Teen Titans Fan Fiction ❯ The Little Cherub by Beautifulpurpleflame ❯ Confessions ( Chapter 5 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

A/N: I do not own the Teen Titans. No, really, I don't. I swear to you I DON'T! Oh whatever.

Chapter 5

Raven was in her room folding some clothes she had just gotten out of the dryer. She separated her clothes from Alex's and began to fold them. She heard a knock on her door and said, “Come in.”

Robin hesitantly entered and said, “Uh, hi Raven.”

“Hi,” she said with a soft smile and started folding a pair of her underwear. This made Robin slightly blush, but he was there for an important reason and couldn't let Ravens underwear throw him off.

“Um, can I talk to you?”

“About what?” she asked as she grabbed one of Alex's pajama bottoms. Robin closed the door and slowly made his way over to her. She heard her door close and she looked up from the laundry again. “Is everything okay?” she asked a bit worried.

“Yeah,” he said, but it wasn't very convincing.

“It doesn't sound okay,” she said putting down the shirt she was holding. “What's going on.”

“Okay, I have a question to ask you, but I'm not really sure how to put it,” he said growing quite nervous. “So I better just come out and ask you. Is Jacob really Alex's father?”

Ravens face seemed to turn pale and her knees almost went out as Robin asked her this. “What? Why… why would you ask me something like that?” she snapped.

“Because I don't think he is,” said Robin.

“Why? Just because Alex doesn't take after him? For Christ's sake, lots of kids don't look like both of their parents. I don't look like my father, but does that mean he didn't sire me?”

“Raven, he doesn't look like you or Jacob,” said Robin trying to sound strong and not afraid. “He has your eyes, but that's it. Obviously something's wrong with this picture.”

“How dare you! What, you think I just fucked a bunch of guys and got pregnant and I don't know who the father is?”

“No, I think you do know who that father is, you're just not telling us,” said Robin trying to calm her down. “Now just tell me, is Jacob Alex's father?”

Raven paused and stared at Robin with sheer hatred. She was at a loss for words. She felt tears forming in her eyes. She looked to the floor and finally squeaked, “No.”

“Okay,” said Robin kindly. “We got that out of the way. Now can you tell me who his father is?”

Raven looked up at him and wiped her eyes. “What do you care? It doesn't matter.”

“It does matter,” said Robin in more of a leader voice.

Raven just stood there and tried to stop her crying. She couldn't believe this was happening. Why did she come back? She was so stupid! She knew this would happen. “Robin, Alex's father… you just wouldn't understand.”

“Yes I would,” he said taking her shaking hands. “No matter who it is.” Raven just closed her eyes and he saw more tears escape. He had to tell her his guess. “Is it…,” he could barely say the name, “…is it… Beast Boy?” Raven looked up at him with shock. It was in her look that Robin got his answer.

“What? How?” Raven sputtered in shock.

Robin took the picture out of his pocket and handed it to Raven. “I found this picture of Beast Boy before he turned green.” Raven took it and looked at it thoroughly. “Raven, Alex looks just like him.”

Raven slowly sunk down and sat on her bed. She couldn't believe how much Alex and Beast Boy looked alike. She started to cry again and handed the picture back to Robin.

“So is he?”

Raven nodded her head and said in a shaky voice, “Yes.”

Robin secretly patted himself on the back for figuring all of this out. Of course, this wasn't the time to be proud, and he realized that a new problem had risen.

“Are you… are you going to tell him?”

“How the hell am I going to tell him?” she asked looking up at Robin with weeping eyes. “How do you tell someone that you've been hiding for the past three years with their child? He'd never forgive me.”

Robin sat down next to her and began rubbing her back soothingly. “Raven, what really happened three years ago? Were you really summoned by the monks of Azarath?”

“No,” she said wiping her eyes and trying to calm down. “Azarath was destroyed years ago, none of the monks survived.”

“So why did you really leave?”

“Because I found out that I was pregnant,” she said trying not to break down again. “Beast Boy and I had one drunken night of passion and I got pregnant.”

“But why did you leave? We could've helped you.”

“I was so confused, Robin. I wasn't sure what to do. Beast Boy was finally coming into his own and growing up, I couldn't just tell him that I was pregnant. He had a life to live. I mean, what would you do if a girl told you that she's pregnant and you don't even really like her? So I decided to leave until I could figure out what to do. And then, like I said, I met Jacob.”

“And you decided to use Jacob as an escape.”

“Basically. I convinced him, and myself, that I really liked him. I made sure we slept together as soon as possible and then I told him I was pregnant.”

“So, did he really just up and leave you?”

“No, he figured out that he wasn't the father and then left me.”

Robin thought about all of this and pieced it all together. Raven and Beast Boy slept together. Raven got pregnant. Raven ran away because she was scared. She tricked some guy into thinking he was the father. Guy figures out he's not and leaves. Raven is on her own to raise her son. Beast Boy's son. Now she was back and the truth was all being revealed.

“I really think you should tell him,” said Robin finally.

“I don't think I can,” said Raven blowing her nose.

“Listen, I can only imagine how scared you must be about telling him,” he said in a comforting voice. “I know that you're afraid that he'll get mad at you and never forgive you again. But he has a right to know.” Raven put her face in her hands and groaned. “And I think he'd actually be happy to know that Alex is his son. The two of them already seem to have a bond. Beast Boy even said to me that he wanted to be the male figure in Alex's life.”

“Really?” asked Raven a little surprised.

“Yeah, he also said that he can't wait to be a father,” said Robin with a smile. “I really think it would be better if you told him.”

Raven sighed and said, “I know. Why do you always have to be right?” Robin smiled again and gave her a hug.

