Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Love On A Leash ❯ The One And Only Enemy ( Chapter 15 )

Love On A Leash

By: Atsureki

Disclaimers: This is getting real old. /sighs/ They aren't mine I'm just borrowing them. The lyrics used aren't mine either they're taken from the song Take This Heart sung by Return, but I do own the CD the song is on /nods proudly/

Paring: Ran/Ken

Warnings: AU, Shounen-ai. OCC, Angst, Slavery.

Notes: Stuff written in Italic are thoughts, the little voice that speaks in Ken's head or lyrics.

Chapter 15. The One And Only Enemy

I Iook into the mirror and I see
My one and only enemy
And he won't go away

Ran paced back and forth as he waited for Doctor Ono to show up. The slave was still asleep which the redhead was thankful for. Ken had been so scared and Ran could only hope that he somehow could erase that. Sighing deeply he stopped beside the other man's side and ran his fingers through soft brown hair.

It felt like he was at a loss about everything, his feelings, his fears, what to do, what not to do… Ran gritted his teeth and scowled at himself. At the moment his feelings for Ken didn't matter, couldn't matter. First he had to make sure that the brunette was all right, or at least as close to all right as he could get.

"Fujimiya-san?" He turned around and nodded to the small woman who entered the dusky room. "Oh dear," she muttered when her calm brown eyes found the sleeping slave.

"Help him," Ran mumbled since it was the only thing he could think of to say.

"I'll do my best Fujimiya-san. Let's see what my incompetent colleague says about this." She picked up the slave's journal. It was quiet while she read the pages. "Seems unhappy with physical contact?" Doctor Ono read out loud with a huff and tossed the journal on the chair next to the bed. "No shit Sherlock."

"Unhappy?" Ran echoed with disbelief in his amethyst eyes.

"Understatement of the year, no doubt. Okay, first I have to clean those wounds on his back and he's still slightly dehydrated," the short woman mumbled to herself as she carefully took a look at Ken's back. "What happened when they tried to tend to them earlier?" The redhead shuddered at the memory.

"He freaked, panicked completely. I got him to calm down but when da Mota started removing the pads he was in a lot of pain and then he touched Ken's lower back and all hell broke loose."

"It wasn't pain Fujimiya-san. Right now you could probably break both of Ken's legs without him even batting an eye. He's on tons of pain killers," Ono growled and nodded to the journal. "Have you seen the bruises on his back and hips?" Ran nodded. "Whoever raped him grabbed him there, you can see the finger marks. That's why he panicked." The redhead rubbed his forehead and carefully sat down next to his slave.

"Kami-sama! And I forced him to go through that even after promising him I wouldn't let anyone hurt him." A small hand patted his knee.

"Now, now, that's not your fault. Who did this too him? I'm just going to assume that it was the same sicko as last time," Ono sighed and placed a glass of water in Ran's hands.

"His former owner. That fucking rat bastard! I should have ripped his damn head off when I had the chance!"

"With a little luck you'll get another chance," she nodded calmly with a hint of a smirk on her face. "The good news here is that Ken trusts you, otherwise he wouldn't have let you anywhere near him. We can work with that and… pray that he comes around again. Do you think you could try to wake him up?"

"Aa," Ran answered and carefully touched the brunette's shoulder. "Ken?" The slaved jerked away from the touch and frightened brown eyes opened. "Sch it's just me."

"A… Aya?" Ken stammered and blinked. The redhead took the slave's hand in his and gently held it.

"It's just me and Doctor Ono. You remember her, ne?" Ken glanced at the small woman and licked his chapped lips.

"Hai."

"Good now she's gonna take care of your back, is that okay?" The slave tensed and pressed himself against Ran's side. "Look at me Ken. It's just her and me in here, no one else. I'll stay with you the whole time and if she does anything you don't like tell me and I'll get rid of her, okay?" Ken looked into his eyes for a long time before he nodded.

"Hello there Ken," Ono said softly and slowly walked in front of the slave to give him a chance to look at her. The brunette lowered his eyes.

"Hi," he whispered and tightened his grip on his owner's clothes.

"Ken how do you want to do this? Where do you want to be?" Pleading brown eyes met concerned amethyst.

"Sch. Do you want to lie here on my lap like this? On your side?" The slave nodded and buried his face against Ran's stomach.

"Okay you just stay there and I'll be as quick as I can." Doctor Ono fetched what she needed to clean the whip marks and carefully got to work. The redhead closed his eyes as she started tend to the infected wounds. He could feel Ken tremble against him and did his best to calm the slave down by caressing his hair. "I'm gonna take care of the ones on your lower back now Ken, is that all right with you?" The brunette whimpered slightly but nodded against his owner's body.

"I'm right here Ken," Ran said softly and continued to run his fingers through the brown hair. It took time but the scared slave remained calm.

"There, all done. I'm just going to dress them again and then you can lie down," Ono sighed quietly and covered the ugly stripes with white pads. When she was done she pulled a blanket over the slave's trembling form and stepped back. "Fujimiya-san could I talk to you outside for a moment?" The redhead looked down at Ken who still hid against him.

"Is that okay with you Ken?" The brunette looked up slightly and reluctantly nodded. "I'll be back in a moment," Ran promised and carefully eased Ken from his lap.

//

"I don't think this matters to you but I think it'll matter to Ken," Doctor Ono said once they were out of the room. "There's gonna be scars Fujimiya-san, scars that won't disappear." Ran sighed deeply and ran a hand through his hair.

