Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ The Truth about Ran & Schuldig ❯ The Truth about Ran & Schuldig ~ Memento Mori ~ ( Chapter 2 )

The truth about Ran and Schuldig

~ Memento mori ~

It was 3 months since Ran begun working for Takatori Reiji. He and Schuldig worked at the same place, at similar positions and lived together, so they hardly spent any time apart of each other. He was glad because of this and remembering the times when it was opposite made him laugh. Times have changed…

Schuldig was out. Takatori-san needed him somewhere else. Ran knew his friend was hunting their boss' enemy now. Soon after starting this work, he realised what was the main duty of these 'bodyguards'. He had to kill people during the last few months. But he wasn't angry with Schu that he hasn't told him before. It didn't bother him. The thought terrified him; he should feel something, shouldn't he?

When he killed some guy for the first time, he felt a little bit uneasy. But he had Schuldig by his side, who eased his pain. His flatmate knew exactly what words, what actions he should use to comfort him. And he did exactly this. Ran was very happy to be with Schuldig. Yes, they were together for about 3 months now.

He couldn't oppose his own feelings any longer and he knew exactly how Schuldig felt for him. The two of them were in love with each other. For the first time in his life, Ran was really in love. Now, having Schuldig, he knew he had no real feelings for his ex-partner. There was only friendship between them, and he decided to completely break it down almost a year ago. So now, there was nothing, an empty space, between him and Youji. He didn't regret his decision.

He heard key in the lock; Schuldig was coming back. Ran was glowing with happiness, he couldn't wait. Schuldig was far better than Youji, and in contrary to his ex he always knew what he wanted, what he needed. And even more important, he GAVE him this.

"Welcome back, my dear." Ran was waiting for his lover at the door. They started to kiss with passion, as if they haven't seen for a very long time, and deeply, to taste as much as they could.

"I have to be out more often." breathed Schu.

"I won't allow you. At last, I know your eyes are only on me..."

"You don't have to be so jealous." Ran knew it was true, his beloved was looking at him with so much emotion in his eyes. He closed eyes feeling the overwhelming joy and happiness. He felt Schu kissing his face.

"What do you want on a dinner?" asked Ran breaking the spell. He just didn't know what to do with himself, he was still so unsure.

"I want you as my dinner." said Schuldig kissing him aggressively and biting his lip.

"It was serious question. We don't have too much for a meal."

"So let's go out for a dinner."

"I'd prefer being only with you..."

"After... I promise, I will do everything you want me to."

"You always do... I don't think it would be anything new for me."

"I've never been uke..."'

"Hmm... That's really interesting... You won!" Ran kissed him.

Schu was standing in front of Ran with uncertainty. He put on a mask of a shy, scared boy. Ran smiled with irony - he knew his partner was acting. But he liked it, it made him even more interested in his redhead… Even more attracted to him… To see so many faces of his beloved one, it was like paradise - a never ending game, each time something new and exciting. He smiled to Schuldig, or to himself, looking in his cool eyes. Schu was so much of a chameleon, he could observe him all his life and not get bored by this. This assassin was so changeable - he always surprised him. When they were together he saw how this cold-eyed assassin was melting up inside, how his cold and dead look started to liven up. When they were together, in his emotionless look always showed sparkles of emotions. Sparkles of so strong emotion, that he could have burned himself with it. But his lover always tried to control this, never letting things to happen on its own. Ran could hardly stand it, he wanted Schu to lose control and let himself go.

Schu was overwhelmed with his feelings towards Ran. He was feeling very uncomfortable, his heart was aching every moment when he was looking at him. It hurt so deeply and he welcomed the pain. He was diving in it and getting excitement from it. He wanted to loose himself completely in that pain and forget about everything. He wanted to destroy himself or Ran to free himself from it and from love… But he knew it wouldn't be enough… He felt that leaving his beloved wouldn't solve anything… it would even make things worse… There was no other way but to stay with Ran… To be with him day after day… To lay besides him, to listen to his screams and moans, to see him so excited and lost in pleasure… He remembered he once told Ran not to run away from himself, 'cause it is never successful… And now, he was doing the same… At least Ran was sincere - he opened up before him, he offered himself, everything he had… And he was afraid of taking this and repaying… He shouldn't have, he knew this. He wanted to take Ran's offerings, to give him in return… But he was just afraid to do so. Something inside him was against this… He pulled his beloved into his dark murderous world just for…? For what, he asked himself. Just to feel better having someone like himself by his side? He spoiled this innocent flower with his own hands. He taught him to kill, but this wasn't the worst part. Ran was following him in silence, accompanying his every step deeper into the world of darkness and insanity. Ran never said anything, never tried to stop him. He probably knew that it would be ineffective. Instead of this, he followed the path of destruction - just to be with him… To be with him till the very end, when there will be no other choice… He didn't ask for anything… It was Ran. He wasn't the right person to catch his attention, to have his love and care… He wasn't worth this…

