Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Spend Nowhere With Me ❯ Chapter 1

Spend nowhere with me

by seven7

saturnssavior@netscape.net

Disclaimer: Weib Kreuz belongs to those legal people that follow me around all day. But since they bought me coffee I don't mind them stalking me.

Rated: R

Pair: AxY

Warning: This is a be-shounan ai fanfic, which means there's yaoi in here somewhere, so if that's not your kind of thing, then I'm sure there are other stories more to your liking.

Summary: Sequel to Daddy. As a child Yohji was abused by his father now seventeen years later Yuuji Kudou wants to reunite with his son. Can Yohji put aside his emotions and give his father a second chance or is his painful past going to continue to slowly drive him insane? One year after 'Daddy'

-Spend Nowhere With Me-

Ring

Ring

Ring

Rin-"Hello? This better be important if you're calling me at three in the morning." a sleepy voiced answered.

/hello Yohji it's Manx....I have some news/

"What kind of news?" Yohji yawned; he lay back down on the bed cradling the phone against him.

/It's about your father...Yuuji/

Yohji yawned louder, his body sinking into the mattress comfortably.

"What about him?"

/....he's been released../

"..."

/Yohji are you still there? Yohji.../

"Yeah I'm still here Manx. Hold on will you?" He sat up in bed swinging his legs over the side, setting his feet on plush carpet. Sleep completely gone from him he stood up and quietly made for the door grabbing his robe on the way. He opened the door and paused to glance at the sleeping redhead in his bed. Ran shifted slightly but still completely asleep. Yohji closed the door quietly and headed down to the basement mission room, he didn't want any of the others to find about this...or about his past.

Yohji wrapped himself in his robe and sat down on the large couch and spoke into the phone again.

"When was he released?"

/One week ago...it seems he passed his parole exam./

"I thought he was to be sent to twenty years to life imprisonment? How could he just be released?"

/Times change Yohji and now that Persia's gone there's no saying what's going to happen now. Apparently your father Yuuji had gone through intensive psychotherapy. He's been going to a psychiatrist for over a year and had pleased the doctor enough for him to summon an early probation. That along with his testimonial of good behavior from the warden, the courts saw no reason to keep him in custody any longer and promptly set him free./

"And I'm just hearing about this NOW?" Yohji asked angrily.

/I'm sorry Yohji. I know it's a bit sudden-/

"'SUDDEN' isn't the word for this Manx. Try more a 'SLAP IN THE FUCKING FACE!' You know what this bastard did to me Manx."

/I know Yohji..I was there/

Yohji let out a frustrated sigh. He sat forward still cradling the phone to his ear, he ran his free hand through his hair and rested his head against his hand.

"Do you know where he is?"

/His parole officer gave me his address of residency, apparently the courts also set up a half way home and a new job for him./

Yohji closed his eyes, exhaling the breath he'd been holding slowly.

/Yohji?/

"Yeah I'm still here Manx. Just trying to let it all settle in you know?"

/I understand but Yohji...I'm afraid there's more../

"What do you mean?"

/Your father has asked the courts for permission to associate with the victim of the cause for incarceration./

"he what?"

/basically your father has asked the courts to drop any restraining orders against him./

"...and what did the courts say?"

/the courts reviewed his criminal record and his prison record along with the medical records from the public psychiatrist who treated him...they found him to be 'cured' and dropped the restraining order./

"Fuck"

/He wants to see you Yohji/

"Ho-How did this happen Manx? I thought he was out of my life for good? How can this be happening?" Yohji whispered, his hands shook furiously, goosebumps rose all along his back and arms.

/I'm sorry Yohji/

"w-why did you wait to tell me this now? Why didn't you tell me immediately after he--he was released?" Yohji had to switch the phone to his other hand as the first one was getting sweaty.

/I...I was hopping I wouldn't have to tell you. After the courts dropped his restraining order your father had asked for your whereabouts. The police records we have on you have you as 'deceased in major automobile accident, March 8 1999'. When we told him that you were dead he.../

"he what Manx?"

/...he cried Yohji./

Yohji blinked in disbelief...his father...cry?

