Tokyo Babylon Fan Fiction / X/1999 Fan Fiction ❯ Lifeblood ❯ Chapter 3 ( Chapter 3 )

Xandra and Krystal Rose present Lifeblood

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Rating: NC-17 for yaoi lemon this chapter. Pleased be warned.

Chapter 3

It had been a hard day for the two of them, Seishirou reflected as he turned back the covers and invited Subaru to slide between them. He eyed Subaru carefully while the Sumeragi slowly climbed into bed. Getting in beside him, he wondered if Subaru was used to riding at a hard pace.

"Are you... eh... coping all right with the pace of our journey?"

Subaru paused in the midst of pulling at the blanket, to give the question some thought. Given that he'd never gone quite so far from home before he was in pretty good shape. "Yes, I'm fine. I've been riding since I was little," he said dismissively and settled in, burrowing into the sheets like a contented cat.

Seishirou copied the young prince and would have laid back and closed his eyes except for hopeful gaze boring into him. He raised an eyebrow and gave into the temptation to ask, "Is something the matter?"

Subaru was a little embarrassed, but managed to sheepishly ask. "Would you let me... hold onto you as I sleep?"

There was no defense against that doleful look. Seishirou caved and surrendered. How could he refuse when Subaru asked so sweetly?

"Come on then," he said, opening his arms to gather the young prince into them. "There, are you comfortable?" he asked, stroking at that soft hair reassuringly.

Subaru snuggled into the embrace and sighed happily. Seishirou smelled so good. "Yes... thank you, Seishirou-san."

Seishirou continued to stroke soothing touches over his head, amazed at the softness of the young prince's hair. "Sleep well, Subaru-kun."

An impish smile spread across Subaru's face that would have alarmed Seishirou if he'd been looking. The wine was making Subaru more daring than he would normally be. Tilting his head up, he caught the hand that was stroking him and lightly kissed at the petting fingers.

The other man stopped short, completely taken aback by the bold gesture. "Subaru-kun, what are you doing?" Seishirou was rather proud that he kept his voice steady.

Subaru gave him a sleepy, half-lidded gaze, the color in his eyes darkening. "I thought you might like it... did I do something wrong?"

The sight of that face, filled with want made Seishirou swallow nervously. He didn't know the young man had it in him to be such a tease. "I thought you were tired?" he asked blandly, schooling his face into an unconcerned expression.

"I am, just a little," Subaru admitted. He smiled again and shifted his body position to snuggle up even closer. "Though, it will be a bit before I'll fall asleep."

With a measure of control that made him proud of himself, Seishirou forced his body to not react to the squirming form beside his. "All right then, good night," he said firmly, closing his eyes, making a pretense of trying to sleep.

Subaru wasn't about to let him off so easily. Mischievously, he leaned forward and quickly dropped a kiss on Seishirou's neck. Then he swiftly closed his eyes, dissembling sleep, though the silly grin on his face was a dead giveaway.

Seishirou's eyes flew open at the caress. "Subaru-kun!"

Subaru opened his eyes just a little. He was a terrible liar by nature and couldn't hide the playfulness in his voice. "Something wrong, Seishirou-san?"

That innocent sounding phrase didn't fool Seishirou one bit, and he was about to call Subaru on the kiss when he thought better of pursuing his question. He was just surprised the Sumeragi had found enough courage to do it. .

"Nothing," he replied finally.

"Are you sure?" Subaru asked, the little grin still obvious on his face, eyes glittering. He had no idea why he was doing this; it just seemed like the right thing to do.

So quickly were the tables turned on him that Seishirou was at a loss for what to do. He was more accustomed to being the teaser than the teased.

"Quite sure," he replied at last, hoping that would squash any further overtures. If the Sumeragi continued to make advances, he didn't know what he'd end up doing-- he was only sure it would be to their regret. As it was, he was having a hard time keeping himself from responding.

"Oh," Subaru said quietly. He had been certain that from the way Seishirou teased him, he would have liked some of it reciprocated. He lowered his eyes and wondered if he should keep trying or back off. It was hard to decide to retreat when everything inside of him was telling him to go for it.