Ran was surprised. The eyes were not the one's he knew. It wasn't his usual Schuldig - kind and tender while in privacy. He was troubled with something, and he didn't know what was the matter. Oh God, he would do anything just to know his thoughts. He wanted to please him, to comfort him… But at this moment, Schu seemed strange to him. He was afraid that he wouldn't be able to help his lover. He didn't like this thought, it was painful. All he wanted was to be by Schuldig's side, to share with him all the joys and sorrows of life. But he realised that Schuldig didn't want the same. He felt his heart slowly tearing apart and couldn't stop tears from flowing.

Why is he crying? - asked himself Schuldig. Don't tell me it is because of me… Idiot! Of course, it is because of me… What else? - he wanted to find the truth by entering his mind, but in the last second he fought this urge.

He approached him and wiped the tears from his face.

"Don't cry, Ran. I don't want to see you crying. It's just too much for me… I can't bear this… Tell me, why are you crying."

"You never let me know you. You always hide your thoughts behind me. If something is wrong, I want to help you."

"This is the problem, Ran. You always want to stay besides me, to help me without paying attention to anything but the problem. I don't deserve this. I am not worth this. You should forget about me and live your own life. I've pulled you into nightmare."

"No." Ran shook his head "You haven't done anything wrong. I have done all of this because I wanted to. Because I wanted to be with you…" he kissed him gently. "It was my choice." Ran hugged his flatmate tenderly, warming his coldness.

* *

Some days have passed. On surface, everything was all right, but in reality, nothing has changed. At last not for Ran. He became even more silent, he wasn't speaking with Schu too much. When Schu was provoking him to say something, to react, Ran was going away in silence. And moreover, Schu found it REALLY difficult to enter his mind. Ran was definitely isolating himself from him, and he couldn't do anything about this.

To that day… They were given a mission, which was supposed to be a piece of cake. But Farfarello was injured and Ran… His injuries were so bad that he had to stay in hospital under the I.V. He was in coma for 2 days. It was impossible to get Schuldig out then. Schu stayed firmly at the bed waiting for his Ran to wake.

It happened the second night when Schu fell asleep. Ran smiled happily upon seeing him and went asleep too.

Schuldig was in Heaven when he was looking at SLEEPING boy's face. It was clearly seen he was not anymore in coma.

"Good morning, my dear." Schu greeted him with kiss when Ran opened eyes.

"I'm happy to see you. I was afraid that…"

"Shh… The most important thing now is that you came back. I don't know what I would do if you haven't woken up…"

"You look awful, Schu… Just like you haven't moved for a while from the bed."

"You are right, my dear. I couldn't leave you. You are my treasure, Ran. I can't imagine living without you. I need you by my side. I swear I won't be isolating you anymore…"

"Me either." Ran smiled "I've just waned you to know how I felt…"

"Don't need to explain yourself, dear." He put a kiss on Ran's lips.

"Schu…"

"Yes…?"

"Take me home."

"You are too weak…"

"I want to regain strength at home… with you…"

"Very well, my dear." Ran probably didn't even know how it made him happy. He was afraid of losing his beloved.

"Is the boss angry?" he asked after a while with a hesitation.

"No. Crawford explained this." He 'forgot' to say that Crawford was mad and warned them not to repeat this mistake.

"I won't be useful for a while…"

"Don't worry. I'll take care of you."

**

After a week, Ran was feeling much better. Unfortunately for Schuldig they had a visitor for all the time. Aya, Ran's younger sister, was coming there everyday to take care of her brother. Like, the hell, he couldn't do this! Schu was pissed, he wanted to take care of Ran all by himself. Ok, Aya was a nice girl, and he knew her for a while but…

"Aya-chan…"

"Hai, oniisan…?"

"You don't need to push yourself that much. Your grades may suffer from this."

"Shinpainaide, oniisan. Atashi wa ii yo. (1)"

"Aren't your parents worrying about you?"

"Oniisan! They are YOUR parents too."

