Vampire Knight Fan Fiction ❯ Devious Instinct ❯ Deeper into the Abyss ( Chapter 2 )

Deeper into the AbyssYuuki, what cruel things you do to me. You naively moved through the world of humans making yourself so completely vulnerable to me. Time and again the temptation to undo Juri's wish threatened to destroy me. Those long nights and even longer days when you were not by my side. Those days when you insisted on separating us through polite conventions. Through titles, through honorifics. That misery upon misery that piled up through the years your blood forgot its origin. That pain that finally manifested in the unforgiveable act. I tasted another's blood. Another person's feelings of love and devotion filled me and left me cold and ashamed. Little Yuuki, did I want you to suffer so you would leave me forever? To end the torment of having you so close and yet a universe away? To prevent myself from destroying what Juri sacrificed her life for? For that sin, I have no right to make judgement of Zero tasting you. Of Zero stealing the only thing that has kept me alive...kept me sane. No, I have no right. I am resigned to that bitter sting and can only salve it with the knowledge that I am the only one who can taste you now. That Zero has the craving only you can fill, and which he will never again have.Those two acts have hung in uneasy silence between us since their birth. I know only silence as a comforting blanket to hide them. Yet...there are things that silence can't remedy. Words that must be spoken no matter how painful, how cruel. Sometimes the silence can be worse than the harshest word. Yet words can be the hardest thing to find and silence can be so comforting. Can you appreciate then how much I love you to seek out these words to give you. To break my comfortable silence and share with you my evils....my love. You, innocent wide eyed Yuuki, have no fear of silence because no ghosts haunt you whispering their anger, their vengeance. You cannot help confusing your crime with Zero time and again looking for some way to remedy a mistake that you did not know. Sweet little Yuuki. Fill my silence with your silver laughter. Fill me with your quiet voice. Say my name. Speak it over and over again until you grow hoarse with it. Speak my name with no titles or honorifics attached to it forming an unbridgable chasm. Say it with your simple straitforward way that strips all things of their complications and lays bare the quiet truth beneath. Please....I beg you. Say my name so I know that I'm not alone anymore. Tell me that I will never be alone again and will always have you in my arms. Please. My precious girl, torture me, torture me with what I crave so desperately. Temp me with your blood, your soul, your flesh. Tempt me with all that I can't resist and would gladly spend eternity paying for. Let me taste you and I would impale myself upon my own sword. Let me breath you in and I will decimate any creature on this earth. Chain me my love. Chain back the ancient evil burning inside me. The first great destroyer. Cage this cruel beast within with your sweetness. I am upon my knees before you, my throat closed with need and awe of you. All I can do in this horrible and wonderful moment is cling to you. All I can do is savor the feeling of your arms closing around me, holding back the nightmares. I can feel you tremble with emotion. What are you thinking my little love? Can you sense my distress despite the cold mask I wear? You always could. Your arms tighten and you lower you mouth to my neck. Are you hungry or are you trying to comfort me? You quickly learned how much I crave this intimacy. I would gladly have you drink every drop of blood in my body and only regret not having more to give. To feel your fangs sink into my skin, to feel my blood leaving me through your soft lips, it is ecstasy my dear girl. The only thing better is when I taste your blood. There can be no doubts then. All of your feelings are there, undeniable as the morning sun. Blinding, searing, impossible to ignore. I can't help the gasp that escapes my lips as that sweet ache is eased by your bite. My eyes drift closed and contentment fills me. I hold you tighter. Don't stop until you reach the sky little one. Reach out to the heavens and take me with you for there is no chance I would be welcome there on my own. Your lips leave my neck with a suddenness that jars me painfully back to reality. Your breath comes in little pants that fan across my skin."Make love to me... Kaname." You breathlessly whisper into my ear. My eyes snap open in shock and I fight with everything I am not to look into your eyes. No. No! Do not say that to me. Don't finally speak my name without convention and offer that which I want so desperately. Your small hand finds my cheek and I am helpless to resist its gentle guidance. I can't help but to look into your shimmering eyes full of understanding and tenderness. Don't look down into the blood in my eyes offering everything, it threatens to undo the chains. It makes the beast stir from his uneasy slumber and want to take what you so innocently offer. I want you too badly to give you that. I can't subject you to that monster within. Yuuki....what cruel things you do to me.________________________________________________________________Wow! What an amazing response. You all greatly honor me with your comments and certainly motivated me to try this again. I found inspiration had wandered away again but today I was watching the episode with all of Yuuki's flashbacks of her childhood (human) with Kaname and the muse found me again. I don't know if this is getting a little redundant....too much stream of consciousness gets a little old.....but I'll likely switch over into third person at some point unless you all could stand a little more time in Kaname's head. Thanks again for the praise and the suggestions! I always enjoy feedback to improve my work!!!