Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Stray Kitten ❯ My Kitten ( Chapter 3 )
Title: Stray Kitten
Author: Sardius
Category: Romance
Warnings: NC-17
Pairings: Yohji/Ran
Disclaimer: Once again I don't own the pretty boys, just using them for a bit of fun.
This fic is based on the DJ, Utau Noraneko, presented by Mieko Koide, situated in the "Obsession" website: http://obession.cjb.net, scanned and translated by Cirrus, edited by Alekth.
Author's Note: Here's the last part everyone. Hope you enjoy the fic and Happy Easter!! Thanks to my betas - Lilla and Soulfire. *glomps the girls for all their hard work*
This last chapter is my own creation and is a somewhat sequel to Utan Noraneko after it had ended in chapter two.
To Lilla: The fic is now all yours sweetie. Sorry it came a bit late.
Chapter Three: My Kitten
Ever since that night, Ran had stayed with me.
The days had gone by quickly, and winter was almost over. Everything seemed to be perfect, I felt as if there was a purpose in my life once again. No longer did I have to walk home alone in the dark. Even if I did, there was always someone waiting for me, someone that made my life all the brighter because he was a part of my life.
"A request for you tonight, Fujimiya-san."
Ran nodded at Kiro, taking the note from his hand before putting it aside. Dressed in a dark suits with a neatly buttoned up shirt, he went over to the piano and placed his hands on the white keys. Then slowly, the long delicate fingers slid into place, and the soft beautiful melody began. Each note was clear and soft, as everyone sat entranced by the redhead, marvelling at his inspired playing.
The young man had agreed to work for me since the night I had asked him to stay. It was a pity to see Ran's talent go to waste and a part of me wanted to keep a close eye on him. I am not sure if Ran had only accepted this offer because he felt he owned me something or simply because he was willing to. I could only wish it was the latter reason that had prompted his agreement.
"He's got talent doesn't he?"
I glanced over to see Kiro beside me, watching Ran play on the piano. Business had been good since the redhead started on the job. The restaurant was usually booked out most of the nights, especially on a Thursday night when the redhead would take requests. And throughout this time, I have been questioning the relationship between Ran and me.
"Yes he is."
And he belongs to me.
The feelings Ran had always generated in my heart I could never begin to understand.
This ownership, this possessiveness I felt whenever I'd see the redhead getting too close to my customers, made me really doubt myself. Why am I feeling like this? It's not like Ran is my lover right? And neither do I have the right to stop him from loving someone else.
Things have been going well since he had decided to stay with me. Sometimes when I'd head back home, I would find him sprawled asleep on the floor, snuggling between the blankets, and I'd sit down and gently run my fingers through his silky locks. Like a kitten, he would unconsciously purr and lean towards the touch, making me smile at the ray of happiness radiating from my heart.
Yet, even though I'd always want Ran to stay with me, how long would this last? Sooner or later, he would leave me for someone else. After all it wasn't like we'd made any commitments to each other.
Wouldn't it be best not to get too close to him?
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It was raining.
And I hated it. The rain always brought me back to so many terrible memories.
It was raining the night when Asuka died. The night when my life was changed forever. I remember running out onto the streets, the wind blowing the raindrops onto my face, soaking my shirt as I ran towards the place where Asuka was injured. All I could hear at that time was the beating of my heart, the splashing of the water as I halted to a sudden stop. Then I saw her. And everything crashed down upon me.
Since then, there no longer was a purpose in my life.
Until I'd met Ran.
I cast my umbrella aside and opened the door of my apartment, grateful for the warmth inside the room. I shrugged off my coat and flung it on the couch, wondering where the redhead was. Instead I was met with a dark room, Ran was nowhere to be seen. Curiously, I walked past the living room, thinking he was probably asleep as I quietly went inside my bedroom
"Ran?"
No answer.
