do is ask.”

 

He pulls the trigger back and replies, “Wrong ass-hole! I do not have to ask you anything! I tell you and you do as I say, got it?”

 

Gojyo backs up, sits on his bed across from the monk, and stares at him. `What happen to that pleasant man I was talking to a while ago? Dam! It's my entire fault, what do I do now?'

 

Sanzo glances over at the look on Gojyo's face and is immediately remorseful. He puts the gun away and lies back on the bed. He pulls the cover up around his shoulders. “Just go to sleep baka, we have a long ride tomorrow.”

 

Gojyo reaches over and turns the light out and lays back in the semi-darkness. The moon has come from behind the clouds casting an eerie glow around the room as both men think their private thoughts as sleep overtakes them.

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Gojyo is awaken by moans and mutterings from the other bed, he sits up and can just make out Sanzo shape as he tosses and turns in his solitary bed. He is moaning about something in an inaudible voice.

 

He walks over to the monk slowly and stands, staring down at him. He can hear what sounds like; he is trying to deny something. He leans closer and what he hears shocks him. He can scarcely make it out, but he knows he hears his name.

 

“Stay away…I'll kill you. No don't touch…ahh…stop Gojyo…don't…” he looks at the monk and scratches his head. There is no way he is having a dream about him. The first part sounds like the monk, but the other part…?

 

He gets a smirk on his face as he watches him thrash around and moan. `Now if I were just to consol him he couldn't possibly get angry over that…or could he?'

 

He looks around for the monk's gun first and finds it by his pillow. He lifts it up and tosses it on his bed. He sits by the monk and puts his hand on his forehead. `Man, his skin is so soft, who would have thought, as abrasive as he is.' He sweeps the hair off his forehead and strokes the side of his face as he puts his other hand behind his head bringing it closer to his chest.

 

“Shhh, don't worry, no one is going to hurt you. Calm down now Sanzo, I've got you, shhh.” He kisses his hair as if he is a child in his arms. He's holding the priest tightly as he rocks him back and forth in his arms.

 

Sanzo opens his eyes slowly and looks up at the kappa. He is looking down at him with a soft smile on his handsome face. He wonders why he is in Gojyo's arms. Although, it doesn't feel unpleasant, he starts to protest, but the arms that encircles him, only tightens. He gives up the halfhearted attempt and slumps down with his head on the kappa's chest.

 

“You want to tell me why you are holding me, before I decide to send you to hell?” He looks up in blazing eyes that have turned blood red with desire. Gojyo chuckles as he kisses the top of the monk's head, “You needed me, ass-hole and don't deny you were dreaming about me. I heard you and I don't care what you say. You want me as much as I want you.”

 

Sanzo looks at the kappa as his mouth drops open. Gojyo takes advantage of it and slides his tongue inside the monk's mouth. He slides it around tasting the tobacco and the sweetness that is Sanzo.

 

He moans against Gojyo's kiss and tries to push him away at the same time. He takes Sanzo's hand in his and curls his fingers around it bringing it down to his side. He pushes him back gently on the bed as he deepens the kiss. Sanzo can feel the heat pooling in his groin as his mind races with unfamiliar lust.

 

He puts his arm around him and brings him down on top of him as his tongue duels with Gojyo's succulent tongue. He can feel the desire he has long denied. `I'm a priest, dammit! I shouldn't be doing this and with a Hanyou no less! Goddess take me now!'

 

He whispers against the monk's lips, “I want you…I need you…please …let me have you, Sanzo.”

 

He pushes against him trying to get a hold of his sanity and at the same time, he wants him just as much. “No, let me go! I…said let me go!” He pushes him off, sits up looking around for his gun, and spots it on Gojyo's bed. He glares up at him. “I see you have all your bases covered. You had this all planned didn't you?”

 

“Yeah I did! I made sure you fell asleep, dreaming about me! I have all kinds of wicked powers! I spend all my dam time, thinking of ways to have you need me, to consol you! Hell nah, I didn't have this shit planned!” He leans down causing the monk to fall back on the bed.

 

“In case you didn't realize it yet, ass-hole, you want me as much as I want you. I see the way your eyes follow me when I come in the room or how flustered you get, when I stand too close to you. Why don't you just admit you've got a hard on for me and get it over with.”

 

Mauve eyes meet fire red as they stare at each other. Sanzo can feel the heat in the kappa's eyes and feel the truth of his words. He has been watching him but he didn't think he had noticed. “I…I don't watch you like that. I look at everyone that's near me. You're making too much of nothing baka!”

