Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Wanting Something In Return ❯ Chapter 4: Or a Chapter Dedicated to Aya Fujimiya! ( Chapter 4 )
[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]
By: Carter Tachikawa 
Finally, an Aya centric chapter! Aya does some thinking and whatnot, realizes Ken loves him...
Anime/Manga: Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Hentai | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 11.19.2002 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.2K | Visits: 547 | Status: Completed
Finally, an Aya centric chapter! Aya does some thinking and whatnot, realizes Ken loves him...
Anime/Manga: Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Hentai | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 11.19.2002 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.2K | Visits: 547 | Status: Completed
Wanting Something in Return (Chapter 5: Or A Whole Chapter Dedicated to Aya Fujimiya)
By Carter Tachikawa
Disclaimer: Weiß Kruez is not mine, it belongs to Koyasu Takehito. The song "Spin", which begins the fic, is not mine either. It belongs to Lifehouse. I pretty much have nothing : (
I suddenly noticed that Chapter 1 and the prologue were flipped around. If anyone else noticed this as well, I am so sorry. I think it happened when FFN went down. I tried to fix and hopefully it's back to normal.
(Okay, I feel stupid for putting up Chapter 4 the night before FFN went down. I was debating whether or not I should. So here's Chapter 5, only two more (technically three more) to go. I changed my mind, this will be a seven part fic instead. (I change my mind a lot, ne?) The revelation of Ken's third wish will be in the final chapter as will the extreme RanKen scenes. This chapter, however, is Aya-centric now. We've shift gears, turned the tables, whatever cliche you prefer. I began the fic with a song cause I thought it worked well with where I am now. It's by Lifehouse and it's called "Spin". (Really cool song) So I won't bore you anymore, here's chapter 5!)
Thanks to the reviewers: an anonymous person, Keeshe Kaldaka, fei, kamibukurosama, CherubKatan, and tyrnej
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I'd rather chase your shadow all my life
Than be afraid of my own
I'd rather be with you
I'd rather not know where I'll be
Than be alone and convinced that I know
And the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
And I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
Everything I know has let me down
So I will just let go
Let you turn me inside out
Cause I know I'm not sure about anything
But you wouldn't have it any other way
And the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
And I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
Spinning, turning, watching, burning
All my life has found its meaning
Walking, crawling, climbing, falling
All my life has found its meaning
You and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
And the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
And I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
* * *
Aya Fujimiya scowled at no one in particular as he trekked all the way back to Koneko No Sume Ie. Why the hell did he even bother to come along in the first place? Yohji, Omi, and Ken would be fine without him. Oh, Ken...what the hell was his problem? He was a nice guy and suddenly he burst out, yelling at Aya and calling him 'selfish'? Aya Fujimiya was not a selfish person. He was confusing Aya with Ran...
*Ran Fujimiya...a name I don't remember anymore.* Aya thought watching two kids playing out in the cold. No parents or adults around, he was irritated to see that someone could be careless and leave these children unattended. Of course, Aya wasn't a parent himself. He wasn't sure whether he wanted to be one to begin with.
*I still have Aya-chan to worry about. I have no time for children.* He reminded himself. But then he thought. *What will I do if Aya-chan wakes up...or never wakes up? What would happen afterwards? Would I have time to do anything I wanted? If so, what would that be?*
He supposed he'd stop being Aya and start being Ran again. The truth was, he didn't know how Ran acted like before. Perhaps he was more expressive and full of life. Perhaps he was innocent and careless like those children playing out in the cold. But whatever he was, he wasn't the Aya in Weiß. That Aya was more emotionless, more vengeful, more silent...
*Silent. That's what Ken called me.* Aya remembered Ken's horrible attempts to flirt with him. Now he knew that's what Ken had tried to do. As much as Aya hated to admit it, Ken was being sweet to him. Hell, those pathetic lines he borrowed from Yohji was enough to make Aya laugh...but Aya didn't know how to laugh anymore. Then a horrible thought struck him. What if Aya-chan did wake up and saw her brother like this? Would she hate him for casting aside all emotions and forgetting the laughter she once bought out in him? Maybe she'd berate him the way Ken did. She'd call him selfish and mean because he forgot himself.
