Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Eternal Youth ❯ Flash Backs ( Chapter 5 )

Not only have I just had the best sex of my life, I am now being carried. That's right, CARRIED, to the bathroom by a very naked and beautiful Aya. Awww I am so in heaven. I have to tell him. "Aya... Your... thank you…" I sounded like an embarrassed love sick fool. But I couldn't say it. Smiling like that and kissing my neck as if I was a kid. "Don't thank me." But…but…but… ohh that smarts.. he letting me sit down on the toity while he… umm bends over to turn on the water. Nice view.

"Why can't I thank you?"

"Because I..." he seems nervous, Why? "Because I like you more… than to have to be thanked." That sounded like a confession. My Angel with red hair is confessing his feelings for me. I must be dreaming.

I think if my brain was in control I wouldn't… but since my brain does nothing but chitter at itself, I jump up and grab him. Like a little school girl. "YOU REALLY LIKE ME!!!" Ohhh me bum. I think he was a little rough on me.

"Idiot…" that wasn't nice, but it deserves a Yohji grin as his arms wrap around my waist. Ah those heavenly hands. "Don't move like that."

NO DUH! At least not after Aya takes me. I don't remember it hurting that bad before… "I forgot for a second." Enter playful chuckle here. "Now that I am up... it would hurt to much to sit back down. Anyways, you were kind of cruel, entering so fast." And aint it the truth.

"Going slower would have caused more pain. This way it was quicker and you got over the pain faster. Stop complaining." He spoke a whole sentence. Oh my. Wait, that's his excuse for tearing me from the inside out? How lame. Sweet, but lame "You first." He puts me in the tub like I am a little baby.

Ahhh warm water, Aya in here with me. I still haven't woken up from this dream. "I'll stop complaining as soon as I can have you under me." My sexiest smirk.

"Next time." He is, giving me one of my sexy grins. Aya has a wild side. Time for soap.

"Yes, next time." Grab said soap. "Next time I'll show you more tricks. Your lesson isn't over yet." Wink. I love this game.

"Then I'll have to show you what else I'm capable of." Ooohhhh he is washing my hair. No one has done that ever. Ohh, I think this is the time when the rabbits leg thumps on the ground… Ohh sweet attention.

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He is just like a kid. I can't help but smile at him. Washing his hair like this reminds me of her…

"You have gentle hands." He truly does remind me of Aya-chan.

I guess it's time I tell someone about my family. "Mm.. I used to wash my sisters hair..." Aya-chan… my sweet little Aya.

"Your sister?" his eyes are full of curiosity. He finally stopped being an idiot. "You never talked of your family before..."

I think I'll keep him guessing. "tilt you're head back." No one knows about her yet. Besides that, his hair is atrocious. It needs cut… maybe conditioner will help this rats nest. "You have split ends…"

"I know. I haven't had time to get my hair done. It's my pride and joy most of the time." He's babbling and the conditioner isn't helping.

"Get it cut." I'll do it. Chop it all off and make him look more mature. He needs a new look.

"I will tomorrow.. or later today if you'll go out with me." He's practically begging. I don't want to go out, I want this mop gone.

"I wont let you waste money to get your hair done." I never could see how people could pay someone to do something I can do for free. "I'll cut it."

That's not good… I never seen someones eyes get that big before.

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Aya can't be serious! Cut my hair? Him? "You'll cut it? Have you ever.. Have you… Ever cut hair?" No, the only person who cut my hair before was… I have to stop thinking about him.

I have to get myself under control… other wise I'll have to go back… and I'll have to take those pills again. "I cut mine." He cuts his? I can trust him….

"You cut your own?" Deep breath and calm down… he wont do like He use to do. "Ok I'll trust you."

"Good. When were done in here I'll cut it." Today? After the shower? His arms around my waist help a little for calming…so does him washing me with the soap I had in my hand. I have to forget the past… I have my future here with me.

"Ok... so what… what is left for us to do in here?" I sound to nervous… he's going to know some things wrong.

"Just clean you from head to toe." I have to delay the hair cut.

"And what about you? Do I get to clean you from head to toe." That's it… I'll wash him… slowly.

"If you want." I can! That perfect…. Shampoo… shampoo…

Got it…. Poor on hands… "Ok... I might not be as good as you... but I think I can manage." This is easy… just relax… I have him purring… how cute.