 

Gojyo smiles down at him, “So you're saying I don't turn you on, is that it, monk?”

 

Sanzo swallows and nods his head, not trusting his voice at the moment.

 

He gets up off the bed and stands looking down at the monk, and he stares up at him wondering what he is up to now. Gojyo never does what you expect him to do and tonight is a testament to that fact. Waking up in his arms is something he would never expect to happen.

 

Gojyo turns his back, “So if I sleep the way I normally do, I won't have any effect on you at all, right?” He looks at the monk over his shoulder with a sly smile.

 

Sanzo looks at him with his brow raised, “Why the hell would I care how you sleep. You probably sleep in the nude, so what else is new?” He rolls his eyes and lies back on his pillows. `I will not let him get to me…I will not let him get to me.' He is chanting under his breath until he really believes what he is saying.

 

Gojyo slides his shirt over his broad shoulders and throws it at the monk's head. He grabs the shirt from his face and glares over at him as his breath catches in his throat at the sight of his naked chest, he can see the muscles rippling under his taut skin.

 

The kappas smiles and slide his pants down over his well-defined muscular legs. He isn't wearing any underwear so his erection is in full view. Sanzo licks his lips and turns his head away, as he tries to get him out of his mind.

 

“What's the matter, Priest Sanzo, you've never seen a naked man before? You can't stand to look at me in my natural state?”

 

He walks over, grabs the monk's head, and turns him around to look in his face. He bends down and captures his lips in a soul-searching kiss.

 

He brings one of the monk's hands to his erection making him stroke it slowly. Sanzo moans in the back of his throat as he tries unsuccessfully to pull his hand away. He shudders at the feel of his erection in his hand. This is too much for him to take, hold nothing.

 

This is not part of his teaching, but the kappa feels so good right now. Why does he have to keep denying himself, when it is so easy to give in? He feels so hard, so strong and he does act as if he feels the same way. It should not be this hard to give in to something you've been wanting for so long but…?

 

Gojyo pulls back, looking at the conflicting emotions on the monk's face, “You think to much, just let yourself enjoy something for once, and I won't tell if you don't.”

 

He looks up in Gojyo's face, “Are you sure it's alright? I don't know if I can…

 

He smiles down at the monk, “It's more than alright. Hell it's required!” I love you, you stupid monk, I can never make you do something you don't want to do.” He kisses him on the side of the neck and nips it at the same time. Sanzo gasps and closes his eyes melting into the sensations the kappa's lips are giving him.

 

He puts his mouth on the leather shirt licking at the monk's nipples through the tight fabric. He slides his hands down Sanzo's shirt as he pulls it up and over his head. The monk looks up in his eyes and then closes his own.

 

“Open your eyes and look at me Sanzo, I want you too see the passion I have for you. Look in my eyes, the desire you see is for you and only you. I've waited a long time for this moment and I want you to see all of me as I enjoy your body.”

 

He looks up at him and can see all there is to see in Gojyo's eyes, passion, desire and lust. He moans as he sucks on his nipple and takes the other one between his thumb and index fingers rolling it around slowly as it hardens.

 

“You belong to me lover and I won't share you with anyone.” He slides his hand down and strokes the monk's erection making him gasp in pleasure.

 

“Who could possibly want me but you? You're a rare breed Hanyou.”

 

“You must not know the effect you have on others. Even when we fight, I see Kougaiji watching you and it's not because he wants the Manten scriptures either.” He kisses him on his abs and moves down to his navel where he swirls his tongue, making the monk pant in pleasure. He hooks his thumbs in the monk's jeans and pulls them down since they are already unfastened. His erection springs out and he kisses the head and licks the pre-cum that is pooling on the top.

 

“This shouldn't feel this good. I know I'm going to hell after this life and I don't care…right now, I just don't give a dam!”

 

“That's my boy. Say it like you mean it! I don't give a dam either, I want to love you until you tell me to stop and then I'll still make you feel good.”

 

Sanzo chuckles as he puts his fingers through the kappa's hair stroking the silky strands smiling at the knowledge that it is as soft as he thought. “Your hair is incredibly soft, I knew it would be.”

 

He pulls his head up and looks into Sanzo's eyes. He is looking at him with something that is beyond lust. “You knew my hair would be soft? I never knew that.” He stares in the monk's face in awe.

 

Sanzo looks at him under half lidded eyes as he strokes the flame colored locks. “Kiss me Hanyou.”