/he didn't just cry Yohji he...he broke down right there in the police station. He fell to his knees and sobbed loudly and brokenly. He mumbled on how he never got the chance to set things right with you...how he wished he had the chance to ask your forgiveness for all the wrong he's done to you...he said that for the seventeen years he was in prison the only thing he could think about was you and how much he loves you and had hoped to see you again./

"...h-he s-said that?" Yohji's breath hitched slightly, his hand gripping the phone tightly. His whole body was shaking and he broke out into a cold sweat.

/yes he did/

Yohji's bottom lip trembled and his eyes became blurry with unshed tears. His free hand covered his mouth to prevent the sob that was catching in his throat. His heart pounded loudly in his ears and a knot settled in his stomach. He inhaled and exhaled slowly trying to control his rolling emotions.

After almost a minute he was able to talk again without sounding feeble.

"I-If he thinks I'm dead then what's the problem? Why are you calling me Manx?" Yohji demanded, still slightly panting.

/your father...he..lost it/

"What do you mean he lost it?"

/Just like I said...he lost it. He refused to believe that you're dead. He got up right after his emotional breakdown and started ranting about how you weren't dead and that everyone was trying to keep him from seeing his only son. He became rowdy and had to be sustained, he was incarcerated overnight in the county jail and was released the following morning./

"So then what happened?" Yohji asked curiously, his emotions calming down finally.

/Yuuji returned to the police station and refused to leave until we showed him evidence of your 'death'. Since all we have is records he refused to believe that was sufficient evidence. He wanted to 'see' proof. So I personally took him to 'see' your grave./

"My grave?"

/yes you and the other three have been recorded as deceased. So to make it more believable we even have four tombstones with each of your names on it./

"I didn't know that. What exactly is in those graves?"

/my old prom dress, all my back issues of 'Cats Today', a copy of my best 'Elvis' collection and everything that belonged to my ex-boyfriends. But that's beside the point. May I continue?/

Yohji nodded then answered when he remembered that Manx couldn't see him.

/That day I took him to see your grave and he nearly died from a heart attack. I have never seen anyone with such pain in their eyes as I had in Yuuji./

"I thought you hated him Manx. For what he did to me."

/I do-did...I don't even know anymore./

"What changed your mind?

/I got to know him. He's not the same person he's used to be, and you know me I'm not an easy person to impress but...he's definitely changed Yohji. A change for the better./

"Ok.."

/Well anyway, after he'd seen your grave and had another breakdown he sat there just staring at your grave. After about an hour he asked if I had a marker, when I gave him one he knelt down and wrote a message to you on you tombstone./

"What did the message say?" Yohji asked, he was seriously unnerved by all the events that had occurred behind his back.

/that you'll have to see for yourself./

"You can't just tell me over the phone?" he asked wearily. His back was starting to ache from being hunched forward. He leaned back and rested on the couch completely.

/I think this is something that you should see personally, it's really not my place to say anything./

"So then where is this grave?"

/On the top of the Hills of the Cherryblossoms Memorial. You each have your graves in a private corner./

"So then I'll go see this message he left behind..but that's still doesn't tell me why you've called Manx."

/I just called to inform you that your father will no longer be a threat to you./

"So then that's good news right"

/I guess.../

"Stop playing games with me Manx"

/...All right..I-I really called to tell you that your father.../

"What Manx? My father is what?"

/...he's dead Yohji...he committed suicide late last night./

Yohji's breath left him with the shock. His eyes widened and his mind was going a thousand miles with the same two questions.

"W-What..H-How.."

/He jumped...he jumped off the bridge and fell on the rocks in the Kohaku River. He died on impact./

Cold. He felt cold, his heart was beating rapidly and his body started shaking again. But he felt numb with cold.

/We-I decided to cremate him, his body will be incinerated at nine am and his ashes will be stored in an antique vase I own. I'm letting him have it in his honor of the changes he's made in improving himself./

He still felt cold. His body shivered with the cool temperature of early morning seeping in through the stairwell. His blood just felt cold like someone dumped ice water over his head and body.

/Yohji?/

"I-I'm here Manx" Yohji whispered.

/I'm sorry it had to be this way Yohji but-/

"It's okay Manx, I'll be fine."