Seishirou took in a deep, even breath in an effort to calm himself, but his perturbed state was impossible to hide. He shifted away slightly, trying hard to conceal the growing discomfort in his groin.

That movement was interpreted as rejection. "I'm sorry..." Subaru said weakly, scooting further away from him. "I've upset you. I had no right... I'm sorry."

Seishirou sighed; he couldn't help but feel like a complete heel whenever Subaru started with the guilt trip. He reached back to hug him comfortingly. "What on earth do you have to be sorry about? You're an attractive person. It's just that I can't take advantage of you."

Subaru's eyes flew open when he felt himself taken back into those wonderful arms. He nestled his head in the folds of Seishirou's shirt. "I don't know what I'm doing..."

"What do you mean?" The older man was thoroughly confused by Subaru's line of thought.

Subaru timidly peeped up at him. "You say things that make me feel... warm and flustered. I thought that meant that... I don't know, maybe you wanted..."

"I'm sorry, Subaru-kun," Seishirou said, thinking to himself that it really was his fault after all for leading Subaru on. "It's not that I don't want you... you're a fantastic and wonderful person. Anyone you like will be privileged. But... I can't..." He sighed heavily. This situation was growing more complicated by the minute.

The Sumeragi was having trouble keeping his thoughts from flying away from him in a jumbled frenzy. He couldn't help but feel a dull ache in his heart that had been steadily getting worse since the start of their journey together.

"But it's you I want," he declared.

The flickering light of the candles reflected Seishirou's solemn gaze. "You can't possibly know what you want, you're too young. What you're offering, so freely... I shouldn't accept." The pair of brilliant green eyes looking back at him lured him to give in. It was a pitfall into a depth that Seishirou feared he couldn't escape from.

"I know I haven't experienced much, but I know what I feel," Subaru said, unconsciously bringing his hand to rest over his heart. "And this isn't going away."

Seishirou tipped his forehead down to rest against Subaru. Somehow he understood what Subaru was feeling and it frightened him. He was deeply dismayed that he could feel something for this beautiful, vulnerable young man. It wasn't supposed to be like this...

The bodyguard knew he was going to get into a world of trouble very soon if he let the Sumeragi have his way, but one look at those lovely eyes and his defenses, carefully built over the years, crumbled.

"I shouldn't..." Seishirou protested weakly, even though his resistance was crumbling away like a sandcastle from an incoming tide. "I truly shouldn't..."

Subaru looked up at him, trying not to tremble or cry, because that would have proven that Seishirou was right when he said he was too young. "I know we shouldn't... but it hurts."

Seishirou hugged him tighter. "Don't... Subaru-kun..." How those luminous orbs gazed with tears tugged at him. Relenting, he asked, "Tell me what you want..."

The reply was soft. "I want to be near you... I don't want to be alone anymore... I want..." Subaru's voice dropped to barely a whisper, "...you."

The declaration sent a shot of sheer joy through the bodyguard. Seishirou's hands rubbed at the tender curve of Subaru's neck, before coming around to the front of his face, tipping his chin up to meet his steady gaze.

"Are you sure you want me? You don't know the first thing about me. I could be very bad for you." There was a warning note in his voice. It was not too late. The young man still had a chance to pick up on his hints and veer away. He didn't want to see those beautiful green eyes turn upon him in disgust one day, as that day would certainly come if they went ahead with what Seishirou feared they would.

Subaru lost the struggle to keep from crying and two slender trails trickled down his face. He was so confused over what he was feeling and equally frustrated over not knowing what to do about it. "I can't help it," he admitted helplessly. "It's like my entire being wants you. It hurts so much."

The sight of Subaru in such pain forced Seishirou to give up completely. He patted at him soothingly saying, "hush... hush…"

What was about to happen this night was fated. So, decision reached, Seishirou made up his mind to stop worrying about the future. "I know what you want. I want you too," he told Subaru gently and bent down to kiss the tears away from his eyes.

Subaru blinked away a few more tears, gazing up at him trustingly. He nearly melted when Seishirou said that he felt the same way. It was a statement that brought a leap of joy to his heart. Winding his arms around the other man, he held onto him tightly, afraid that he'd change his mind. "You... you do too?"

Seishirou nodded in confirmation and continued to kiss away the wet trails on that fragile face. "I want you very much, I wanted you right from the first time that I saw you."

