Saiyuki Fan Fiction ❯ Out of time ❯ Say yes, please! ( Chapter 9 )

 

 

 

 

Out of Time 9

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sanzo walks into the room, takes his robe off, and tosses it in a chair. He pulls his black shirt over his head and it lands with the robe. He walks to the bathroom while pulling his sleeves down. Opening the bathroom door he calls over his shoulder, “I won't be too long, Gojyo. I just need to soak for awhile. I have a lot on my mind.”

 

“Oh, ah, take your time, love. I might come in and wash your back for you.” He chuckles as he pulls his cigarettes out. With Sanzo in the bath, he should go and talk to Hakkai. There has to be reasons for the monk too lose time the way he has these last few days. He puts his cigarettes back in his pocket and heads for Hakkai's room.

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Sanzo slips his pants over his hips and eases into the tub. The water feels good and hot. He lies back with his head on a rolled bath towel and sighs in contentment, as the water covers his aching body. He looks down at his legs and brings one up from the water. He can see a trace of the mark the prince left on his thigh but it is fading. It is the only reminder of his time with Kougaiji, his prince, the lover he can never claim as his own. He sinks lower in the water and it covers his body in a warm embrace.

 

As he soaks, he thinks about Gojyo's reaction when he tells him about being with Kougaiji. He knows he will be upset but then that is to be expected. The only problem is he's not ready to share it with him yet. He wants to savour it a little longer. He wants to keep it to himself and dwell on how good it felt to taste his lips and feel his arms around him once again.

 

Sanzo closes his eyes and can almost feel him inside. He puts his hand below the water and strokes his erection as it grows slowly. He moans as he remembers the prince stroking it and making him cum, with just his fingers. He groans loudly and puts his hand over his mouth as he looks at the door. `My god, I hope Gojyo didn't hear that.' He chuckles to himself as he slides deeper into the warm water.

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Gojyo is sitting on the bed as Hakkai sits on a chair in his room, listening to Gojyo spout theory after theory, on why the monk has lost three days. He yawns and places his hand over his mouth. “Gojyo, have you ever heard of the cave of time? I always thought of it as being a myth but it could be true. We are in the village that is supposed to know about it. It was something that mothers told their children to keep them safe. They say if you go inside, you lose days without knowing it. I heard one man went in and fell asleep and came out a hundred years later and hadn't aged a day.”

 

Gojyo sits up and looks at him with a frown on his face, “Are you telling me Sanzo was in this so called cave of time and didn't know it? I find that hard to believe Hakkai. You did say this is all an old wife's tale or myth, right?”

 

“Well, you know stories like these always have a grain of truth in them. Although we did see a cave, we didn't go all the way in, did we? He could have been in there without us knowing.”

 

Gojyo gets off the bed and glares at him, “Now you're just shitting me! How in the hell could he have been in there and not hear us calling out to him. I think he met up with that damn prince and went off with him. There is no way he was still in those woods all that time. You must think I'm the monkey and I'll believe anything you say, come on now. By the way, where is Goku?”

 

“He's in the tub right now. He beat me to it. Ah…Gojyo, didn't you tell me Sanzo is in the bath too? Don't you think you should go back and share some of your concerns with him?”

 

Gojyo rubs the back of his neck, “Yeah I should but…I have a feeling he's going to tell me he was with the prince and I don't know what my reaction will be. I mean, I'm happy he's okay and all but…you know… the prince. I may go off and he throws me out of our room and if he does, can I bunk down with you and the monkey?” he gives Hakkai a lopsided grin.

 

“I'll tell you what, if he throws you out you can sleep in my bed and I'll bunk with him, deal?” He smiles at his best friend and escorts him to the door. He pats him on the back and tells him, “Cheer up, Gojyo. Once you talk to him about it, I'm sure the two of you can come to some kind of understanding. After all, he was with Kou first and he didn't leave him because he didn't care. He left because it was the right thing to do. Maybe he still has feelings for the prince and maybe he doesn't. You won't know unless you ask, right?”

 

Gojyo agrees and heads out, back to his room. Hakkai stands in the doorway watching him, as he drags down the hall. Gojyo should have waited until the monk was over Kougaiji before he jumped in bed with him. Sanzo is inexperienced when it comes to people and their feelings. He is the true egoist and as long as things go his way, he's fine. He doesn't realize he is hurting Gojyo and Kougaiji with his actions. `I'm glad I didn't get caught up in this sad story. No one is going to win from the looks of things. All three of them are going to be hurt before this is over.'

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Sanzo comes out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his slender waist. He looks around for Gojyo and not seeing him; he takes the towel off, sits on the side of the bed, and dries his hair. As he is doing this, the door opens and Gojyo walks in.

 

“I see you finished without me. I was supposed to wash your back, right. Sorry about that, I went to talk to Hakkai. You need me to help you dry your hair?” Standing in front of the monk, he thinks how beautiful he looks and how wonderful he smells.

