Tekken Fan Fiction ❯ Jin and Xiaoyu love story ❯ Sorrow ( Chapter 16 )

Xiaoyu POV

Finally my bedroom door opened; Jin closed the door softly behind himself. I wanted to run and jump on him, but instead… I watched him. He looked at me with that captivating smile; my body was so ready to feel him. But my mind screamed to get an explanation first; and no matter how much I wanted him… I needed answers more than sex!

Jin walked up to me and kissed my neck; it felt soooo good! He looked at me and said “Come on… let’s talk….” Nodding my head and taking his hand, we walked to the sofa. He sat in the corner with his legs parted, almost like he was lying; I sat between his legs with my back toward him. “So tell me… what exactly do you want to know.” His voice was always so smooth and calm; I know he said he missed me… but sometimes I wonder.

“Where were you for 3 weeks? And if you were on a trip with Heihachi, why didn’t you tell me before you left?” These are things I wanted to know; I mean does it not make sense to tell your girlfriend were you are going… especially if you’re going to be gone for 3 weeks? He grabbed my arm and reached for my hand; intermingling our fingers, he said “Please listen to all I have to say… because it’s the truth.”

“Long before there was a you and I… even friends you and I! I spoke with my Grandfather about the tournament; I wanted to be part of it. I wanted to see as much as I possibly could; so he agreed to take me on this trip.” There was silence… “Um… are you done?” “Ask your questions” he said; really… was that it? Turning around and facing him; “Why didn’t you tell me that you were leaving for 3 weeks?” Looking at me he answered; “I didn’t know how to tell you; I always think everything thru… and this I didn’t. When we got together I didn’t think about this trip; and when it came time to go… I didn’t know how to tell you. I stood outside your door the morning we left… and I couldn’t find the words.”

I want to be mad… really mad. But I know he’s telling the truth, I can see it in his eyes; I still don’t think that is good enough thou! “Why didn’t you even send me a text message telling me?” “I couldn’t make or take phone calls Xiaoyu” Jin voice is still smooth “Most of the time, we were over ocean.” Resting my hand on my head; “Jin… this doesn’t make any sense to me? I walked around school for 3 weeks like a heartbroken child! I had troubles eating and sleeping… was I not important enough for you to find a way to tell me?” “I’m sorry Xiao… I don’t know… what can I say to make you understand how sorry I am” Jin said. His voice isn’t as calm and smooth as it had been.

He’s upset and I want to say something to him; it’s not like I didn’t forgive him already. But that’s a good question… I don’t know what he can say to make it better. There is nothing more than he should have told me; but then it hits me again… maybe he didn’t tell me because he doesn’t… love me. My eyes trail down and away from his; of course… it makes so much sense now! Jin doesn’t love me… he only likes me! So he didn’t feel the need to tell me… I’m just another girl he’s sleeping with! Closing my eyes, my head is pounding… hard.

“Xiaoyu” Jin calls “Are you okay? What are you thinking?” I can’t look at him; my eyes hurt… so I know there red. Closing my eyes feeling a tear run down my face; “I think I understand why you couldn’t tell me….” “If you do… why are you crying” he asks? What do you think… because you don’t love me! Um hello, wouldn’t any girl who lost their virginity to someone they love, but that person doesn’t love them back? “Nothing… I’m not crying… just realizing that…” I don’t want him to think that he’s going to hurt me; I’m not a child… I don’t want him to think he’s dealing with a child.

Deep breath with my eyes closed tight; raising my head and taking another deep breath. I want to end this before I fall any deeper for Jin; if I don’t I won’t be able to live when he leaves me for someone else! Opening my eyes, taking another deep breath; his eyes are worried and I think… scared. “Jin… I don’t think I’ll ever be able to get over this… I think we should end it… now.” He sat up quick; “What? What the hell are you talking about Xiao?”

