Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Suicide's Intent ❯ Chapter 4 ( Chapter 4 )

Do I still need to say the usual disclaimer? I mean haven't we already been through this more than one time? Bah, oh well, for those of you who have forgotten there is no possible way that I own Weiß. That is unless the owner gives it to me but that in all its likely hood will never happen. ~pouts~

Italics- thoughts as usual

As Ken opened up the door, he was pushed aside by Omi. The youngest member's eagerness to see the hospitalized red head caused Ken a momentary swell of nervousness at the prospect of seeing his one time lover. Ken glanced towards Youji and saw him chuckling at the enthusiasm shown by the young assassin. Motioning Youji to go on ahead of him, he almost missed seeing the blonde raise a questioning eyebrow at him. Ignoring the implied question, he waited as the oldest member gave up on trying to figure out what happened and walked into the room. Ken followed behind him.

As he walked into the hospital room, he looked around it. The room was clean and white and shone more so than the waiting room they were previously in. He slowly let his eyes drift over to the bed that held the red head. Aya lie there, his skin was an even paler shade than was usual. His arms lie limply at his sides and clean white bandages were wrapped around his wrists. Those two things the only outward sign of what the man had tried to do to himself.

Ken held back a sob at the sight of his former lover. He resisted the urge to run to Aya and beg for the red head's forgiveness. He knew he couldn't do that since Omi and Youji were there in the room with him. Throwing his gaze to the floor, Ken walked over to a chair and sat down. He sat there studying his shoes as Omi tried starting up a conversation with their stoic leader.

"Aya-kun, how are you feeling?" Omi asked.

"Fine," Aya answered not even looking at the boy. He had his gaze set on Ken just as soon as the three of them stepped into the room. He frowned slightly when he realized that his young ex lover was keeping his eyes pinned to his shoes, refusing to meet his gaze.

Silence descended on the room after that first opening question. Aya lie there, thinking about what had happened between the two and the reasons as to why he had came back when a voice shook him from his contemplation. He glanced over at where the sound was coming from and saw it was Omi trying to speak again.

"Aya-kun, did the doctor tell you everything?" Omi asked.

"Yes," he answered.

"So then you know you'll be staying here for a few days, ne?"

Aya glanced at the boy and shook his head slightly.

"She also was wanting us to talk to you about what happened. Do you want to tell us?" Omi asked.

"Yeah, Aya what made you go off and do something that stupid?" Youji added in. "We tried asking Kenken over here but he's closed mouth on the subject."

"…"

Ken glanced up at the mentioning of his name and looked at the red head lying in the bed. He quickly looked back down as he noticed violet eye's staring directly at his. Shuffling his feet in nervousness at the penetrating stare Aya had given him.

Hours went by unnoticed as Ken kept his eyes to the floor. He ignored once again the conversations that were being held between Omi and Youji.

Aya laid there, occasionally added in comments here and there when questions where being thrown to him. He avoided questions that led to why he did what he did. From time to time, his eye would stray over to Ken. He fought back the urge to let a sigh out. He couldn't understand what was wrong with the man whom he had fallen in love with. Aya knew, that when he walked in the room, that the boy wished to speak with him, but for the life of him couldn't figure out why.

A knocking on the door followed by a nurse walking in stopped the boys from their talking.

"Visiting hours, will be up in 15 minutes," She said before turning to leave.

Omi and Youji stood up and got ready to leave.

"Yo, Kenken, you coming with us?" Youji asked when he realized the boy made no move to leave.

Ken glanced up at Youji. "I'll catch up to you."

Youji shrugged and walked out the door. Omi followed him after saying goodbye to Aya and giving Ken a smile. The door closed with a soft click.

Silence reigned in the room as Ken continued to sit in the chair staring at the floor. Finally, after a few minutes Aya spoke up.

"Well, did you want to speak to me or something?" He asked.

Ken glanced at Aya startled that the red head began the conversation first.

"Um… uh… I just wanted to tell you something Aya," He stuttered nervously.

"What?"

"I… um… I'msorryforbeingsuchajerkandlieingtoyou," he let out in a rush.

"Could you repeat that I didn't quite catch what you said, Ken," Aya asked.

"I said I'm sorry for being such a jerk and lying to you," He repeated slowly.

Aya looked shocked. "You lied to me? How did you lie to me?"

"I lied when I said I never wanted to see you again… I know I should have told you the truth but I… was afraid of what you would say and how you would see it." Ken said hanging his head.

"Then what was the truth?"

"I… just wanted time to think things out. To find out where the relationship was heading, how long it might last…"

"So you lied to me about it?" Aya asked his voiced hardening slightly.

"Yeah…"

"Now you expect me to forgive you?"

Ken flinched at the coldness in Aya's voice then nodded his head.

"You know, Ken, there was a reason that I'm still alive." Aya began speaking softly. "I could have just given up on life, but someone made me realize that I needed to think before I just laid down and died. I came back for you, Ken."

Ken looked up at the red head and saw a smile on his face.

"You forgive me then?" He asked softly.

"Hai, I do."

"You are after all the reason I came back. I may not be able to live without you, but I also can't bear dieing without you."

Ken walked over to the bed holding Aya.

"Can we start over then?" He asked.

Aya smiled and tried to pull the boy into him embrace but winced at the pain from his wrists. Ken caught the idea of what he was doing and hugged his lover.

A cough at the door broke them apart.

"I'm sorry but visiting hours are now over." A nurse said standing in the doorway.

Ken pouted at this but nodded his head in acknowledgement to the woman. He walked to the door. Turning around he gave a lingering look at the man then left.

Author's Notes: Well this is finally done except for the epilogue I'm going to do… it'll be short and sweet. Awww isn't that lovely, ne?