Trigun Fan Fiction ❯ Ticket to the Future ❯ Sin and Shame ( Chapter 12 )

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Ticket to the Future: Part XII

Sin and Shame

Cautiously peering into the hallway, I breathed a small sigh of relief. I was caught between hoping Meryl or Mr. Vash would be there and hoping no one would witness my descent into complete shame. I was a terrible, wicked person. I wanted a murderer of countless thousands. I was pretty sure I didn't love him, but I wanted him just the same. How had I sunk to this level?

I walked as quietly as possible down the narrow passageway. I cringed as the floor creaked under my soft steps. No alarm was given in the room at the end of the passage. I took a few more steps and stopped outside Knives' door. Taking a deep breath, I lifted my hand to tap softly. The door swung open slowly on squeaky hinges. Gathering my courage and swallowing the lump in my throat, I stepped over the threshold and into Hell.

The door swung closed behind me and I knew then that there would be no turning back. I was about to commit the biggest sin of my life. Maybe one day God and Nicholas could forgive me, but I seriously doubted it.

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Glancing cautiously around the room, I was startled to find it empty. Maybe Knives had left as Meryl had suggested. Taking a second look, I noticed a shadow detach itself from the corner of the room. I gasped softly and took a step backwards as a man's figure became visible. I heard the distinct click of a hammer being slowly released.

"You can't take any chances these days. Your friend would probably kill me if she were given the opportunity." Mr. Knives crossed the room in two short strides. I couldn't help but notice that his body was perfectly defined with muscle. My mouth watered at the sight of his bare chest in the moonlight. "This is wrong…"

"Why have you come here, Milly? Have you come to lecture me on proper behavior?"

"You know why I'm here." I couldn't bring myself to admit it out loud. It would make this all too real. "This is a sin…"

"Yes, I do. But, I'm afraid I must insist that you tell me what you want. I don't want you crying 'rape' to all and sundry. Such ridiculous actions on your part would surely cause a setback in my current plans." Icy blue light shone in the darkness. "And that would displease me to say the least."

"I… I… I… can't." I whispered helplessly, looking down at the ground. My face was flaming. I was mortified. I wanted to die. "This is your shame…"

"Then leave. Go back to your lonely bed and mourn the rest of your life for a dead man. Weep your tears of foolish regret and try to find some semblance of satisfaction alone."

"I want you…" The spoken words hung heavily in the air. My head dropped to my chest. This could not get any worse.

A charge seemed to fill the room and in that split second, I felt his whole demeanor change. "Hmmm… maybe you should beg. I always have enjoyed having lower species submissive to my will."

"Mr. Knives, this whole mess may make me a … a loose woman, but I am not begging you for anything." I became indignant and in a huff, stormed off to the door. Soft laughter echoed in the room.

"Stop laughing!" I hissed softly in the darkness. "There is nothing funny about this whole mess." My face was burning in embarrassment. "Why am I doing this?"

"Come here, Milly. I think it's about time you pay the price for my silence. You will give me pleasure. Whether you enjoy it or not is entirely up to you and no my concern."

Studying Knives for a moment in the soft glow of the moonlight, I was struck by his sheer beauty. His pale blonde hair had taken on a glossy sheen until it appeared to be white. His muscles dipped and curved with perfection over his long frame. Unlike Mr. Vash, his body had few scars and was sculpted to perfection. Those icy blue eyes glowed with a light of their own that I was sure had nothing to do with the moonbeams dancing over his face.

"He looks like an angel…but he is the devil."

"I…I can't. I can't do what you want. Wolfwood…. Oh, Wolfwood…. Why did you have to kill him?" Tears flowed from my eyes at the thought of him. I was standing before his murderer preparing to….

Knives was instantly at my side, clutching my shoulders and giving me a slight shake. "Cease crying… He's dead and gone. While he had his uses for a while, he was no more than an insect in my eyes. Stop mentioning a dead man in my presence." His voice held a hard edge. I was suddenly frightened.

