Saiyuki Reload Fan Fiction ❯ I never ❯ Comfort needed and found ( Chapter 4 )

Gojyo felt something inside of him clench at that horrible man's name. The thought of him touching, taking Hakkai that way made rage burn inside of him.

“ The night I confronted him in the woods…after he though I'd killed Sanzo, there were a few seconds where I actually did lose myself and he took advantage of the situation. I focused so much energy on staying sane that I couldn't even push him away…I remember him saying that since I'd left my mark on him… he'd return the favor.”

Hatred burned in Gojyo's soul and he fought the urge to keep from punching to tub. Instead, he let one hand come to rest over Hakkai's heart and the other to cover the scar that marred his abdomen. “ Jesus Hakkai…I'm so sorry…I didn't know…”

“I didn't want anyone to know.” he countered, his hand resting over Gojyo's.

The redhead squeezed the younger man's hand, pressing his cheek against Hakkai's head. His arms tightened protectively around him and he hugged him closer. “ I'm sorry I laughed at you earlier.” The words were soft and quiet but heartfelt. “ I was surprised and I guess the initial shock caused me to laugh. I always figured you were still in love with Kanan.”

Hakkai's shoulder's tensed a little but he held onto Gojyo's hand, gripping it like it was the only thing keeping him conscious. “ I do still love her and I always will…but part of me knows that she wouldn't want me to dwell on her forever and never let myself be happy again.” His body seemed to relax as the words came out, his eyes beginning to slide close.

Gojyo shook him gently. “ So that's what brought on the confession earlier?”

Hakkai forced himself awake again and nodded gently. “ I guess so. Besides, when did you suddenly become uninterested in women, Sha Gojyo?”

“ Since I could hold you like this and not wonder why it felt so right.” he answered softly, tilting Hakkai's chin up gently and kissing him softly.

Hakkai's eyes widened slightly but he slowly closed them and allowed himself to sink into the other man, deepening the kiss. Their tongues intertwined in a dance and their hands began to move with minds of their own.

Gojyo bit Hakkai's lower lip gently and toyed with the little silver ring hanging from his nipple, earning him a surprised yet pleased gasp from the younger man. He smirked, deepening the kiss suddenly and pulling the brunette closer. His thumb caressed the healer's cheekbone lovingly and he stopped.

“Why are you crying?”

“ I…don't know…” Hakkai answered softly, his breathing coming in shallow pants as Gojyo brushed away a tear streaming down his cheek.

Gojyo chuckled and wrapped his arms around him, lifting him effortlessly. He stepped out of the tub carefully and walked into the bedroom, depositing Hakkai onto the bed and going back in to clean up the mess.