Slayers Fan Fiction ❯ Unwanted Memories ❯ Chapter 2 ( Chapter 2 )

Disclaimer: Slayers and their characters are not owned by me. They belong to Hajime Kanzaka, Rui Araizumi and any other companies which own them. I'm just borrowing them for a little bit and I promise to give them back all in perfect working order.

 

A/N: I just wanted to mention quickly before people thought I wrote Gourry OOC. I've been trying to research a little on people who suffer with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder which is what Gourry is suffering. Some of the symptoms are irritability and outbursts of anger. People who suffer from PTSD can also re-experience the trauma.

 

This chapter contains a little lemon and implied scenes.

 

Enjoy the story!

 

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Lina was still holding onto Gourry tightly when he asked her what just happened. The swordsman was able to just run himself through and she admitted she was more worried about that happening again than being attacked. She looked down at his chest as she tried to find the words and calm herself down. Her throat still felt sore from being choked and then suddenly screaming.

 

“You seemed to not be yourself…and you attacked me.” Lina spoke softly and kept it short. She didn't really want to get into the details. “Then for some reason you thought you killed me…and you tried to…harm yourself.”

 

The sorceress then bit her lip, not sure how Gourry was going to react to that information. The response she got was probably the last thing she expected.

 

“I've tried to do this before now. Haven't I?” Gourry asked lowly.

“Huh? How…how do you know?” Lina spluttered in reply.

“I dreamt about it a couple of weeks ago. That night when I spoke to you about what I had done in my past. That's when the cutting began.”

 

Lina winced slightly as she was reminded of what Gourry had been doing to himself in secret. She'd never known the swordsman to keep anything secret from her, and to find out now had rocked her a little. Were there other things he'd been keeping secret? His past was one thing. What about his family? How did he get the sword? Although it wasn't like she was so outspoken about her past either.

 

“When Phibrizzo took you away, we ended up fighting against a mysterious swordsman who had your Sword of Light. We didn't realise who it was till right at the last moment. You were that swordsman, Gourry. That place where you collapsed was the place where we fought against each other.”

 

Lina pulled away slightly, instantly feeling like she needed a little room after remembering that particularly hurtful time. Meanwhile Gourry just stood there as he took in the information that maybe he knew all along. The dreams that he had, were in fact, actual memories.

 

“Why?” Gourry asked with frustration in his voice, slumping down into a chair.

“What is it?” Lina responded, looking over at Gourry.

“Why am I suddenly remembering all of this stuff now? I've fought hard to not think about all this stuff and all of a sudden, all these things are hitting me from nowhere. I never asked to remember what happened back when I was a mercenary. I didn't even know what happened to me when that kid took me away.”

 

Lina moved towards the swordsman, and could see how vulnerable he looked. She had never seen him look this scared, as she felt she could always rely on him to be the rock she could lean on when things got rough.

 

“I don't know Gourry. I don't know why these things are happening to you. But the one thing I do know is that I'm going to try everything I can to help you.”

 

Lina then leaned down and wrapped her arms around him once more. This hug was much more affectionate and caring than the previous one which was full of desperation.

 

Gourry returned the hug and finally felt like he could finally relax a little in her embrace. He sighed slightly as he felt the worries and fears disappear and just wanted to melt in her arms. Lina noticed that he was relaxing and so she was able to do the same herself, feeling that the danger was over.

 

Now that both the sorceress and swordsman felt the negative feelings pass by, another forgotten memory began to surface. Both yearned and desired the same thing as a feeling of relief in being together flooded their beings. Pulling away just slightly from each other, they stared into each others eyes before giving in. Their lips joined together in the soft gentle kiss. Minutes earlier, one was about to kill the other. Now they were demonstrating their suppressed love for each other.

 

Lina quickly moved down onto Gourry's lap as their kiss intensified. Gourry's hands moved slowly up the sorceress's back, pulling her closer to him. She quickly moved her lips from his and began planting light kisses on his neck. This freed up Gourry's mouth to describe the sensations she was giving, by letting out soft satisfied moans.