/Yohji are you sure I can-/

"I'm sure Manx. Everything will be fine...I'll be okay. Don't worry please." Yohji cut her off.

/Yohji-/

"Goodnight Manx and thanks"

/Yohj-/

Yohji pressed the end key hanging up on Manx. Slowly he let the phone slip from his hand and dazedly watched it fall and bounce off the carpeted floor before settling between his bare feet. He sat there in the same position for what seemed like a good hour but was probably just ten minutes. Eventually he stood up and quietly made his way upstairs and back to his bedroom. He opened the door and stepped in soundlessly. He saw his lover lying on his side facing the door.

Ran slept on his side with the sheets covering only his bottom half while his top half shone with the moonlight that filtered through the window and curtains. Yohji made for his bed discarding his robe and gently sank into the soft mattress. Lifting the sheets he laid himself horizontal and covered himself up.

Lying next to his Ran, Yohji could feel his lover's warmth through next to him and he was reminded of his icy skin. Almost as if sensing his thoughts his lover reached out for him and immediately woke up.

"Yohji you're so cold"

"Sorry love, but I had a phone call I had to take. Unfortunately I had to leave the bed in order to take it." Yohji chuckled forcibly, the laughter not quite reaching his eyes.

Ran noticed his lover's false mask and reached out to brush his hand against his ice-cold forehead. "Who called?"

"It was nothing don't worry about it." Yohji waved it off; instead he pulled Ran roughly to his chest and flipped him so that Ran was on top of him. Yohji captured those luscious lips, pressing deeply and hungrily with desperation.

Ran gasped at the sudden act and felt Yohji slip his tongue into his mouth. Tongues battling against each other Ran lost himself in the pleasure of Yohji's warm mouth and wondering hands.

Yohji moves Rans legs apart making him straddle his hips. Both completely naked from last night's previous activities. Yohji placed his hands on Rans naked hips caressing the silky soft skin beneath his fingertips. His lips still on Rans, Rans hands on Yohji's chest playing with the fine hairs there.

Yohji broke away from the kiss and began nibbling down Rans neck and collarbone. Ran moaned deeply and Yohji nipped and sucked his way down to his sensitive nipple. Yohji licked Rans nipple until it was pebble hard and gently bit it causing Ran to moan loudly and rub his hips against Yohjis erotically.

Yohji got harder just listening to Ran moan; he pushed Ran back a little and let their erections rub against each other. Ran moaned louder and he was panting. His face flushed pink with ecstasy, his cock a swollen purple leaking white dew at the slit.

Yohji grabbed Rans cock and pumped him a few times. Ran cried out with a loud moan and thrusted his hips frantically against Yohjis hand. Yohji's cock was also a swollen purple with need but the ache within him was more demanding.

Stroking Rans cock a few more times with one hand Yohji used his other hand and pulled out the little bottle of lube hidden beneath his pillow. He stopped pumping Ran and held him by the hips.

Ran moaned at the loss of stimulation, he kept grinding his hips until Yohji stilled him with his hand. Ran looked down at the flushed face of his lover. Yohji smiled weakly before handing him the bottle of lube. Hesitantly Ran took the bottle and flipped the cap, he poured some onto his fingers letting some of it drip onto his cock and Yohji's stomach. With his coated fingers Ran reached behind and prepared to lubricate himself when a hand stopped him.

"don't...." Yohji said guiding Rans hand down to his own cock. "Take me this time...please" Yohji pleaded.

Ran nodded. He knew never to ask his lover about his sudden moods, Yohji would tell him later when he was ready.

Ran slid his body down the length of Yohjis until he was at the foot of the bed. Using the uncoated hand Ran bent Yohjis knees upright, he scooted forward to be closer. Yohji watched as his lover was getting settled before him. As soon as Ran touched his bent knees Yohji instantly spread his thighs apart giving his lover access to his intimate body.

Ran watched his lover spread himself open for him. Yohji's erection stood proudly before him dripping with sweet drops of lust. His rosette entrance enticing him for a taste. Ran couldn't hold back anymore and bent forward, he started licking Yohji's testicles first, licking firmly before taking them into his mouth sucking gently.

