Sorcerer Hunters Fan Fiction ❯ Starting Over ❯ Chapter 18

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TITLE: Starting over
AUTHOR: Willie J
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Warning: This story may contain themes of rape, slash and incest. If any of this may offend you please stop reading immediately.

A/N: Meet the Sorcerer Hunters: Five extraordinary young humans charged with the task of traveling the land in secrecy, hunting down evil Sorcerers--masters of powerful and forbidden magic who use their dark abilities to enslave, to kill the weak and helpless.

Carrot Glace, a lecherous young warrior, without many other talents, save one: the ability to transform into various giant beasts by feeding off the power of sorcerers when attacked by unfriendly magic.

Marron Glace, his younger brother and master of the Eastern magic.

Tira Misu, an unassuming woman who, when faced with a challenge, presents her rather dominant alter ego.

Chocolate Misu, her older sister the more forward of the two and even worse when she's ready to kick some ass with her needle tipped garrote wire.

Finally, Gateau Mocha, the muscle of the team with brains.

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Chapter 17

"Carrot...niisan," Marron said in concern, watching the agitatedly pacing figure, feeling unsure at the strange look Carrot gave him.

Carrot looked at Marron propped up in bed, wearing a pair of loose shorts and seeing the white bandaged thigh.

Feeling his stomach churn at the sight.

Marron followed his eyes, regarding his thigh with a bemused look.

"Niisan, it's okay," he said softly hating the bruised look in Carrot's eyes as he drifted closer to the bed. Stretching out a hand, he pulled the smaller boy down to sit beside him. "Niisan, every things okay. Mille says that I'll be up in not time," he said softly, at the bowed head.

Carrot reached a shaky hand to the bandage, tracing where he had seen the bullet enter the beloved flesh.

"All I could think of when I saw you shot was all the things I wanted to say, all the things I should have told you but was too scared to even open my mouth," he whispered tracing the bottom edge of the bandage.

Marron felt the soft touch, feeling a strange tingling sensation where Carrot's fingers were touching, ignoring the feeling, he said softly to the bowed head, "I'm still here. Can you tell me now," and seeing the slender shoulders slump even more hopelessly, "Still scared to tell me," Marron whispered and saw the shaggy head nod.

Be brave, Carrot! You can do this, he told himself, trying to pump desperate courage into his already shaky nerves.

He took a deep breath, "When I saw you shot, my heart almost stopped. All I could think was 'I just found you, you can't leave me'; I never got the chance to tell you how much you mean to me, how much I love you," Carrot whispered, slowly meeting Marron's suddenly still eyes. "I just didn't know whether to shut the hell up or tell you. But if I told you, would would leave or make me leave. But I had to tell you," he said quietly, "Even if you did reject me, I needed you to know," he ended, biting his lip and shivering with nerves.

Marron sat frozen in shock, he could hardly believe what his niisan had just said. Maybe this was a dream, he though hopefully and he poked at his wound. At the blinding pain, he thought morosely, nope not a dream.

He turned his stunned eyes back to Carrot, who was regarding him anxiously.

"Say something," Carrot begged, trembling under the strain of Marron's continued silence.

"What do you want me to say," Marron asked slowly, still trying to come to grips that his brother harbored feelings for him, he snorted silently at how he was trying to pretty up the stunning new...Carrot wanted to jump his bones!

"Say something, anything, just stop looking at me like...," Carrot jumped up with a choked sob and holding his hand to his mouth he backed away and ran to the door fumbling the lock open. Refusing to answer Marron cry 'Niisan wait!' he ran from the room

He raced desperately for the security of his room, trying to hold in the scream of despair. The look in Marron's eyes, the utterly shocked expression kept playing over and over in his mind as he fumbled the door open. Sprinting to the bathroom, he barely made it in time to heave the contents of his stomach in the toilet. This time there would be no otouto to hold and comfort him.

He was on his own again.

Lost in his pain he didn't notice the hurried whispers of Hakashin to the twelve sentries.

~The boy will make himself ill if he continues this behavior," Hakashi said sternly, frowning at the shivering boy. Stoking the shivering back gently, trying to offer comfort. He was unused to these types of emotions and feeling lost he called the sentries.~

~What must we do, he asked, uncomfortable with requesting help.~

~We help him get through this, Snake said quietly, slithering forward and settling his coils gently against the shivering body. Cat, Tiger and Wolf followed suit, letting Carrot feel their warmth, silently offering him their strength wordlessly.~

~Sometimes it's enough for him to know that he is not alone, Monkey said soberly. His usual lively attitude notably absent as he in turn knuckled forward, adding his strength. Feeling the other surround the now quiet boy.~

~~Hakashin stepped out of the way, watching the growing pile of bodies, thoughtfully. He knew that this was only a temporary fix and the real problem had yet to be solved much less addressed.~~

Carrot slowly stood up, feeling stronger, giving a silent thanks to the Sentries and another surprised thanks to Hakashin for trying to help. Sighing he stripped off his clothes and stepped into the shower, feeling incredibly filthy. He moaned softly under the stinging water, whatever possessed me to tell Marron how I feel about him?! All I had to do was kept playing the empty headed fool and he would have never guessed how just his touch sends fire racing through my blood, the look in his eyes thrill me. Even the way he taps his fingers when he's annoyed affects me.

And now I've thrown it all away.

He began crying, great choking sobs of pure misery, dropping to his knees in despair.