 

Lina smiled inwardly, enjoying the fact that she was having a hold on him and decided to try and take a greater hold. She continued to kiss his neck but she then pressed her hips a little against his and she was rewarded with an audible groan. The other reaction she enjoyed personally was Gourry's body saying he was enjoying the sensations.

 

Growing frustrated with being on the receiving end, Gourry wrapped his arms around Lina's waist and lifted her up as he stood up. Her reaction was to quickly wrap her legs around his body as she refused to stop her `attack'. He carried her over to the bed and gently lay her down beneath him. This time it was his turn as his hips pressed back against hers. His growing arousal in his trousers rubbed between her legs, the friction between them sending jolts of pleasure through the both of them.

 

Lina threw her head back and reached up to Gourry's body, clinging on tightly as she was put on the back foot. Now she was getting the attention and there wasn't much she could do to turn the tide. She felt the swordsman's hands moving up her body and began to massage her breasts. She thought it was funny how quickly he found them considering he often stated the small size. She didn't have long to linger on that thought as his actions was blissful to her. She was quickly losing the battle in those few moments and she knew that because now she had the desire to feel skin on skin.

 

As though Gourry had suddenly become a mind reader, he began fumbling with her top. He did all he could to undo it but he wasn't faring well. Lina looked up at him and a little grin grew on her face. She figured Gourry was getting so excited that he wasn't really able to work with anything anymore. She moved her hands up to remove the yellow band from around her, and then slowly undid her top. Looking up to Gourry seductively, she wiggled her way out of the top.

 

The moment her breasts were free, Gourry attacked with his lips. They pressed tightly over her sensitive bud and began licking slowly. Lina groaned in satisfaction, wrapping her hands around his head and forcing him closer. Then quickly she remembered what she wanted to do and her hands began fumbling with his top, pulling it up over his body till it reached his head.

 

His current position made it difficult for her to remove his shirt and with a reluctant shove; she managed to move him away. She swiftly removed the shirt, sending his hair flying in the air and over his shoulder, shimmering against his golden skin. Taking advantage of the situation she plunged towards his chest, and returned the favour of licking his nipple.

 

“Oh Ceipheid! Lina!” Gourry moaned as the sorceress played mercilessly with him.

 

Gourry wanted more, and he wanted it all right now. He moved slowly onto his side as Lina continued her assault on him, finding it difficult to concentrate on the task at hand. His hands moved down to her waist, and tugged red leggings down, revealing her white panties. Having pulled away and helping Gourry to remove the leggings, Lina blushed towards him as she had a sudden sense of self awareness at what was going on.

 

Removing the leggings, Gourry looked back to Lina and noticed her expression. He smiled softly and laid down back beside her, giving her slow soft kisses on her lips once more.

 

“We'll both take it slow as we can, ok?” He told her, trying to give her some reassurance.

 

Lina nodded, and showed how willing she was as she started to pull down his pants. She watched intently as she did so and noticed his aroused manhood protruding from his underwear. Her adventurous side took over as she clasped a hand gently around his hard length and revelled in the soft groans the swordsman was releasing. Figuring that friction was a good thing, she began to move her hand over the length and the louder moans told her she was doing the right thing.

 

Gourry didn't want to let Lina have control of him so easily so following her train of thought and friction between her legs would have her reeling in ecstasy. So placing his hand on her stomach, he slid it down slowly underneath her underwear. He continued to move it down till he felt what he thought was the right spot and began rubbing.

 

“Higher…” Lina gasped breathlessly.

“Here?” He responded. Doing his best to keep his concentration as Lina hadn't let up from.

“No…” Lina grunted in slight frustration. “Higher. It's like a pearl…”

“Here?” Gourry repeated after making the slight adjustment.

“Yes!” Lina moaned loudly as he hit the exact right spot.

 

Gourry clamped his mouth over Lina's and kissed her passionately, stifling her moan as the two did their best to pleasure the other. The air filled with the aroma of their arousals which seemed to only turn each other on more than before. The room was silent with the exception of their heavy breathing, soft moans and sounds of their mutual pleasuring.

