Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Love On A Leash ❯ Lost In Hopelessness ( Chapter 11 )

Love On A Leash

By: Atsureki

Disclaimers: This is getting real old. /sighs/ They aren't mine I'm just borrowing them.

Paring: Ran/Ken, Kase/Ken (non-con)

Warnings: AU, Shounen-ai, OCC, Angst, Slavery, Abuse, Rape, short chapter.

If you are sensitive you do not want to read some parts of this chapter! It contains a somewhat graphic rape so if you can't handle that than skip that part!! Again please be careful if you have problems with things like that!

Notes: Stuff written in Italic are thoughts.

Chapter 11. Lost In Hopelessness

Ran huffed and glared at the walls surrounding him with annoyance. Lying flat on his back was seriously starting to piss him off. For over a week he had been in the hospital and every cell in his body was objecting to it. The pain had subsided but his damn doctor still refused to allow him to leave.

He was jumpy, concerned and every single noise made him want to scream. It had gone so far that he was thrilled every time his cousin came to visit him, usually along with Omi. Ken was on his mind constantly and he was so worried about his slave that it drove him insane.

Yoji had searched all over Tokyo for the missing brunette but so far he had found nothing. That was something that really concerned Ran. His cousin was the best Private Detective around and if he couldn't find Ken then who could?

"Ah Fujimiya-san." The redhead looked up and glared at his doctor.

"Hn."

"Good news. I've decided to allow you to go home tomorrow." Ran scowled at him even though the news sure pleased him. "I'll have a nurse remove the stitches later today." With a smile he left the annoyed redhead alone.

It was great that he could go home but he wasn't looking forward to staying at his place when Ken wasn't there. Both he and Yoji knew that Kase had Ken but couldn't do a damn thing about it. Kase was connected to Takatori, which meant that he was out of everybody's reach. Ran sighed deeply and rubbed his face.

He didn't want to but he knew that he might have to come to terms with never seeing Ken again. The redhead shook his head and swallowed. He would never accept that. It might have been something he wasn't sure of before but he knew now, he was in love with that brown haired slave.

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He stared blankly at the walls that surrounded him. It was quiet and he was alone again. He had always hated being alone but it was better now since company only meant one out of two things.

A shudder ran through his body but his eyes didn't move, they were empty of all emotions except a deep corroding hopelessness. It didn't matter what anyone did to him anymore; he no longer cared.

A long time ago when he had been an innocent child and he had taken so much for granted but that had been beaten, raped out of him until… Unchecked tears ran down his cheeks when he thought of his owner.

He had found security again, someone had cared about him but that someone was gone now, had been taken away from him. Kase could inflict pain on him, humiliate him but he couldn't take anything more away from him; there was nothing left TO take.

His naked body was covered in bruises, cuts and striped from being whipped. Every single movement was agony but it couldn't compare to the pain he felt inside. The one person who had cared about and for him, who had protected him was gone, dead. Footsteps approached his room but he didn't react. Until he was given an order he wouldn't move. The door opened and someone walked in.

"Kenken." It was a purr filled with cruelty but he still didn't move. "How's my little whore?" Dull brown eyes blinked once but the slave didn't seem to have heard. A hand ran through dirty, grease-slicked hair almost lovingly. "On your feet!" At that Ken finally moved and staggered to his feet. It hurt so much to move but even though everything he did was jerky and slow the slave didn't utter a sound.

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It was always the same, nothing ever changed. Without even blinking Ken lay down on the bed and pressed his face into a pillow. He didn't want to see anything and if he could he would have covered his ears to block out the sounds too. Hands wandered over his abused body but he didn't flinch. Kase might beat him or he might not, it didn't matter, Ken didn't care.

The hands pulled his legs apart and the brunette just let it happen. His mind was so lost, slow and jaded. Fingers probed him, added new pain to the old. A curse and a hard punch to his back. He knew what they meant; Kase was unhappy with the position he was in. Slowly Ken moved his knees slightly underneath his body to lift himself up from the mattress. His tormenter said something but he wasn't listening.

Strong vicious fingers dug into his left hip, adding more bruises and even more pain. Something too hard and too big was forced inside of him and almost caused him to fall over, but he made no sound. His body screamed in objection as a scalding agony ran through him but Ken was unable to give voice to the pain.

He wanted to scream, cry and get away but he couldn't move, couldn't quite get his brain to react to it properly. It hurt so much and he buried his face deeper into the pillow in an attempt to block out the moans. He didn't want to hear it, didn't want to acknowledge the pleasure the violation brought to his former owner.

The pain had numbed him inside out so he just allowed Kase to do what he wanted. His lack of response and reaction to the act made his former owner angry and he trusted harder. Kase wanted to hear him scream in pain but since the slave couldn't, wouldn't, he had to work harder and longer to reach climax. Ken paid for it when Kase was done and again beat him into unconsciousness. The slave embraced the darkness and prayed that he was allowed to stay in it forever this time.

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Ran paced his apartment and lit another cigarette. Normally he didn't smoke and found it disgusting but he needed something, anything to distract him. Not that it worked, nothing did. His entire brain was filled with Ken.

At first he had tried to fool himself into thinking that he would find the slave unharmed and untouched but he knew better. Ken had been with Kase for almost two weeks so of course he wouldn't be anywhere near unharmed when, or rather if, Ran found him.

The redhead's constant worry about his slave was tearing him apart. He couldn't sleep, eat or even function properly anymore. All he wanted was to find Ken and kill Kase, slowly and as cruelly as he could manage. That bastard was going to pay for everything he had ever done to Ken if it was the last thing Ran ever did. But first he had to find him and that was proving to be extremely difficult.

Yoji was still trying desperately but so far no luck. The lanky blonde was almost as worried about the brown-eyed slave as Ran and he was doing everything he could.

"Aya-kun." The pacing redhead stopped and turned to his cousin's slave. "Please you have to eat something."

"I'm not hungry Omi," Ran growled at the small blonde. He didn't mean to be so snappy with Omi but he couldn't help himself.

"Not eating isn't going to bring Ken-kun back!" The redhead narrowed his amethyst eyes. Well the little blonde slave did have a point there. "I know you miss him and that you're worried sick about him but Aya-kun… this isn't helping. You need to eat something and then sleep." Too tired to argue Ran sighed and nodded.

"I know Omi, I know." Reluctantly he followed the boy into the kitchen and sat down.

"Try some soup. When you're done I want you to take some of those sleeping pills Doctor Ishida gave you and go to bed," Omi said with his soft voice firm and stubborn.

"Hn," Ran grunted but he knew that he was going to do as the little slave wanted. Omi was right after all so why struggle? The redhead finished eating and swallowed one of the pills he had been given before he headed for bed. He curled up underneath the blankets and buried his face in his pillow. It still smelled of Ken, or at least he imagined it did.

Please just let me find him,Ran begged, please let him be all right. I love him; don't take him away from me. No one answered his pleading and the pill he had taken was sending him to sleep. The brunette's name left his lips just before his eyes closed.

~TBC~

I'm sorry about the sick stuff in this chapter but when I sketched out the next chapter and the ones following I found that it sorta needs to be here. /sighs/ I hated writing that rape and I hated reading it even more /shudders/ Sorry if I've scarred any of you people /hangs head in shame/ Ja/Atsureki