He should be home by now. Looking around the room, I noticed everything was still in place, the way I had left it this morning. Nothing was moved. The books scattered over the desk, my lighter, a few burnt cigarettes lying in the ashtray, and Ran was not here.
I called out again. "Ran?"
It was then that I noticed the lights coming from the bathroom as I knocked on the door. Suddenly the sound of the water running registered as it could be heard being turned off. Drawers were being slammed shut as I stood waiting outside of the room. Worried I knocked on the door again when it opened, revealing wide amethyst eyes staring at me in shock.
Not knowing what to say and sure didn't understand what the hell was going on, I asked, "Ran? You okay?"
There was no answer. Instead Ran walked past me away from the light shining in the bathroom. His hair was damp from the shower, his skin slightly pink. He was wearing a loose shirt and sweat pants with his eyes downcast onto the floor. All at once, I knew there something was wrong.
"Ran. What is it?" I reached out my hand to touch him on the shoulder but he flinched away from my touch and it was then I realized there was an ugly set of bruises on his neck. What the? I grabbed him by the arms forcing him close to me and pulled open his shirt, eyes roaming on the love bites marking the pale flesh.
"Who were you with?"
Back then; I had made Ran promised me, to stop doing that since there was no need for him to continue with his profession. He would be working at the restaurant and would have enough money to stop the business. The redhead had agreed and I had not questioned his promise with my doubts about it since then. Not until tonight, that is.
"Its none of your business." He coolly replied.
I grabbed him by the chin, jerking his face up so his amethyst eyes met mine. There was a sense of fear and anger hidden behind the orbs as I questioned the redhead again.
"Don't lie to me. What happened?" I snarled.
What is this anger I am feeling? I felt betrayed somehow, knowing that someone had marked my kitten beside me. My Ran. Ran belongs to me; I was the one that had picked him up. No one else should have touched him and hurt him like so. But…I shouldn't be feeling this way. I never owned him and I couldn't stop Ran from loving someone else.
The weight of the silence between us angered me all the more, my fingers dug into the pale skin, marking the delicate chin with another bruise. I knew that I was hurting him.
The young man jerked his head aside and turned away, presenting his back to me. "I'm not lying to you. And why should you care whom I have sex with anyway. That is all you want from me as well…. isn't it?"
Then those eyes met mine, accusing me and at the same time filled with a world of pain and confusion. "You don't own me Yohji." He spoke with a voice that was almost too emotionless, with a coldness I had never imagined would be coming from him.
For some reason what Ran had said made my anger flare all the more, to the point where I almost lost control of myself. Before I did something I would regret later on, I snarled acidly back at the redhead, "Get out."
Silence hung in the air as the rain continued to pour outside. The only light visible was the occasional lighting flashing across the sky.
Ran stood transfixed on the carpet, his eyes never leaving my face. I repeated my threat to him again. "Get out. Now. I can't even stand the sight of you."
I wondered if I have mistaken when I saw Ran slightly trembling in front of me, as if he was trying to hold back tears, but the look on his face was emotionless as he buttoned up his shirt and opened the door.
"You only have to say so."
Then he went outside of the room, closing the door quietly behind him.
I stood staring at the space where the redhead had been just moments ago. Why did I tell him to leave? I sat down on the bed; the mattress creaking loudly as I raked my fingers through my hair. Fuck! What the hell have you done Kudou?
The sound of the falling rain continued to reach my ears making the silence inside all the more unbearable. I glanced out of the window, darkness had already settled around the city. Should I go and look for Ran? A part of me was debating with myself, wondering why I should care so much about who the redhead slept with.
[Ring.]
The sound of the phone jerked me away from my thoughts as I glanced at it ringing beside me. Not feeling in the mood to talk to anyone right now, I left it alone
"This is Kudou Yohji. I am currently not at home. Please leave me a message."
The red light continued flashing on the phone when it came to a sudden stop. Then a voice appeared and it was then I noticed that it was Kiro speaking. "Hey Yohji, has Ran come home yet? Saw him with this guy before and it didn't seem like Ran wanted his company."
