Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Please, Give Me Another Chance ❯ A Diffrent Fate ( Chapter 10 )

Please Give Me Another Chance

By: Atsureki

Disclaimers : I own diddly-dick that's all I'm gonna say 'bout it

Paring : Aya/Ken

Warnings : OCC, Angst, Shonen-ai, Long chapter *yay*.

Notes : Stuff written in Italic are thoughts or the strange little voice Ken hears in his head namely Fate.

Could possibly be the last chapter of this fic, it's up to you mina-san. Although I don't think some people will like the ending in that case *chuckles*

Chapter 10. A Diffrent Fate

They were strolling along the darkening streets of Tokyo in silence. Ken didn't like it at all. Something was bothering Aya and he couldn't figure out what it was. Perhaps he should just ask? But it wasn't that easy for him. Hell they were only on their first date and already there were problems. Ken sadly stared at the pavement.

Maybe Fate had been wrong all along? Maybe he and Aya weren't suppose to be at all? The brunette frowned at himself. If that was the case then why did he love him? No it had to work! It wasn't just because he was sure that the redhead would die once again but because Ken wanted Aya by his side, as his partner, lover, boyfriend whatever anyone wanted to call him.

"Ne Aya?" he asked timidly.

"Aa." That answer was never a good thing. The brunette sighed deeply.

"What's wrong?" He could feel the redhead's eyes on him but didn't look up.

"Nothing," was the short answer Ken got. He dropped the issue, too insecure to push it any further. They continued walking side by side. Aya seemed to be keeping his distant and it hurt. Why had the redhead gone back to his reserved self when the Ishibashi-woman had talked to him? Ken bit his lip and remembered the conversation. 'Ah this is Aya my um friend.' He cursed himself. That must be why Aya was acting so weird. The brunette stopped and took a hold of the other man's arm.

"I'm sorry." Amethyst eyes looked at him with confusion.

"About what?"

"I just… I didn't mean to… I'm not ashamed of you or anything…" Ken sighed at himself. Why did everything he said to Aya sound so idiotic?

"What are you talking about?" the redhead asked and tilted his head slightly.

"Ishibashi-san," Ken mumbled. "I shouldn't have said that you were just a friend." Aya smiled slightly at him.

"Neither one of us are ready to answer any questions about… that so don't worry Ken." Brown eyes watched the pale face before them carefully. Aya's smile was fake, forced. Ken should know since he himself wore smiles like that way too often. But again he found himself dropping the issue.

"It's getting late… We better head home again," the brunette said instead and nodded in the direction of the car.

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A week later Ken was seriously starting to wonder if he was paying for some crime or sin he had committed. He was confused, angry and hurt. Aya was confusing him with the way he acted or didn't act. The tall redhead was sweet and caring but there was something holding him back. When they were alone he acted that way but they hadn't gone out together again and as soon as Omi and/or Yoji was near he switched back to his Ice Prince-routine.

Ken just didn't understand why. He knew that Aya knew about the two blondes so why was he insisting on hiding? The brunette just couldn't figure it out and he hated being confused! But he didn't confront the silent redhead because he needed him so much at the moment. Although Ken refused to tell Aya what was bothering him the taller man gave him so much comfort just by being there, close to him.

When Omi and Yoji weren't around during evenings, which they seldom were, they would cuddle up together on the couch and those moments brought such peace to Ken's troubled mind. The brunette was angry but not with Aya. No his anger was directed towards the blasted Ishibashi-woman who had told the other parents that he was gay and dating some mean-looking redhead. Ken snorted angerly. Sure it was true, well minus the mean-looking redhead-part, but it was none of her fucking business! And it was that that had lead to him feeling seriously hurt.

Almost half of the children he coached had suddenly quit. No reasons were given but the brunette wasn't stupid. He knew all too well that it was thanks to the rumour about him being with another man. Ken had decided not to tell Aya about it. The redhead wouldn't be able to help, he couldn't make people understand so what was the point in telling him? Besides, the brunette refused to do anything that could upset Aya before the mission. He was NOT going to do a single thing that could lead to that man's death again. Unfortunately Ken learnt that secrets rarely stay hidden for very long.