Subaru sighed happily, barely believing that this was true. His eyes closed to inhale a breath of the other's distinct scent, a scent that made Subaru's heart flutter wildly. Seishirou's admission made the ache in his chest change to a warmer and more light-headed sensation. "So did I... I knew you were special the moment I met you."

Seishirou's kissing progressed down Subaru's face, until he faced a soft pair of full and tempting lips. To these, he pressed a firmer kiss. After a moment, he moved his head away, eyes half lidded to mask the desire within them, so as not to frighten the younger man. He wanted to see Subaru's reaction.

Subaru's eyes were wide with wonder. He'd never been kissed before. "Seishirou-san..."

He was met with a mild concern. "Yes, Subaru-kun? Did you not like that?"

"Please... do that again," Subaru answered, touching his cheek lightly.

The smile that broke on Seishirou's face reflected his relief. "It would be my pleasure." He swooped down and proceeded to show him just what a real kiss ought to be like.

Subaru made a small noise of surprise at the forceful way Seishirou was meeting his request, but he liked it very much. He let instinct take over, moving his lips in response.

The enthusiasm at which he received encouraged Seishirou to go further. He pushed his tongue insistently in Subaru's mouth, teaching him just how pleasurable it could be.

And Subaru learned. The young man's hands grabbed handfuls of his bodyguard's shirt, trying to prolong the contact.

After a long while of lazy kissing, Seishirou broke off the caress. "Do you know where all this is leading, Subaru-kun?" He wanted to know whether the Sumeragi was sure about the intimacy that was to come.

Subaru shot him a serious look. "I'm not as naïve as I seem. I know what happens when two people are intimate with each other."

"Yes… they would have told you," Seishirou replied. It made sense. Subaru was a prince and princes were expected to go forth and procreate. Still, there were probably some mechanics Seishirou thought he should enlighten him about.

"But do you know how two men would be intimate? It would hurt you, somewhat."

Subaru nodded bravely. "I don't mind. I want to be close to you."

"You're wonderful, Subaru-kun," he purred, claiming that sweet mouth once more. Hands roamed upwards to Subaru's collar and began to unlace the ties from the nightshirt.

Subaru was a little nervous as he felt his shirt start to come loose, uncertain as to what Seishirou was going to do next. His heart raced expectantly.

Seishirou slipped the shirt off and tossed it to the side. Then he began kissing down his jaw to his collarbone, where he nipped at it gently. "Don't worry. I'll try to make you feel good," he breathed reassuringly.

Subaru tilted his head back, offering his neck to his chosen lover. He felt like he could fly apart with each nip and caress. It suddenly occurred to him that he was just lying there. He supposed he should do something in return. "Seishirou-san... what should I do?"

The question redirected an amused amber gaze back to his face. "Well... you could touch me wherever you want," Seishirou suggested.

Subaru experimentally reached out and touched Seishirou's cheek before running his fingers down his neck and shoulders. He explored, lingering over the smooth skin, learning each curve of the muscles that shaped his special someone. His fingers trailed down the front of that broad chest, unknowingly grazing over a hardened nipple. "How is this?"

Seishirou hissed at the touch. "It feels wonderful. See...?" he said, and proceeded to demonstrate by flicking against Subaru's nipple, before succumbing to temptation and taking it into his mouth, sucking and licking at the nub of flesh.

The resulting gasp was satisfying to Seishirou's ears. Leaning so near to him, he could practically hear the hastening beat of Subaru's heart as he grew more excited. The younger man squirmed against him and Seishirou smiled to feel the bulge against him, knowing that the young one was experiencing that delicious ache between his legs thanks to his efforts.

Seishirou didn't get to experiment further, for shaking hands were fumbling at his shirt, trying to figure out how to remove it. Seishirou obligingly helped by directing Subaru's hands to the buttons. His mouth was too occupied at Subaru's sensitive peaks to provide any verbal instructions.

Subaru very slowly managed to get the buttons undone. He was proud of himself that he managed it, the task made difficult with his mind engulfed in a haze.

