Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Shattered Innocence ❯ Shattered Innocence ( Chapter 1 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

I revised this story and changed few things. This chapter now has a different ending from the first version. Nagi does something in the end *shows hentai grin*
The first ending was kinda cut off... Sorry 'bout that!

Disclaimer: I don't own anything of Weiß Kreuz though I wish I could own Nagi at least... He's sooo cute! And like any other cute bishounen he just brings out my cruel nature! Yep, I'm mean!

Contains: yaoi and, yeah... in the first chapter doesn't happen very much but I think it should be rated as NC-17. At least for the following chapters which will contain all this nasty things like BDSM, threesome and rape, dirty talking etc.
Dunno why I'm always being so mean to my Nagi-chan...

Some of the reviewers asked why there are so many exclamation points. Well, Caspian figured it out! It shall emphasize how psychopathic little Nagi-kun is.
I mean, consider his job! Consider where he lives and how! Do you really think he picks flowers and writes down love letters?

I apologize for any possible errors in grammar and/or spelling. I'm German...



Shattered Innocence

Have I ever felt something like that before? Such a burning inside of me... Devouring me!
He's so sweet! I've never seen such pure innocence combined with this beauty of his!
It´s breathtaking...


You're like a butterfly to me, sweet Omi-chan!

Once you've been touched you'll never be able to fly again!

And I´ll be the one to take your wings off! You'll belong to me!
Your body!
Your soul!
Your will...

I´ll be the one to touch you like no one´s touched you before!
I´ll extinguish that burning fire inside of me...
...and give it to you!

My desires for you are not the foolish ones of love...
Ha!
Love... Love´s for those of your kind!
Nice and always happy! Lucky!

I´m neither happy nor lucky!

It´s just that incredible heat in my loins, in my heart, my whole body!
And I hate you for that!

Dear, I´ll shatter your purity! I´ll make you mine, butterfly that you are!

Enjoy the time that´s left for you! Enjoy your freedom, love the skies 'cuz you´ll never see them again!


He´s like me in some way. With a dark sin laying upon his heart! A somber secret no one must know! No one´s allowed to know...

Like me...

At night he turns coldhearted...
Killing.
Drawing blood and splattering it all over the bodies of his victims!


No innocence the common would say! You steal lives like I do! For what right do you do that, they would scream!

Still... To me you are pure.

Look into my eyes deeply and you´ll find all those little death sins...
Hatred.
Lust.
Lust for you... Sodomy....

You´re a boy like me... It´s a sin... I shouldn´t even think of that kind of pleasure and still I´m touching myself every night.
With your picture before me...
It´s not love-making...

I am hurting you in those dreams. I´m fucking you till you bleed.

To hurt you.
I hate you!
You posess something I may have never had! It´s unfair, don´t you think?



Your cute little nose that wrinkles so nice when you´re laughing.
Your delicate heartshaped face framed by golden hair like flowing honey...

How can you act so lovely?
Don´t you think it´s unfair? Unfair... My life compared to yours...

I know your life... I know what´s happened to you! And yes! For many human beings it is awful...
But you´ve never been down to where I had been...

They say I´d look cute with the features of an angel.
But if you really look at me you´ll discover my devillish nature...

In one way I really do hate you, Omi Tsukiyono!
...in the other I just want to keep you...


I hate what I desire! I hate that burning fire that nearly devours me!
It´s so hard to pretend... So damn hard!

I´m playing my role perfectly though. No one knows!

No one will ever know!


To destroy your beautiful face.. Your smile and your happiness!


I want you to scream in pain and pleasure.

Tears streaking down your soft skin that surely feels as soft as rose petals under the cruel touch of my fingers!

I want you to moan and cry my name. Want you to feel that heat and you burning yourself on it!

And I´ll keep you in a dark chamber until you´re broken because you are what I look like...
You posess what was never given to me!

Angelic boy with the sun in your eyes...


Why am I feeling this for him? He´s supposed to be as what our company would call an enemy.
Although I hate that term...
Enemy.

That sounds like in a cheap movie or a fairy tale...


No, no... You are not what I´d mark as an enemy.

But maybe, just maybe, you should consider me as your worst enemy because I´m going to crush you!
You cause me pain I don´t understand!