 

Lina lost the battle to hold out the longest as the magic of Gourry's fingers was too much for her. She felt every muscle in her body tighten and manage to grunt Gourry's name out. Random lights seem to flash in her eyes as her nerve endings fired off, leaving her extremities tingling.

 

The whole time, Gourry had been teetering on the edge. Watching Lina being sent over the edge seemed to do the same to him. He held onto Lina for dear life as she gripped him tightly through her orgasm and caused him to go through his own.

 

When it was over for the both of them, they relaxed into the bed and into each other arms. They were breathing deeply, trying to catch the much needed oxygen they were deprived of through their moments of bliss.

 

“So much for our first time together, huh?” Lina sighed, snuggling backwards into the embrace of the swordsman.

“We've got time. There's no rush.” He replied, kissing her bare shoulder gently.

“We have time tonight or the rest of our lives?” She questioned with a grin.

“Give me five minutes.” Gourry smirked.

 

Taking Gourry's hands, she made him place them over her breasts, closing her eyes and smiling.

 

“Well I can wait.” She grinned a little wider.

 

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The pair headed out in the morning, deciding everything was ok and pretty much back to normal. After all, everything seemed to be in the open, and they had a few promiscuous moments the previous night. They walked side by side as Lina was reading an old manuscript which was suggesting the location of an interesting sword that she could get. Well, get the sword for Gourry, although she was still very certain to bring up the point of co-ownership of the sword.

 

Gourry instantly grabbed Lina's arm causing her to jolt slightly and complain about the harsh treatment. However, one glance towards him to give him a telling off revealed his serious face. She knew that meant some sort of danger was nearby.

 

Soon enough a large gang of bandits revealed themselves from the green shrubbery of their surroundings. Gourry cursed slightly under his breath, realising that such a setting was prime for an ambush. It didn't matter now though and he swiftly unsheathed his sword, readying himself for combat.

 

Lina followed suit and put the manuscript away, and then pulled her gloves on more firmly. She stepped forward a few paces and made a slight smirk towards who appeared to be the obvious leader.

 

“So do you guys want to make a run for it now, and save our energy? Or do you want us to hand your flame-grilled asses on a platter.” Lina placed her hands on her hips, staring down the bandit leader who seemed to be well built with the exception of a portly beer belly.

“What the…!? What makes you so cocky you little flat chested brat? I'll make you regret tho…”

“Fireball!” Lina yelled and hurled the flaming orb of destruction in his direction, blowing him and a few nearby comrades away. “I think you'll be the one regretting your words!” She added, dusting her hands off and then quickly glanced around waiting to see where the next attack was going to come from.

 

Gourry decided to use Lina's fireball as a good distraction. So the moment the fireball blew up, causing the rest of the bandits to reel back in horror, he took the advantage and made quick non-lethal work of a few of them. Then when his moment of distraction was gone, he readied himself for the sudden onslaught.

 

Several men moved in on the blond swordsman, but he could tell there was fear under their skin after seeing the two travellers making quick work of almost half their group. Gourry pushed off his left food hard, pushing his body quickly to the right with sudden acceleration. He swung his sword violently, and caught his mark squarely. His blade clashed with one of the bandit's sword sending him flying back off balance. He then used the slight backlash of momentum to dart the other way and catch the other man by surprise. His elbow flew up hard and cracked his nose, sending blood gushing from his nostrils and causing him to choke.

 

Noticing the growing sense of blood lust behind him, he moved his blade behind him without looking in a defensive manner and parried the sword attack which came from behind. A sudden strike backwards with his foot caught the knee of his foe, twisting it painfully and sending him sprawling to the ground. Noticing a few moments of free time before he had to prepare for the next small battle, he glanced to Lina to make sure she was handling herself ok.

 

“Diem Wing!” Lina roared with her hands held before her.

 

The spell she cast created a massive gush of wind which propelled a good few number of the bandits backwards. Some of them few several tens of feet away from her, and some were unlucky when their bodies smashed hard into the nearby trunks of trees. She grinned partly due to the scene before her of bandits being flung away, but also because of the guy who was coming up behind her, thinking he had the advantage. Little did he know that Lina was already powering up her next spell in preparation.