 

Sanzo drops the towel in his lap. “It's fine; I didn't need your help after all. What did the two of you talk about?” He narrows his eyes at Gojyo. He knows the conversation had to be about him.

 

“Nothing special…no that's a lie. We talked about you losing three days and how odd it is that something like that can happen. He was explaining to me about something called the cave of time. Have you ever heard of it?”

 

The monk thinks back to what Kougaiji told him. He did say that place was called the cave of time. He looks up at Gojyo and answers, “Come to think of it, I have. Is that what you believe happen to me?” He gets up, wrapping the towel back around his waist. He walks over to get his cigarettes, lights one and turns to the kappa.

 

Gojyo smirks, “You did say you were in a cave, so you tell me.” He is watching the monk closely, as he runs his fingers through his hair while puffing on his cigarette.

 

Sanzo lifts the corner of his lips as he answers, “I think I was.” He looks at Gojyo with regret in his eyes as he tells him, “Kougaiji stumbled on my mediation spot and when he asked me to go with him, we entered a cave on the other side of the woods.”

 

Gojyo bites his bottom lip to keep from exploding. It's just as he suspected they were together! So, that means he spent three days with that bastard and there is no way they didn't have sex. He takes a deep breath and replies, “You were with Kougaiji all that time?”

 

The monk nods and turns away from the look in the hanyou's eyes. Right now, he can't stand the look he is giving him. He looks angry and hurt at the same time. He doesn't know what to do about it but he is not going to lie about being with Kou. Gojyo should know he is struggling with letting the prince go.

 

Gojyo walks up behind him and balls his fist at his sides. He says just one word because this is all he can get past the knot in his throat. “Why?”

 

Sanzo sighs and looks out the window at the setting sun, hoping for inspiration to tell him some way that makes it hurt less. The colors bring him nothing but more agony because they remind him of the colors of his lover's eyes. He turns and looks up in Gojyo's face. “I don't really understand why. I felt I had to. The only thing is, I didn't realize I was gone that long. It was like an hour or two. I never planned to spend that much time with him. It seems we both lost track of time.” Sanzo walks away and sits on the side of the bed with the towel still around him. He watches Gojyo's back, waiting for some reaction to what he has told him.

 

Gojyo stands in the middle of the room for a few seconds, turns, and goes into the bathroom without saying a word. He knows he has to get a grip on his temper before he says something callous. The last thing he wants is to act like a jealous woman, but he wants to hit something and hit it hard. He closes the door behind him and is surprised he didn't slam it and slam it hard. He turns the shower on and takes his clothes off. As he is about to step in, he hears the monk at the door, knocking softly. He turns back to the door and opens it.

 

Sanzo looks up in his face and asks, “Would you rather I changed rooms, Gojyo? I will…if you feel you can't stand to be in here with me.”

 

The kappa swallows and answers as he looks into his lover's beautiful amethyst eyes swimming with anguish. He knows he can't stay angry when he looks at him that way. “No, don't go. I'll be finish in a minute. I want you to stay with me, Sanzo.”

 

He reaches up, kisses Gojyo on the lips and steps back. “I'll be waiting for you.”

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Kougaiji arrives at the castle and goes straight to his private rooms. He strips and stretches cat-like across his large bed. He raises his arms over his head and smiles as he takes in the scent of his lover. He knows he will never get tired of Sanzo's smell. He wonders what the monk is telling his companions about his absence of three days. He should have warned him but then he may not have stayed with him. However, this way when he connects with them again, he can honestly say he has no idea what is going on.

 

However, spending time with the monk is always pleasurable. He smiles as he luxuriates in Sanzo's scent and a bath is the farthest thing from his mind. He is basking in the slight musky smell of having made love to Sanzo and he wants to cherish it for awhile. Then his mind goes to Gojyo and he frowns. If he could just get that damn hanyou out of his life the two of them could be together once this mission is over.

 

He sits up in bed and puts his elbow on his knee and his hand under his chin thinking back to when Gojyo stopped him from seeing the monk. He implied he and Sanzo were on intimate terms but Sanzo never said a word. Gojyo…that bastard was probably lying. There is no way Sanzo is sleeping with him. He looks up at the ceiling trying to remember if his name came up while the two were together. However, he does remember Sanzo coming with him willingly. No, he is not going to let that moron interrupt his thoughts of the monk, not now and not ever. He will deal with Gojyo on his own terms.

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Sanzo is standing by the window when Gojyo comes into the room. He walks up behind him and encircles his waist. Sanzo leans back with his head on his shoulder. “Aren't you still upset with me or did the shower cool you off?”

 

Gojyo puts his face in the monk's golden hair and whispers, “Do you plan on seeing him again?”

 

“No…not anymore. That was the last time I'll ever be with him like that. He wanted to talk to me so I went with him. As far as being gone for so long, I can't seem to wrap my head around that shit. It sounds somewhat weird. I mean, to me it was a couple of hours but in reality, it was three days. That's hard to believe.”

