Samurai Champloo Fan Fiction ❯ Finding Truth & Lies In A Name ❯ I Only Want What I Cannot Have ( Chapter 2 )

Finding Truth & Lies In A Name

 

 

DISC: I do not own Samurai Champloo or it's intriguing characters. They are the property of Director Shinichiro Watanabe and Studio manglove Inc. I am making no monetary profit from the writing of this or any other of my fanfiction. Please don't sue me. I'm very poor.

 

Written as part of several Elemonth Hour challenges. Chapter II is the “I Only Want What I Cannot Have” challenge from week 14.

 

 

 

CHAPTER II

 

 

He was counting how many times I tripped?!? Why on earth would he do that?

 

He must've been bored. Or he wanted to have something to use to pick on me.

 

Did I really trip 63 times today? It couldn't have been that many times. He must've been making it up. I didn't know he could even count that high.

 

Oops. Did I say that out loud?

 

I am not a bitch. Dammit.

 

God, sometimes I just hate him so much. I am not a-

 

Why can't things ever go my way? Except for the day I saved them from being killed and made them promise to help me, it's like my whole life has been cursed.

 

I'll probably never find the samurai who smells of sunflowers. And even if I do, he'll probably not want to remember me. What'll I even do if I do find him?

 

If I find him, they'll leave.

 

I want to see him again. I do. It's what I've been travelling for all this time. But if I find him he'll - THEY'll leave. And then I'll never...

 

It doesn't matter though, does it? It really is all just a dream. Even if he was chained to me, he'll never see me as anything more than some little girl - someone who'll never be his equal. I'm just a burden.

 

I'm not really pretty. I'm smart enough to get by, but... there are plenty of people smarter than me. I don't have money, and I can't ever seem to hold down a job. AND, I'm not even graceful. Mugen is right. I'm a total klutz.

 

Did I really trip 63 times today? Was he really counting?

 

Would that mean he was actually paying attention to me? Watching me? Does he... care?

 

What am I thinking? This is Mugen we're talking about. And me. I don't have big breasts. He'd never...

 

What am I going to do when they leave me?

 

God, I just wish he... felt about me... like I feel about him. I... want to feel like I matter to him. I want... I want so much for him to... I want to feel his lips - they look so soft. His shoulders... I want....

 

He'll never love me.

 

And I'm - I'm going to have to wake up and watch him go away and not come back one of these days.

 

I'm glad I'm out in front, so I can cry and they'll never know. Just a quick cry. Then I'll focus on the fact that they're here now, and screw tomorrow - I might be dead by then anyway.

 

I don't want him to leave me.

 

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Fuck. Damn that arrogant bastard. Why'd he have to notice?

 

Not that I was actually counting how many times she tripped. Of course I wasn't. I... made that up to bug her. She was being just too quiet today. It's not normal. I mean, I'm not loud and annoying like she is, but...

 

HE's the quiet one, not me. I just didn't have anything to say.

 

I can't count to 63? BITCH!

 

That's what I get for looking out for her. I keep my eye on her, and she... She calls me an idiot.

I'd HAVE to be an idiot to stick around her. Stupid twig.

 

Why do I stay here?

 

She's such a pain in my ass.

 

It's strange. She usually trips less when she's sad than when she's happy. And she trips the most when she's mad. Maybe I should count how may times she trips in the next five minutes.

 

I didn't really count her tripping. She just trips a lot.

 

I didn't.

 

Little bitch.

 

God, I need some sake, and a brothel. But we're almost out of money again, so it's not likely I'll see either soon. Too bad. What I wouldn't give to feel a pair of strong legs wrapped around me.

 

I wonder what she'd look like in a decent kimono?

 

I bet she'd wear one if JIN asked her to. Goddamn asshole. Always plays the hero. Catching her when she trips.

 

Whatever. I don't care HOW good she'd look with a nice kimono... puddled at her feet. Heh! She's nothing to me but a whiny, irritating brat. If Jin is who she wants...

 

Hey! She hasn't tripped since I called her a bitch. Oh, goddammit. She's shaking. Is she crying?

 

Dammit.

 

See, you stupid bitch? That's what happens when you run with criminals like me. We're not nice and you only end up getting hurt.

 

That's why girls like you should be with assholes like him.

 

Not that I care.

 

Shit.

 

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