"I'm not worried about the scars on his skin Doctor Ono, but I am worried about the ones inside." She nodded and leaned against the wall.

"Those are gonna stick for a long time. My suggestion is that you try to touch his back as much as possible. Ken has to get used to that and it'll be hard for him. Right now his mind connects touches there with being raped, but I think he'll accept it if it's you. I can't even begin to understand the hell he's been through and it'll take time and love to heal him," she said quietly and looked into the redhead's concerned eyes.

"I don't know what to do and I'm so scared that I'll just make it worse," Ran confessed and crossed his arms over his chest.

"Just be gentle with him and take care of him," Ono sighed. "I can see that you care a lot about him and that's what he needs. You have to understand that right now Ken is his own one and only enemy. He's the one who's going to hold himself responsible for what happened and you're the one who will have to convince him otherwise. It would probably be a good idea to show that you need him, I doubt he's ever been needed before." The redhead looked at the woman thoughtfully and nodded. She was probably right and he did need Ken, a lot. "I'll be back to check on him in a few hours." Ran watched the small woman as she walked away and sighed. This wasn't going to be easy.

//

Ken should have been kept at the hospital for at least a week but was sent home after just two days. Ono ignored the protests from da Mota and sternly stated that the slave would be more relaxed in a place he knew and felt safe in. Ran hoped that that was true because he couldn't stand the constant fear in Ken's eyes, the wincing and whimpering every time someone he didn't know stepped into the room.

With uncertainty he took the brunette home and settled him in his own bed. He didn't do anything but tend to Ken and he refused to leave his home. A week passed by but the abused slave showed no signs of coming out of his shell. He didn't speak unless forced to and it was a struggle to get him to eat anything.

Ran watched in desperation as the brunette started to pull away from his touches and felt more and more lost. It didn't seem like anything was working. The redhead sadly observed his slave as he tried to fight the nightmares that plagued him constantly.

"Ken," he said softly and sat down beside the shorter man. Like always his gentle hand on Ken's shoulder caused the brunette to wince and jerk away. "It's just me." Brown eyes fluttered opened and looked at him with hidden emotions. That was another thing that really pained Ran.

Ken had started to hide what he was feeling, shutting himself away from the real world. With a sigh he pulled the covers up around the trembling man and left him alone. What was he suppose to do if things didn't get better?

Ken wasn't a dog or a cat Ran could just hand over to someone else, he was a human being and the though of spending the rest of his life taking care of the brunette when he was like that wasn't something Ran looked forward to. But what could he do, no matter how hard things were he still loved Ken too much to give up on him.

//

He had moved away from the touch even though he craved it. His body demanded Aya's caresses just as it longed to hear that deep and smooth voice, but it wasn't that easy. Ken knew that his owner would never hurt him, that if anyone was going to be what he needed it was the redhead and yet his brain told him to not allow it.

He was filthy, stained by Kase's touch and he would do anything not to transfer it to Aya. Aya was pure, an angel in the brunette's eyes and his own hands so dirty. How could the redhead possibly want to even be near him? A part of his messed up mind chanted that it would have been better for Aya if Ken had just stayed away.

With effort he carefully got up from the bed and limped over to the bathroom. He stopped in front of the mirror and stared at himself. Empty, emotionless brown eyes stared into a face that still sported bruises.

"You didn't even fight him," a cracked voice said and the brunette watched in wonder how his own mouth moved. "You belong to Aya and still you allowed Kase to take you." Ken raised a trembling hand to brush away the chocolate colored hair that kept on falling into his eyes. "They were all right, you really are useless."

He swallowed and lowered his face. How can you even live with yourself? a dry voice asked. I bet you even enjoyed every time Kase took you, that you cherished feeling him inside of you! Ken whimpered and shook his head.

"No," he objected weakly. "It hurt, it hurt so much."

Yeah, and? It's not like you deserve anything but pain! You're nothing but a whore Kenken, a filthy used whore who gave himself willingly to someone he didn't even belong to! Aya would have treated you right but you just gave up, gave in. Now he'll never want you! Hell, the one time he did want you; you pushed him away even though you had no right. You've forgotten your place Kenken and he'll never forgive you for that!

It wasn't the first time that voice had told him those things and the brunette could help but believe what it was saying. Besides, it wasn't the first time he had allowed someone else to take him even though he belonged to the redhead either. Hell he had messed up on his first day there with that doctor.

As his mind wandered so did his eyes and they landed on something shiny and sharp. Ken bit his lip and absentmindedly rubbed the tape that covered his broken ribs. He'd do anything to keep himself from disappointing his owner again, anything. The brunette reached out and grabbed a hold of the thin piece of metal. That's right Kenken. Now answer me! How can you even live with yourself? He stared at it for a moment before he answered the question.

"I… I can't." Then you know what you must do. For once in your life do something right Kenken. Do it! Do it now!

The truth is hard, what can I say?
It's getting harder every livin' day

Take this heart and heal it
Make it start, make me feel it
Do it now

Take this heart and heal it
Can't you see how bad I need it
Do it now

~TBC~

Well I'll be damned! I managed to get out a chapter. /phew/ I hope you all liked it and I hope the next one won't take so damn long for me to write.

I feel so bad for Ken and when I wrote this that song kept on popping up in my head because those first three lines really fits Ken's right now. He really is his own one and only enemy.

And we have another cliff-hanger /deep sigh/ Sorry ppl but I can't seem to not have them… Ja/Atsureki