"Niisan wait!" Marron called to the distraught figure racing out of his bedroom. He tried to jump out of bed, feeling the blinding pain of his wounded thigh, seeing blood appear on the white bandage. Gritting his teeth, he was determined to get to his niisan and explain. Explain what, his inner voice mocked, he ignored that tiny voice. His niisan was hurt because of him and he needed to fix things.

Carefully easing to the side of the bed, he attempted to get up, falling back at the pain of his movement. Clenching his teeth, he carefully moved hissing at the sharp stabbing agony roaring through him, seeing the red stain darken and grow wider.

~Forgive me for interrupting your successful attempts of causing yourself pain, Yaksha said sardonically watching as his human attempted to stand again, holding on to the bedpost, but I *can* heal your wound or at least deaden the pain.~

Marron froze, ~"You can do that", he asked at which Yaksha nodded.~

~Yes, provided that you talk to the boy. He has borne enough pain in his short life. We do NOT like to see him hurting.~

~Me either, Marron said, he paused, I don't think I can give him what he wants though, he said uncomfortably.

~Then give him what you can, Yaksha said shortly~

Marron felt a tingling warmth in his thigh, centering around his wound. He flexed his leg slowly and stopped, abashed at the mental slap Yaksha gave him.

~Hold still, you idiot! How do you expect me to fix this with you undoing my work, Yaksha said with cold annoyance. I will TELL you when I'm done.~

And twenty minutes later, he announced he was done and Marron stood up cautiously. Feeling no pain, he took a more confident step. Hurriedly, he unwrapped the bandage, revealing smooth flesh, there wasn't even a scar, he thought in wonder, faintly hearing Yaksha indignant reply, 'Of course not!'

Swiftly striding to his dresser he grabbed a pair of pajamas and slid his robe on and walked quickly to Carrot's room.

Taking a deep breath he knocked lightly, hearing a muffled voice calling 'Enter'. Taking another deep breath for courage, he turned the handle and entered.

Carrot looked up swiftly when the door opened expecting to see anyone but Marron framed in the doorway. Setting his book aside, he slowly rose to his feet, his eyes never leaving Marron's face.

"You didn't give me a chance to say anything," Marron said in way of explaining his presence as he shut the door. He watched a wary expression settle on Carrot's face, the way the slender body hunched as if to protect itself from a blow. He did this, he realized with bitter shock. He caused his niisan to lose what little confidence he had in himself. The one person he never wanted to hurt, the one that he vowed to protect…..and yet look at what he had done.

"I didn't think you had anything to say, the look in your eyes spoke louder than any words you could possibly say," Carrot said quietly.

"Niisan, I was in shock! First, you tell me that you prefer girls and the next thing I know you tell me you're in love with me....I think I have a right to be a little shocked and confused, don't you think," Marron snapped, pacing restlessly.

Carrot smiled, finding a morbid amusement in seeing Marron lose his vaunted self-control.

"Yes, you do have the right to be a little shocked," he said soothingly, faintly amused at the irritated look flashing in the gold eyes. His smile fading as he said, "I can't untake what I said to you. You warned me never to lie to you and I promised I wouldn't."

Marron sighed, running his finger through his hair, "I know...it's just...," he gestured, trying to convey his feelings.

"Yeah, me too. I was a shocked and appalled as you. I felt that I was as bad as Onion...," he stopped at the angry growl from Marron, trying to back away from the angry figure to no avail.

"You are nothing like that bastard," Marron spat out, shaking Carrot slightly. "I never want to hear you compare yourself to him again, do you understand me.."

Carrot regard him steadily, a rose tint to his cheeks, "Onion lusted after his own flesh and blood; I'm lusting after you. Just how are we that different," he asked quietly, his eyes intent.

Marron eyes were cool, "The difference is Onion lusted without love, without remorse, caring only for his own selfish pleasure, his needs. Is that what you want from me," he asked quietly hearing Carrot catch his breath before tearing away from him and pacing angrily.

"How the hell can you ask me such a disgusting question?! Of course, I fuckin' care for you. I always have and will. You are my fuckin' brother first, everything else that I feel is secondary to my feeling for you as a BROTHER. I love you and I'm sorry, sorry if it make you uncomfortable but I do and you can either ignore it or run away from me. I just didn't want anymore secrets between us," Carrot stuttered to a stop, his eyes wet.

"Niisan….Carrot, I don't know if I can give you what you want from me," Marron admited unhappily. "I never thought about or even found a male that I felt like going ot bed with and now you tell me that you're in love with me and want to have sex with me."

"Maybe what you're feeling is....a crush," he said hopefully, recoiling at the furious glare Carrot threw at him. Well at least that wary look was gone from his face, he thought bemused by the rosy flush lighting his niisan's face.

"Beautiful," he whispered in wonder, hardly aware he spoke out loud.

"It's not a fuckin' crush damn you!" Carrot said firmly, angrily. Pacing back and forth, he said, "It's not a crush. Does a crush gives you the feeling of wanting to be with that person because they make you feel like you're on top of the world; does a crush make you feel warm and safe at the side of the one you love? Marron, even if all that was true, then I would feel the say way about Gateau or...or Mille or even Syrus," he said throwing names at Marron like knives, seeing him flinch and raw jealousy fill those beautiful eyes.

"What I feel for you is love. I want to hold you close to me, to feel your arms wrapped around me. I want to feel your lips pressed to mine; I want to feel your bare skin touch me, caressing me, loving me," Carrot said in a husky whisper, his eyes fixed on Marron as he took a hesitant step forward.