"No! Don't jump around like that!" He heard one boy yell, disrupting his thoughts. Looking to the side, he saw a boy about eight-years old scolding a young girl for jumping up and down on the sidewalk. He had a feeling that these two were brother and sister for they looked alike. The little girl looked about six-years old. She stuck out her tongue at him and ignored his warning.
"I'll be fine! I won't fall!" The girl insisted. Her brother tried to catch up to her and slow her down. Aya didn't know why but suddenly he saw himself and Aya-chan in place of those two. Once when he was eight, it had snowed and the roads were icy. Aya-chan saw a couple of her school friends sliding down the crystal sheets of ice covering the road and she wanted to do the same.
"Watch me, Ran-nii! Watch me!" She exclaimed, trying to slide down it. Ran tried to hold her back.
"Stop it, Aya! You'll get hurt!"
"No, I won't! Watch me!" Ignoring her brother's warning, she slid down that ice and yelled to all her friends...then ended up falling on the frozen ground and sliding straight into a pile of snow. Her brother ran over and pulled her out of that cold mess before something else happened. Aya began to cry and he comforted her.
"It...it...hurts...Ran-nii!" She wailed, rubbing her head. Ran took pity on her and gave her a hug.
"Don't worry. The pain will go away."
"No...it...won't!" Aya sobbed into her brother's shoulder.
"Aya...Aya...Aya, don't cry. Be brave, okay?" Ran smiled at her. Aya looked up, her dark blue eyes still filled with tears but she stopped wailing. "You'll be fine. I promise. It's okay. You fell and hurt yourself. It can happen to anyone."
"It can?"
"Yeah. Sometimes you can't help yourself..."
You can't help yourself...it can happen to anymore...Aya remembered these things as the image of little Ran and his sister disappeared. Could Ken not help himself from falling in love? Could it happen to anyone?
"No! No, I don't want to hear anymore!" A woman's voice interrupted Aya's thoughts. He saw a couple...or rather a woman walking away from a man. The man was desperately trying to explain something to her and the woman refused to hear about it.
"Oh, please!" He begged.
"No!" The girl snapped. They were two people Aya had never met in his life but suddenly they too turned into him and Aya-chan. She was running away, crying. He tried to chase her.
"Aya! Aya, I didn't mean that..." Ran tried to explain but his imouto wouldn't hear of it.
"You're mean, Ran-nii!" She wailed. "You always do this to me!"
"You have to listen to me sometimes. I'm your nii-chan, I know better."
"No, you don't! You don't know anything!"
You don't know anything...something he had told Ken right before he stormed off. And he was right, of course. Ken's problems were minimal. Ken had no trouble smiling and laughing after his life fell apart. Ken was still Ken. Ran was Aya. There was a difference.
*But if I'm right, why does everything feel wrong?* Aya wondered. The images of little Ran and little Aya never left him. There was Aya showing off a new dress, Ran buying his little sister ice cream after she fell down, Aya handing Ran some of her chocolate pocky [1], Ran making funny faces just to please Aya...oh, those days were gone forever. Aya was no longer showing off new clothes or making her brother his favorite food. But that didn't mean he was ever going to forget about her. No way in hell could he forget her. She had been his everything. She still was his everything. No matter how much Ken said he loved him, his sister was his number one priority.
*I don't do anything without thinking of Aya-chan's well-being. I never have, I never will. Therefore, I am not selfish. Aya is my sister.*
But he felt like he was lying. Ken's words were making more sense now. Aya was only one person. He needed to think about others every now and then. He needed to be nice to them too. Oh, yes, there was Sakura Tomoe. He ran into her, mistaking her for Aya, and he saved her when some creeps wanted her organs. But that was it...he saw her as Aya, not Sakura. To him, he was Ran saving Aya. He was not Aya saving Sakura. What would Aya-chan think if she ever heard that story? She would hate him.
*There is a lot more out there.* Aya realized. *Ken was right.*
And Ken! No matter how cruel Aya got, he still loved the man! He believed that Aya could open his heart up to someone else. He saw Aya's ability to change. He only wanted Aya to have a chance.