Sensing Subaru's success at the fastenings, Seishirou shrugged his own shirt off without even a pause in his caresses. His hands roved busily over that willing body, until they met the edge of Subaru's pants. He swiftly pushed them down and he kissed his way across his stomach, pausing briefly to tantalize the smooth skin at his navel.

Subaru moaned lightly. Seishirou knew exactly how to touch him. He could hardly think about anything else except peeling away the rest of Seishirou's clothes and touching him back. The pants, he managed to get off part way, but he was trembling so much that this was no easy task.

Taking pity on him, Seishirou stopped what he was doing and removed the garment entirely. Besides, it was hard to maneuver with his pants half around his legs. Since they were apart anyway, he economically stripped Subaru of his underwear as well, and stopped to drink in the sight of him with his eyes. "You're very beautiful," he concluded.

Subaru flushed at the praise, self-conscious at being fully exposed. His eyes fell upon Seishirou's well-muscled body and he flushed harder. "So are you..."

Seishirou closed the distance between them and held Subaru close, just wanting to feel their bare skins touching.

Subaru's eyelashes fluttered as his fingers gently ran down Seishirou's back. He wanted to feel as much of him as he could. This was an experience that left him feeling warmer and more intoxicated than any wine could have ever made him.

Seishirou was almost purring with pleasure from the touch. He was happy that Subaru was proving such an apt pupil. Satisfied that he didn't need to give him any more directions, he resumed where he left off, continuing his progress kissing all the way down. He was pleased to see Subaru quite at attention even at this early stage. Knowing exactly how good it felt, he lightly brushed a hand against the shaft.

Subaru jumped slightly at that. If he wasn't fully aroused before, he was now. He studied Seishirou's movements, wondering what he planned to do next.

Seishirou bent forward and licked at the tip and took the rigid length with one hand. "Do you trust me?"

"Yes..." Subaru replied in a strangled gasp, biting his lip in a bid to control himself. Seishirou's touch, threatened to drive him wild.

Seishirou smiled to see the reaction. "I'm glad. If any of this makes you uncomfortable, let me know." That was all the warning he gave before he moved forward and took him firmly into his mouth.

Subaru cried out in surprise at being enveloped. He bucked his hips upwards without any thought, reflexively, wanting to push further in.

But Seishirou's hands were holding onto his hips firmly, careful not to allow him to push far enough in to choke him. He swirled his tongue against the underside of that hard shaft, before pulling his mouth outwards-- not entirely off but leaving only the tip remaining inside. Then suddenly he plunged back in, all the while keeping a strong sucking motion.

Subaru's hands convulsively reached for something to hold, and it was the sheets he latched onto, grabbing fistfuls of it and twisting at it in a effort to contain his rising excitement. Seishirou's attentions were driving all coherent thought from his mind.

Seishirou continued that sensual motion, knowing just how to heighten the experience. He pushed him deep inside his throat, though he had to nerve himself not to trigger his gag reflex. It wasn't like he did this very often.

Soft moans issued from the young prince, his knuckles going white from gripping the sheets so hard. His back was arched high off the bed and his body squirmed about, battling the blissful pressure that was rising in him.

Subaru's uninhibited response pleased Seishirou immensely. He didn't want him to hold anything back. This was how he wished to make him: desperate and wild. Timing things not a moment too close, he let Subaru slip from his mouth. Moving upwards to cover the smaller frame with his, Seishirou paused to observe his partner closely.

The young Sumeragi was panting heavily, chest heaving in his effort to regain his breath. He whimpered in disappointment at being left hanging, directing Seishirou a pleading look. "Please...."

Seishirou smiled indulgently at him. "It gets better if you're patient, Subaru-kun."

Subaru forced himself to calm down and steadied his breathing. "I feel like...like I'm going to burst."

Seishirou patted him soothingly. "Yes I know. I'll make sure you enjoy this very, very much." With that said, he promptly proceeded to kiss him again, while keeping a talented hand stroking on his erection, just roughly enough to keep him fully aroused, but without any regular rhythm to bring him off.

Subaru was unaware he was being played like a fine tuned instrument at the hands of a professional musician. He practically melted at being kissed again, drowning in the burning heat generated by the act. He wanted more... and to touch Seishirou. Shaking arms soon curled themselves around Seishirou's neck.