 

“Lighting!”

 

The light blinded the bandit who stumbled backwards, bringing his hands up to his eyes to protect them. Lina took his momentum of misfortune to her gain and slashed out at him with her short sword; wounding him and making him remember something he would never forget.

 

She glanced around at the area and noticed that the remaining numbers of bandits had dwindled down to a handful who were hoping of having a better time against Gourry. The rest were unconscious, wounded and refusing to fight, or ran away fleeing with what little dignity they had remaining.

 

Gourry grit his teeth as he found himself with an endless barrage of bandits. He yelled with the effort of swinging his sword forcefully to knock a couple of bandits away. Only when their swords clashed, something in Gourry's mind snapped and instead of seeing bandits, he noticed Lina on the other end of the sword. She slumped to her knees in exhaustion and looked up at him with those eyes of fear he remembered in his dream.

 

It threw the swordsman off guard and he stumbled away in shock. He dropped his sword to his side and brought his hands up to his head as he suddenly took in the situation that he was attacking Lina.

 

“No! Not this again. I'm not attacking you again!”

 

Lina watched the scene and her heart skipped a beat when she saw the normally well composed Gourry in trouble. Without a moment's hesitation, she cast Ray Wing as she didn't want to waste a second and then as she neared she concentrated on the other spell she needed. The Ray Wing faded and she let the momentum carry her for those few precious moments when she let off several well aimed Flare Arrows to take out the surrounding men.

 

Before they all hit the ground as well as Lina, she used Levitation to halt her descent and bring her to a stop before she collided with Gourry. She quickly landed before him as he slumped to his knees. His body was shaking all over and he was shook his head as though he was trying to refuse to believe something was or had been happening. Lina couldn't believe it was occurring all over again after thinking it was all somehow sorted out the previous night.

 

She knelt down and hugged the swordsman tightly, trying to offer him words of comfort which would hopefully calm him down but it seemed like there was no way of shaking him from it. He just kept mumbling something about being sorry for attacking her. She knew well enough that he never attacked her, but Gourry seemed absolutely certain that it had happened.

 

She bit into her lip with frustration as she realised that this was something she couldn't handle herself. She was going to need some sort of help with this. Pushing her head down into the crook of her neck, she realised that he couldn't keep going on like this. It was a danger to not only her, but him as well. At that precise moment, she felt like there was only one person she could really turn to.

 

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The sorceress and swordsman passed through the main city gates of Seyruun. Gourry looked around the place slowly and noticed immediately an ice cream vendor.

 

“Hey Lina. Fancy an ice cream. Amelia always went on about them being really nice.” He asked.

“Sure thing. But you're paying, ok?”

“Ok then, my treat.”

 

The swordsman then moved quickly over to the vendor and began to place his order. The initial smile on her face swiftly turned to a sombre, tired look. The past few days of travelling had been particularly tough on her. Gourry seemed to suffer from erratic mood swings, and a couple of times he had turned on her. She knew it was all linked to these memories he was regaining from when he was kidnapped by Phibrizzo.

 

Thankfully they were never as bad as that time when he begun choking her, but it wasn't very pleasant. She hated the feeling but she was slightly scared to be around him at times when he got angry or violent. He had broken a few chairs in the inns they stayed at and nearly slashed the bed in half with his sword after a heated argument. Then within moments, he seemed to turn back into his usual calm self.

 

Despite being scared of what may happen, Lina never really thought about leaving him. She knew that what was happening was not his fault and he needed help. She was going to do everything that she could to do that and this was why she endured this journey to Seyruun.

 

“Here you go!” Gourry exclaimed as he handed Lina her ice cream.

“Gourry?” She replied with a frown on her face.

“What is it?”

“You've eaten half of my ice cream.”

“No I haven't.” Gourry responded defensively.

“Well why is my ice cream about a quarter of the size of yours?”

“I guess the guy was nearly all out.”

“Then what's all that ice cream all around your mouth?”

“Huh?” The swordsman was stumped.