"Marron, I want all those things and more. I want to be there watching you laugh, watching that tiny smile that you give me," Carrot continued, drawn to Marron like a magnet. Watching the golden eyes, he said helplessly, "You have the most beautiful smile," touching Marron's soft lips, feeling them part slightly before Marron spun away with a groan.

Marron dropped in a chair with a dismayed groan, he couldn't believe this. This was so wrong on so many levels. Even if he wanted to ~and you do don't you an inner voice whispere, that he resolutely ignored~, he couldn't do that to him. With him. They were brothers, Carrot had been abused all his life, he was 'just confused' about what he was feeling, and he said that out loud looking up at Carrot.

"Marron, if you want ot believe that then go ahead. I just couldn't hold this in any longer. The thought of losing you…," he shivered in dread. Spinning on his heel facing the window, he said over his shoulder, "Just go Marron. You can believe what I said or not. Nothing has to change between us. I've had over fourteen years of learning how to control myself so you don't have to worry about me jumping you one night."

~Silently Hakashin sent out a wordless cry for help, feeling distinctly out of his depth.~

"What the hell was that," Marron jumped up as Carrot whirled around in surprise.

"I have no idea," Carrot gasped, his eyes wide.

"It came from you," Marron pointed out.

"Yeah, but I don't know….," Carrot silentyl questioned Harakshin who remained stubbonrnly silent.

Gateau, Chocolate and Tira's head jerked up. For a brief moment their eyes held a ghostly color before fading.

Stella had escorted the detective out and had stormed back into the room.

"This has gone far enough! Dota, get the Americna on the phone, get my jet ready. We are taking this info to the Americans. NOW!. I will not risk anyone else's life. I will not allow that bastard to hurt anyone else in this family," she spat angrily.

Tonio watched in her in awe. He used to hear tales of when Stella Church went into a rage, but this was the first time he had ever seen her do so. He thanked God that she wasn't pissed at him.

When they had came back downstairs, everything was cool. Chocolate had flashed him a sexy smile and he fell instantly in lust with her. He knew with Marron standing guard over Carrot that he didn't have a prayer in getting close to the boy, might as well as find someone that would allow him to get close. And he had seen by the look in Chocolate's eyes that he was going to get a lot more than close with her.

"Mama, we have to go, we'll see you later okay," Gateau said, drawing Chocoalte and Tira to their feet.

"What?….oh okay," Stella said, distracted as she plotted her stategy.

Tonio watched them leave with a puzzled frown.

Upstairs Marron and Carrot stared at each other with wasted regret in their eyes. So many things left unsaid so much pain in their eyes.

Carrot blew out a trembling breath, struggling to control his tears. Despite himself, his lip shook as he said, "You need to go."

Marron saw the Carrot's eyes glisten with moisture and his eyes fell, "Niisan," he began and stopped, not knowing what to say, what to do to make things better. He wanted things back the way they were, when it was just them loving each others like brothers should. He took a single step forward and watched in dismay as his niisan backed away from him. He reached out an imploring hand, his eyes filled with regret, dropping it as Carrot flinched back from him, not even allowing that small touch.

"Go," Carrot said quietly, turning away to the window, "I'll be okay in a few days. Nothing has to change that much between us. You just know a bit more about me than you anticipated knowing. But right now, Marron, I need you to go away."

Carrot refused to turn around knowing that if he did he would weaken and throw himself in the comfort and safety of Marron's arms, makinghim even more spooked. He was stronger, he would get through this even though every day would feel like torture. His mouth quirked melanchony smile, he should be okay, he had been trained by a master in the fine art of torture.

Marron watched the lonely hunched back, wishing for what he didn't know. He sighed as he turned to the door, casting a quick look over his shoulder.

"Niisan…," he began and stopped, not know what to say to make this situation better.

"What is it, Marron," Carrot asked quietly, his head turned to the side.

"I'm sorry," Marron whispered and opened the door, surprised to see Gateau, Tira and Chocolate standing there.

He met Gateau's eyes steadily and watched as Gateau's flicked behind him to the still figure in front of the window. And he realized Gateau and the girls knew.

He opened his mouth and they brush past him.

He turned and watched silently as Gateau touched Carrot's shoulder gently, turning him towards him.

With a wail of pure misery, Carrot threw himself in Gateau's arms broken sobs shaking his body. Distantly he could feel Tira and Chocolate surrounding him offering their wordless comfort, crooning softly, stroking his back.

"Shh, little man, didn't we tell you there's no shame in loving," Gateau held the shaking bundle tightly to him, rocking him in his arms. Gateau looked up and met Marron's eyes, holding them before Marron turned away.

~"Come, we must leave them," Yaksha said quietly, "They will heal the boy and he will grow stronger from this."~

Marron watched for a few minutes more, his heart hurting in his chest and stinging tears filling his eyes before he silently left the room.

~"I have sleep with him, given him what he wanted from me," Marron asked Yaksha somberly.~

~"If you can not be sincere with him, then you would have reinforced his belief that he is like his sire," Yaksha said soberly.~

~"Will he be okay," Marron asked hesitantly, holding his breath for Yaksha answer.~

~"The boy will be fine," came a much deeper voice and Marron sat up in the bed with a jerk.~

~"Hakashin?!"~

~"Yes, and the boy will be fine, *we* will see to his needs," and with that, Hakashin prescence faded.~

Marron swallowed hard, he understood what Hakashin meant, that he was no longer the one that Carrot would turn to.

The next day, Stella left for her conference with the CIA, making htem promised to behave. She shared with them the news that the CIA would be striking soon against Onion Glace.