"They were, Aya… They excluded me from family… That day, when I moved out from the house. They told me not to come back."

"They are worrying about you!"

"I don't need their pity." Ran was stubborn, he refused even to hear about them. "Don't say anything about them in my presence."

"..."

"It's getting late." Said Schu who was listening to the whole talk.

"I know… I know… You want me to leave as soon as possible." She turned to her brother's lover. Oh, she wasn't so stupid as not to realise that the man with whom her brother was living was his lover. After all his different sexual orientation was the reason of his leaving the house.

"Exactly."

"Don't be so rude, my dear." Ran reprimanded him "I know you are jealous, but try to be polite sometimes."

"Sometimes you are so fucking Japanese, Ran." He replied and went out from Ran's bedroom.

"Gomen, Aya."

"No, I understand. He wants to take care of the person he loves… But I also want this. You are my dear brother, and the house without you isn't the same anymore… We are meeting so rarely, I wanted to take care of you, to help you… You've always been so caring of me. And I wanted…"

"I understand, Aya… It's not wrong. I am glad we were seeing each other."

"I've to go. Take care of yourself. I'll call you tomorrow."

"Bye bye, Aya-chan."

**

"I understand. Aha. I'll tell him." Ran put off the receiver and went to the bathroom. He knocked on the door saying "Hurry up, Schu. Crawford was calling, we are going on a banquet."

"No…" Schuldig was disappointed, they had to spend the night alone.

"Yes. Hurry up."

Ran and Schu weren't really enjoying the party. They had to look after their boss, Crawford said that someone might try to assassinate him. So they couldn't loosen their attention even for a while.

Everything would be fine if Ran wouldn't see HIM… He saw Youji…

Schu was aware of Ran's anxiousness. He entered his mind to know the reason.

Don't worry my love. I won't let him come near you. You are MINE.

Possessive bastard.

I am happy that we agree. Don't forget that this possessive bastard is in love with you. And you in that bastard too…

You are talking too much.

Nothing happened, luckily, Ran and Schu hadn't had to stop any assassination attempt.

Coming home, Ran was glad that he had no contact with his ex. He was anxious why he came to the party. He wasn't one of those rich fancy men. And he had no status.

Schu didn't let him worry too much. He tried to entertain his lover, to give him fun. But Ran wasn't willing to participate.

"What's wrong, my dear?"

"I'm tired. Leave me alone." He turned back to the wall.

"You are still worrying about that chap, ne?"

"Schu… I'm not in the mood…"

"I understand, my dear." He kissed Ran's arm and embraced him tightly. Quickly, they have fallen asleep. Ran was smiling in his sleep. He was with his beloved, he was given love and safety, everything that he needed.

**

Ran was awoken by a scent of roses. He saw rose petals spread around himself and his bed. He was looking for his lover, but he could not find him.

"I am here." Said Schu from behind. He was sitting on the window. Sun was surrounding his naked body, making him glowing with a holy light. And his hair was burning like a flame.

"You are so beautiful, my angel." Schu smiled happily to him hearing this.

"We are both angels, my love. Fallen angels… Angels of death…" - the German thought about Farfarello, their team-mate would be pleased to hear this. He jumped off the window and came to the bed.

Ran was looking with affection at gracious moves of Schuldig. He was so perfect, like Greek god, even only looking at him was very pleasurable. And he was getting more excited with his every move.

"I'm hungry, Schu…" he licked his lips.

"Ran…" Schu sat over Ran's body. Only the black silk sheet that was parting their hot bodies was in their way to fulfil all their desires.

Ran thrust his tongue into Schuldig's mouth, he wanted to taste all his lover could offer. Nothing was gentle in their kisses, both of them were too hungry. Ran knew that yesterday he wasn't himself and he wanted Schu to know that he's not concerned about Youji (like there was a possibility Schu wouldn't know…). He wanted to be only with him… With this special person, who changed his entire life.

"If you were thinking, I forgot about your promise…"

"I was afraid so…" Schu smiled tauntingly.

"Enough. Curtain down. Start the show…"

"As you wish… Master…" Schu was obviously having fun.

Chains were rhythmically clinking when he was stimulating himself.

You naughty boy…

"Spread your legs more. I cannot see." Schu obeyed his Master's order.

Chains hit the floor when he arched back reaching climax. But it was only his body's reaction, he wasn't psychically satisfied. He wanted Ran to play with him. Ran came to him with whip in his hand.