Yohji closed his eyes and gasped loudly as Ran took him into his warm cavern. As his lover began sucking on his balls Yohji bucked up moaning loudly waiting for Ran to move up. Ran suckled him deliciously, enjoying the smooth texture of Yohjis balls in his mouth before releasing them. He licked firmly the space between the balls and the anus. He kept licking until his tongue reached the small entrance, slowly he licked around the little pucker before plunging his tongue all the way in.

Yohji bucked up again, crying out in pleasure as his lover ringed him. His hands fisted the sheets beneath him, his head tilted back and his eyes closed as his breath came in pants. Ran sawed in and out of Yohji's delicate rosette earning louder moans from the older man. Ran pulled his tongue out and sat up straight between Yohji's spread knees.

Yohji moaned at the loss of Rans tongue but gasped as he felt his lovers lubed fingers penetrate him slowly all the way to the knuckle. Two fingers slipped in at the same time, began a scissoring motion. Stretching him and lubing him completely. Ran slipped in a third finger watching his lovers face as he spread his fingers apart inside him. He watched as he curved his fingers and hit that sensitive nerve deep within him.

Yohji cried out as stars exploded within his vision, he pushed himself back against Rans fingers trying to get a deeper stimulation. Ran removed his fingers as Yohji started to ride them, he quickly stroked his own cock lubing himself up in preparation. Yohji opened his eyes in time to see his lover nestled between his legs, his hand on his swollen member as he aligned himself with Yohjis entrance. Ran pushed in slowly letting Yohji adjust to his size before pushing all the way in until hips met the back of thighs.

Yohji groaned erotically as he was completely filled with his lover's large penis. Ran leaned down placing one hand next to Yohji's head while the other caressed his thigh and butt and holding it firmly. Ran smiled at his lover then kissed him passionately as he grinded his hips against Yohji.

Yohji moaned only to have it swallowed by his lover's mouth on his. He pushed against his lover's hips as Ran thrusted into him. Slowly but deeply the moved against each other, no words were said only moans and the slapping of skin against skin could be heard. Ran released Yohji's lips to concentrate on his thrusting, he licked his lips as he watched his lover gasp and plead him for more speed.

"h-harder! f-faster!" Yohji pleaded, his eyes half lidded with ecstasy. His skin glistening with sweat shone by the moonlight.

Ran shifted to his haunches grabbing Yohji's hips with both hands, he pulled Yohji to meet each thrust while speeding up. His cock plunging into that warm tight sheath.

"Yes!" Yohji wailed as his prostrate was stabbed with each pounding thrust. Pressure gathered around his groin as Ran began pumping his cock in time with each thrust. Bearing no more Yohji came, stars exploded and sound was gone. Nothing but the rush of orgasm was present in his clouded mind.

Ran came right after Yohji, his cock gripped tightly as his lover's muscles clamped down during orgasm. Ran spilled himself in Yohji's passage; the warmth of the anus combined with the spasms from the orgasm milked him of his seed in a suctioning motion that left him gasping in pleasure.

Ran pulled himself out of his lover's body and stood from the bed, he walked over to the bathroom grabbing a towel to clean himself off with. He returned to the bedroom and noticed Yohji was still in the same position. Confused, Ran went to Yohji and looked down at his lover. Yohji's eyes were closed but he could see tears leaking those tight lids. Frowning, Ran caressed Yohji's cheek before climbing back into bed. He pulled the covers around them both.

"Yohji you want to talk about it."

Yohji didn't move but his breath hitched as a small sob broke free.

"Yohji would you look at me please" Ran pleaded, still caressing Yohji's cheek.

Yohji hesitantly opened his eyes, his emerald irises were glistening with unshed tears. His throat constricted as he swallowed back a sob. Ran leaned down, his lips next to Yohji's ear he whispered soothing words while Yohji nodded. He raised his arms to encircle Rans neck and shoulders; there he buried his head as he wept silently his lover holding him. Ran wrapped his arms around Yohji while he wept uncontrollably. He rested his head on top of Yohji's just waiting for the man to calm down and compose himself.

