Tekken Fan Fiction ❯ Jin and Xiaoyu love story ❯ I can't believe I almost said that ( Chapter 3 )

Feeling safe and sound in the school halls; walking to class was becoming hard. I wanted to close myself into a locker and just die; I’d told Jin that I loved him… ‘Oh I can’t believe you did that Xiao!’ Shaking my head trying to get over this quick; no one needs to know anything about our limo conversations at school. Deciding to skip lunch was hard; I like to eat… a lot. But seeing what happen this morning, maybe it’s in my best interest. But sitting in my next class was beginning to become not the right thing either.

I just need some air, some air outside the class room doors; cracking the door open and looking to my left and right for Jin. I really don’t know what I’m thinking, it’s not like I won’t have to ride home with him in the limo or anything. Shaking my head and stepping out into the hall; with my arms crossed I take a deep breath looking at the ceiling. “I’ve been looking all over for you.” Turning around seeing Jin looking at me; “Jin” my voice high and cracked! “I wanted to make sure you were okay; I know this morning’s ride… was kind of… deep.” How I wished for a rock or throwing stars to have killed me; ‘Deep? That’s it? Our conversation was deep? How about saying something about the almost I love you… or about the I only want to be with you thing!’ Suddenly I’m not so sure if I want to end it with Hwoarang; I mean at least I know he’s a sure thing.

But more, I don’t know what to say, my mind is completely empty of all rational thought… in this moment. His expression is waiting for me to say something; but I can’t, not only does my mouth not work, neither does my brain. “Well… so maybe you’re not okay” Jin said; “But you haven’t answered my question yet.” “Www… what question” that was a good as it was going to get from me. He smiles at me again and I feel my face grow hot; “What about Hwoarang?” “Um…” I wanted to say something smart or just something would be good. But that was clearly not happening; ‘What about him? Why does he keep coming up in a conversation about me and him? Hwoarang has nothing to do with anything… it’s me and Jin. Xiaoyu and Jin… what’s up man?’

“Why do you keep asking about him” I asked annoyed of the question. “Xiao” Jin calmly calls my name; I feel the anger leave my face and body starting to calm and get warm. “Xiao… Hwoarang is your boyfriend? I won’t share you with anyone.” My brain officially came back to life and went into overdrive; ‘What did Jin just say he wouldn’t share me with anyone? Does that mean he likes me?’ I want to clarify what I just heard, I still don’t believe it. “Ww…what Jin…? What are you saying?” He gives me this look, something I can’t put a name to, but I want to be lost in it forever!

“Xiaoyu” Jin said hypnotizing me “I want to be with you too.” From that moment, it’s official my mind is stuck between standing up to cheer or dropping to the ground unconscious. And I can’t say at this moment which one would be more beneficial to me; “So tell me Xiao… what do you plan to do about Hwoarang?” Of course the decision was already made; I was already going to break up with him. Well expect for that moment of… I don’t know what I would call it. I was just thinking it was a good thing I didn’t break up with Hwoarang yet.

But things have changed; Jin wants to be with me too! “I had this plan….” “What plan” Jin’s look is somewhat worried; and I’m not sure why? As if anyone would ever tell him no; especially me… I mean I just told him I loved him! Looking down feeling guilty about this plan suddenly; “When I realized I could only be with you….” Cutting myself off, I’m not completely sure I am ready to bury myself; “I woke up early this morning, to tell you and I had planned to see Hwoarang today and tell him.” “Tell him what” Jin asked? “That I couldn’t be with him anymore… that I didn’t like him…”; ‘Why do I feel so guilty…?’
There isn’t anything really between Hwoarang and me; sure we went a few places together and kissed a few times. But come on it’s not like we’re having sex or something to make me feel guilty. It’s not guilty; maybe it’s sad because I lied to him for so long. I know I didn’t want anything with him; I knew I wanted to be with Jin… it was always Jin.

“When are you going to see him again” Jin asked? “Today after training… I was going to tell him.” “Do you mind if I come with you Xiaoyu?” “Drive me” I needed to clarify this; why would Jin want to come with me. I didn’t have intention to spend all afternoon with him and then break up with him. “I just want to make sure my girlfriend is safe.” Xiaoyu melting in her school outfit, check! I nod… that’s all I can do; well expect for wonder what he kisses like.