To feel your soft skin under my hands.
Your sweet lips on mine. Our tongues mingling together in a heated mating...
To rip off your virginity...

Hearing your moans... Hearing you crying for me, for more...



"Nagi, you´re such a dirty little fucker!" I suddenly hear someone familiar saying.

I don´t need to turn around to know who it is.
I can feel his jade-green eyes going through me like daggers.

Schuldig.

That damn twisted jerk!
Our dear mastermind...
Fucking gaijin!

I´d kill him for instant if it weren't for his powers which prevent me from doing so...
Schuldig´s much more powerful than I am!
Though I´m a telekinetic I am no match for him!

I´ve found that out on the hard way! He just needs to use his telepathic powers and fuck with my head and all my strength is gone to the middle of nowhere!
And it had been a very painful experience which I´d learned...
Learned to never even think of trying it again!

He´s a sadist and loves enjoying the pain and sorrow of others! Especially if he's the one inflicting it...

My heart stops beating for a moment as I realize that he just found out about my sinful wishes and I silently curse myself for the stupidity to having let my thoughts about my butterfly flow...

"Gay-boy...hmmm! I should have known that!", he snickers. "Want me to teach you something? Maybe... how to suck cock! Your sweet little mouth and lips look fuckable enough to me!"

I still do not turn around. And I don´t even try to shield my thoughts... He knows them already and he´d only be laughing more at me if I´d do so to hide anything from him now.

Fuck!

His words hurt though... Their sounding... He never had a high opinion of me but now that he knows about my sexuality, my desires, it would even get harder to stand his presence.
It hurts not to be respected.

"I think, I could really enjoy fucking your face, boy!"

I feel his arrogant smirk on me. Shivering slightly I stand there, hoping he´d piss off and leave me the hell alone!

"What would our dear Takatori-sama think of this? Of you wanna fuck his youngest son!" he chuckles.

He doesn´t say that out of shock or respect to Takatori...
It´s just because he knows how deep this is getting to me! And because of his disliking to that man who pays our bills...

"He´d kill you for sure! Old Takatori wouldn´t like the idea of someone checking his bubbly boy! That pisser has a thing for cute little boys and so your death would be caused out of... jealousy!"

My body´s flinching at his words. Takatori, the father of my desire called Mamoru...

"Hmph... Schuldig-sama! You´re not very bright, are you? Already forgotten that that old fart wanted to dispose of him when Omi was a little child? Don´t you think of it as illogical that his father would like to fuck him now if he could have done so many years ago?", I spat sarcastically.

Anger´s flowing through my veins. I´m angry at my own sillyness! Why didn´t I pay more attention to my surroundings? I mean, I know that damn gaijin...
I should have known that he would peek into my mind. He always does!

He giggles at me and I can feel him coming towards me yet I don´t hear any sound of him walking. Like a cat he moves behind me.
His sheer presence radiates an uncomfortable heat that makes me shiver even more!

"You don´t like me, do you! Aww... poor boy! I´m such a tolerant guy, you see!", he rasps.

One hand travels down my my spine. I really fight the urge to jump what´d only make him enjoy this even more.
His hand´s wandering down to my ass and cups one of my buttocks, squeezing it hard.
I want to supress the sickening feeling that´s rising from the pit of my stomach so I close my eyes, trying to stay as calm as possible.

His other hand is moving down to my hip and he pulls me closer to him. I can feel his crotch pressing against the small of my back.

"Mmmh... You´re shaped like a little girl and I expect you to be as hot and tight and unwilling like one!", he whispers to me, his voice husky and his lips wet against the shell of my ear.

"You´re a sick bastard... You know that!", I growl and try to free myself from his iron grip. But I got no chance.

"Are you afraid of what I could do to you? I am a sicko and a pervert! And you´re such a cute boy! You can never be sure about me... Maybe someday I´ll join you for night, raping you! Sodomizing you till your legs and your little asshole are bleeding like the Niagara Falls!", he tells me in a somewhat dangerous voice.

"Fuck you, Schuldig!", I snarl.

"Me? I think it´s you who should be taught in fucking! You see, getting fucked may be better than always jerking off! I know how often you´re changing your sheets! Some nights I hear you doing it to yourself! You sound like a girl when you´re coming, gay-boy!" he teases me.