Breath Xiaoyu, just breath… you can do this! You don’t want to be in a relationship with him for 5 years and then he leaves you; you have to do this! He doesn’t love you… do you understand Xiaoyu… JIN DOES NOT LOVE YOU! Standing up and walking to the door; “Xiao… what are you talking about? You want to break up… why?” Opening the door and turning to look at Jin; closing my eyes briefly to tell myself again what I’m doing is right! He jumps to his feet and runs over to me, shutting the door; “Xiaoyu why are you doing this?”

Fear, sadness and confusion wrapped in those beautiful hazel iris’s that Jin was blessed with. Why is he making this so hard? I don’t understand why he would be making this so hard; I’m doing him a favor! “Jin” I say, convincing myself, as soon I get him to leave I can cry myself to sleep. Oh thank anything there is no school tomorrow! “Xiao… don’t do this” he says “Tell me how to make it up to you! Please Xiaoyu… don’t do this!” You’re doing the right thing Xiaoyu; you’re doing the right thing Xiaoyu! “It’s already done Jin… please leave.” His eyes pierce thru me like a dagger; and I can barely stand. If he stays here just another second I’m going to crack.

Then Jin leaves; opening the door he walks out never looking back. As soon as I heard the door close, my legs gave out and I dropped to the floor already in top speed of crying! I couldn’t move, my legs… they wouldn’t work; I was wailing so loud it only momentarily crossed my mind that someone might hear me. But it didn’t matter; I mean… I know I did the right thing… but why doesn’t it feel like the right thing! Why didn’t he look like I was doing the right thing?

The morning came without me even knowing; I was woken up with the door hitting my head. “Oh I’m sorry Miss. Ling” the maid said bending at my side. Looking at her was hard; “Miss. Ling” the maid cried “Are you okay? Are you ill?” Sitting up to my bum; “Um… what?” She bend closer to me and whispered; “Did Master Kazama hurt you?” “Um… what…?” I don’t understand what she is talking about; “Did Jin what…?” “Miss. Ling… your face….” Everything suddenly rushed my mind; and I have a headache… really really bad!

Jumping to my feet and rushing to the restroom; hearing the maid follow me… but it doesn’t matter. My mouth dropped up as I stood in the mirror; now I understand why she thought Jin hurt me. My eyes are swollen and my cheeks are red… something bad. Looking at the maid; “No Jin didn’t hurt me…” at least not on the outside; “But I have a really bad headache.” “I’ll get you some medicine” the maid said leaving the bedroom. Washing my face and brushing my teeth, hoping the maid doesn’t tell everyone about my face.

Walking to my bed and getting under the covers; when the maid walks in handing me the medicine and a glass of water. Taking it quick and turning over to sleep; hearing the door close my eyes closed thinking; ‘I hope Jin….”

Jin’s POV

Opening Xiao’s bedroom door; I can’t wait to see her! Closing the door behind me, I see her… standing in a pink night dress. I can’t help but smile, Xiaoyu looks intoxicating! But I can tell she’s going to want answers before we do anything else; and I can’t say I didn’t or shouldn’t of expect this; and that’s okay… I’ll do anything for Xiaoyu!

Walking to her and kissing her neck; I can’t tell you how long I’ve waited to do that. “Come on… let’s talk.” She nods her head, grabs my hand and we walk to the sofa. Sitting in corner of the sofa with my legs out; Xiaoyu sat between my legs with her back toward me. “So tell me… what exactly do you want to know” I ask; I’m not much for giving up unnecessary information.

“Where were you for 3 weeks? And if you were on a trip with Heihachi, why didn’t you tell me before you left?” The explanation is so easy, but if she will believe me… now that’s something different. But why wouldn’t Xiaoyu believe me; I wouldn’t lie to her… she knows that. Grabbing her hand; “Please listen to all I have to say… because it’s the truth.”