 

Gojyo says nothing because he is happy to have him back in his arms once again. Sanzo slept with the prince and there is no denying it so he is not going to ask him. That is none of his business. As Hakkai said, the monk did not stop seeing the prince because he didn't care but rather that he did.

 

Gojyo turns the monk around in his arms, “I love you Sanzo and I want to be with you but if you feel you are not over Kou… I'll wait if that's what you want me to do. I just need to know how you feel about me. I need to know if you can ever love me.”

 

Sanzo reaches up, puts his hand at his neck, and pulls his head down. He kisses him and licks the outline of his lips as he pulls away. “Let's go to bed Gojyo, I'm exhausted. We can continue this at another time, okay?”

 

Gojyo grabs his wrist and pulls him flush with his body. He looks deep in the monk's eyes and sees conflicting emotions. Will Sanzo ever love him, or will his heart forever belong to Kougaiji? He has asked himself countless times and he needs an answer.

 

“Why won't you answer my question, Sanzo? It's not that hard. All you have to do is say yes or no.” He kisses him on the side of his neck and whispers in his ear, “Say yes Sanzo, say you can love…please.”

 

The monk wraps his arm around Gojyo's waist, puts his head on his chest, and says in an inaudible voice, “I want too, I want to so badly…I'm sorry Gojyo if I've hurt you.”

 

The hanyou tightens his hold, “I'm fine. Don't worry about me. I'll make it.”

 

Sanzo looks up and smiles, “Like I said before, let's go to bed. I want to fall asleep while you're holding me…baka.”

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Sanzo is sleeping fitfully in the kappa's arms. He sits up suddenly and looks around at his surroundings, and then down at Gojyo. He puts his hands to his face as he groans, `In my dreams all my secrets speak of Kougaiji and all the sorrows I have come face to face with. Why did I make that awful promise to the others? Right now that sick promise is eating away at my soul, but I didn't know this would happen. Pretty soon, they will be dreams I can't even look back on. I know they will fade with time but how long and how much time. I feel the pain of losing him will turn my heart to ash and just be blown away.' He wipes his eyes as he feels a tear running down the front of his face. The welling tears in his eyes are full of hurt and regret.*

 

Gojyo mumbles and turns to the monk, “Sanzo…are you okay?” He sits up and looks at him with sleep filled eyes. The monk has his head down and his hands covering his face. The kappa reaches out and pulls him in his arms, “Did you have a bad dream?” Gojyo kisses the side of his hair and whispers, “its okay Sanzo…it's going to be okay.”

 

Sanzo wraps his arms around the hanyou's waist and tries to control himself. He knows it's not right to cry about Kougaiji while in Gojyo arms. Sanzo pulls back and looks at Gojyo in the glow of the moonlight, “How do you know it's going to be alright? I feel as if I'm going to split in two. I know you care for me and I do care about you too, but…”

 

Gojyo smiles down in his face, “the reason I know it's going to be alright is because I'm going to help you through this. I don't plan to do anything you don't want and I'm not going anywhere, I promise. I'll never leave your side. In other words, you're stuck with my pretty-ass until you throw me away.”

 

Sanzo chuckles, “You think you're pretty?”

 

“When you first met me that's what you called me, remember?”

 

Sanzo turns his head, “No, I don't remember. I think you're making it up.”

 

“Now why would I make up something like that up? You saw me as pretty and you called me on it. Does this mean you don't think I'm pretty? You called me pretty boy, while holding a gun on me.”

 

Sanzo shakes his head at the ridiculous conversation they are having. “I know what you're doing and its working. Thank you Gojyo, I feel better now.”

 

“I aim to please, sweetheart. Do you want to talk about it?” He is still holding the monk in his arms.

 

Sanzo pulls back and gets up. Walking over to his cigarettes, he stops as he sees a shadow pass over the moon. He looks at the window and walks over to it. He looks down in the courtyard and seeing nothing he turns back to the room.

 

Gojyo is watching him with a smirk on his face, “what did you see, Sanzo?”

 

He gives the hanyou a half smile, “I don't know, that's why I went too the window.” He gets a cigarette, lights it and blows smoke towards the ceiling. “I guess you think I'm looking for Kou, right?”

 

Gojyo gets up, grabs his smokes, and glares at the monk, “No, I wouldn't say that. Maybe you sensed danger or something, hell I don't know! You wake up acting as if your world has come to an end and I don't know what's wrong because you won't tell me. I have to guess at why you are freaking out.” He narrows his eyes at Sanzo as he lights up. “Is this about that bastard prince?”

 

Sanzo says nothing as he turns and gazes out the window. The shadow he saw passing by the moon looks like a storm cloud. He shivers, hoping it isn't about to rain. Every time it rains, he feels melancholy. The rain brings memories of the worst day of his life. He sighs as he wraps his arms around his waist and stares out the window.

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*Shinkirou (Black Blood Brothers)