And the next few days, followed a predicatable pattern as both Marron and Carrot sought to avoid spending any time together alone. Tension rose between them, whenever they were in the same room. Toni, seeing the division between the two began to slyly attack Carrot, growing bolder each time Marron remained silent.

She smiled wickedly at the hurt and bruised look now on her nemisis eyes.

Tonio, in between his courting of Chocolate wonder what had happened between the two brother to cuase such a rift between them. To make the other four watch them with worry and concern. He came to like the young man in the brief time he had known him. Seeing such sadness on his face was an affront to nature. Whatever the reason, the problem, the boy deserved to be happy and smiling.

Until one day it hit him why there was such a huge problem. Watching Marron and Carrot surripitiously dance around each other, he finally understood the reason for the distance. Carrot was in love wth Marron!

He saw the hopeless longing in Carrot's brown eyes, and when he saw the look of regret in Marron's cool eyes he realized that Marron was aware of Carrot's feeling.

Oh shit! What a fucked up situation, he thought to himself.

He watched his sister try futile to entice an increasingly distant Marron and he realized something else. The only time he had *ever* seen Marron react to anyone was with Carrot. And unlike his sister, he really liked Carrot, not as a lover, he admitted to himself but as a potential friend. They spent many hours discussing technology and he realized that Carrot was surprisingly smart, that Carrot's knowledge of computers far exceeded his own. While Carrot wasn't at the genius level of his brother, when when it came to technology and computers the boy could probably make a computer that would sit up, wag it's power cord and beg.

He weighed his decision to help Carrot. He suspected that Marron probably had some feelings for his brother that he was suppressing, he remembered the fury in Marron's eyes whenever he would flirt with Carrot.

He smirked and decided to liven things up by 'helping' Carrot. A dark wicked smile spread across his face. Besides, it'll surely piss Sis the fuck off as an added bonus.

His decision made, he went in search of Chocoalte to make sure it was okay with her. He certainly didn't want to jeopardize his growing relationship with her, and happily she agreed and said that she would talk to the others.

He found Carrot sprawled in the family room, playing with the computer, the keyboard in is lap, legs dangling over the arm of the overstuffed chair.

Carrot gazed impassively at Tonio, wondering at the strange look in the man's face. After discovering his *gayness*, his mouth quirked sadly, he could honestly say that Tonio was an extremely attractive man. His mouth drooped, too bad he wasn't interested.

Tonio looked at Carrot, figuring from the pouty look on the boy's face that he was thinking of Marron. He sighed angrily, wonder when had he started caring for others.

Pulling an ottomon next to the chair, he settled himself, smirking at the suspicious look Carrot gave him.

"Look, I'm not gonna to pretend that I don't know what's going on. I just wanted to help, and put a smile back on your face," he said gently, amused at the wary look appearing in Carrot's face. He grabbed a dangling foot and began to rub the sole firmly.

"What are you talking about," Carrot asked warily, praying that Tonio wasn't talking about what he thought he was talking about, totally ignoring the foot rubbing.

"I'm talking about you and Marron, how you really feel about him. Don't try to pretend that you have no idea what I'm talking about," he hastily added seeing the look in Carrot's big eyes.

Carrot slumped, what the hell does a guy have to do to get a prayer answered, he glared heavenward, sacrifice a few goats, maybe a virgin or two?

"Carrot, look I'm not here to fuck with your mind. I just want to help at least to make you smile, to see you laugh. This place has gotten so quiet and gloomy lately without your laughter lighting the house. And no, I'm not *hitting * on you, do you know what Chocoalte would do it she saw much less found me hitting on someone," he shuddered dramatically, watching with delight at th etiny smile and chuckle from Carrot.

"I just want ot be friend, nothing more. And if you and Marron get together," he shrugged, "Well, that'll be a bonus."

Carrot looked at him searchingly, "You're not disgusted?"

Tonio smiled, "Carrot, you've been through hell for the past fourteen years," at Carrot' gasp, he tightened his grip on the foot he still held, "Look, I got curious, sue me! I'm not blaming you, and if I could, I just wish I could kill that bastard father of your," he said savagely, his eyes hot with fury.

Then taking a deep breath, "But back to what I was saying, if Marron make you happy then go for it, I say. And as an extra sweetner you and Marron would simply kill Toni," he said wickedly, watching Carrot burst into delighed laughter.

Marorn hearing his niisan's laughter was drawn to the sound like a magnet. He stood in the doorway watching Carrot wipe tears of mirth from his eyes, still giggling as Tonio rubbed his foot, feeling a strange burning sensation in his chest at the sight.

Carrot head snapped up, glancing around seeing something move out the corner of his eyes, frowning as he saw only an empty doorway.

Tonio smiled secretly, he had seen Marron standing in the doorway. Oh yeah, Marron was feeling something alright, he smirked.

And for the next several days, he flirted outrageously with Carrot, making the young man laugh and smile at his most outlandish tales, knowing that Marron was growing more an dmore enraged, stalking around the house like a thundercloud, snarling at everyone.

The best part was that Carrot didn't notice Marron furious mood, so intent on getting himself back to his usual self so he and Marron could be the way they used to be.

One day, Tonio felt amused as Marron cornered him and told him to stay away from his niisan, that Carrot didn't like him flirting with him, he was making Carrot uncomfortable.

"But how would you know what Carrot likes," he said reasonably, secretly jumping up and down with glee, "You and Carrot been talking for days. Besides, he's laughing and smiling which tells me that he's enjoying my company and is having fun with me."

