Tsubasa Chronicle Fan Fiction ❯ The Devilish Big Puppy and the Vampiric Big Kitty ❯ Let me die...let him live ( Chapter 1 )

Disclaimer:

Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles is not mine- it's owned by CLAMP and made by CLAMP. Kuro-tan and Fai-san will never be mine… Syaoran-kun and Sakura-chan were not made by me…It's a bittersweet thing…

Note:

Ah... this is not supposed to be a collection of one shots and it is not. It will follow the story line of TRC with maybe small sidetracks however; I can't consider it a series as well so I really don't know. This would appear to be a poem of some sort but I can't call it a poem either! Anyway... there would be lots of spoilers from the manga but the story starts with Tokyo Revelations. This would deal more with feelings so things would be confusing for those who does not read the manga. This would most likely be a KuroFai thing but it won't be yaoi...

 

The Devilish Big Puppy and the Vampiric Big Kitty

 

WARNING: This ISN'T as fluffy as the title

 

I. Let me die… Let him live

 

[Fai-kitty]

 

I want to die…

but I can't die…

my greatest wish is to die,

give me a reason to die…

cause I can't let myself die.

 

Don't. Let me die…

Kurogane… let me die.

 

I tried……

I really did try…

I wished to save his heart

I wished to help

I wanted to help

I wanted but I failed…

Now, he's in pain.

Emerald and amber eyes filled with pain…

I wanted to prevent that pain…

I'm worthless…

 

I couldn't help and now…

Now I cause trouble…

I'm sorry…

 

My power…

It's my curse to bear…

it's not meant for him…

I can't let him suffer that curse…

Let the curse die…let it die…

Kurogane… let me die

 

It hurts… All this power but I cant help

Is it really a curse…

Am I cursed, or…

Am I the curse?

 

The wheels are turning…

Everything from now on will change…

My presence will make it worst…

 

This is the perfect chance…

I can't let myself die…

I can't die

Although…

I should die…

I want to die…

So as the wheels would stop…

So please….

Let me die.

 

I'll regret it if I hurt Syaoran

I'll hate it if I hurt Sakura-chan…

It'll be horrible to hurt Mokona…

I'll…hurt if I hurt you…

 

Always looking stern…

Red piercing eyes…

So insistent…

Always watching…

Why do you keep on looking…

 

You're the only one…

The only one that can see through me…

…you're… worried about me…?

…am I important…?

…but, that's just like you.

 

You wouldn't let anyone die before you…

But… please let me die…

I… want to die.

 

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[Kuro-puppy]

 

Idiotic mage going around with that fake smile

Drop the mask. Grieve if you must.

If you plan to always wear that mask then don't-

don't let me see a glimpse of your pain.

 

An idiot that has desperate eyes screaming for help

The very thing I hate.

Pretentious idiot who can't handle pain

 

“How can I save him?”

 

How could this idiot just think of dying?!

Selfish bastard

Don't get too close to someone and just think of dying

 

You're the one who acted too close.

Smiling like an idiot whence your ice blue eyes is as cold as its hue.

A dead heart afraid to care

A complete and total fake with eyes that cry

 

Idiot

 

-I'm also an idiot…

getting all curious about that mask…

… Getting perturbed by that pain…

…getting myself involved…

…wanting…

…yearning to see…

…see your real smile…

…so…

…how can I save the idiot?!

…tell me how…

…tell me so I can see…

…see past the mask…

…see the tears…

…see the pain…

…see him grieve…

…see him smile…

I want to see the idiot with light hair and blue eyes smile.

A real unmasked smile

Who cares if it's not for me?

Who cares if it's a sad smile?

Who cares if he hates me?

Who cares if the smile I see be tainted with tears?

Who cares if he doesn't smile at me?

I want the idiot to live

Give him a chance to at least

…at the very least…

…live his life…

…have a chance to smile one day…

…It's my idiotic wish for the idiot with blue eyes.

 

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