 

Lina shook her head and had a slight grin on her face. She took the napkin provided with the ice cream and used it to wipe away the melted cream covering his mouth and the tip of his nose. Gourry blushed a little and tried to look away.

 

“You're such a messy eater sometimes.”

“Does that mean you don't want your ice cream then?”

“Hell no! I'm eating it now!”

 

Lina stuffed whatever remained of the ice cream and Gourry sighed slightly as he realised he wasn't going to get to finish what he started. The pair then moved off and headed towards the castle.

 

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Princess Amelia Wil Tesla Seyruun blinked in shock as Lina revealed to her what happened to Gourry, and the problems he was having.

 

“Mr. Gourry actually remembered something?” Amelia gasped.

“Amelia…this isn't really a good time to be joking.” Lina looked a little sternly.

 

Amelia sat down in a chair as her strikingly majestic skirt flopped around her much like her expression.

 

“Poor Mr. Gourry. How terrible it must be for him to remember such a horrific event.” Amelia sighed.

 

Lina sat down beside her and nodded a little.

 

“That's why we came here. I…well we were hoping you would be able to help him. Isn't there some sort of spell to make him feel better or normal again?”

“I can ask m advisors to try and take a look but I don't believe I have ever heard such a thing being cured by magic. I've seen many people who are trying to recover from wars who have very similar symptoms to what Mr. Gourry has. There was no way for us to help them.” Amelia replied solemnly.

“…I see.” Lina replied quietly as he bangs hid her face.

 

Amelia noticed the sudden down turn in mood in her friend and realised it was her fault. She quickly thought her way around the situation and did her best to make Lina feel better.

 

“It'll be ok Ms. Lina. Mr. Gourry will find a way to overcome this. He's very resilient and I know he'll do everything he can to make sure that whatever evil has a hold in his heart will be vanquished immediately.”

 

Meanwhile Gourry was outside of the meeting room where Lina and Amelia were talking. He was sat on the stairs which led up to the room with his arm resting on his knee and his chin in his hand with a very bored expression.

 

“I hope those two aren't getting you into anymore trouble.”

 

Gourry blinked and turned his head to the side to see Zelgadis walking along the corridor.

 

“Zel? What are you doing here?” Gourry asked in surprise.

“Well Amelia let me use the libraries here to look for clues on a cure. I'm coming up with a few interesting leads that I'll have to pursue soon. However I'm more interested in why you're here. I thought you and Lina were going off adventuring. At least that seemed your intention when we first got back.” Zel replied a little more extensively than usual.

“Oh…that.” Gourry looked down a little, his eyes turning a little serious.

 

Zel's eyes widened a little to see such a strange expression from the swordsman. He was used to seeing that particular expression in his own face when he looked at his cursed face in the mirror.

 

“I'm supposed to be the depressed one around here. Not you. Let's take a walk and you tell me what's been happening.”

 

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Zel and Gourry had reached the royal gardens by the time the swordsman finished explaining everything that had happened. He sat down at one of the benches a brought his hands up to his head as recalling the events had been a little tough on him. Zel just stood there in shock, trying to take in the all the information he was given.

 

“You realise that none of this is your fault.” Zel stated a little bluntly, although its aim was to help the swordsman.

“Of course it's my fault. I'm the one who's trying to harm her. I don't even know why she's stuck around with me.”

“You can be dense sometimes Gourry, but you have to be really stupid to not realise why she's stuck around.”

“That shouldn't matter.”

“You'd be surprised.”

 

Gourry stood up a little angrily and tried to make some space between himself and the chimera.

 

“What do you care? You should be more concerned about your cure.” Gourry glanced towards him a little dangerously.

“Now I know you don't really mean that…”

 

The swordsman put a hand up to his head and shook it a little.

 

“I've been snapping at people a lot recently.”

“It's ok. It's normal for someone who's gone through what you have.”

“So how am I supposed to make it stop?” Gourry asked a little softly.

“To be perfectly honest with you, I don't really know.”

 

Zel walked around Gourry so he was facing him.

 

“What I do know is that people tend to find their own way to defeat their past. Not everyone manages it, but some people do. Just be glad you have Lina who is willing to stick by your side through all of this. She'll help you when you feel like you're in your lowest moment.” Zel concluded.

