Saiyuki Fan Fiction ❯ Living on Empty ❯ Kougaiji waits ( Chapter 4 )

 

 

 

Kougaiji 2

 

A/N: This was supposed to be sort of a sequel to `Living on Empty' but I found I had forgotten to make it complete. Therefore, I am combining both stories since they go together anyway.

 

 

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Chapter 2

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Sanzo sits on the side of the bed smoking a cigarette, while he wonders what just happen. He looks back at the room they're in and let's out a snort. The mission they are on is beginning to wear on his nerves. If he didn't know better, he would think the prince was pushing up against him just a little too much, but that has to be a mistake…right.

 

Kougaiji must be out of his mind to even attempt, seducing him. What the hell could he be thinking? Did he know about him and Gojyo? Is that why he was acting that way? He takes a deep pull on his cigarette and thinks back to what he knows about the demon prince. Nothing has prepared him for what to think of Kougaiji pressing against him, the way he did tonight.

 

He stands walks over to the window and looks down on the courtyard, where the two of them were earlier. He lets everything play back in his mind. This is the first time Kougaiji has not tried to get the scriptures from him and if he remembers correctly, he did not mention them. So why did he corner him the way he had? There is no way that stupid prince could ever think he would accept his advances but it has to be something else going on…right?” He sighs and continues to watch the moon.

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Goku is eating and Hakkai is watching him in fascination. “Goku you should slow down, as you can see Gojyo is not trying to take your food.”

 

Goku looks over at the hanyou and stops. “What's the matter Gojyo, you not hungry? Can I have your egg rolls if you don't want them?” He reaches for them, before Gojyo can answer. The hanyou is watching the staircase, wondering if the monk is upset.

 

What was up with the monk and Kou tonight? The both of them were acting strange and Sanzo is not forthcoming with any answers. What did Kou do, for him to pull his gun on him? Would he have really shot the prince if he and Dokugakuji had not arrived when they did? However, he holding a gun on Kou is nothing new. Usually, it's when they are all in battle that something like that happens. He has to know what went on between them, if he doesn't he is going to have all sorts of wild thoughts.

 

Gojyo stands and look at his two companions, “I'm going to turn in for the night, it's getting late. I'll see you guys in the morning, at first light if that miserable monk has anything to say about it.”

 

Goku laughs with his mouth full as he says, “You made a rhyme, Gojyo! I like that! See you in the morning if the miserable monk has anything to say!” He laughs again as Hakkai and Gojyo shake their heads.

 

“Goku you know not to talk with your mouth full, don't you? There is never an excuse for bad manners. Now finish so we can turn in as well.” Hakkai sighs in exasperation but gives the boy an indulgent smile.

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Gojyo stands at the door, listening for any signs of movement from inside. He knocks softly and pushes the door open. Sanzo is standing at the window, as if he is keeping watch over the darkness and shadows. He turns when he hears the Hanyou come in. He looks at him with a preoccupied look in his eyes and turns back to the window.

 

Gojyo crosses the room in three strides and puts his arms around the monk's waist. He looks so confused and this is something new for the priest. “What is it Sanzo? What did Kou do to you? If he tried anything with you, I'll kill him! I swear I will!”

 

The hanyou is so passionate with this statement that Sanzo leans his head back on Gojyo's shoulder and sighs, “He didn't do anything…at least I don't think he did that is, but I can't be sure.”

 

“What do you mean you can't be sure? Either he did or he didn't! Which is it, dammit?” he breaths fiercely as his arms tighten around Sanzo's waist.

 

Sanzo pulls out of his arms roughly, walks over to his bed and sits down with his head in his hands. Gojyo follows and stands over him. “Well are you going to tell me or not? You're a grown man Sanzo, don't you know when someone is trying something with you or not? Do you want me to ask him for you, because I will?”

 

He looks up in his lover's angry face and recoils from the fury he sees in his blazing, red eyes.

 

He leans back and stares up at him, “What were you and Dokugakuji talking about when I left the two of you alone? I have a feeling it had something to do with me, so tell me.” He watches Gojyo, as he seems to hesitate about sharing the information with him.