"How short you want it?" No… no… not short….

"Just a trim.. my usual look... why what do you want to do with it?" don't say short… don't say cut it all off…

"Cut it short." He said it… please no… say its a joke… he's looking at me. I must have stopped moving.

"Short... How... How short is short....?" Papa, don't cut it short…please no… it hurts….

"Mm about Ken's length. Maybe shorter." He's looking at me… he's serious. "You have to much hair."

"My.. my...my.. hair as short as... kens..." I can't papa… no… your hurting me…

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He's scarring me. As soon as I say like kens hair he collapses. Curled up in a fetal position on the bathtub floor. I didn't know he was so attached to the mop on his head. "Yohji?" What's wrong with him! "Yohji, what's wrong?"

"I… I cant cut my hair that short... not since... not since my dad...." God what's going on. He's crying and shaking. "I just can't!" I don't know what to do. "My papa... cut my hair short... if I do it again… it... it would remind me...." what happened to him… what's this about his father?

"Yohji.. it's okay..." All I can do is the one thing I don't know how to, comfort him and hold back my own tears. "I won't cut it."

"I'm sorry I.. should finish your hair.. I should be good...I.. I.. Aya.. I should tell you everything shouldn't I."

What happened to him? Why? I've never seen him like this. "Shh. Don't, not now. Just relax." If he tells me… I shouldn't hear his past. Not while he is like this. Not during a break down. Yohji, please calm down. "go to bed. I'll be there shortly

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"… I'm sorry…" why am I acting like this. "…forgive me papa…" Aya will know. "…I wont mess up next time…" He can't know. "…what do I do now…" Stop treating me like a kid. "…I am yours papa…" I'm holding him, my angels voice is calling me. It's not papa…

"Yohji… please go lay down. I'll finish up and be there shortly ok?" he's pushing me away. I did something wrong. I have to go. I don't know if I answered him. I just had to get out of there. I know I didn't take a towel that's why I'm freezing.

My room is so cold. I know now that Aya has seen one of my spasms. Shit. After I have held him. Let him so close to me I go and do something like that. I guess the prescriptions need to be taken and I need out of here. Clothes…clothes… Sweats seem good enough. I don't feel like squeezing into my clothes. Keys, coat is by the door… wallet is in coat pocket… right now out my do… "Aya."

"Were are you going Yohji?"

"Out I can't stay here. I have to go out and take my meds." His face, that's right they never knew, no one knew. I lean against the door and look away from him "I am on medication for my…"

"You're not going out." I can't believe him. Why can't I? "You are in no condition to go anywhere."

Bastard. That tone, its cold again. But looking in his eyes. I can see something, there is feeling there. I think I worried him. Awe how sweet. "Why do you… Alright… I wont. Let me go and get my pills though." He leaves to his room. I could sneak out now if I didn't agree with him. I haven't been out drinking in along time now. Guess it's a good time to become sober and trust worthy. I head down to the flower shop. I think the last time I took them they were in my locker in the shop. I get to the lockers and dig through the pile of clothes pulling out three bottles of pills. Great all are here and almost empty… guess I need a refill. Sleeping pills, Anti-depressants, and I have no clue what this one is. Some ones coming. Aya. He doesn't trust me. I hold up the pills for him to see and smiled "I should… tell you what they are for. After I take them."

"Lets go into the kitchen then. You can tell me then." He offers me a hand and I take it being the needy one here. We go up to the kitchen and I get a cup of milk, the substitute if you don't have time to eat. I sit on the counter and watch him as I take two of these, one of these, and one of these… I hate pills. Probably why I never became a drug addict.

I guess the place to start, is at the beginning. "Aya… when I was growing up, my father, He… trained me. He trained me to cater to the needs of people. If I didn't do it… or I did something wrong… I was beat. Then I would have to…. Show him… that…" Why am I telling him everything? I'm crying… shit my angel, my life, heaven on earth is seeing me cry. "I would have.. have to show him I knew how… how to…" I guess time for the pills explanation… "I have been seeing a doctor ever since. The meds help me sleep and keep me from… doing like before… having an episode." Aya is…I must be crying like a baby… I can't stop shaking… please… wrap me in your arms and make it all go away. Thank you… my love. I now have nothing to fear... but myself.