Marron stood speechless before his eyes narrowed angrily.

"You know you sound like a jealous ex-lover," Tonio observed coolly. "You don't want him but you don't want anyone to want him either. Besides, your brother deserves to have someone in his life making him smile and laugh. He deserves to be loved and to be happy." With that Tonio walked away, leaving a very confused Marron standing in the hallway.

Within a few days, they received a call from Stella, "Call everyone and turn on the TV," she said urgently.

Gateau yelled for everyone and hurriedly turned the TV on, standing frozen before the TV as the other came running in with cries of 'What' and they too froze watching the TV.

Marron hit the speaker on the phone allowing Mama to be heard through the room.

"I insisted on full media coverage," she shouted happily over the screaming and yelling in the background. "Can you see me?" she waved merrily at a camera, hearing the screams of joy from the children as Onion was taken away in handcuffs from his house, cold outrage in his set face.

They heard her yell 'Wait' to one of the men escorting Onion to a waiting car, "Carrot do you want to say something," she asked gently into the phone.

Carrot's eyes darted wildly around the room as he shook. Marron immediately crossed to him, taking him into his arms and holding him until the shakes went away.

"Do yo u want to say something, you don't have to if you don't want," he whispered quietly into Carrot's ear.

"Maybe later," Carrot mumbled into Marron's chest. He was shaking, he never wanted to see much less hear that bastard again.

"Mama, he doesn't want to talk," Marron called ot her.

"Carrot, it over, okay," Stella said gently. "I'll se you all when I get home. We'll have a proper party then." She smiled as she heard them cheering and screaming in the background before she hung up the phone.

They were jumping for joy, it was finally over. They looked at Carrot standing so still in Marron's arms and quieted down.

"Carrot, it's over isn't it," Tira softly inquired, remembering the last time they had thought they had beaten Onion.

Pulling himself reluctantly from Marron emcomapassin embrace, he nodded, "Yeah I think this time it may be over except for the screaming and yelling. Excuse me but I thnk I need to go lie down."

"Need some company," Marron asked quietly, his eyes intent as he stepped forward.

"No. No, I don't," Carrot refused him quietly, his eyes steady and turned leaving a stricken Marron.



After Stella came home, as promised they had their party and what a party it was. Laughter prevelant throughout the entire day, with Carrot determinely throwing off his depressive mood and focused on having a good time. Even Toni was enjoying the comradire.

Marron's joy was marred only by the disappearance of his niisan and Tonio, never noticing that Chocolate was gone also. He watched the doorway like a hawk as first Tonio came sauntering back in, talking casually to Chocolate, followed by Carrot talking animately, flatering under the cold glare Marron shot at him.

Within a few days of Stella's returned, she pulled strings getting Chocolate, Tira and Carrot back into college, part-time.


Gradually Carrot began to recover from his heartbreak. So what if every time he saw Marron with Toni his heart felt like it was going to stop beating. Who was he trying to kid, he thought morosely. He wasn't having any fun, not one bit of fund. He worked himself ruthlessly at home and at school, trying to tire himself out so that at night he could sleep without dreaming of Marron, because it was the nights that were the worst.

In his dreams, they were more than brothers. Marron loved him freely, without guilt or shame. Erotic dreams of Marron, of them tangled in a sweaty heap, hot breaths caressing his body, hands gliding over every hard inch of his body. Marron taking him tenderly, lovingly.

There were times he would wake up as he came, calling Marron's name, feeling his cock jerking, the sheet a sticky mess.

Night after night, the erotic dreams continued, until he didn't want to wake, preferring his rich fantasy night life to stark reality.

His only comfort during the day was every one's surrounding him with their love and concern, at least seeing two pairs of lovers together made his pain a little easier to endure.


Marron gritted his teeth, wanting to rip Tonio's head off! He was sick and tired of seeing that smarmy smile of that bastard's face; and that damn incessant flirting! Don't the fool know how to shut up, he thought viciously.

He nearly lost it when he saw Tonio lean over and whisper something in Carrot's ear, making his niisan silently shake with laughter before collapsing helplessly against Tonio's side.

Toni looked at Marron and smiled, "Looks like our two brothers are getting along quite well don't you think?" she purred, stroking his knee, frowning as he remained oblivious to her, his eyes fixed on the laughting Carrot and Tonio. A nasty smile crossed her face, she knew how to get his attention.

Strolling to the stereo, she selected karaoke music and began singing. Her hips shaking gently as she sang. And the song was wickedly nasty, she exhulted as Marron's attention turned coolly to her.

She threw a nasty smirk at Carrot knowing he was still somehow standing between Marron and her.

Carrot had had enough, enough of that bitch constantly picking at him, causing him problems, touching Marron, especially since HE couldn't touch him like he wanted to.

That bitch had even fucked up a 200 page report, 'accidently' spilling coffee all over it saying 'Oh, I'm sorry!' He saw the look in her eyes, she meant to do that. She thought she was so friggin' slick!

He strolloed to Gateau and Mille, whispering in their eyes and watched cold delight flash in their eyes. He selected a song from the machine, well aware of the tenseness in the room behind him. They knew Carrot was about to blow his top.

He exchanged a dark smile with Gateau and Mille as he sat back down in his chair, Gateau and Mille leaning against the sides. Tonio had gladly abandoned his place, hoping that Toni was going to get the shock of her life.

Staring at her, Carrot pressed the remote control, filling the room with the pulse pounding sound.