"Master…" whispered Schuldig. Ran smiled, they both enjoyed this, after all, new for them situation.

"I think I don't have anything against this…" Said Ran still smiling and started to whip his lover.

**

"Yeah, sure. Wait for me." It was Aya calling, she wanted to meet her brother. From the tone of her voice, she was troubled by something, and he wanted to help her. Like a real big brother…

Schu was out, killing somebody for their boss. He was very mysterious, which was too weird for him, not to say a word about the mission… Schuldig promised he will tell him after, and he had to agree to wait.

Aya and Ran went to some clothing shop, as Aya was invited to a birthday party. She liked birthdayâˆ'boy and she didn't know how to behave.

Sweet innocent flower…

This innocent flower was asking because she believed her big brother knew men psyche the best. Well, he wasn't as sure as she was. Okay, he was a gay, but his first serious relationship was with Youji. Maybe Youji wasn't his first, but still…

Chatting all the way, Ran even hadn't notice when they came near the building where both of the Fujimiya parents were working in.

"Aya! What are you thinking you are doing?! Why did you bring me here?!"

"Oniisan… I wanted you to see parents."

"Aya…" he couldn't get really upset with her.

"Come on." She started running towards the building.

"Aya! Wait!"

She didn't listen. And then was first explosion. She froze, not able to move or even think. Ran was running towards her, but then there was second explosion which blew off the building completely. Debris was flowing in the air, hitting cars and people. He couldn't save her, even though he was only barely scratched himself.

"Aya…!!" he was crying beside her body.

At first time, he couldn't believe. But it was definitely truth. He saw Nagi and Schuldig… He started to explain himself that was their boss' order, his lover didn't know they were coming here. He tried to blow off the building before they came in, that if Aya would stay with him a while longer, she would be safe. And it was by pure accident that one of the parts had hit her. He wasn't able to see beyond these lies, which he put to protect himself from too painful reality. He didn't want even to think that Schu tried to kill his little sister.

"We were able to save her life. But, we are sorry, we can't do anything else. Your sister will probably never wake up… We are sorry."

No! This have to be some cruel joke! I've woken up from coma! He was crying at her bed. He wasn't able to do anything…

**

Ran came back home next day in the morning, unsure how should he behave towards Schu. He went straight to his room, not wanting to talk with his lover for a while. He saw a single carnation lying on his bed. "Passion" in flower's speech.

"Ran…" he was knocking on his door.

"Come in, Schu." There was no sense in putting this talk away.

"Ran…" Schu was looking really awful. He was tired, obviously not sleeping lately, nervous, and he hadn't sobered form drugs yet. Schuldig freed himself of drug addiction some time ago, and now… taking drugs… He was really depressed if he did this. "I'm sorry, love. I didn't want."

"I know…" Ran hugged him and kissed, to show he believed him.

Schu sighed in his mind with relief. He didn't want to lose his precious Ran. Nor share him with somebody else. Ran was HIS!

"But still… I can't just let it be… I have to avenge my family…"

"Ran…"

"Fuck the farts… But Aya…"

Schu was seeing pictures from Ran's mind. His mother was betraying Fujimiya before and after the marriage. From one of her adventures, with some unknown European, Ran was born. For the whole of his life Ran was an evidence of his mother's adultery… And an object of his step-father's hate. He was hated the more Fujimiya was truly in love with his wife. Their beloved child was obviously Aya, who didn't even know how she was happy to have a loving family.

"I won't forgive Takatori."

"And what about me, love?"

"Don't you know? I love you… And nothing will change this, but from now on we are enemies… I'm going to kill Takatori Reiji…"

"So the only question is who will kill who first."

"I just hope I will live long enough to get my revenge."

"Ran… I don't want to hurt you…"

"Me neither, Schu… But I will kill everyone who stands in my way…"

"You are truly the angel of death…"

"Kiss me for the last time, Schu… I want to remember you forever…"

// Kiss me… //

"Never forget, my dear… I love you. You are mine."

"Schu… If I am to be killed, please let it be you…"

//Kill me…//

Their last kiss was long and passionate. They wanted their breakdown to be as beautiful as it could be. Without hatred or anger.

Ran went out under the cover of darkness. The only thing he took was the katana which Takatori gave him when he began working for the politician.

How ironic…

OWARI…

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(1) Don't worry, brother. I will be okay.

This is the end of "The Truth about Ran and Schuldig." What do you think about this? I hope you liked it.