Wolf's Rain Fan Fiction ❯ Italian Sushi ❯ Epilog ( Chapter 16 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

A.N: I hope you like this ending it took me a bunch of types and erases to be satisfied so I hope its the same for you as well. I'm not sure what my next Wolf's Rain will be it might be Hige/Tsume or a non-pairing fic though gay bases because euw otherwise. No offense though but I don't get down like that. Fantasy.


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Pulling out a sheet of paper Toboe lay on his bed back in Freeze city.

'It's funny to me the way things turned out between us that day. Instead of Tsume telling me to leave him it was me telling him to leave.... I'd meant to talk to Tsume a little more but ended up falling asleep and when I woke up we were in the car on our way back to Naples. My head was pounding and my voice was ridiculously dry so when I spoke its like nothing came out at all. That's when Tsume spoke to me, telling me that he just couldn't do it, that breaking up with me would be the dumbest thing he ever did and that if I were serious about us not being together then I would have to be the one. In the end neither of us could do it we just made a promise that night on our way back to Naples that no matter what happened in life, or whom we would end up seeing we'd always be special to each other. Like, he and I are our own little secret.

When Kiba and me got home I spent the night in my room staring at the ceiling, its funny because I wasn't sure if I was sad, happy, angry or nothing at all... I guess, thinking about it, I was trying my hardest not to feel anything, not anything at all. Then later on that night when I let my barriers down I... I cried. It wasn't noisy and it wasn't long but I couldn't stand holding it all in. I hate myself for hating Tsume even a little, and I hated that he understands that I hate him. But I love him too. I keep wondering why it feels wrong to love him but it does. He killed my family, physically and emotionally and I stupidly fell in love with him but I didn't know then, back when he and I met that first day that he would be anything to me but a nice stranger.'

'I can remember when I first saw Tsume....'

"Is Toboe alright?" Asked Cheza. The two of them were leaving the school together but, Toboe seemed a bit distracted by something. "....Toboe?"

"Huh?" The boy turned to his friend with a questioned look. "Oh, haha." A hand slid behind his head. "No, I'm fine." He straightened up blinking. "I was just- thinking about something that's all."

"Thinking?" Wondered the girl. "This one would like to know what has Toboe- thinking."

"I saw this... guy- outside during third period and he was leaning on a motorcycle looking at the school." His eyes lowered to the floor. "But the weird thing was... it was almost like he was looking specifically at me."

Cheza thought about that a moment, then looked back at her friend. "And this has Toboe thinking?"

"Well... Not so much that, but there was something else..." His words trailed off.

'He was outside of the school watching me through the window; I didn't know that at the time and yet I did.. his gaze was so intense. After that I saw him at recess... that was the first time he's ever spoken to me.'

"Oh man." Toboe ran up to the gate and froze when the older man stood up in plain site. "Umm," He bowed quickly showing the man respect. "I'm really sorry if the ball hit you sir. May I have that back, please?"

"Right, the ball." He tossed it with one hand over the gate to him.

"Thanks." He missed the ball a good inch and bent over to pick it up. "You're not hurt are you?" He asked again.

"No. I'm fine." Tsume replied.

Toboe smiled at him and gave another bow. "Well, I have to get back to my game- um, thanks again Mister."

He started to run away but paused hearing Tsume speak his name. "Huh?" Toboe asked to be sure.

"I said it's Tsume, not mister."

"Ha, okay. Thanks Tsume." He dashed off without another word.

'At the time I thought nothing of it but I did wonder where I had seen him before haha, I have to wonder if Tsume liked me then, the dork that I was calling him mister and all, he nearly got hit with the ball. He was friendly and let me use his first name... I guess I can figure that he liked me then. I felt really special when I found out that Tsume was famous, I met a real celebrity in person how could I not be on top of the world? ...I made a lot of dumb decisions because of Tsume, I won't forget about that...'

Running out the door he gave him a full on grin. "Hi Tsume!"

"Hi." Tsume greeted in return with a smile.