Before Kiro could utter another sentence, I picked up the phone. "What happened?" I blurted.
"Huh? Yohji you're home?"
"Damn it. Tell me what happened to Ran?"
Kiro noted the desperation in my voice and quickly gave me the details of the incident. "I'm not sure. I was walking home and saw this stranger with Ran. Come to think of it, I think it was the same guy that came to the restaurant with the redhead a long time ago. I was going to ask if Ran was okay, but he didn't seem like he was resisting when he went inside that man's car…Hey! Hey Yohji, are you listening to me? What's going on?"
I dropped the phone and grabbed my coat, racing out of the apartment. Fuck! What the hell had I been thinking about, shouting at Ran like that?
I ran outside into the rain, the cool water soaked me to my bones, water dripping down from my cheeks. Everything became a blur as I looked around the streets, a few cars blinding me with their headlights, making the water splash on me as they passed. I ran across the road, wondering where the redhead may have gone to.
Please don't let anything happen to him.
I felt like a complete idiot, taking my fear and frustration out on the redhead. Thinking he must have given up on me to have sex with another man. But in reality I was the one that created the problem. I was the one that wasn't sure about our relationship. And now that Ran had disappeared, I couldn't do anything, but feel the sharp pain stabbing inside my heart, with each beat of it.
I continued running down the walkway, my mind kept drifting back to the expression on Ran's face before he had left. I prayed to the Gods that they would keep him safe. If anything was to happen to him… I'd rather it happened to me instead.
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Nothing. Not a trace.
I didn't know how long for I had searched for the redhead. An hour? Two hours? I'm not so sure anymore. All I knew was that I came back to the park, hoping that Ran would be there, but what was left before me was the Sakura tree. The soft petals fading away, soaked in the muddy puddles lying at my feet.
A sense of loneliness overwhelmed me, as I fell onto my knees in despair, looking up at the rain pouring down from the sky. All I wanted was to find Ran again. I would give everything in the world to have him beside me. The rain made my skin shiver, as the cold swept through my body. I glazed wearily at the Sakura tree before me, wishing that by some miracle that the redhead would appear.
I didn't know how long, for I stood there only feeling the pain in my heart that wouldn't go away.
"Ran.... where are you?" I whispered.
"Yohji?"
Every noise vanished into inexistence. It was as if the whole universe had come to a sudden halt when I recognized whom that voice belonged to. There in front of me was Ran, the red silky hair plastered onto his forehead in wet strands, clinging to his skin. Hidden behind them was a familiar pair of beautiful amethyst eyes staring back at me. Before I knew what I was doing, I stumbled towards him and wrapped his slim body in my arms. The redhead expressed his sudden shock by gasping and yet he clung onto me tightly, as we fell onto the wet grass, the breath knocked from our lungs.
"I'm so sorry Ran. I shouldn't have yelled at you. I just..."
A swirl of confusion and pain was hidden behind those eyes as Ran brought his head to the side, his hands clutching at the front of my shirt.
"Why did you come?" he whispered.
How could I explain to him everything that had happened in the past hour? The feeling of despair I had felt when I thought I would never see him again.
"I'm sorry. Kiro…he rang me and told me what had happened." I brushed the wet strands clinging to his forehead away, wiping the rain from his cheeks. "Are you all right?"
The redhead did not reply to me for a while and suddenly I was afraid that something might have happened to him. "Yes. I didn't mean to see him. He… just came…he tried to…but I hit him and ran away." Ran continued murmuring beside me, his eyes were distant remembering the encounter as I held onto his shivering form with my arms.
"I'm so sorry Ran. I didn't know. I'm sorry."
I knew these words might very well mean nothing to him but it was all I could do to express how terribly I had felt at the thought of having hurt him so badly. Releasing Ran, I got up and pulled the redhead beside me, our hands entwined together for the entire time. Yet when I started to walk way, Ran broke away from me.