A while later Yohji moved away from Ran's chest and laid back down he turned to his side giving Ran his back. Ran lay down behind Yohji, spooning him while he wrapped an arm around the blondes waist. He waited knowing that Yohji would speak up soon; he almost fell asleep just as Yohji finally said something.

"What did you say, I didn't hear you" Ran said softly.

"I said my f-father died last night." Yohji whispered tiredly.

"I'm sorry to hear that"

Ran replied soothingly, gently caressing Yohji's stomach with his flat hand.

"He used to beat and rape me."

His hand stopped suddenly.

"W-what?"

"My father used to beat me and then rape me every night ever since my mother left us."

"He raped you after she died?"

"Yes and no. My mother left us both for another man. My father raped me because I looked a lot like her, he used to blame me for being a whore like her."

"WH-Why would he do that it wasn't your fault that she left." Ran began rubbing Yohji's stomach in a soothing gesture. Soothing for Yohji or for himself he didn't know.

"He abused me until the night the police finally caught him. They arrested him and send him to twenty years to life in prison. I was in the hospital for two weeks in intensive care. I'd spent three years in emotional and psycho therapy just to believe that same thing myself."

"So...how did he die?"

"...he committed suicide."

"How?"

"He jumped into the Kohaku River and hit the rocks at the bottom. He died on impact."

"I thought he was in prison?"

"They released him a week ago. He had gone to a psychiatrist for some time until they thought he was mentally stable enough to be freed. He c-came looking for me only to find that I'd died four years ago."

"When you became Weiss."

"...yeah."

"So then what happened?"

"He left me a message at my grave and then committed suicide."

"What did the message say?"

"I don't know Manx wouldn't tell me."

"Manx knows about this?"

"She was there during the arrest."

"oh"

"Ran what would you think if someone who hurt for spent seventeen years regretting their mistakes had made an effort to change in order to rectify those past mistakes?"

"Is that what he did?"

"...yeah."

Ran thought about it for a minute. What would he do? His own family had been loving all through his young life up until Takatori took all that away. Takatori took his family, his life and his innocence away; he hated Takatori for hurting him so much. But, if Takatori had felt guilty about all the wrong he did to him would that justify him for a second chance? What if, like Yohji's father, Reiji Takatori had regretted his wrong doings? What if Takatori spent seventeen years in prison trying to become a better person just for him? Would he give him a second chance?

"I'm not sure what I would do. I tried imagining the situation with Takatori but I'm left debating whether someone that malicious would ever change into someone better." Ran finally answered.

"He didn't used to always be like that, there was a time when we were one happy family."

"So you still love him?"

"...I-I'm not sure..."

"It's alright if you still love him, he was your father."

"I-I just don't know if I can believe that he'd changed and that he'd sought me out just to apologize to me."

"Do you believe that he regretted what he's done to you?"

"Maybe...I don't know"

"You know what I believe?"

"what?"

"I believe that if someone spent seventeen years in prison...that left him with a lot of time to 'feel'. I'm pretty sure that after all that time maybe he did feel guilty for what he'd done to you. And you know what they say..."

"What? What do they say?"

"That death is preferable to a lifetime of guilt."

"...maybe that's why he killed himself..."

"...maybe..."

They stayed quiet in each other's arms for a long while. Only their breathing could be heard in the silence. Time passed by slowly, Yohji spoke first.

"So are you up to grave visiting later on?"

"...sure"

-Hills of the Cherryblossoms Memorial-

"This the place?" Ran asked as he walked behind a more somber than usual Yohji. He was slightly surprised to find his lover up before him already to go dressed in casual black.

"Hey Ran take a look at this!" Yohji waved him over.

Ran approached the grave Yohji was staring at when he noticed his name was on it.

"I-Is that my grave?" Ran asked surprised and a little peeved. Sure Kritiker gave him a nice land plot but...

"Did it have to be 'death by lightning strike'?" He frowned.

"Oh come on it ain't that bad...look here's Omi's" Yohji wondered on. Ran glared at his tombstone a little longer before moving on. He walked up next to Yohji and read Omi's tombstone.

"'death from sleep deprivation'?? Who made these up?"

"I'm pretty sure Manx did. I'll bet she had a fun time coming up with our 'deaths'" Yohji chuckled softly.

