Shaman King Fan Fiction ❯ Ivy, Shaman Runaway ❯ Sympathy From The Devil ( Chapter 39 )

 

Sympathy From The Devil

“A hundred days have made me older

Since the last time that I saw your pretty face

A thousand lies have made me colder

And I don't think I can look at this the same

But all these miles that separate

Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'

As the people leave their way to say hello

I've heard this life was overrated

But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight girl it's only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go

It gets hard but it won't take away my love

And when the last one falls

When it's all said and done

It gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight girl it's only you and me”

 

It was the morning after Ivy had `left' and Yoh was already dying. `This is getting ridiculously pathetic. He does have a really good voice though; it fits well with that delicious body of his…' I thought. I quickly snapped myself out of it; lately my thoughts about Yoh were getting awfully…ahemsexualcough.

 

“Yoh! Stop moaning and get back to training!” I demanded. He got up out of bed, got dressed, made the bed, but then laid back down on it. What was the point of that?

 

“No!” He ignored my direct order.

 

I marched into his room with my hands on my hips, eyes ablaze, ready to kick his a—all my intense anger came to an abrupt halt when I saw him lying there. He looked so dead. Not at all like the Yoh I fell in love with…something was drastically wrong.

 

“Yoh…” My enraged look dropped into one of pure worry and unrivaled concern. I slowly walked towards the sorry pile of flesh and blood on the bed, and kneeled down next to him beside the bed.

 

“Yoh, you don't look well at all…What's wrong?” I didn't need to ask, I already knew what was wrong, but I just couldn't come up with anything else to say.

 

“My bleeding heart has been ripped from my chest, and torn to tiny shreds after being squished, stomped on, and completely crushed.” He sighed, not bothering to open his eyes.

 

`Wow…' I never knew that Yoh could be such a…romantic. I shook my head sadly as I pushed him to a sitting up position on the bed.

 

He opened his eyes and looked at me questioningly. I got up from my kneeling position, and sat on the bed beside him, lowering his head to my lap. “Stop it, Romeo. Don't you know that both you and Juliet die at the end?”

 

“It can't possibly be that bad…” I argued.

 

“Actuyally, it kin be worse.” A western/southern/Hispanic accent interrupted, and there in the doorway stood Isabelle, Ivy's guardian.

 

“What are you doing here?” Yoh lifted his head off of my lap to ask. “Didn't you leave with Ivy?”

 

“Leave?! Wat `er you talkin' `bout boy?! We ain't goin' nowhere's far as I know.” The confused spirit sputtered.

 

“Well, Ivy's gone, and she's not coming back.” Yoh grumbled darkly.

 

“WHAT!!!!? OH MY Frickin' God!!!!! I've been abandoned!!! I've been left to rot!! I'm so unloved!! I bet she took the bird and the samurai, and left me to my untimely doom!! OH, I knew she never loved me!!” ect. ect. I won't bore you with all the cowgirl's sobs and complaints.

 

“TWEEET, TWEEEEEEEET, TWEET!!!” a little brown sparrow flew exasperatedly into the room. Nearly running into the wall, a bookshelf, and the ceiling fan.

 

“Oh, good! She also left the bird! She only took that stupid samurai of hers!!! OH, I knew she loved Aikido best!!!” Isabelle cried.

 

“What about me?” Aikido walked in, followed by Amidamaru.

 

“TWEEET, TWEEEEEEEEEET!!!!!” Chip answered, sort of…but Aikido seemed to understand anyway.

 

“OH my Gooood!! Ivy left poor Yoh!! Goodness, that's not like her at all…what's wrong with that girl!?” Aikido apparently didn't understand that she too had been `abandoned'.

 

Amidamaru rushed to his master's side and tried to comfort him.

 

“IDIOT!!! We've been left behind too!!!!” Isa shrieked at the elder samurai spirit.

 

“OMG!!!!!” Aikido yelped, and did the spirit equivalent of a faint. Amidamaru dashed to catch her.

 

“Aikido!”

 

“I'm fine…” She looked up at Amidamaru lovingly and smiled weakly.

 

“Hey, I haven't seen ya two in awhile…what have ya bin up ta?” Isabelle asked suggestively.

 

The two samurai blushed, “Nothing…” one whispered, I couldn't discern which.

 

“All right, everybody out of the room.” I ordered; it was getting crowded. “You've all been abandoned, so you should probably go do something instead of hanging around the house. I don't know what you'd do, but you have to do something other than just float around.” I rolled my eyes, trying to find some reason to empty the room for some alone time with Yoh.

 

“I just realized something!” Aikido cut in, standing on her own without Amidamaru's help.

 

“Wat?” Isabelle asked, clearly annoyed at the older spirit.

