Samurai Deeper Kyo Fan Fiction ❯ Thinking about ... ❯ Chapter 1: At the Gates ( Chapter 1 )

A/N: Hi, this is my first Kyo fiction. I just started writing in class and it sort of formed itself.

As you will read, it takes places at the last gate, Shinrei being the last of the five planets.

I started writing at this period in the mangas, because I'm for Luxembourg and I read my mangas in French, and we are only at volume 20.

So tell me, if it's good enough!!!!! =)

Till then, bye,

raven_fett

 

 

 

Thinking about …

 

Chapter 1: At the Gates

 

 

Does he care?

Does he even know how it is to care for someone?

Does he even think about anyone but himself?

I'm likely to die if I dare to ask such questions.

Would he really kill me?

The first time I saw him, he threatened to kill me if I would budge from my conviction, my revenge. I know who the murder of my brother is. I know it has been Him.

But now I hesitate, I don't know what to do if He'll come back. I really don't know how I will react.

Even if I ask him if he cares, he won't even bother to answer. He won't even look at me, which makes me sick and enraged. I know that this only will amuse him, but still I want him to tell me anything.

But he never tells me anything. Am I that invisible? Does he not see that I care for him even if I always snap back at his insults?

His fault, it is his fault that I always fight with him. He doesn't have to utter such mean threats and insulting me all the time.

But I know that he has emotions, even if they are buried deep down in his heart. And still, there are very rare moments where he showed me some human feelings and my heart had always made some painful jumps. I even thought that my mind might be playing tricks at me.

When I recall our first meeting, I had been so scared; I really believed I would die right on the spot. Even if I always threw back his insults I was scared, scared that I might have gone too far. But he has never threatened me with his sword, which I am thankful for.

I know that he has changed, he isn't anymore the cold hearted, emotionless jerk, he had been at the beginning. After we departed from master Muramasa's place, he had changed.

As we were going through the territory of the Mibu, he began to open up a little bit, a tiny bit. But nonetheless I felt the change. I am not anymore scared of him, I believe in him, he can reach everything he wants and I believe in him.

I would never let him down; I would follow him everywhere, even if he doesn't want to. I will never leave him.

After this thought, it hit me with full force.

I couldn't believe what I just thought, could it be, that after all this time, I began to care, to … love him? Could this really be?

When I look at him, I wish I could feel what he feels. I want to know what he thinks. I would yell in my head at him, asking him why he doesn't talk with me.

He must have felt my glare, because he turned his head and said only “Hn”.

I quickly looked at my feet; I feel how my cheeks burn and I only wish he hasn't turned around. I don't know if I want him to know that I love him. But surprisingly, he goes on, not even insulting me, thanks to Kami-sama.

I wouldn't know what I would answer if he asks me.

During my last hour to live, I fought against my fears. I'm telling me over and over that I won't die, because I need to know why my brother has been murdered, which is that secret that has killed him?

But there's also a strong hope, it is egoistic, but I hope that he won't let me die. I strongly believe in him. I fear that this hope is only an illusion, even if Bontenmaru told me that for a samurai a promise is bound to hid honour, so he can't just let it go. But now I feel the Dragon in my body more than ever, I feel that my heart pounds more and more quickly as if knowing that if it would pound slower, the Dragon would have an easier prey. It hurts to breath and every time I inhale I feel the Dragon brush against my lungs.

But I won't show my weakness. I won't let my fears overtake me. I want to be strong … I want to be strong for him … for he also is severely wounded but doesn't complain or slow down his pace. No, he goes on, never stopping.

Shocked I must discover that my body began to weaken, my legs won't move more quickly, but I ignore these signs and force my body forwards. I won't stop now, I have come this far … I won't die here and now. Finally, I can see the last gates, the last obstacle.

Shinrei, the one who implanted that Dragon in me.

He stole my first kiss.

It wasn't meant for him ... certainly not.

I struggle against my desire to stop and lay down, waiting for the sweet darkness. No, not now it's only a short way. A little moment and I'll be free of this Dragon.

At least we passed the gates and there he waits. His face is marked by an expression of pure hate. His crystal sword's shining dangerously. I am taken aback from his aura that I momentarily forget about my fate.

 

 

 

 

 

 

A/N I want some reviews please!!!!!!!! =)