"What exactly is in these graves?" Ran asked moving along to the next grave.

"I'm pretty sure Omi's has the old prom dress, your's has the back issues of 'Cats Today', Ken's has the old 'Elvis' collection and mine probably has all the unwanted ex-boyfriend stuff." Yohji said as he reached the next grave.

"'Ken Hidaka' 'death by caffeine overdose'....What the hell was she thinking?!" Ran crossed his arms in front of him.

"Oh I don't know...judging by how many cups of coffee he has every morning I'm certain that can be a possibility."

"Better not let him see that though. He'll flip if he does." Ran said moving on to the next grave.

"Yeah but it would be really funny to watch."

Yohji walked up to the next grave and fell silent. Ran stood to one side reading the message written across the bottom of the tombstone. Yohji stared at the grave a little longer before kneeling down in front of it. Slowly he reached his hand across to touch the cold surface of granite stone. His fingers running across the engraving of his name, below that was the message written by his late father.

"Dear Yohji, my son. It has been seventeen years since I last saw you but you were never far from my mind. Everyday I think about what you would look like all grown up. I'm certain that you were a handsome man, inheriting your unique looks from your late mother. I'm sorry for everything Yohji, I really am. I've worked hard all these years just to get a chance to see you again only to find out I missed my chance. I only wanted to apologize to you personally, to let you know that none of it was ever your fault but mine. I know I've done some really bad things to you Yohji and it hurts more knowing that you died with those painful memories. I really wanted to see you again, I was hopping to maybe spend some time with you, get to know you again. You are my only son and I love you. Maybe after death, if we ever meet, maybe we could spend some time together. Love your father, Yuuji Kudou."

Yohji read the message out loud the first time. He read it silently the second time. Ran stayed back letting Yohji absorb everything.

Time passed on. A cool breeze blew by them tossing their hair into their eyes. The flowers leaned with the force of the wind. Yohji finally stood up still facing the grave. His hands buried in the pockets of his large black trench coat, his blonde hair blowing in the breeze.

"Yohji?"

"Maybe your right Ran...maybe death is preferable to a lifetime of guilt."

"So you believe he changed?"

"maybe...I just know that if I had to choose for him a quick death versus a lifetime of unbearable guilt.....I'd choose a quick death."

"so you forgive him?"

"....maybe..."

"but you're giving him the benefit of the doubt?"

"...I guess..."

Ran shrugged.

"Close enough"

More time passed by without either of them saying a word.

"Yohji?"

"hm?"

"What do you want to do now?"

Yohji sighed. The wind blew gently across the field of flowers and graves.

"Spend some time with me Ran"

"Sure what do you want to do?"

"...nothing..."

"Then where do you want to go?"

"...nowhere..."

Ran cocked his head to the side as he regarded his lover. Yohji chuckled heartily, Ran smiled at the sight of his lover looking more relaxed now...as if old ghost have finally been put to rest.

"So then if we're not doing anything or going anywhere how exactly are we going to spend time together?" He asked.

"Well we could spend nowhere together" Yohji said.

Ran lifted a brow.

Yohji chuckled, "What?"

"That made absolutely no sense"

"Sure it did! Come on Ran spend nowhere with me!" Yohji teased, wrapping his arms around his lover.

"I'd rather not thank you" Ran unwrapped his lover's arms from around him. He turned around and began walking back to their car.

"Hey Ran where are you going?" Yohji chased after his lover.

"I'm going back home, If you're not going to do anything but stare out into space all day then I'm not going to sit here and watch. I've got better things to do."

"Like what?"

"Like making an important phone call to a certain redhead about a few certain grave stones."

"You're still not pissed about that are you?"

"Yeah well at least yours had a more honorable way of death."

"Oh it can't be that bad" Yohji teased.

"Lightning strikes Yohji......lightning strikes?!!"

Yohji laughed loudly as they walked back to their car.

The wind blew gently rustling the trees causing cherry blossom petals to rain down on the tombstones. One cherry blossom floated down through the sky to land on a gravestone, it's leave still intact, completely perfect.

-Owari-

Well? How about that for a sequel?

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Thanx--seven7