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He toed off his shoes and put away the dirty soccer-ball with a yawn. Those kids, even if there weren't as many as they used to be, always wore him out. Ken smiled a little and trotted upstairs. He so needed a shower and a little nap. To his surprise he found Aya sitting on his bed waiting for him. The brunette smiled and walked over for a kiss.

Kissing that man was something Ken really enjoyed. It was pretty strange how Aya with his cold masks, frosty glare and icey tone could have such warm and soft lips. But this time he got no response from the redhead. Confused he glanced over his shoulder to check that the door was closed. It was so why didn't Aya answer the kiss?

Ken bit his lip and felt the familier worry rise inside of him. That damn mission was tomorrow and the brunette had fought so hard not to think about it.

"We need to talk," the redhead said with his deep voice and avoided Ken's eyes. He did NOT like the sound of that.

"About what?"

"I'm sorry Ken but I… I can't do this," Aya mumbled, the tone sounding sad, unsure or maybe tired? The brunette felt his heart beat with fear and he swallowed hard.

"Can't do what?" he asked even though he really didn't want to know. The redhead rose to his feet and walked over to the door.

"This." He gestured to Ken and himself. "Us. It's not gonna work out Ken. I'm sorry but it's over." Without looked at the brunette Aya left the room. Ken stared after him without really grasping what just had happened. Had the redhead just broken up with him? But Fate had said that they were suppose to be together, hadn't he? Ken sank down on the bed and hugged himself. How could everything had gone so wrong this time? Hadn't he done the right things?

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It was a subdued Siberian that watched his three team-mates go over the mission. Aya had been ignoring him the whole day and it hurt more than Ken could have imagined it would. He sighed sadly and fiddled with his gloves. Their relationship had been over before it had even started. How was that for complete failure?

With sad eyes he looked at the redhead who seemed pretty much normal. His face callous, his eyes blank and his form straight. But something wasn't right. Every now and then Ken could see some sort of hurt in those amethyst eyes and he didn't really understand where it came from. It was after all Aya who had ended things.

"SIBERIAN!" The brunette winced and turned to Yoji. "Pay attention would you? What planet are you on?"

"Gomen, Balinese. What did you say?" The lanky blonde glared at him for a moment.

"Bombay just said that you and Abyssinian are gonna take out the targets on the fifth floor." It was all happening again and it made him sick to his stomach.

"Sure, whatever," he mumbled and glanced over at Aya. The redhead refused to even look at him. What did I do wrong? Ken asked himself and sighed deeply. He just didn't get this.

"Okay, let's go then," Yoji muttered. Aya started walking towards the stairs and the brunette reluctlantly followed him. Again they entered the corridor that Ken saw most nights in his nightmares. He shuddered and drew in a deep breath. Whatever it was that had gone wrong between him and the redhead he was not going to let it kill Aya again! They stopped at the same place as the other times. The brunette looked over to his team-mate and chewed on his lip.

"What did I do wrong?" Ken froze. Damn had he just said that out loud? Aya had turned to him so obviously he had.

"What makes you think you did something wrong?" the redhead asked. Ken shook his head and smiled sadly.

"If I didn't then why are you ignoring me?" His question seemed to hit something within Aya since the taller man got a guilty expression in his bland face.

"Listen Ken… It's… not worth it." The brunette narrowed his eyes and felt anger rise inside of him. Not worth it?

"I meant that much to you huh? You just figured after barely two weeks that what we could have had wasn't worth your time, is that it?" He knew he sounded bitter but damnit he was bitter, and hurt.

"That's not what I meant!" Aya objected harshly and turned away.

"What did you mean then? Please enlighten me Aya because until you do I won't understand this."

"Last week I went to pick you up at the soccer-field," the redhead mumbled, still not facing the brunette. "You lost several of the kids because of us. I knew you would Ken." Brown eyes blinks in confused.

"How did you know that?"

"You know how you thought something was wrong when we went to the restaurant?" Ken nodded even though Aya was still facing away from him. "I saw it in her eyes Ken, she was disturbed by seeing us together. Or even more so, she was disturbed to see you with another man."

The brunette frowned deeply. Wasn't this something he should have said instead of the redhead? When things had turned difficult because of his relationship with Aya he had sought strength and comfort from the silent man, he had never had a single thought about ending what they had together. So why was the redhead doubting?

"So you're shamed of being with me?" Ken asked and made no attempt on hiding the disappointment and hurt in his voice.