//Girl, I must warn you I sense something strange in my mind
Situation is serious let's cure it 'cause we're running out of time
It's oh, so beautiful, relationships they seem from the start
It's all so deadly when love is not together from the heart//

(He stared directly at her as he sang the song, a stony look on his face.)

It's drivin' me out of my mind
That's why it's hard for me to find
Can't get it out of my head
Miss her, kiss her, love her (Wrong move you're dead)

(Carrot shot a glance at Marron, a remote expression on his face.)

That girl is poison
Never trust a big butt and smile
That girl is poison

If I were you I'd take precaution
Before I start to meet fly girl, you know
'Cause in some portions
You'll think she's the best thing in the world

(Carrot raised a sardonic brow, a sneer on his lips now as he sang.)

She's so fly
She'll drive you right out of your mind
Steal your heart when you're blind
Beware she's schemin', she'll make you think you're dreamin'
You'll fall in love and you'll be screamin' demon, hoo

Poison, deadly, movin' it slow
(This time Gateau took up the song, his face equally cold.)

Lookin' for a mellow fellow like Marron
Gettin' paid, laid, so better lay low
Schemin' on house, money, and the whole show
The low pro ho she'll be cut like an afro
See what you're sayin', huh, she's weighin' you
But I know she's a loser

(Carrot looked up at Gateau, "How do you know?")

(Gateau looked down at Carrot with a twist to his lips..)
Me and the crew used to do her

(Toni's eyes narrowed angrily as Carrot continued to sing. She surged to her feet stalking towards him and Tira and Chocolate smoothly slid in front of her, their eyes cold and gleaming just waiting for her to do something, anything so they could beat the living hell out of her.)

(And they started hissing the next lyrics to the song.)

Poison-poison-poison-poison
Poison-poison-poison-poison

She sneered at them, her sneer fading as Tira unfasten her chain necklace, setting it dancing like a snake on the floor. Chocolate unwrapped a long thin belt from around her waist, letting it dangle meaningfully from her hand.

Silently they stared with cold eyes at Toni and she shivered with remembering the look Chocolate gave her the last time they went head to head outside of Marron's bedroom.

Carrot let the rest of the song play out, his meaning had been made very clear.

"Marron, aren't you going to do something, say something?!" she cried angrily, "Your brother just insulted me."

"What would you like me to do? How about I start with you, hmmm? Like that 200 page report that you willfully destroyed, or perhaps the time that he 'accidently' fell down the stairs…Or maybe I should start by calling you on all the silly little put downs you've been aiming at him," he asked coolly, a chilly smile on his face at her dropped jaw shock.

"Did you think I wouldn't notice what you were doing? I simply choose not to interfere, knowing my niisan was quite capable of putting you in your place," he continued with arctic calm.

Carrot watched the vicious tongue lashing Marron laid on the white faced Toni for a few minutes before he quietly left. Glad his brother still watched over him but wishing as that they could be more than just brothers. He needed a little more time to accept the limitations on their relationship and learn to move on.

He showered and climbed wearily into bed, anticipating another night of fruitless dreams.


Marron lay in bed thinking. He had finally came to the realizaton that he wanted his niisan, not as a brother but also as a lover. Every time Tonio touched Carrot he wished it was he that was touching Carrot, that it was he that made Carrot laugh and smile. The raging jealousy he felt every time he saw them laughing together had at first confused the hell out of him, because he had never felt jealous of his previous lovers, no matter how they tried. His heart had remain untouched, inviolated from his lovers. His heart was cold and he was emotionally dead, many had charged tearfully.

He didn't feel jealous over Gateau's affair with Tira, knowing that Gateau's heart was Tira, he had NEVER felt jealous of any of Gateau's girlfriends, friends. He had only hoped that whoever finally won his friend's heart treated it as the precious gift it was.

But with Carrot, it was different because damn it, CARROT BELONGED TO HIM!

He sat up abruptly in shock, astonished at the rightness he felt, repeating it tentatively out loud, "Carrot belongs to me," feeling a warm sensation flood through him as the idea took root in his mind and heart. Feeling stronger as he said, "I belong to Carrot," and a rush of hot pleasure surged through him.

My God, I'm in love with Carrot!

He jumped out of bed, his niisan had to know, completely disregarding the fact that it was 2 am.

Throwing a robe on, he raced to Carrot's room, practinge what he needed to tell him.. Pausing at the door, his hand raised to knock, maybe this isn't such a good idea. Maybe he's not alone, he thought despondently.

Slowly turning the knob, he crept into the darken bedroom, to stand beside the bed. He couldn't tell if there was one or two people huddled under the sheets.

Biting his lip, he took a chance, "Niisan," he called softly shaking what he presumed was a shoulder.

Carrot slowly swam to consciousness hearing someone calling him. Blearily, he pulled the covers from around his head and opened his eyes, blinking at the sight of Marron standing over him.

Alarm raced through him at the distressed look on Marron's face and he said urgently, "Marron what's wrong?!"

Marron bit his lip again and blurted out, "I don't like him touching you!" He groaned and closed his eyes, real smooth Romeo, with lines like that he's sure to jump right into your arms, whispered a little snide voice.

"Okay," Carrot blinked, "Uhm who don't you like touching me?" Maybe this was just a crazy dream, he thought.


Marron sat heavily on the bed with a sigh, "Tonio, I don't like him touching or flirting with you," he said angrily.

Carrot yawned, "Okay, I'll tell him to stop touching me and flirting with me. Goodnight.," and he pulled the covers back over his head.

Marron poked him in the shoulder, he wasn't finished yet.