*And I blew it.* Aya sighed. *Ken has been throwing hints and I couldn't see them. He just wanted me to be happy for him. After all, if Aya-chan can be happy for me on my birthday, I could be happy for him. And she wasn't the only one! Omi, Yohji, and Ken were always happy when my birthday came around. Especially Ken. No matter how much I hated the celebrations, he still found a way to make things better. That's it! I have to make it up to him!*
But how would he do it? Aya didn't know what Ken wanted for his birthday...in truth, he hadn't even bought Ken a present. He was ashamed of himself now and knew that most shops were closed so there was no point in spending money. Tomorrow would be too late. Then Christmas...
*Christmas...mistletoe...wait a minute! I think I know what Ken wants more than anything...*
He only hoped he hadn't created too much damage between them or his efforts would be in vain. He would lose his chance to change for the better. So he turned around and started walking back to where he started from. As he hurried down the sidewalk, he prayed that he wasn't already too late.
With a completely different attitude, Aya Fujimiya headed back to the flower shop, a changed man. He had a feeling he knew Ken's final wish and he would make sure it came true.
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[1] Mwuahahahahaha!!!! I have to thank fei for this! Yes, I suppose Ranners' favorite pocky would be chocolate since I said he didn't like strawberry.
(And thus ends chapter 5. I swear, writing Aya is a lot harder than writing Ken, Omi, or Yohji. I'm not too happy about this chapter myself. Let's face it: I was tired and struggling to dive into Aya's psyche. Not easy at all. Well, next chapter will be Ken-centric again. He opens gifts in that one^^. It should be up sometime soon!)
Nagi (hiding in closet): Psst!
Me (sees and ignores him)
Nagi: Psst!
Me (looking up): Look, buddy, I don't know what you're selling but I can tell you for a fact that neither me nor my readers wanna buy it.
Nagi (frustrated): It's me! Nagi!
Me (surprised): Nagi? What are you doing in the closet?
Nagi: Hiding from Schuldig. He's nowhere around, is he?
Me: No...why?
Nagi: He's jumping out of random places naked. I escaped with Brad and here we are.
Me: You and Brad? Where is Brad?
Nagi (floats an unconscious Brad over): Here!
Me: You're a pretty strong telekinetic.
Nagi (shrugs): It's a gift.
Brad: x _ x
Me: Why is Brad unconscious?
Nagi: Because...Schuldig....
Schuldig (jumps out in his birthday suit): Aha! I found you! (Laughs and runs off!)
Me (in shock): That...was...pretty pointless. Wouldn't you agree, Nagi?
Nagi: *has a nosebleed*
Brad: x _ x
By Carter Tachikawa
Disclaimer: Weiß Kruez is not mine, it belongs to Koyasu Takehito. The song "Spin", which begins the fic, is not mine either. It belongs to Lifehouse. I pretty much have nothing : (
I suddenly noticed that Chapter 1 and the prologue were flipped around. If anyone else noticed this as well, I am so sorry. I think it happened when FFN went down. I tried to fix and hopefully it's back to normal.
(Okay, I feel stupid for putting up Chapter 4 the night before FFN went down. I was debating whether or not I should. So here's Chapter 5, only two more (technically three more) to go. I changed my mind, this will be a seven part fic instead. (I change my mind a lot, ne?) The revelation of Ken's third wish will be in the final chapter as will the extreme RanKen scenes. This chapter, however, is Aya-centric now. We've shift gears, turned the tables, whatever cliche you prefer. I began the fic with a song cause I thought it worked well with where I am now. It's by Lifehouse and it's called "Spin". (Really cool song) So I won't bore you anymore, here's chapter 5!)
Thanks to the reviewers: an anonymous person, Keeshe Kaldaka, fei, kamibukurosama, CherubKatan, and tyrnej
* * *
I'd rather chase your shadow all my life
Than be afraid of my own
I'd rather be with you
I'd rather not know where I'll be
Than be alone and convinced that I know
And the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
And I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
Everything I know has let me down
So I will just let go
Let you turn me inside out
Cause I know I'm not sure about anything
But you wouldn't have it any other way
And the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
And I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
Spinning, turning, watching, burning
All my life has found its meaning
Walking, crawling, climbing, falling
All my life has found its meaning
You and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
And the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
And I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
* * *
Aya Fujimiya scowled at no one in particular as he trekked all the way back to Koneko No Sume Ie. Why the hell did he even bother to come along in the first place? Yohji, Omi, and Ken would be fine without him. Oh, Ken...what the hell was his problem? He was a nice guy and suddenly he burst out, yelling at Aya and calling him 'selfish'? Aya Fujimiya was not a selfish person. He was confusing Aya with Ran...