My cheeks are burning and I´m blushing deeply. Why is he doing that to me?
I feel like I´m going to vomit every minute and my vision´s blurring.

Why had it always to be me? Why, fuck it?!

No one's ever gonna help me... No one's even interested!

"Mmmh... dun'cha gettin' hard on me?", he purrs, guiding his hand between my legs.

Now I am really fighting! Like hell I´m trying to get him off of me!

"You damn fucker! Now piss off for hell's sake and leave me the fuck alone! You hear me!!!", I yell at him, hoping that my anger may stun him just for a sec so that I could take my chance to scurry away, running.

Maybe find Crawford.
Finding Crawford would help! Schuldig wouldn't molest me in front of our group's leader!

"My, my little boy! Getting aggressiv on me? Need a punishment? Or do you prefer it rough anyway? Hm? Masochistic, aren't you?", he laughs at me but also let go of me.

I take that chance and turn around sharply.
My eyes are glowing and it's pretty hard not to use my powers on him... Though I´d really like to see his bones and skull cracking and his blood splurting all over the carpet!

Wishful thinking...

"I'm impressed! What a cruel nature you got!" Schuldig grins at me.

"What is it you always have to fuck with me? Man, you're killing my nerves!!!"

"Yep, I'm about to fuck you!"

I growl again.
My body's still shivering but at least my fit of rage cooled a bit... I think, now, that I've escaped his grip, I can handle the situation and get out of here.

Schuldig and I watch each other silently. His eyes glittering with joy while mine are full of hate and disgust.
His arrogant smirk's plastered all over his face. One Hand on his hips, he's mentally searching me through, reading my mind.

"You're right, Nagilein(*)! You're sick! What is it that you actually want to fuck some boy's ass! And then little Takatori's of all...!" he finally spoke

Silence.

"You know where I'm coming from, ne?"

I don't answer this silly question... It was rhetorical anyway!
I'm a bit unsure about that cruel smile playing around his lips...

"You're good at school..."

I nod softly, wondering where this is leading to...

"You got any idea of what the Nazis did to your kind?" he grins. "They mostly got killed in an even more brutal way than the Jews! Though the little boys in the KZ had been raped by the guards... Think that's not the stuff they're teaching you in school, ne!"

This time I yield from him: "You're disgusting...!"

"Maybe Hitler had been right in one thing at least!"

I pale, blinking twice. I cannot believe what I just heard!

He watches me more. Letting it sink what he just told me. Seeing me struggle to keep myself from turning and running. This time he managed to shock me utterly!
I knew he was a sadist... But this...!

"Just joking...!" he eventually grins. "Awww... come on now! Stupid, I just gave a you the promise to fuck you raw!"

He smiles sweetly at my now totally confused expression.
He turns and leaves.

"Mach's gut, Süßer!(**)" he tells me in his native language. Then he's gone.

German's hard to understand but I am at least well enough to get his point now... I don't want him to have another strike against me!
So I've learned and learned...


I shut the door to my room, now that I am alone again. I sit down at my desk and start my computer.
I need to release now... I exactly know where to look...
It's good to be a hacker so I don't have to pay for any porn site.

I'm watching some cute boys, chained to a wall. Whipped by men in masks...
I am dirty, I know...
I can't help it and my hand wanders down to open my pants while I'm clicking through all those pictures of boys.

I stroke myself hard, urging my orgasm. I don't like to touch my body and so I always do it for release only. Just to get this burning out of me...

There's a boy, looking a bit like you, Omi! He's shackled and sucks some men's cock while getting fucked in the ass. He's so cute and tears of pain stain his face.

I imagine you at his place and I grip my cock harder. Suddenly it bursts out. Gritting my teeth this time... No wish for Schuldig hearing me again...
My seed's finally spilled, my hands dirty...

It won't help long...
It never does!

Time to do something about my pain....



TBC...

*: Nagilein is the German equivalent to Nagi-kun/-chan
**: means "Take care, sweetie/cutie" in general but you can also think of it as "byebye, little one..."

Man, I was kinda doped while writing the last part... I got a headacche and took some painkiller. Now I'm stoned. Would explain some of this crap! *gg*

There'll be coming more soon!