With a sigh, Carrot pulled the covers off again and looked at Marron, with annoyed patience.

"I don't like him making you smile and laugh either," he said. Dammit can you sound more like a little kid, he wanted to bang his head against the wall at how childish he sounded.

Carrot looked at Marron, wondering at his otouto sanity, "Okay, let me get this straight. You don't want Tonio, touching me, you don't want him flirting with me, and now you don't want him to make me smile or laugh," his voice getting progressively louder. "What can he do," he asked sarcastically.

Marron raised his head, "He can go home, I don't want him here anymore," he said sulkily.

"Fine, Marron, you don't want him around me," Carrot sighed, feeling despair wash over him. Maybe this was is punishment for having such feelings for Marron. He covered his head again, feeling tears start to gather in his eyes.

"Niisan," Marron poked him again, "Niisan, I was wondering if I can drive you to school tomorrow?"

Carrot slowly uncovered his head, hearing something else in Marron's voice, "You want to drive us to school tomorrow," he questioned, feeling his heart start to race in his chest.

Marron shook his head, his eyes steady on Carrot's moonlit face, "No just you. Chocolate and Tira can ride with us ubt I would rather it be just us," he said quietly, feeling his cheeks burn.

Carrot sat up slowly, his eyes hopeful, "Us as in you and me?"

"Forty or fifty years ago, if a boy wanted to let someone know he was interested, he would offer to walk that person to school or offer to carry their books. Do you have any books that I can carry for you, niisna," he prayed that he wasn't too late.

And his prayers were answered as Carrot threw himself at him, hugging him tightly. He felt his check become wet, feeling the slender body shoulder shake and realized Carrot was crying.

Drawing back and raising his beloved face, he gently kissed the tears away, hesitating before he pressed his lips against Carrot's feeling them part under his. Groaning softly at the first taste of his niisan exploded in his mouth. Urgently he pressed Carrot back down on th ebed, his tongue busy exploring the hot interior of his niisan's mouth. Feeling Carrot rolling them over so he was astraddle him. An armful of warm, squirming niisan was an incredibly potent thing, he thought dizzily.

Their bodies strained and writhe against each other and slowly they both came up for air, their breath raged, their bodies hard and arching.

"Niisan, Mama is sending me to Paris for three weeks," Marron said breathlessly, seein gCarrot nod slowly, "When I get back, I thik we need to have a very long talk."

Carrot looked down at him despondently, "That's a long time," he pouted.

Marron wanted to devous those poutly lips, "I think before we go any further we need to talk."

Carrot sighed and slid off Marron, each of them groaning at the friction, "Yeah I was hoping that wouldn't think of it," he said with a wry twist of his lips. "Will I like our talk," he asked carefully, not looking at Marron.

"Do you love me," Marron asked him, turning over and propping himself up, "Do you trust me with Toni," he said smiling know that it was Toni that had Carrot sulky.

"You, I trust, but her, HA! As soon as she gets you alone, she's gonna jump your bones," Carrot said jealously.

"My love, she can try and that's all, TRY," Marron said gently kissing Carrot's nose.

Carrot looked up at him, his heart in his eyes, "Am I? Am I realy your love?"

Marron looked at him at the fear and doubt lurking deep in the beautiful chocolate eyes.

"Niisan, I'm ignoring all social taboos regarding our relationship and yo want to know if I love you," Marron aske dincredulously.

Carrot ducked his head shyly, "Well it could been about sex," he muttered, then feeling long slender arms wrapped around him, sighing happily in the warm embrace.

"Niisan, if it was only about sex, that I could have easily gotten from Toni," Marron said seriously.

"I'm sorry," Carrot whispered, ashamed.

"Carrot, I know you're afraid and frankly so am I," Marron began, "There's so many things against us that if we make it though the first year, it would be a miracle.

Carrot froze, "So what are you saying? Do you want to stop?" He was shaking slightly, fearful of the answer.

For an answer Marron angled his head for a deep possessive kiss on the softly parted lips feeling the tense boy soften sweetly against him, "I want you and damn everything else. Between the two of us I'm sure we'll think of something, someway to make this work."

"Now I thinkwe both had better get some sleep, we both have a long day ahead of us," Marron said and started to get up.

"Stay," Carrot begged softly, smiling as Marron hesitated before settleing back down, scooting over an dlifting the covers for him to slid under.

And Marron felt peace come over him as he pulled Carrot into his arms. A peace he hadn't felt since they had stopped sharing a bed. He should have suspected then that what he felt for Carrot went far beyond brotherly love.

Content at last they fell asleep. No wistful dreams disturbing either of their slumber. Until a know on his door woke Carrot.

Blearily he untangled his limbs from Marron, staring in awe at the beautiful sight in his bed. And he's all mine, he thought in wonder. Hearing Geteau's muffled voice, he patterd to the door and opened it, yawning behind his hand.

"Carrot, you seen Marron…he's supposed to leave in about two hourse and that crazy bitch downstairs is driving us all craz…," he stopped seeing Marron sprawled out in Carrot's bed.

He whooped, waking Marron up, "Way to go, Carrot!"

Carrot flushed, "Keep your voice down you idiot. Besides nothing happened last night," he said disappointment evident in his eyes and body, unawared that Marron had gotten out of bed and stood right behind him.

He started as a pair of warm arms slid around his waist and caught his breath as Marron began nibbling on his ear.

"Not for lack of trying, hmmm?" The words purred in his ear as Marron caressed his bare stomach, a low moan came from his thoat.