Seishirou nibbled lightly on that enticingly full lip, offered so generously to him. His hands never ceased in their play down below, the soft pants and moans he elicited from Subaru were music in his ears.

The playful touches were almost more than Subaru could handle. His body was being pushed into taking more than it had ever done before. Desperately he pleaded once more, "Please...Seishirou-san...."

A little of that sadistic hunter in Seishirou surfaced when he heard that low throated plea. He stopped and innocently tipped his head. "What can I do for you, Subaru-kun?" Seishirou reveled in the groan that was his reply.

Subaru tossed about, not having enough experience to know just what he wanted. He only knew that his body was screaming for release. "Please... do… something!"

The pleading eyes that turned on him, so filled with a hunger that he was responsible for, made Seishirou relent. "All right, wait just a minute," he said soothingly. He slid off Subaru and walked over to the small dining table, and grabbed a large pat of butter left from dinner. It would have to do for their purposes.

Subaru was embarrassed by how horribly empty he felt at being left. He half sat up to watch Seishirou, and his eyes flew open wide to see what he'd returned with. "Butter?"

Seishirou grinned to see his expression. "Yes, butter. This is necessary." Sitting down beside Subaru, he dipped a finger into the pat and swiped it over one hard nub on Subaru's chest. He pushed the young man down and proceeded to suck at it again. "Hmmm, like that?"

Subaru definitely liked the searing sensation that shot through him. He gasped his reply. "Oh..." He didn't quite understand the need for the condiment, but he trusted Seishirou.

Seishirou took more of the butter and spread it liberally on his fingers. With another hand, he pushed Subaru's legs wide apart. "Now don't be frightened by what I'm going to do next, all right?" He kept his eyes focused on Subaru.

He met Seishirou's gaze and nodded, watching him carefully. While he trusted the other man completely, he couldn't help but be a little scared.

Seishirou placed his finger against that tight ring of muscle and swirled the cream around the entrance before gently pushing in. "Shhh, it'll be all right soon," he said when Subaru started to lift his hips up automatically to back away.

Subaru let out a soft whimper, his muscles wanting to tighten at the intrusion. It hurt and felt very awkward.

Seishirou worked his finger in deeper and deeper before pulling it almost out. One hand idly stroked at Subaru's hip to relax him while he concentrated on spreading the lubrication around. When he felt him no longer tensing around the single digit, he removed it to coat more of the cream on his fingers.

"It doesn't hurt right?" Seishirou asked with some concern while inserting a second finger in to stretch him. Subaru shook his head, not trusting his voice to answer.

Seishirou made an approving noise at Subaru's courage. When he judged Subaru to be properly prepared, he quickly slicked himself before leaning forward to kiss him tenderly on the lips while positioning himself. The moment of truth was at hand.

The rough thrust forward prompted the young prince to cry out in pain, his arms flailing around, trying to find something to grab onto. One hand found the edge of the bed and the other nearly smacked Seishirou in the head, missing by only a narrow margin.

In self-preservation, Seishirou reached up quickly to take Subaru by his wrists in an iron grip, pinning them down. The struggles did not dislodge him, only resulting in him entering deeper.

"Calm down, Subaru-kun," he said, cautiously removing a hand from a slender wrist and soothingly brushed at his face. He held on tightly to his self-control, so as not to begin moving more than necessary within Subaru.

Subaru closed his eyes, forcing himself to calm down though he was still shaking. It wasn't bad, he firmly told himself. Seishirou's presence in him was almost more than he could handle, but he bit his lip in determination to be brave.

Seishirou continued to softly pet him. "Does it hurt very much?" he asked cautiously. "I'm so sorry. Do you want me to stop?" He didn't think he could stop, not with that wonderful heat encasing him, but he would try if Subaru wanted it. He figured he could always go relieve himself elsewhere if it came down to it.

Subaru blinked back a few tears. "No! I'll be all right. Please continue," he said desperately. He curled his hands into tight fists and tried not to think about the pain.

Seishirou could feel Subaru's tense spasms lessening around him, letting him know that the young man was getting used to the situation. Once again he petted him tenderly before he began a careful thrusting motion, while skimming his fingers back down Subaru's skin to his penis. It had surprisingly remained hard. He took it in his hand and began to stroke it.