"Ran?"
He did not reply and it was then I realized why he wasn't coming with me.
// Just remember you can throw me out anytime //
// Get out. I can't even stand the sight of you. //
I silently cursed myself for my foolishness and pleaded, "Ran. Come home with me…please."
The desperation in my voice made the redhead look up at me wistfully. I only wished I could mend his broken heart that easily. I moved closer to Ran, once again I extended my hand, hoping he would take it. It took a while before I saw the pale ghostly fingers reaching out towards mine, his fingertips gently brushing against the palm of my hand. I grasped the cold bony fingers and pulled the younger man towards me, wrapping my arms around his waist. The sense of fear in my heart suddenly vanished knowing Ran had decided to come back to me. Sighing in relief, I didn't realize I had being holding my breath until I let it go.
I buried myself in his wet crimson hair and hugged the slender body tighter in my arms. "Thank you." I murmured.
* * * * * * *
"Ran, you should dry your hair before you catch a cold."
Since we had come back to the apartment, the redhead had not spoken one word nor had given any indication that he had wanted to. The silence between us was overwhelming and I wondered if Ran was still angry with me.
Ran was sitting on my bed, wearing only a bathrobe with his hair still damp from the hot shower. I turned on the desk lamp, letting the light cast a dim glow around the room and sat down beside him, staring ahead at the city skylights.
It reminded me of the last time we were both sitting here, the night when I had asked Ran to stay.
"Ran…."
It had felt awkward speaking to him. I felt like I was speaking to myself. Ran did not respond. Rather he remained there like a discarded doll gazing wearily outside the window. Discarded. Yes, I was the one that had pushed him away out of anger. I was the one that had caused him so much pain when I had only wanted to protect him.
I touched his delicate pale hand and brought it to my lips, kissing the soft skin, hoping he could at least feel the warmth I was giving him. "Ran…I'm sorry." I shifted closer until our bodies were almost touching. "Talk to me. God Ran…. please don't ignore me."
When all I received was silence once more, I thought this might be the end.
"Am I just a substitute?"
His voice was so soft; I almost didn't hear the words coming from his lips. Ran refused to look at me while he said this, the bangs covering his eyes, and my fingers hitched to reach out and run through them.
"What do you mean?"
Ran hesitated before answering and I could tell he had not wanted to speak about it anymore. "Asuka. You always whisper her name in your sleep. Am I…am I just her replacement? Is that all I am worth?"
It was hard to hear that the broken voice speaking to me and to know that I was the one that had caused him so much pain. Asuka. Ran must have heard me murmuring her name while I was asleep. I often dream about her. But Ran as a replacement? Is that what he thinks?
"You were never a replacement."
I lightly touched his chin and turned his face towards me. Ran refused to look at me, closing his eyes, the dark lashes fluttering on his pale cheeks. "Ran. Look at me. Don't hide away."
Slowly a pair of amethyst eyes revealed themselves to me. So beautiful and in them I could almost see my own reflection. "Ran, never, not once have I used you as a replacement. What I feel for you…can never be compared to her."
I found those words surprising myself as I spoke them to Ran. It was as if at the same time, I was telling myself to let go of Asuka's death and move on with my life. "What I feel for you…I didn't understand what it was before. I only thought I would only love Asuka and her alone." Ran winced slightly hearing her name. "But now…. now it is different." I stopped, letting the silence hang over us like a shadow and told myself now is the chance to let go of my old life. "Ran. Remember what you said to me that night?" Ran nodded. "That night you said, you might fall in love with me?"
I leaned closer until I was gently brushing his soft parted lips, his wide amethyst eyes stared back at me in surprise. "I think," I spoke huskily, "I am in love with you too."
Softly I brushed my lips on his forehead, whispering each word to Ran, letting him know how much I needed him to be by my side.
"Let me take care of you."
I kissed his closed eyelids.