“You think I can get over this?” Gourry asked.

“I don't really know, but if I was to gamble on anyone it would be you. You two manage to pull off some amazing things, and I wouldn't be surprised to see it happen again.”

“What are you insinuating then, huh?” Lina responded with her arms crossed.

 

Both Zel and Gourry turned, blinking a little as they noticed both Amelia and Lina had joined them in the gardens rather secretly.

 

“Why, what do you think I was insinuating?” Zel replied once he composed himself with the initial surprise.

“Well I think we should take some time to catch up over some dinner.” Amelia stated with a little wink.

“I'm game!” Gourry piped in.

 

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After a very large and fulfilling dinner where the chefs and servants of the castle were worked extremely hard, the sorceress and swordsman headed to their room. Amelia was kind enough to offer them a room to stay and was all too happy to make it one room instead of two. She even offered to have their room pampered up for a quiet relaxing evening for couples but Lina politely declined with a furious blush on her face.

 

“So what did Amelia say?” Gourry asked, slumping tiredly into a chair and smoothing his hand over a well fed stomach.

“She had seen the things you had been through with other people before but doesn't think there is any magical way of healing it.”

“I figured so. Zel pretty much said the same thing, and mentioned it was up to me to work out a way to get over this.”

 

Lina nodded a little as she removed her cloak and shoulder guards, dropping them in the corner of the room messily and then collapsing onto the bed.

 

“Why do you put up with this, Lina?” Gourry asked, tilting his head towards her.

“Put up with what?”

“Me.”

“That's a kind of stupid question to ask, even by your standards.”

“I don't mean like that. Why are you putting up with me when I'm nothing but snappy or even sometimes violent towards you?”

 

Lina sat up from the bed and looked over at him with crossed legs, with a little smile on her face.

 

“It's the same answer kurage. It's going to take a lot more than that for me to go running.”

“Well what if I asked you to leave me alone?”

 

Lina blinked at what the swordsman was saying.

 

“I guess you would be disappointed because I'm not leaving you alone.” Lina stated a little seriously, feeling like Gourry was treading dangerous ground here.

“Even if I insisted?”

“Look Gourry. I'm not leaving you alone because quite frankly I'm afraid of what might happen if you're left to your own devices. I know I'm not always so upfront about it and I probably don't say it enough, but you know what I'm like. I love you Gourry, and I care about you way too much to just leave you alone where you might end up hurting yourself or maybe worse.”

“I'm scared of hurting you though. Dammit Lina, I nearly killed you!”

“But you didn't.”

 

Lina rolled off the bed and walked over to Gourry, kneeling down beside him as he still sat on the chair.

 

“I believe you didn't kill me because you still have a control of yourself deep inside. That part inside of you is what makes you do all those things on instinct. It makes you go beyond what you think you're capable of and do the unbelievable. You do it all without thinking because you know in the end it's all just for the one you care about.” Lina told the swordsman, placing a hand over his chest as she did her best to explain things.

 

As she spoke to him, her thoughts were on the things she did for him like casting the Giga Slave. If it wasn't for him, she wouldn't have been brave enough to do something which could have destroyed the world. She risked it all, her life the world just to save him and she knew if she had the chance again to do anything differently, she wouldn't take it. She had watched all her friends die before her eyes, but it wasn't enough until his life was in true danger.

 

It was as she started to think about all these things that she began to realise what she would have to do. She had taken the easy option by coming to Seyruun and asking for help from Amelia. Taking in her own words and realising that she could do things she thought would be impossible if it wasn't for him, she realised that she would have to do something that she thought was impossible.

 

She moved slowly and settled into his lap where she started to kiss him gently. He responded by wrapping his arms around her and replied to the kiss with his own. They continued like that for some time before the burning desire deep inside took over and the soft gentle kisses turned into deep passionate ones. Their little moment together moved from the chair to the bed and all too quickly it was over. Tiredness won the pair of them over, taking one to a pleasant, enjoyable sleep and the other to his worst nightmare.