Gateau blushed, "For God's sakes you two shut the friggin' door. You're corrupting my innocence eyes," he smirked a tthem.

Carrot smiled and pushed Marron back and slammed the door in Gateau's face, stretching up for a hot blistering kiss as Marron pressed him against the door. His leg stole around Marron waist arching into the hard body grinding against him.

"Umm, niisan," Marron breathed between long sucking kisses, "I better go," more kissing, groans, rockinginto the hard length of carrot's groin, "I better go before Toni sends up a search party." They were breathing harshly, still exchanging slow languid kisses, "Remember I'll be back in three weeks, okay," he said caressing a flushed cheek.

"Fine, but you better make she don't try no funny stuff," Carrot said sulkily, his lip poking out.

"I'll make sure that 'no funny stuff' is tried with me," Marron smiled at his sulky niisan.

After one long, lingering kiss, he reopened the door to a smirking Gateau.

Gateau took one look at the extremely satisfied look on his best friend's face, the flushed face, the swollen lips and could barely restrain his chuckles. He fought to keep a straight face with little success.

"Not a word!" Marron hissed, his face flushed a light rosy color.

"Man, you are so whipped," Gateau shook his head in mock sorrow, "Oh, how the mighty have fallen."

"Oh, shut up," Marron snapped, but smiling and nothing Gateau could say would spoil his mood.

Gateau eyed his unusually bouncing friend as they walked back to Marron's room.

"Smiling looks good on you, ya know."

Marron looked at Gateau in some surprise, not aware he was smiling, "Uhm thanks…I think,"

They reached his room.

"Are you happy," Gateau asked seriously.

"Gateau, if I was any happier, I think I would float away. I know it's a cliché, but I feel like I'm on cloud nine. I can't even described how good I feel," Marron smiled at Gateau, his eyes clear and unguarded.

Gateau saw the joy and happiness in Marron's eyes, "I think, my friend, you already did. If what you feel is half of what I feel for Tira, then you're one lucky guy."

Marron's eyes lowered as a slight rose tinted his cheeks, "You're not disgusted," he asked, raising his gaze to the other's.

"Would you let him go if I was," Gateau asked levelly.

"No," was the flat reply, his eyes hard and cold, before softening, "I don't think I could survive if he wasn't in my life. I don't think I know how to let him go. He makes me feel so…so…," he shrugged helplessly, giving up on trying to explain how Carrot made him feel.

"Then be happy, both of you deserve it," Gateau smiled and walked away.

Down at the breakfast table, Toni was smug. At last I'll have Marron to myself without that idiot brother of his interfering and distracting him, she gloated, watching as Marron sauntered gracefully in. She frowned, something was different about him this morning.

"So, Marron did you have a good nights sleep," she purred to her, looking seductively at him over her coffee cup.

Gateau choked on his coffee at that question, Marron graciciously pounded him on the back….hard!

"Oh, I had the best night of sleep in months," Marron replied with a little smile. She blinked, Marron was smiling and her body tingled, I've made him smile. Oh yeah, I will soon be Mrs. Marron Church.

Tira and Chocolate looked up and upon meeting Marron's relaxed gaze their eyes swung to Gateau, reading the mirth in his and they nearly squealed with excitement.

Marron flicked his eyes to Toni and they got the silent message: 'Not here; not now'.

Carrot bounced into the room and took a seat next to Marron, a delicate red coloring his cheeks as he met Tira and Chocolate excited eyes.

He jumped as he felt fingers caressing his leg and cast a look to Marron to see a smile cross his face. Dropping his left hand below the table and feeling Marron grasp his hand, as slow warmth came over him. And they ate their breakfast holding hands beneath the table.

They spent their last few minutes together, before it was time for Marron to leave.

Toni got into the car, waiting impatiently for Marron to finish saying his goodbyes.

Marron finished putting his luggage in the trunk of the car and looked up at Carrot standing woefully in the entrance of the mansion. Taking the steps two at a time, he reached his pouting niisan, pushing him into the alcove.

Carrot plucked nervously at Marron's shirt, his lips turned down.

"Niisan it's only for three weeks," Marron said gently.

"I know, but I don't want you to go," Carrot peered up at him, his lip jutting out in a pout. "You're gonna be with Ms. Bitch all that time."

"Niisan, I don't want her. The only one I want is a beautiful man, with messy hair, big brown eyes that reminds me of the finest chocolate," Marron whispered against soft lips, caressing Carrot's cheeks gently.

"You think I'm beautiful," Carrot whispered distracted from his sulking, his eyes wide in astonishment.

Marron kissed his nose, not daring to kiss Carrot the way they both wanted, he didn't have time.

"Niisan, you are the most beautiful person on the face of the earth. Now stop fishing for compliments and give me a hug."

Carrot hugged him tightly, "I still don't want ya to go, but hurry back okay?"

"I'll do my best," Marron promised and left.

Carrot stood at the entrance, sadly waving goodbye as the car drove off, feeling such an intense feeling of loss that he had to go upstairs and hide.

He was halfway up, when the door opened downstairs revealing Marron.

"The hell with the consequences, " Marron muttered racing up the stairs and and seized his niisan's smiling lips. There was no way he way going anywhere without a long kiss goodby as he lost himself in his niisan's mouth.

Reluctantly, he released the soft lips, "I couldn't leave without a proper goodbye," he said huskily.

And a slow smile crossed Carrot's face, "You better hurry you have a plane to catch," pushing Marron gently away and watching as he dashed down the stairs and out the door.

Continuing his way upstairs a soft smile on contentment on his face.