"Let me protect you."
And lastly I tilted his chin and kissed those beautiful parted lips.
"Let me love you."
The kiss was gentle, unlike anything I had enjoyed before. It only lasted for a few seconds until the redhead broke it off, only to stare at me with questioning eyes. It was as if he was searching for the truth, a possibility that maybe all this was a lie. Then those eyes softened, and the frown disappeared. Instead, a slight sad smile formed on Ran's lips, as he wrapped his arms around my neck and buried his face into my shoulder.
"Then love me Yohji, I will be here as long as you want me."
* * * * * * * *
// As long as you want me //
But I want you forever Ran, is that possible? Could you be with me forever?
I glanced up towards the redhead; his face was slightly flushed as I pull him down to kiss him breathless on the lips. His skin was so warm compared to the luminous glow casting around his body as if he was made from marble, so beautiful and smooth to be touched. A precious kitten, only to be cherishes.
I was still sitting on the soft mattress of my bed, with Ran straggling on my lap, his legs wrapped around my waist. Our clothes were carelessly thrown onto the floor as I kissed those soft panting lips, my eyes narrowed at the marks I saw on his pale skin. Mine. Ran is mine. No one is ever going to touch him. I trailed down kisses along his chin, until I bit harshly onto his neck, covering the bruises, marking him as mine. Ran arched beside me, his hands tightening on my shoulder as I heard a small groan escaping from his lips.
"Yohji..."
I ran my fingers along his back, marvelled at how soft his skin was, as he shivered at the soft feathery touches I was giving him. Ran shifted uneasily before me and I glanced down to see his hardness rubbing against my skin. I smiled, gathering some lube beside me, I reached down and lightly teased his opening. He tensed; I could feel his nails digging into my shoulder as I whispered softly to him that I wouldn't hurt him. I slowly pushed my finger into the tight heat and stretched my lover. Ran looked at me with lust hidden in his eyes as he moaned and started shifting his legs wider to give me more space.
"Yohji...just do it."
No. I didn't want to just fuck him like I did the other night. I didn't want it to be the same as with all the other men that had slept with my beautiful Ran. Never, I promised myself. Never would I hurt him again.
Ran protested, urging me to just fuck him but I stopped his motions, placing my hand on his hips and slipping another finger inside his body. The redhead didn't understand why I was doing this to him, as I wrapped my arms around his waist, pulling him closer so our chests were pressed together. I leaned over to kiss him and Ran granted me access to his mouth. It was bitter sweet, just like the last time we were together like this. I explored his mouth, twining our tongues together, loving the way he relaxed against my touch.
No one, no one has ever made me feel this way.
I trailed down kisses along his neck, my tongue tracing a pale pink nipple as I sucked on it gently. Ran arched against the touch, wanting to force my fingers deeper inside his body. His hands tightened on my shoulders, his lips just above my ear, the soft moans he was producing were making me lose control. I took my fingers away from him, earning a slight protest from my kitten and grabbed his face with both of my hands until he was facing me.
"Ran, look at me."
There was a slight discomfort on his face, Ran was trying to look everywhere except me. But the look on my face had those amethyst eyes drifting towards me. A glimmer of tears was shining in them, I wasn't sure if it was the trick of the lights or not for then Ran decided to lean forwards to kiss me, hoping to distract me from what I was going to say to him.
"I love you."
The body beside me trembled and the redhead jerked his head away from my hands as I held onto him with a vice-like grip around the waist. I didn't want to let him go, not now, not when I had finally admitted my feelings to him.
"You can't love me."
I almost missed hearing the soft voice speaking to me; the sadness lingering in that deep voice. Maybe it was the first time in Ran's life that anyone had ever appreciated him.
"Why?" I ran my fingers through his silky locks, seeing his dark lashes fluttering closed, his arms still wound around my neck, desperately clinging to me.
"Because I am just a stray Yohji. Why would you want a stray cat?"