 

Gojyo sits across from him and lights a cigarette. He looks over at Sanzo and turns away. “He wanted to know if we were…lovers.”

 

Sanzo brows wing as he glares over at the hanyou. “And what did you tell him?” So that's why he was here, fact finding my ass.

 

“What the hell you think I told him. What we do is none of his, or anyone else's business.” He gets up, walks to the window and glances out before turning around and coming back over to the beds. He looks down at Sanzo, “Did Kou ask you about us? Is that why you pulled your gun on him?” Will the priest admit to him asking such a question or will he deny it and pretend he didn't understand?

 

“No, he didn't come out and ask me, but he did make some kind of references to the fact. He caught me off guard and pinned me to the back wall and ask if you had tasted me, so I knocked him on his ass.”

 

“Shit! I told big brother nothing was going on between us, because I didn't think it was his business and now you tell me the fucking ikkou prince, from all high, ask you the same question? That ass-hole needs his ass, kicked!”

 

Sanzo takes the cigarette from Gojyo, takes a pull, and hands it back, “Why in the fuck, do they care what we do? They came all the way out here to find out, why?” He stares straight ahead as if lost in thought.

 

The kappa looks at him and snorts, “You don't know? Come on, even you can't be that naïve! That motherfucker wants you, that's why! I told you before he wants you, but nooo, you say, I'm seeing things and I don't know what I'm fucking talking about. Well fuck him, he can't have you! You belong to me and I'm not letting him have, you!”

 

Sanzo jumps up and slaps him across the face. “I don't belong to any fucking body. I hold nothing, not even you, you ass-hole! I belong to me and I will not have a couple of jack-asses, acting like I'm theirs for the taking, do you understand me!” He is breathing heavily with emotion and highly pissed!

 

He puts his hand up to the side of his face as he looks at the monk, “Why the hell did you hit me! I'm only telling the truth. At least that's what you led me to believe! He stares in shock at Sanzo and says in an inaudible voice, “but I see you've changed your mind.” He backs up to his bed and flops down. He strokes the side of his face and cuts his eyes at the monk.

 

Sanzo stands in the same spot looking down at the hanyou, chest heaving, wondering to himself, why did he hit him. In his heart, he knows he belongs to the hanyou, but…

 

He looks around for his robes; damn he needs a cigarette, right now! He walks over to the chair, picks up his robe, takes out his new pack of smokes, and lights one. He inhales deeply and blows it out towards the ceiling. He walks back over to the window and leans against the frame looking down and smoking. `Could Gojyo be right in what he said, could the prince really want me?'

 

The kappa gets up from the bed and walks up behind the monk. He stands, uncertain as to what is on the monk's mind. Should he touch him or would he hit him again? Before they became lovers, he would have hit the blonde haired monk back, but now….

 

He reaches out a hand, chancing he will not repeat his earlier action. He does not want to fight with the monk but he will not be used, as his damn punching bag to vent his frustration on. What he told him is the truth and there is no two ways about it. However, getting the monk to see it that way is another story.

 

He touches the monk's back, with tentative fingers. When Sanzo doesn't react, he puts both hands on his shoulders, massaging gently. He leans down, whispering in his ear, “I'm sorry, for being such an ass. I thought you knew how the prince looks at you, whenever we encounter them. Hakkai and I have noticed and I think, maybe Doku has notice too. I realize, you can't see how anyone could want you but believe me, I can and do.”

 

He wraps his arms around the monk's waist and puts his head on his shoulder. He kisses the side of his neck, nips him, and kisses away the pain. “Why can't you belong to me, Sanzo? I thought you like the way I make you feel.”

 

Sanzo chuckle under his breath, “I do like the way you make me feel, but that doesn't mean I belong to you. When this mission is over, where do you see yourself, Gojyo? Can you see yourself at a temple, or worst me in a cottage, hidden away somewhere? When this is over, we both go back to our boring lives, with memories of this time we have spent together. If I could, I would be with you but we both know that's impossible.”

