Spirited Away Fan Fiction ❯ Haku's Secret ❯ Chapter Five ( Chapter 5 )

[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]

Summary: For ten years all Chihiro has really wanted was to see Haku again. What will happen when he suddenly shows up? What secret is Haku keeping, and why won't he tell her why it's been ten years?


Disclaimer: I do not own spirited away.





It had been five days since Haku had told Chihiro about his illusion. Chihiro had taken holidays, feeling unease at the idea of Haku possibly collapsing again and her not being around. Though he had not had another illusion since, they still shared the same bed.
Haku still felt guilty about what he had not been able to tell her, Chihiro had not mentioned it and didn't seem like she was going to. Things were like they had been days ago, on the outside, Haku sighed and looked at the ground. This isn't helping; moping around avoiding everything, he thought, berating himself for this foolishness and insecurity.
"Haku what's wrong?" Chihiro asked startling him. He had been sitting at the dining table 'reading' and hadn't heard her come up behind him.
"Ah, ummm…nothing Chihiro." Was all he could manage, along with a weak smile. There is no need to tell her, he rationalized silently to himself. Besides it would just make things worse. Haku turned back to his book, and thus did not notice the emotions that were crossing Chihiro's face.
"Damn it Haku, can't you at least trust me?" Chihiro's voice was filled with raw emotion allowing Haku to hear the pain she felt at what she believed was his lack trust in her. "I know I'm just an annoyance and a useless burden but I…" She broke off as the first of many frustrated tears made its way down her cheek. Haku sat in the chair as her hurt filled words sunk in.
"Chihiro, what do you mean a burden?" His words were spoken in hushed tones as he got out of his chair and moved to her. Chihiro lowered her head so she didn't have to look at him. Haku repeated his question only to have her shake her head at him.

"Chihiro you are not a burden, and how could you be? You have let me stay here with you, and not asked anything of me." He had noticed not long after he had arrived that Chihiro was always apologising for things not being good enough. Haku wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her forward so that she was resting against him.
"Chihiro, could you please tell me something?" When Chihiro didn't answer him he lightly lifted her chin so that she was forced to look at him. Her eyes filled with tears as she stared back into his eyes. Suddenly not wanting to push the matter further, Haku pulled her closer in a loving embrace.
"It's alright you don't have to tell me." Chihiro's arms wrapped around him as she began to cry. His words seemed to be the key to unleashing her unshed tears. Haku didn't know how long they stood there; Chihiro in his arms sobbing silently.

"I'm sorry." She said as she wiped away her tears and tried to pull away but Haku's arms stayed firmly around her middle stopping her. As she raised her head to ask him to let go Haku's lips were pressed against hers, in a gentle and loving kiss that showed her of his love for her. Closing her eyes Chihiro abandoned herself in the kiss.

She pulled away and leant her head on his shoulder. Haku lifted Chihiro into his arms and carried her to the lounge. With Chihiro in his lap he sat silently, her head rested in the crook of his neck as she took comfort in his presence.

"They died because of me, you know?" Chihiro's voice a mere whisper as she spoke. Her words not really directed at Haku even though he was the only one there. Haku knew this and knew that it was something that she needed to get off her chest.

"I was the one driving when the accident happened. I sped up to over take another car and before I knew it there was another car coming right at me, and I froze. I didn't know what to do. Then I heard mum and dad scream and then nothing." Haku sat silently listening to Chihiro, his arm around her holding her close. Her head still rested in the crook of his neck and he could feel her breath on his skin.

"Haku, I'm sorry I…I just…" Haku placed a finger gently against her lips. "it's alright Chihiro , I don't mind you talking about this, you need to get it off your chest anyway." Chihiro moved back and looked up at him, giving him a skeptical look.

"It wasn't your fault Chihiro. It was an accident, you didn't know it was going to happen." Haku said as he cupped he cheek and lightly kissed her on the forehead.

"Thankyou Haku." She said as she wrapped her arms around him again. Haku's mind was filled with questions, all begging to be asked.

"Chihiro may I ask you a question?" his voice was even as he asked this, hiding all emotion. "Yes." The word was the barest of whispers and Haku wondered if he had heard it for if he had just imagined it.

"What makes you think that you are a burden and the cause of your parents death?"



A/N: so there is another chapter down...so ideas are coming slower now, can you tell? so chapter six will be a while off.