“Long before there was a you and I… even friends you and I! I spoke with my Grandfather about the tournament; I wanted to be part of it. I wanted to see as much as I possibly could; so he agreed to take me on this trip.” I stopped, I’m not sure how much I need to tell her; there was silence… “Um… are you done” she asks? “Ask your questions” I said, thinking that maybe this would be easier if I just answered her questions. She turned around to face me; “Why didn’t you tell me that you were leaving for 3 weeks?” I need to make sure I look at her; she needs to know I’m telling the truth; “I didn’t know how to tell you; I always think everything thru… and this I didn’t. When we got together I didn’t think about this trip; and when it came time to go… I didn’t know how to tell you. I stood outside your door the morning we left… and I couldn’t find the words.”

Her eyes are confused; I know she knows I’m telling the truth. Can’t she see it in my eyes? But even to me… it doesn’t sound good enough. “Why didn’t you even send me a text message telling me” Xiaoyu asked? “I couldn’t make or take phone calls Xiaoyu” I said; still calm… but I’m trying hard to sound this way “Most of the time, we were over ocean.” She put her hand on her forehead; I know what that means… she doesn’t believe me. “Jin… this doesn’t make any sense to me? I walked around school for 3 weeks like a heartbroken child! I had troubles eating and sleeping… was I not important enough for you to find a way to tell me?” That is not what I wanted to hear; she walked around school like something was wrong. “I’m sorry Xiao… I don’t know… what can I say to make you understand how sorry I am.” My voice sounds shaky to me; this isn’t going as well as I had hoped.

She is thinking; I swear I can hear the wheels in her mind turning fast; “Xiaoyu? Are you okay? What are you thinking?” She doesn’t look at me, I can hear her sniffle… my mind is going crazy! She closes her eyes and I see a tear running down her stone white face; “I think I understand why you couldn’t tell me….” “If you do… why are you crying” I ask? If she understands and believes me, in my mind there is no reason to be upset. “Nothing… I’m not crying… just realizing that…” She’s not making any sense to me; what does nothing mean?

Xiaoyu is really scaring me; she takes a deep breath and raises her head; she is working up to something… but I don’t know what and it’s scaring me. “Jin… I don’t think I’ll ever be able to get over this… I think we should end it… now.” What the hell! Sitting up asking; “What? What the hell are you talking about Xiao?” Breath Jin, just breathe… stay calm and find out what the hell Xiao is doing! My mind is jumping around and around; nothing makes any sense, why does Xiaoyu want to end our relationships? I don’t want it to end! She’s walking to the door; why? Why is Xiao walking to the door? “Xiao… what are you talking about? You want to break up… why;” I can’t believe my voice sounds calm; I’m going crazy! She opened the door and looked at me; jumping to my feet and running over to her and shutting the door; “Xiaoyu why are you doing this?”

Her eyes are so hard, I can’t see anything. Why is she doing this? Does she really not love me? I don’t know what to say, but if I leave… she’s going to be gone forever! Think Jin… think… there has to be something… think! “Jin” she says; her tone is so convincing; “Xiao… don’t do this” I say “Tell me how to make it up to you! Please Xiaoyu… don’t do this!” I can’t believe this is really happening; Xiaoyu my beautiful… her eyes are not showing any forgiveness. “It’s already done Jin… please leave.” Her eyes pierce thru me like a dagger into my soul; and I’m having trouble standing. I can’t stay here any longer… I’m going to lose it; but I can’t leave her… I don’t want to leave her. Glancing down, I open the door and walk out.

Closing the door behind me; I can’t look back, if I do I won’t leave. I haven’t left the door yet; I heard her hit the ground and I think that’s her crying. I couldn’t get my legs to move; I hear her crying and I want to go back inside and comfort her. But how… she just broke up with me… she’s crying over me… again! Stupid idiot Jin; why didn’t you tell her! Why did you have to be such a fool! I want to hit something, kick something… hard… anything, I don’t care what or who! Leaving the door and walking toward the dojo; I just want to be alone and I know I can hit anything as hard as I want too. Xiaoyu is crying on the ground; she can’t honestly think she did the right thing… can she… really?