 

“Are you saying you can walk away from us that easily? I don't want to be without you. Sanzo, if I have to spend the rest of my life in a temple, than I'll do it…to be with you.” He has to know how I feel about him, so why is he talking like this. I can't give him up...not now!”

 

“It's easy for you to say that now, because we don't know how long this adventure will last, or even if all of us will come out alive. You have to start thinking with your head and not your heart, Gojyo.”

 

Sanzo is secretly touched by his words but he knows the two of them can never be together. A Sanzo Priest and a Hanyou! Never in a million years will the two of them be accepted anywhere. Always hiding, hoping no one finds out about the two of them.

 

Perhaps, if they go somewhere else, maybe they could be together but then, what about Goku and Hakkai. What happens when they find out? He is responsible for Goku, he has to be by his side according to the merciful goddess, and he knows he has no other choice in the matter.

 

However, Hakkai is the hanyou's best friend and he will never give Gojyo up with out knowing what is going on between them. He and the monkey can never find out what he has done to Gojyo because it is his entire fault. Before he came along all the hanyou cared about were women, but he changed all of that.

 

“I am thinking with my head and it tells me to follow my heart. You have my heart Sanzo, so I have to follow you, no matter where you go. One day you will admit to caring for me, like I care for you.”

 

Sanzo sighs and turns in the hanyou's arms putting his hands on his waist. “Let's go to bed Gojyo, morning will be here before we know it.” He turns to walks past him and the kappa reaches out and grabs his hand.

 

“Wait Sanzo, are you going to sleep or will you allow me to make love to you. I guarantee, you will sleep better. Want to give it a try?”

 

The monk looks at him smiling slowly, “That's a guarantee huh, well let's test that assumption.”

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Kougaiji is pacing up and down in his private chambers, hitting his fist in the palm of his hand. He curses under his breath, at the Hanyou. The way he was acting tonight, you would think something is going on between the two of them. He jumped right in front of him, as if he was protecting him and he was the one on the ground, with a gun pointed in his face. No matter what Doku says, he has a feeling; something is going on between the two of them.

 

He walks to the door, calls a guard over and gives him some instructions. He walks back into his room and lies down on top of his bed, with his hands behind his head, smiling, as he waits for dawn.

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Sanzo stirs slowly as he pulls the covers up over his blonde head. He can hear the Hanyou close by, telling him it's time to wake up.

 

He opens his eyes slowly and looks up in his red eyes. He puts his arm across his face as he groans. “I'm I the one that said first light? Next time I'll keep my fucking mouth shut.” He sits on the side of the bed looking at the dawn. “Give me a cigarette.”

 

Gojyo hands him a cigarette and lights it for him. The monk takes a deep pull and sighs as the arid smoke fills his lungs. He exhales with a cough and looks at the cigarette in his hand. “Is this one of yours?”

 

“You didn't think I would go looking through your robes for one of yours, did you? A cigarette is a cigarette.” He walks over to the bathroom door and goes inside. “I'm taking a shower, you want to join me?” He chuckles as he waits for Sanzo to respond, if at all. He says nothing, so the Hanyou goes in, turns on the shower and strips off his pants.

 

He is in the shower soaping his body, when Sanzo joins him. He looks back in surprise at the blonde haired monk. “Why so shocked, didn't you invite me to take a shower with you?

 

Gojyo smirks as he turns around, “I didn't think you would take me up on it, but I'm happy you did.” He smiles as he pulls the blonde man into his arms and captures his lips with his own.

 

The monk slides his arms around his waist, as he tilts his chin up. Gojyo kisses him hungrily, while sliding his hands down the monk's back stopping at his hips. He moans low in his throat, loving the feel of the hanyou's hands stroking his back and hips.

 

The warm water falls gently over the two lovers as their dueling tongues vie for dominance. Gojyo puts his hand in Sanzo's hair, pulls his head back and runs his tongue up his throat. The monk groans as he reaches down between their bodies and takes hold of Gojyo's erection stroking it tentatively. He is unsure if he should be doing this because it is all new to him. The act itself is new but he did know what went on between a man and woman. However, being with Gojyo has raised all other kinds of issues with the whole sex thing.