"Please, don't make me do this thing. It's not right. I'm not in any condition for any physical activity…" Overwhelming hysteria was threatening to overtake me. "Please, Knives… don't force me to do this."

"Free will is a concept you humans have developed to make you think life is about choices. Actually, when fear or panic take hold, I have observed that humans instinctively take flight to avoid the situation. It's really pathetic when you think about it logically. You have no choice here. Free will doesn't exist when you encounter a superior breed of animal."

I was confused by his lecture, but I understood enough to know that what ever happen next, I would be powerless to prevent it. Churning movements made me aware that someone else was upset by my fear.

Knives reached one hand toward the neck of my pajamas. Buttons popped and scattered around the room. I clutched the edges together. "Please… don't do this terrible thing." He glided behind me. "Don't do what?" He whispered in my ear.

I shivered with awareness as his warm breath caressed my neck. My top was pealed away from my body. Large hands cupped my breasts. Fingertips sharply pinched my nipples. I cried out in pain. "please… stop."

Knives' slid his hands down my body. They roved over my abdomen. "Such a pity… if something were to happen. You would have nothing left of your precious Mr. Priest. But then again, it would mean less garbage to inhabit this planet." I gasped at the implications of his words.

My eyes narrowed. "I'll kill you if you make a move to harm…"

"What about Meryl? And the others here?" Knives hissed in my ear. "Would you kill me to save her and them? Even Vash found killing me impossible. What makes you think you could accomplish what my brother could not?"

"I will do it… when you least expect it… I will kill you for this."

"Stupid woman. You've annoyed me with your useless chatter long enough." I breathed a sigh of relief as he moved away from me. My relief was short lived as he removed his few clothes and sat on the edge of his bed. "Come, give me pleasure Milly."

"No, I will not." Reaching for the door, I made to leave this hell.

"Not even to save your unborn offspring, or your friend Meryl, or everyone in this little town?"

What choice did I have, Swallowing a lump in my throat, I crossed the room to stand before him. "What do you want me to do?"

"A simple matter really. You will give me pleasure with your mouth. It would not be in my best interests to fuck you as some damage could be done to the valuable offspring you carry. I would be very displeased with myself if I should be the ruination of all my plans."

"I don't know what you want me to do… I've never done anything like that before." My face flamed in the darkness. I felt sick to my stomach.

"Didn't Wolfwood take the time to teach you anything?" Knives sounded annoyed. "No, I suppose he didn't have time. Pity he lost such a rare treasure so quickly. Kneel before me."

I slid slowly to my knees, trying to slow my racing heart, trying not to be sick, and trying not to scream for mercy. What choice did I have? My own desires brought me to this point. What right did I have to ask for anything? This problem was of my own making and I had to see it through to the end.

Knives stroked himself as I knelt there before him. "Look on the positive side, my dear. At least you will not suffer the same fate as all the other humans on this miserable little planet." I looked at the floor, refusing to answer him. "Come closer… put me in your mouth. And remember if you fight me in any way, I will kill everyone here. Not even my brother will be able to stop me this time." His voice rang cruelly and coldly in my ears.

Sniffing back a few tears and swallowing the taste of bile in my mouth, I inched closer and did as he asked. "Please…God. I have no choice. Please forgive me and let him forgive me too."

Little did I know at that time, this night was to set the pace for the next month or so. I had entered Hell of my own free will… much to my own sin and shame.

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To Be Continued…

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Ok people out there, here is chapter 12. I know this story has taken on a darker tone, but hey, that's sort of what the anime did. You know light hearted one moment and then Wham…. We were slammed with a heavy dose of Planet Gunsmoke reality.

Well, what happens next? It's almost time to meet Wolfwood Jr. Will Knives have his evil way in the end or will Vash come through again?

Stay tuned for the next exciting chapter from Planet Gunsmoke…..

In the meanwhile, R & R for me please. Oh yeah, not checked for spelling and errors. I was in a hurry!

Love and Peace,

Blackhat (^_~)