Speed Racer Fan Fiction ❯ All of My Heart ❯ Chapter Seven ( Chapter 7 )

They were taking no chances with him. Not that he could blame them. He'd always been a rather strong guy, able to take down several men in survival situations. And since he'd lost his mind (which he knew that he'd done - why else would he be in an asylum?), he was even more of a threat. He could lash out at any given moment, especially after they'd reduced his medications down to nothing. That's why the female nurses glanced with nervous expressions at him. That's why the male orderlies had put him in the straightjacket. He was dangerous.

In a some, small perverted way, Speed relished the fear that he was inspiring in those who cared for him. He'd always been seen as a good boy, the guy a father wouldn't hesitate to let his daughter go out on a date with.

All that had changed, though. In a single night, his life had been ripped, torn, shredded . . . destroyed. Because the girls next door had wanted him. Because the girls next door would do anything to get him.

He still felt their hands on him. He still could recall Trixie's demand that he prove his love for her after the fact and how terrified he'd been their wedding night . . .

Speed blinked and the room came into focus. Across from him sat Dr. Johnson and Dr. Joyce. Behind them was a dark glass wall. He couldn't see what lay beyond that other wall but knew that whoever was behind it could see, and hear, him.

“Are you ready, Speed?” Dr. Johnson inquired. Speed knew what was required of him. He had to answer their questions. He had to answer them honestly. He had to tell them what he wanted.

'Not that it'll do any good . . . Rex and Trixie want me to remember. I don't want to remember. They control everything. They control my life.'

Knowing that didn't make him as comfortable as one might have thought. He resented Rex and Trixie and their meddling with his life. He resented Trixie for how she reacted to his rape. He resented Rex for marrying her after their marriage had been annulled . . . he resented them for going on about their lives as if nothing had ever happened when he knew differently. He resented them for not having suffered what he had suffered. Speed wanted a sense of normalcy, needed it the way he needed water.

At Dr. Johnson's question, he nodded.

“Yes. I'm ready.”

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Trixie listened as each doctor asked Speed a series of questions and as he answered. Next to her stood Rex and Mr. and Mrs. Racer. On occasion, she'd glance at her spouse and her in-laws and wondered. She wondered if Speed's answers sounded like they were rehearsed to Mom and Pops as they did to her. Trixie wanted nothing more than to have this session end and for Speed to be released from the hospital but knew that it wouldn't be likely. Speed had never signed over guardianship to anyone. Legally, she and Rex couldn't stop whatever treatment Speed wanted, even if they disagreed with it.

She let out a sigh as the session continued, Speed answering with either a 'yes' or 'no'. They went through the same thing year after year. This time, however, she had a very bad feeling that Speed would have some of his memories erased . . . and things would never be the same again.