Beast Boy was sitting in front of the television eating his lunch. He knew that Alex would be getting up soon and he wanted to eat before he woke. Next to him sat the monkey with the symbols. He hoped Alex would like it. He suddenly heard someone walking up to him. He turned and saw Raven coming over to him.

“Hey Raven,” he said with a smile. “Look what I found to give to Alex.” He held the monkey up and smiled. “Do you think he'll like it?”

Raven let out a small smile and said, “Probably.” Beast Boy smiled a little wider and put the monkey back down next to him. “Uh, Beast Boy, I need to talk to you.”

He didn't like the tone of her voice and he knew that this wasn't going to be a fun talk. Raven sat down next to him and summed up all of her courage. But before she got a chance to say anything Beast Boy beat her to it.

“Look, I know what this is about.”

“You do?” she said almost jumping out of her skin.

“Yeah. I really wanted to talk to you about this before you left three years ago, but I guess I just took too long.” Now Raven wasn't sure what he was talking about. “I didn't want our friendship to be ruined because of that night we… had sex. So do you think we can still be friends?”

Raven hadn't really thought about this much, but Beast Boy obviously had. “Beast Boy, I didn't come here to talk about that. Well, actually I kind of did.” She felt her heart beating faster and her palms growing sweatier. “It's… it's about Alex's father.”

“Jacob? Why, is he around again? I swear, if I ever meet him I'll teach him to leave his son,” said Beast Boy growing angry.

“Actually, Beast Boy, Jacob isn't Alex's father.”

A look of confusion crossed Beast Boy's face. “Then… who is?” he asked hesitantly and confused.

Raven didn't think she could do it. She didn't want him to get upset. This was going to change his life forever. One can't simply just reveal news like this.

“Raven?”

She took a big breath in and decided that she had to do it. It was the right thing to do.

“Who is Alex's father?”

“You're his father, Beast Boy.” As she said it she felt both a weight lift off of her and a horrible pain fill her chest.

Best Boy could have sworn he felt his heart stop and his stomach fly up into his throat. He even forgot to breath and started to feel light headed. The room was spinning and a million things raced through his mind.

Slowly Raven explained the whole story. The true story. Beast Boy did his best to listen, but he found it very hard. When she finished she waited for him to respond. His face was totally blank and she hoped that he had heard her. She really didn't want to explain it again.

“Are you okay?” she finally asked.

“So… he's my son?” he finally asked.

“Yes,” said Raven feeling horrible.

Beast Boy shook his head as if to clear it and then leaned forward, putting his face in his hands. Raven wasn't really sure what to say now. She really wanted to hear what he had to say. What he felt. But for a long time he sat there in silence, holding his face.

He suddenly jumped up and headed out of the room. Raven could feel that he was upset and knew she had to follow him. “Beast Boy,” she said standing up and following him. She followed him down the hall and saw him go into his room, slamming the door. She sensed many negative emotions coming out of his room and she knew that she was in for an argument. She knocked on the door and said, “Beast Boy please let me in.”

“I really don't want to talk to you right now,” he said angrily.

“I know, but we have to,” said Raven. “You have every right to be angry with me…”

“Damn right I do!” he screamed.

“I know, but please let me in,” she said as calmly as she could. “We have to talk about this.”

Suddenly the door unlocked and he quickly pulled it open. She thought the door was going to come off the hinges he pulled it open so roughly. He waited and motioned for her to come in. She was nervous, and even scared, but she entered. He closed it behind her and then walked passed her.

“Look, I know what I did was wrong,” she began. “I shouldn't have run away when I found out I was pregnant. But you have to understand that I didn't know what else to do.”

“You couldn't have told me?” he asked angrily.

“No, I couldn't,” she said, trying to keep her composure.

“We could have handled it together,” he said getting closer to her and was still very upset. “I could have helped.”

“Beast Boy I knew you weren't ready to have a child,” she said, trying her hardest to stay calm now. She felt like she was going to explode with tears of guilt.

“Well neither were you!” said Beast Boy.

“I didn't have a choice at that point,” she said, her voice cracking.

“And I did?” he asked.

“Yes, you didn't have to know. You could go on with your life and have fun. I didn't want you to be held down by having a child. And I knew that of all the people in the world, I was the last one you would want to have a child with.”

“But why did you make the decision for me?” asked Beast Boy. “Why couldn't you have at least let me know what was going on? We could have… Jesus Christ, I don't know! We could have done something. I just… I just can't believe that I have a son and I missed the first two years of his life.”

Now Raven felt tears streaming down her cheeks. She had always convinced herself that Beast Boy would want nothing to do with being a father. She was in denial about it. She just didn't want to think about Beast Boy wanting to be with his son. Wanting to raise him and be there for him. She had done a horrible thing now and she regretted everything.

“I can't tell you how sorry I am,” she finally said. “What I did was selfish and wrong and stupid and a number of other things. I just… hope that you can put your anger for me aside and be there for your son.”

“Well of course I am!” he said plainly. “As much as you don't think I am, I happen to be a very responsible person now and I am going to step up to the plate. And…” He paused and calmed himself down. “Well, the truth is that, I'm not completely surprised by this, because somehow I kinda knew. In the back of my mind I felt like he might have been my son. But I thought that was because we had had sex and he didn't have a father anymore and that I wanted to be there for him like others have been there for me. And now…”

Beast Boy was silent. Raven wanted to die. She had never been so uncomfortable in her life. She could feel all of his mixed emotions and it didn't help the way she was feeling. But, strangely, the anger that had been coming off of him was fading away.

“Wow… so I'm a dad,” he said.