 

Never having been with a woman, everything is new to him. The Hanyou called him naïve but he knew some things. He just didn't know when other men looked at him, the way Gojyo and Kou did, that they wanted to have sex with him.

 

As he feels Gojyo's lips press into his navel, his body shudders with pleasure. His fingers are running through Gojyo's hair, wet from the falling water as it envelopes them in silence to the outside world.

 

He closes his eyes wishing he were an ordinary man, a man filled with hopes for the future with the one he loves. Making plans together, making a life together, regardless of the taboo put on this kind of love. They would be able to be together forever. No one would have anything to say about the two of them that is if he were, an ordinary man and Gojyo were not a kappa.

 

He moans, as he calls out his lover's name, soft and low. He hates to admit it, but he does love the Hanyou, he loves him with all his heart and soul. He opens his eyes and looks down at him. The man that has awakened his body to pleasures, he never knew existed, wanted him. Why did he want him? Well, for whatever reason, he will always be grateful that he chose him.

 

Gojyo is on his knees as he pulls the blonde monk forward and takes his erection into his mouth. Sanzo lets out a hiss as he throws his head back. He spreads the monk's cheeks apart and slides his finger in the clef, stroking the ring of muscles, probing with one wet finger.

 

The water is falling on the kappa's back and the monk's hair as he looks down. Gojyo buries his face between his legs and the monk strokes his water soaked hair.

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Sanzo wakes first this time with an arm around his chest and red hair covering his face. He pushes the hair out of his eyes and lifts the hand off his chest. The Hanyou puts up token resistance as he rolls over, taking the thin blanket with him.

 

Sanzo sits on the side of the small bed watching him. He puts his hand out, lifting the fire red hair, bringing it to his lips. Gojyo's hair always smiled so nice and soft to the touch. He looks at him as he calmly sleeps. He looks so young and vulnerable sleeping the sleep of the innocent. If Sanzo knows one thing for sure, it is this man is far from innocent. He smiles as he thinks about the shower and the passionate way he made love to him a little while ago and feels a shudder run down his spine.

 

`If only I could stay with you forever. I will always treasure the time we have together right now and I will never forget you.'

 

He gets up from the bed, sits across from him and lights a cigarette. As he stretches and enjoys his first smoke of the day, he hears a loud knock on the door. He glances over at his lover and then at the door.

 

“Hey Sanzo! You awake! Sanzo, Gojyo!” Goku beats on the door and Sanzo can hear Hakkai telling him to stop. He walks over to the door unlocking it and then walks into the bathroom, effectively ignoring them. When he slams the door, Gojyo sits up in bed with a start!

 

“What the hell! Can't you let me sleep in peace, Sanzo! Stop with all that damn noise!” He looks around the room not seeing the monk but Hakkai and Goku instead.

 

“Uh, sorry Gojyo but Sanzo did say he wanted to leave at first light. I somewhat over slept but here we are. I'll take Goku downstairs for breakfast, while the two of you get dressed.” Hakkai glances at the other bed that looks as though it hasn't been slept in but says nothing. He smiles at his long time friend, puts his hands on the young kappa's shoulders and leads him out the door.

 

The kappa looks around for his pants and finding them, he slides them over his hips. He looks over at the bathroom door and decides to see if Sanzo wants him to join him.

 

“Hey Sanzo let me in. I have to use the bathroom too, you know.” When Sanzo doesn't answer, he tries another tactic. “Hey love of my life; can I come in…please? I'll make it worth your while.” He waits and still doesn't get an answer so he beats on the door with his fist. “Open the damn door, you high handed monk! I'll break it down, so help me god!”

 

Meanwhile, Sanzo is inside chuckling at Gojyo. He finishes drying his face and walks over to the door, opening it. “You could have come in whenever you wanted. It was never locked.” He looks over the hanyou's shoulder, “Where are the others? Did Hakkai take the monkey down to breakfast?” He tosses the towel over his shoulder and walks into the empty room.