 

The kappa wastes no time moving up to his lips. Sanzo is moving his fingers through his hair as he guides him to his lips. Gojyo grinds his hips into Sanzo causing a friction that is pleasing to the both of them. He moans into the kiss as he puts his hand between their bodies and strokes their erections together.

 

“Ahh…yesss…that's it.”

 

“Call my name Sanzo, call out for me tell me what you want me to do for you.”

 

“I…I want, I want you to…

 

“Say it Sanzo, tell me what you want and I swear I'll give it to you.”

 

He buries his face in Gojyo's neck as he says, in an inaudible voice, “Make love to me and please don't make it hurt.”

 

[Gojyo's response is inspired by a song I heard by John Legend, the song is, Save Room.]

 

“I'm sorry Sanzo, but this just might hurt a little. Love hurts when you do it right, so don't be afraid of a little pain, pleasure is on the other side. Let down your guard just a little pretty baby and you'll see I can be all that you need. I will always be gentle with you.”

 

Sanzo looks up into his crimson eyes and smiles back at him. “I know you will, I trust you, you baka.” He chuckles as Gojyo kisses him and slides his hands behind the object of his desire, bringing him closer.

 

He licks down the monk's chest as he slides his finger between his slit. He massages the tight ring of muscles gently, knowing he has never done any thing like this before and he will be his first. The thought over whelms the kappa so much that he chokes back gasp.

 

“Are you okay, Gojyo? Is something wrong?” Sanzo looks at him in concern. He looks in his eyes and smile, “No, everything is fine, it's more than fine, it's great!”

 

Sanzo laughs at his enthusiasm as he kisses him all over. “Stop, stop, you baka. Someone will hear us. His eyes are dancing as he looks at the man who is going to show him what passionate love feels like.

 

He settles down looking in Sanzo's eyes. “You have the most beautiful face I've ever seen on a man. How did you manage to stay this beautiful, going through all the shit you have?”

 

He reaches up and runs his fingers through the kappa's hair as it curtains his face. “Just lucky I guess, besides I don't think it's beautiful at all. My nose is too long and my eyes are space to far apart, it makes me look funny.”

 

“If we could all look that funny the world would be a better place. It would be free love for everyone. People would be humping like bunnies.”

 

Sanzo pulls his head down and sucks on his lower lip before sliding his tongue inside Gojyo's mouth.

 

He slides a finger inside Sanzo probing around for the tight bundle of nerves he knows will send him over the edge. He slides a second finger inside stretching him more. Sanzo moans and he tells him to relax because he can feel him tighten around his fingers.

 

“Come on relax baby, it only hurts a little and I promise you it won't last long. He can feel the monk relax as he moves his fingers around and finds his prostrate. He strokes it gently and the monk's body arches off the bed. “Ahh…what was that! Do that again…please, Gojyo!”

 

“I told you it only gets better.” He leans over the monk and puts his lips over his mouth because he knows the first time is going to be painful and he didn't want him waking the others. He positions himself between the monk's legs and slides in slowly. Sanzo gasps in his mouth but he doesn't release him from his hold. He tries to push Gojyo back but he is too strong and relentless. He lets the monk adjust to him and when he clams down he pushes in more. Sanzo relaxes his muscles and Gojyo pushes all the way in. He kisses the monk to clam him down and finds he is kissing him back.

 

He lifts his head and looks down at him, “Are you okay babe?” Sanzo has his eyes closed and nods, not trusting his voice. The Hanyou starts to move slowly making sure he hits his sweet spot with every slow stroke.

 

“Ahh…Gojyo…that feels so good…ahh. This is pleasure, pure pleasure. I want you to fill me Gojyo, fill every part of me.”

 

Gojyo is thrusting into him as he says, “I'll fill you and your life with nothing but pleasure. I'll make your life worth living from now on.”

 

Sanzo eyes rolls to the back of his head as he feels the wave of pleasure wash over him as he calls out to the kappa. Gojyo smiles down at him as he gives a final snap of his hips that send them both over the edge. His body jerks with passion as he falls down on top of his new lover.

 

As they try to catch their breaths, Sanzo strokes his back and kisses him on the forehead. “Just think, all this time I have been living on empty. Now I know what it is to be full of love and to be desired. You did that for me, Hanyou.”

 

Gojyo strokes his abs as he closes his eyes, “I'll do anything for you, Sanzo, anything you want from now on.”

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