Those wide amethyst eyes looked sorrowfully at me as he said this clearly not understanding why a person like me would fall in love with him. I had to smile as I ran my fingers along his lips, my words softly uttered so that they sank into Ran's heart.
"You aren't a stray cat Ran because you belong to me."
"I won't ever let you go."
Then I placed my hands on his hips and gently pushed him down onto my aching erection, his eyes widened in passion, as he gasped, letting me slide into that tight heat.
"Yohji." It sounded like a half sob, half plea as Ran buried his head into my shoulder, his legs wrapping tighter around my waist, holding us together. I ran my fingers soothingly along those silky strands, watching the shadows flickering along the walls as I lifted him up and slowly pushed him back down again.
This feeling I had was indescribable. It was as if everything had come together and the only thing I could feel was Ran moving steadily against my thrusts, his eyes hazy with passion and lips silently begging me to kiss him breathless.
I groaned, feeling the tight heat leaving me, only to envelop me again and again, all the stronger each time, as Ran brought us closer and closer together. I looked up at the beautiful redhead before me, his forehead slick with the sweat glistering on his brow, the flushed pale skins contrasting so strongly with mine.
Everything came down to just Ran and me.
It was as if everything was meant to happen. I was meant to meet him all my life. We were meant to be together. Even though we were so different from the other, still a part of us fitted so well, that there could be no body else that could ever fill in the gap between us.
I shifted and tightened my hands on his hips, brushing against his prostate as Ran cried out, clinging onto me all the more tighter. His sweet moans were a melody to my ear. I wanted to hear it again and again, knowing I was the only one that could ever make him feel this way.
Knowing I was the only person that had ever told Ran how much he deserves to be loved.
The clenching of his muscles told me he was nearing to the end, I reached down between us and started stroking his neglected shaft, running my hands along the slit, making those amethyst eyes glaze and lose focus.
Then warm liquid covered my hands, as Ran cried out, his eyes never leaving me, half lidded and filled with so much love. Love for me and nobody else in this world. I gathered him close to me and kissed those panting lips as I released myself deeply within his body, our eyes never losing contact, letting this last as long as possible.
Slowly everything else faded away and I was once again able to notice where we were. I gently settled Ran down onto the bed; his eyes were closed, his breathing slowing down; his body still trembling from his release.
I cleaned us up using a towel beside me and covered the redhead with the blanket crawling in beside him until I was looking down at his sleeping face.
A slight smile was lingering on those lips and slowly a pair of cloudy eyes focused themselves on me.
It was the first time I saw Ran smile without the sadness hidden behind his eyes.
I ran my fingers along his hair; touching his face as he leaned into the caress, never once did he once say anything to me.
"You will always belong to me. Even if you run away, I will always find you. I love you too much to let you go."
There was a hint of mischief in his eyes as he pulled me down to let me kiss him on the lips, his only ways of expressing how much he loves me as well.
"If I stay here, as long as you feed me, look after me…. love me, then I promise this kitten will always come back to your home."
I smiled and kissed him again, wrapping my arms around his waist as I spooned up behind him. The soft lights from the city flickered into the room, casting a glow around us. I looked outside to see the rain had stopped. I couldn't help but smiled at the thought that from now on, when it rains, Ran will always there beside me to stop the pain from coming again.
Strange how in a world like this, we are still drawn together, even after so many things have happened.
The soft breath from Ran told me he was already asleep. I clung to his body bringing him closer to me, wrapping one arm around his waist and gently threading my finger through his eartail with the other. I kissed his temple and signed, wishing we could be like this forever.
A stray kitten…. no…my kitten.
I smiled.
Someone I can cherish and love, someone that means more to me than anything else in the world because he has changed my life. This feeling of loneliness no longer exists in me because Ran is here.
He has filled the emptiness inside my heart.
Even though we know nothing about each other's past…maybe one day, we can truly love each other.
But for now, it is enough.
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Owari
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