*Ran Fujimiya...a name I don't remember anymore.* Aya thought watching two kids playing out in the cold. No parents or adults around, he was irritated to see that someone could be careless and leave these children unattended. Of course, Aya wasn't a parent himself. He wasn't sure whether he wanted to be one to begin with.
*I still have Aya-chan to worry about. I have no time for children.* He reminded himself. But then he thought. *What will I do if Aya-chan wakes up...or never wakes up? What would happen afterwards? Would I have time to do anything I wanted? If so, what would that be?*
He supposed he'd stop being Aya and start being Ran again. The truth was, he didn't know how Ran acted like before. Perhaps he was more expressive and full of life. Perhaps he was innocent and careless like those children playing out in the cold. But whatever he was, he wasn't the Aya in Weiß. That Aya was more emotionless, more vengeful, more silent...
*Silent. That's what Ken called me.* Aya remembered Ken's horrible attempts to flirt with him. Now he knew that's what Ken had tried to do. As much as Aya hated to admit it, Ken was being sweet to him. Hell, those pathetic lines he borrowed from Yohji was enough to make Aya laugh...but Aya didn't know how to laugh anymore. Then a horrible thought struck him. What if Aya-chan did wake up and saw her brother like this? Would she hate him for casting aside all emotions and forgetting the laughter she once bought out in him? Maybe she'd berate him the way Ken did. She'd call him selfish and mean because he forgot himself.
"No! Don't jump around like that!" He heard one boy yell, disrupting his thoughts. Looking to the side, he saw a boy about eight-years old scolding a young girl for jumping up and down on the sidewalk. He had a feeling that these two were brother and sister for they looked alike. The little girl looked about six-years old. She stuck out her tongue at him and ignored his warning.
"I'll be fine! I won't fall!" The girl insisted. Her brother tried to catch up to her and slow her down. Aya didn't know why but suddenly he saw himself and Aya-chan in place of those two. Once when he was eight, it had snowed and the roads were icy. Aya-chan saw a couple of her school friends sliding down the crystal sheets of ice covering the road and she wanted to do the same.
"Watch me, Ran-nii! Watch me!" She exclaimed, trying to slide down it. Ran tried to hold her back.
"Stop it, Aya! You'll get hurt!"
"No, I won't! Watch me!" Ignoring her brother's warning, she slid down that ice and yelled to all her friends...then ended up falling on the frozen ground and sliding straight into a pile of snow. Her brother ran over and pulled her out of that cold mess before something else happened. Aya began to cry and he comforted her.
"It...it...hurts...Ran-nii!" She wailed, rubbing her head. Ran took pity on her and gave her a hug.
"Don't worry. The pain will go away."
"No...it...won't!" Aya sobbed into her brother's shoulder.
"Aya...Aya...Aya, don't cry. Be brave, okay?" Ran smiled at her. Aya looked up, her dark blue eyes still filled with tears but she stopped wailing. "You'll be fine. I promise. It's okay. You fell and hurt yourself. It can happen to anyone."
"It can?"
"Yeah. Sometimes you can't help yourself..."
You can't help yourself...it can happen to anymore...Aya remembered these things as the image of little Ran and his sister disappeared. Could Ken not help himself from falling in love? Could it happen to anyone?
"No! No, I don't want to hear anymore!" A woman's voice interrupted Aya's thoughts. He saw a couple...or rather a woman walking away from a man. The man was desperately trying to explain something to her and the woman refused to hear about it.
"Oh, please!" He begged.
"No!" The girl snapped. They were two people Aya had never met in his life but suddenly they too turned into him and Aya-chan. She was running away, crying. He tried to chase her.
"Aya! Aya, I didn't mean that..." Ran tried to explain but his imouto wouldn't hear of it.
"You're mean, Ran-nii!" She wailed. "You always do this to me!"
"You have to listen to me sometimes. I'm your nii-chan, I know better."
"No, you don't! You don't know anything!"