"Don't think about the pain, just think about me, being with you like this."

Subaru nodded and thought of the warmth he enjoyed in the presence of Seishirou, of how he cared about him and how good he made him feel. Before too long, he was relaxing enough to conclude that this act merely took a bit of getting used to. As Seishirou continued his movements, he noticed he was thrusting erratically, swiveling his hips around. Subaru suddenly gasped aloud. Seishirou had struck something deep inside of him that actually felt good. And it felt even better when Seishirou picked up the speed of his thrusts.

The older man could sense when things began to change for Subaru. The slight imperceptible thrusting back of Subaru's hips against him, that soft clench of his fist around a pillow, were all indicators that the Sumeragi was enjoying himself. Softly he purred a question. "It's not so bad now, is it?"

Subaru nodded in agreement, his green eyes darkening with pleasure. "Yes... yes... not bad at all" he muttered incoherently, the new sensations overwhelming.

Assured that he was no longer hurting his partner, Seishirou sped up his movements. His hand pumped in time at Subaru's shaft, fingers curling around him in a smooth caress. "Put your legs around me, Subaru-kun."

Subaru barely understood the suggestion but somehow did as he was told, wrapping his legs high around his lover's shoulders. The position canted his hips up to allow Seishirou to go even deeper. The satisfied hiss from Seishirou confirmed he was doing something right. He soon stopped caring about much of anything though, losing himself to the rhythm, hips bucking in time to every surge into him.

Seishirou gripped Subaru's hips firmly and he plunged fully into him. He was tempted to loose control and just seek his own satisfaction but somehow he managed to keep Subaru's needs foremost on his mind. He wanted this experience to be as good as he could make it, for the gift of his virginity the young prince had given him.

"That's it, Subaru-kun, move with me," he whispered encouragingly, bending down to lick at the tempting shell of his ear. "What you're doing is absolutely perfect."

"You're so beautiful," he continued, claiming his mouth again in a deep kiss, thrusting his tongue in, in a parody of his movements below.

With all that urging, the inexperienced prince could no longer keep himself contained another moment. He came in a hot rush of fluid, writhing convulsively as his lover ground hard into him.

The sheer satisfaction upon feeling that rush on his hand surprised Seishirou. He was also relieved. Now that he'd fulfilled Subaru's needs, he could allow himself to lose control. Wildly straining against him for a short while longer, he climaxed as well. His arms wrapped themselves around Subaru, holding onto him as if his life depended on it.

His partner was still coming off his high, panting heavily. The experience had been overwhelming. He shivered with a cold sweat, reaching for Seishirou.

The bodyguard instinctively responded, hugging him back. "Are you all right?" he asked with concern, quickly recovering from his climax.

Subaru nodded, trying to collect the shattered pieces of his mind together. His body couldn't seem to stop trembling from the aftershocks of his pleasure. "That was... incredible..."

Seishirou enjoyed feeling that satisfied body quivering in his embrace. He wasn't about to let go, but the realization of what they'd just done began to filter in. He suppressed a groan; fully aware of the world of trouble he just bought. "You're incredible. You're worth it," he whispered, almost to himself as a reminder.

Gradually, Subaru's shivering calmed down. "I'm... worth it," he said slowly, as if to reaffirm what he'd been told. No one had ever held him in such esteem like this before. "And so are you... I don't hurt anymore."

"I'm glad. I didn't want to you to be sad. But..." what Seishirou left unsaid was the thought that he probably would hurt Subaru when he found out the truth.

"But?" Subaru pressed, his eyes opened a little wider, but he was slowing being overtaken by exhaustion and Seishirou's words barely registered.

Seishirou shook his head, unable to say anything and allowed the moment of confession to slip away. "It's nothing. Don't worry about it," he said tenderly with a smile.

Subaru didn't give it another thought as his eyes drooped shut. He was warm and content and was nearly asleep at this point.

Seishirou protectively watched him fall into slumber, gently petting his hair. Eventually he whispered, "Oh Subaru-kun, how I am going to hurt you."

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Notes:

There's the lemon. Since we spent far too much time pounding it into shape, we hope it was worth it. Subaru thought it was worth it. ^^