 

“I can't feel Ivy's spiritual energy anywhere!!” Aikido looked pale (even for a ghost).

 

“Perhaps she's gotten too far away?” Amidamaru suggested practically.

 

“No.” Isabelle assured him, catching onto Aikido's meaning. “You should always be able to sense her. Ya kin sense Hao's energy off somewheres right?”

 

“Yeah.” Yoh replied, wondering what this had to do with his love interest.

 

“Well, Ivy's power is just short of Hao's, since she has those crazy Allure powers, so you should be able to sense her at least a little bit! I don't sense her at all!!” Aikido started freaking out.

 

“TWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET!!” Chip sung sorrowfully.

 

“OH, Chip's right!! She's dead! She's dead!!” Aikido (the only one who understood the bird) interpreted.

 

“What.” All the color flushed from Yoh's face.

 

`Hao must be cloaking her energy so that Yoh can't find her.' I thought. `That, or he's already had his way with her, and has killed her.'

 

“I'm sure she's just masking her energy so that you guys can't find her. I don't sense her at all in the spirit world, so she can't be dead.” I reassured the rest of the group. “Now, all of you, out.”

 

And they left, relieved.

 

Yoh looked at me with worried eyes, “Anna?” He took my face in his hands and pulled me closer.

 

“Yes?” I felt my eyes slowly drifting closed, in a dreamy state.

 

“Can you sense her powers and tell me where she is?” He begged.

 

I pulled away from him, “I'm sorry, Yoh. All I can sense is that she's alive, and not extremely far away yet.”

 

“How far?” He pushed.

 

“Not sure.” I focused my attention on that interesting speck of dust on the floor.

 

“Anna.” He begged, encircling his arms around me, making sure to trap my arms so that I couldn't fight back. I could feel the warmth of his breath on the back of my neck. `Damn he knows how to push my buttons.' I mentally swore.

 

“Yoh, stop it. You'll get nowhere trying to seduce it out of me.” I assured him.

 

“I can try.” He whispered in a tone more befitting to his older brother than to the innocent Yoh I knew.

 

Soon, time found us with his mouth to my neck, and me moaning for mercy. “Stop it! I tell you I don't know!”

 

He turned me around so that I was lying on the bed with him hovering over me, threatening to descend on me at any second. “But you can find out. I know you can. Ivy's not the only powerful one. You're keeping something from me. I can tell.”

 

“You won't like it, and it'll only break your heart. I promise you that.” I warned.

 

“Anything, Anna. Anything.” The way he said my name made me crumble. Here was the innocent twin making himself out to be manipulating of women like his brother just to get some information out of me as to where his lover was.

 

“Oh, Yoh…she's with another man.” `It's not a lie.' I reassured myself. `It's not a lie.' “I'm sorry. I wish I could make you forget her…but—Oh, Yoh. I'm sorry honey.” I couldn't believe it, but I felt horribly guilty.

 

Not once while I was handing Ivy over did I feel the slightest remorse, but now when I saw Yoh—the strong, ever smiling, happy-go-lucky Yoh—breaking down in hot salty tears, I regretted what I had done. I still didn't want the little wench anywhere near my fiancée, but I couldn't stand seeing Yoh like this. `Oh, Anna…what have you done?'

 

Soon I found myself in tears. Guilty tears. Yoh noticed and soon his own tears stopped so that he could have an unobstructed view of me in tears. “Anna? Why are you crying?”

 

“Y-oh, I've done something horrible.” I paused trying to collect my thoughts.

 

His eyes widened slightly. “What do you mean?”

 

“Yoh, you'll hate me forever and never forgive me if I tell you, but you have to know.” I gasped for breath as I sobbed.

 

“Anna, I could never hate you.” Yoh surrounded me in an embrace. `Anna's acting so strangely…she never cries, but this is the second time in two days that she's been sobbing in my arms. Ever since I broke the engagement…What have I done to her? She's breaking down into a confused mess. I have no idea how to deal with her when she's like this! What do I do? I'm not used to Anna having feelings! What does she want me to do? Never mind…I can guess from her behavior in the kitchen what she wants me to do to her…why did she suddenly start acting like this? Has she always had feelings for me?, or did she just now develop them? I don't understand girls at all…sigh…maybe Anna is more like Ivy than she originally let on. What would Ivy want me to do if it was her instead of Anna? She'd want to be held and comforted; well I'm doing that…tighter maybe?'

 

Yoh tightened his hold on me, pulling me flat up against him without an inch of light able to pass between us. I was so close that I could practically taste him. I started to calm down some and melt in his arms.