"Siberain, Abyssinian, watch your backs I just saw several guards heading upstairs," Omi's voice whispered in their ears. Ken growled at the interruption.

"Copy that Bombay," he muttered and looked back at Aya who had swirled around at his question.

"Of course not!" the redhead stated firmly and frowned. "How can you think that?"

"Because that's how it looks from where I'm standing Aya."

"It's not like that at all Ken! But I saw how hurt you were when you found out that some of the parents didn't want their kids coached by you anymore. I saw how it affected you and it was my fault!" Ken's eyes widened. Aya had never seemed like someone who put the blame on himself like that. Carefully he moved closer to his friend and took his hand.

"No Aya it wasn't and isn't your fault that some people can't be open-minded. Yes it did hurt that they didn't see that I'm still the same person but I could handle that because I had you. I…" Ken swallowed and closed his eyes for a brief moment. This had to be said! "I love you Aya." The redhead stared at him with shock written all over his face. Ken eyes moved slightly to the right and caught the sight of the guards. "Shit the guards are here," he hissed and pulled the stunned redhead further into the shadows. As the armed men walked by the two assassins stayed pressed together. When they were alone again Ken let go of his hold and smiled to himself. They had made it! The guards where gone and Aya was still alive!

"I… You… I have to…" The brunette snapped around in time to see Aya walked away from him, looking scared and confused.

"No Aya the guards!" Ken yelled. He didn't bother to turn around he already knew that they were there. As fast as the could the brunette threw himself forward, pushed Aya out of the way and just barely managed to stay on his own two feet.

As in slowmotion Ken turned around and looked at the two guards. It happened so fast and still it seemed like it took forever. The loud clatter, the flashes of light from the automatic weapons, the pain when the bullets hit his chest and stomach.

"NO!" He could actually hear Aya's scream over the sound and wondered if it had been the same for the redhead. The clatter stopped and the guards ran around the corner without looking back. Everything was numb to Ken. He felt no pain anymore, he didn't feel anything at all. Aya sank down beside him and carefully lifted his head up from the floor. Floor? Ken blinked slowly. When had he ended up on the floor?

"A… Aya?" he asked with confusion when he saw the tears in the redhead's eyes.

"Hold on Ken. Bombay! Balinese!" Aya barked over the line that connected them. "Siberian is down, get help fast!"

"I… Too late," Ken whispered. He was slipping away. For a moment he wondered why he hadn't died right away like Aya had all those times? Of course, the redhead had interrupted the guards' shootings.

"No Ken just hang in there, help's on the way." Aya gently stroke away a few strand of chocolate hair from Ken's face.

"Sorry," the brunette murmured and felt how his eyes drifted close. He knew he was dying and he didn't really mind. At least he had saved the redhead and that was all that mattered to him. "Love you, didn't mean to… die."

"NO KEN!" Aya yelled and shook him. "Please don't give up!" He forced his brown eyes open one more time and smiled. It wasn't the fate he had hoped for but at least it was a diffrent fate where Aya remained alive, unharmed. Ken's eyes closed again and he could feel how everything inside of him slowed down. "I love you too Ken," was the last thing he heard before everything just stopped.

~TBC?~

Ano… Ken no baka! This wasn't better was it? Hello we need both of you to survive darnit! *sighs* FATE!!! Another chance thank you!!! I think I'm morbid or something!! I kill ppl left and right in every damn fic but this one takes the cake *L* I've killed Aya five times and Ken two and a half (half because he was dying when Fate stepped in once).

Okay I know Ken is acting very diffrent from previous chapters but hey love gives you strength ne? And he has finally realized that he wants to fight for Aya. What I'm really trying to show everyone here is that Aya isn't as strong as Ken thinks/thought he is/was. And even more so he doesn't want to hurt Ken or inflict pain on him which he obviously thought he was doing because of that blasted Ishibashi-woman *hates her*

And again thanks to Keeshe for letting me keep Darke *grins* He's one cute muse and he's good to *snorts at her other muse who's still on vaccation. She can make it a long one!* And there was angst in this chapter ne??? *hugs Keeshe*

I'll be honest this is one of the three diffrent endings I have lined up for this fic. Now should I leave it like this or do you want me to give Ken another chance? Lemme know 'kay? Ja/Atsureki