You don't know anything...something he had told Ken right before he stormed off. And he was right, of course. Ken's problems were minimal. Ken had no trouble smiling and laughing after his life fell apart. Ken was still Ken. Ran was Aya. There was a difference.
*But if I'm right, why does everything feel wrong?* Aya wondered. The images of little Ran and little Aya never left him. There was Aya showing off a new dress, Ran buying his little sister ice cream after she fell down, Aya handing Ran some of her chocolate pocky [1], Ran making funny faces just to please Aya...oh, those days were gone forever. Aya was no longer showing off new clothes or making her brother his favorite food. But that didn't mean he was ever going to forget about her. No way in hell could he forget her. She had been his everything. She still was his everything. No matter how much Ken said he loved him, his sister was his number one priority.
*I don't do anything without thinking of Aya-chan's well-being. I never have, I never will. Therefore, I am not selfish. Aya is my sister.*
But he felt like he was lying. Ken's words were making more sense now. Aya was only one person. He needed to think about others every now and then. He needed to be nice to them too. Oh, yes, there was Sakura Tomoe. He ran into her, mistaking her for Aya, and he saved her when some creeps wanted her organs. But that was it...he saw her as Aya, not Sakura. To him, he was Ran saving Aya. He was not Aya saving Sakura. What would Aya-chan think if she ever heard that story? She would hate him.
*There is a lot more out there.* Aya realized. *Ken was right.*
And Ken! No matter how cruel Aya got, he still loved the man! He believed that Aya could open his heart up to someone else. He saw Aya's ability to change. He only wanted Aya to have a chance.
*And I blew it.* Aya sighed. *Ken has been throwing hints and I couldn't see them. He just wanted me to be happy for him. After all, if Aya-chan can be happy for me on my birthday, I could be happy for him. And she wasn't the only one! Omi, Yohji, and Ken were always happy when my birthday came around. Especially Ken. No matter how much I hated the celebrations, he still found a way to make things better. That's it! I have to make it up to him!*
But how would he do it? Aya didn't know what Ken wanted for his birthday...in truth, he hadn't even bought Ken a present. He was ashamed of himself now and knew that most shops were closed so there was no point in spending money. Tomorrow would be too late. Then Christmas...
*Christmas...mistletoe...wait a minute! I think I know what Ken wants more than anything...*
He only hoped he hadn't created too much damage between them or his efforts would be in vain. He would lose his chance to change for the better. So he turned around and started walking back to where he started from. As he hurried down the sidewalk, he prayed that he wasn't already too late.
With a completely different attitude, Aya Fujimiya headed back to the flower shop, a changed man. He had a feeling he knew Ken's final wish and he would make sure it came true.
* * *
[1] Mwuahahahahaha!!!! I have to thank fei for this! Yes, I suppose Ranners' favorite pocky would be chocolate since I said he didn't like strawberry.
(And thus ends chapter 5. I swear, writing Aya is a lot harder than writing Ken, Omi, or Yohji. I'm not too happy about this chapter myself. Let's face it: I was tired and struggling to dive into Aya's psyche. Not easy at all. Well, next chapter will be Ken-centric again. He opens gifts in that one^^. It should be up sometime soon!)
Nagi (hiding in closet): Psst!
Me (sees and ignores him)
Nagi: Psst!
Me (looking up): Look, buddy, I don't know what you're selling but I can tell you for a fact that neither me nor my readers wanna buy it.
Nagi (frustrated): It's me! Nagi!
Me (surprised): Nagi? What are you doing in the closet?
Nagi: Hiding from Schuldig. He's nowhere around, is he?
Me: No...why?
Nagi: He's jumping out of random places naked. I escaped with Brad and here we are.
Me: You and Brad? Where is Brad?
Nagi (floats an unconscious Brad over): Here!
Me: You're a pretty strong telekinetic.
Nagi (shrugs): It's a gift.
Brad: x _ x
Me: Why is Brad unconscious?
Nagi: Because...Schuldig....
Schuldig (jumps out in his birthday suit): Aha! I found you! (Laughs and runs off!)
Me (in shock): That...was...pretty pointless. Wouldn't you agree, Nagi?
Nagi: *has a nosebleed*
Brad: x _ x