 

`Well, that seemed to work well. Okay, what else would Ivy want? A kiss. Ivy would want a kiss. Kiss Anna? Where'd that thought come from?! Well, maybe it wouldn't be too bad…I've done it before…but that wasn't a real kiss, it was just to satisfy her so that she'd leave me alone—God I sound like such a pimp. When did I get like this? What happened to the old Yoh? He never worried about anything, especially not girls. Did the old Yoh even like girls? No, I don't think he did. He never even thought of Anna in that way before. Now look at me, dirty thoughts racing through my head when I flirt with Ivy, playing Anna like this…I'm no better than Hao. I'm turning into a whiny little brat. How terrible is that? Yoh, what happened to you? Ivy. Ivy happened and she stole my first kiss, turned my world upside down, made me go behind Anna's back, and made me fall in love…Then she left. She said she loved me, and she left. Now she's off with some other guy. I feel sorry for the poor bastard, her playing him like that. She'll move on to the next guy when she gets tired of him…Anna was right, I forget what I ever saw in that slut. Who am I kidding? No one that's for sure; I still love her, and I still find it hard to believe that she's not coming back. I can never forget her. I still remember the way she smiled, the way she glared, the way she laughed, the way her eyes gleamed, the way she flipped her hair, the way her hair felt…'

 

Yoh absent-mindedly ran his fingers through my hair, and made shivers run up my spine, and my entire body go numb. I held tighter to him as I sobbed. I knew if I told him what I had done now, he wouldn't hear me, he was too lost in comforting me, or maybe his own thoughts. I couldn't tell.

 

`Everything about Ivy made me crazy, but now I just have to learn to love Anna. Anna! Oh, GOD! I almost forgot that she's right there! And I'm running my fingers through her hair!?! When did this happen?! Shoot! I'm doing it again! Yoh, stop fondling Anna! God! You're toying with her again! You've got to stop that! I'm falling apart too…wait…why was she crying again? Oh, shoot! She said she did something. Hold on, what did she do that's making her cry? She was apologizing to me, but for what? What was I thinking about before? Oh, yeah. How to comfort her…maybe I should kiss her? I can't believe I'm even considering it! Well, would she want me to kiss her? Duh. Never mind the stupidity. Should I though…“Ivy's not coming back.” Oh yeah…I almost forgot that Anna said that…Well maybe I'm better off this way without Ivy…but I'm not happy like this. I'm getting so lost in my thoughts! This is ridiculous! Am I gonna kiss her or not?!'

 

I had to tell Yoh what I had done. It was now or never. “Yoh, I'm sorry…”

 

`What?! Oh, she's apologizing again. Why?'

 

“I was so jealous, I wanted you to love me back, but she…she…”

 

`Jealous? What was there to be jealous of? I'm so confused. She what?'

 

“She was taking you away from me…I didn't mean to hurt you…I didn't mean to break your heart.”

 

`Oh…she's talking about Ivy…so she did mind my breaking of the engagement…but I'm the one who broke her heart, not the other way around. I've got to put a stop to this before she hurts herself. She's so lost and confused, and I can't help but feel it's my fault…If one kiss would make her feel better, then it's my responsibility to give it to her, like it or not.'

 

“It's all my fault, Yoh! I was the one who—“ I tried to get my confession past my lips, but Yoh had other plans for them. `My God! He's actually kissing me!!! A real kiss!! From Yoh! He shouldn't have stopped me though. Oh, who cares!! He's kissing me!!'

 

`I cannot believe this…how much more of a playa can I get? If I got another girl, I would have a harem…Oh, Anna I shouldn't be teasing and toying with you like this…I'm so sorry. You know, Anna really does taste good—like vanilla. I wonder if she uses perfume? She smells really good too…is this what guys talk about `intoxicating'? This is actually kind of nice…not like Ivy playing with me…though I love when she does that. Anna's new at kissing, so I really can't expect Ivy level stuff from her, but she is a good kisser…One minute. I'M KISSING ANNA!!!!! I am KISSING the ice queen!!! I cannot believe this. I shouldn't be doing this. I shouldn't…but I really like it. WAIT. I LIKE it?! I think I'm gonna faint. I'm so confused…I am a playa. Did I mean that I like making out, or that I like Anna? I don't know…I've gotta get out of here and think. Do I miss Ivy so much that I'm transferring my feelings for her on to Anna? Or do I like Anna? I didn't think I did…I've gotta get out of here.'

 

Just as suddenly as Yoh had started kissing me, he stopped. He pulled back and looked away from me saying only, “I'm gonna go out. I'll see you later.”

 

He didn't even look at me. He just stood up and left. `What was that? Does he feel sorry for me?, or did he just want to shut me up? I'm so confused…' He left me lying, dazed on his bed.