 

Gojyo glares at him, “I didn't want to invade your privacy. You were supposed to open the door and let me in.” His face softens as he looks at the monk. “You know, if you ask me to let you in, I would.”

 

Sanzo ignores him and pulls on his robes. “I'm going downstairs so hurry up.” He walks out the door leaving the kappa standing at the bathroom door with a raging hard on. He watches as the door slams and mumbles, “Dick teaser.”

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As they head through the dessert in Hakuryu, Gojyo leans forward and taps the monk on the shoulder. “Let me borrow your lighter, mind seems to be empty.” He slides his hand down from his shoulder lightly touching his chest. Sanzo looks down at his hand, takes his lighter out, and puts it in his hand as he rubs it slightly. Hakkai caches the move but says nothing. He keeps his eyes on the road and grits his teeth. `There is something going on with the two of them!'

 

Sanzo yells, “Hakkai! Watch out!” He hits the wheel with the flat part of his hand causing him to turn. Hakkai slides into the turn barely missing the boulder as it rolls towards them. Goku jumps on Gojyo and screams. “Where the hell did that come from!”

 

Gojyo pushes the monkey off and yells, “Can't you see something that big, Hakkai! You trying to kill us or something?”

 

“Hey look there! It looks like they want some of our brand of justice!” Goku and Gojyo jump out the back of the jeep, while Sanzo and Hakkai get out as the Ikkou descend on them.

 

Goku puts his hand up for his nyoi-bo and twirls it over his head. He rushes four ikkous as Gojyo waves his shakujou. The chain comes out, knocking three too the ground.

 

He glances over at Sanzo, to make sure he is okay and sees that he is holding his own. He turns and gets back into the fight. He and Goku make bets in between fighting to see who can get rid of the most demons.

 

No one notices the man at the top of a hill, watching the fight. He smiles as he looks down on the action. He watches and smirks as one of his personal guards eases up to the monk. He stays out of the line of fire as he throws smoke bombs into the fray. Covering his face with a mask, he grabs the monk from behind. He chokes him with his powerful arm and the monk is rendered unconscious.

 

He throws Sanzo over his shoulder and ducks behind the steep hill, taking him to his master, while he waits in the shadow of the trees.

 

“Bring him to me!” The man gets off the dragon and the masked ikkou hands him over. He looks down at the monk in his arms and jumps up on the dragon's back, holding the monk easily. He pulls the monk back against his chest and tells his servant, “Go back to the fighting and tell the others to retreat.”

 

He takes off for his stronghold, leaving the others to deal with the rest of the Sanzo party. He pulls Sanzo closer to him, as his head falls forward. “Let's see you get away from me now, Genjyo-Sanzo.” He chuckles as he holds the monk around the waist. Relishing in the fact that he now belongs to him and not Gojyo.

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As the smoke clears as Hakkai throws his last ball of chi. They look around and see that they are alone. The ikkou, either are dead or have run off. Gojyo looks around for Sanzo and not seeing him starts to yell. Sanzo! Where are you!” He kicks the bodies away from the last place he saw him. Hakkai and Goku look around and not seeing him begins to panic.

 

“Where do you think he is? The last time I saw him he was over here shooting. When I didn't hear any more shots, I thought he couldn't see and maybe he ducked behind one of these rocks or something.”

 

Gojyo stares at Goku and says, “If he was hiding he would have came out when the smoke cleared, you idiot!”

 

He gets rid of his shakujou, searches behind the rocks, and comes up empty. “Sanzo, where the hell are you!”

 

The other two search in vain because he is nowhere to be found. Goku looks at Hakkai, “Do you think somebody took him away when they threw the smoke bombs? That was the only time we couldn't see him, right?”

 

Hakkai looks over at Gojyo and can see the terror in his eyes. He looks as if he has been punched in the gut. There is dirt on his handsome face but the tears rolling down leave clean streaks. He runs from one place to another like a man lost and looking for his way. In that moment he feels sorry for Gojyo because he knows, watching the tears streaming down his face, he is as lost as Sanzo.