"I saw you on tv last night. I never knew you were a model." Toboe was going on. He hadn't realized that when Tsume began to walk that he was following him.

The two crossed the street as Toboe spoke about the interview on the talk show. Tsume listened to the boy quietly saying whatever he thought was neccessary. He held his umbrella over Toboe's and his own head so neither of them got wet from the rain.

"Is it fun being a model?"

"It's the best." Tsume answered looking around once they stopped.

"Then how come you quit?" Toboe wondered.

Tsume shrugged. "I guess I just got bored with it."

"Oh," Toboe noticed that they had moved away from the school now and his eyes widened from the realization.

"I gotta go wait for my brother." He said. "See you later Tsume."

"Wait," The boy froze. "Take my unbrella. I have plenty."

Toboe looked as though he were thinking about it but then he shook his head. "I can't, but you can walk back with me if you want."

"How 'bout we sit in my car instead. It's nice and dry in there and I've got sodas."

"What flavor?"

"Why not come inside and look for yourself." Tsume offered. "It's better than standing around in school watching everyone else leave."

"Yeah.... I've seen those commercials, it looks like that really sucks." But something was nagging at the boy telling him not to get in the car.

"Besides, we won't go anywhere." Tsume assured. "It's just until your brother comes."

"Weeellll....." Shrugging, the boy nodded. "Okay. I don't see how it could hurt."

Tsume had already pulled the door open, gesturing for the boy to get inside. Looking around a moment, he climbed inside himself and closed the door.

'Was I serious?! Did I really get into the car with a stranger just because we spoke one time and I saw him on television. What a dumb kid I could be and I don't know, I'm still a bit naive now but I'm better at not being so sheltered in my own little world that my brother helped me create and live in. I did it for him, being sweet and innocent when in reality if he knew how curious I was about a lot of things and how scared I was to talk about them with him he'd of never let it happen. He and I both need Hige in that way, he's our don't say this infront of the other person guy. ...I gave Tsume our address, if he was a sicko he could have come over and killed my brother in his sleep and raped me until I fell apart; Darcia said I don't know Tsume but I think he's jealous because he's the one who doesn't know, so maybe I was dumb about the way we met but I wasn't wrong to consider Tsume a nice guy- even though he did behave strangely sometimes he liked me and didn't know how to express it because of our age difference, honestly he was treating me like anyone would be with someone they like and I liked being treated maturely- it was a nice change. It made me feel equal like finally I could look my brother in the eye and bring up certain things but still I hesitated because Kiba would be upset and everyone was so afraid that Tsume was a bad guy. I can remember, too, the time I ran away from home it was scary like nothing I've ever been afraid of before.....'

"Alright! Alright! Stop banging on the damned door, I hear you..." Tsume growled. "What?!" His temper faded seeing who was standing at his door. "T- Toboe? What are yo-...?"

"Can I come in?" He asked keeping his eyes to the carpet. He thought that the reason Tsume was yelling was because he knew that he was the one at the door and he was mad at him.

"Yeah.... come in." He stepped aside. Giving one quick glance in the hall, he made sure that Toboe didn't bring any followers with him. Closing it, he turned to face the poor teary faced child in his home. "Toboe what are you doing here? Who brought you?" Tsume asked now trying to clear his head.

"Nobody brought me, I walked- well ran and I sorta ran away from home." He explains, taking off his bag. He had put the umbrella inside his bag.

"What?" The models heart began to pound.

"I said I ran away, I wanna spend the night with you and maybe a couple more days- if that's okay?" The boy repeats. "....So can I? I don't mind sleeping on the couch..." He looked over the size of it. It seemed nice enough to sleep on. "And I don't snore, you won't even know I'm hear."

"Well, sure you can but... Why are you running away? Did something happen at home?"

"No." He walked over to the couch and sat down. Tsume came after him. "Actually, I'm kind of mad at Kiba and I wanted to calm down, so I thought I'd come here." Toboe held his nose in the air to show that he was dead serious.

Tsume laughed at that. This was a side of his young lover he hadn't seen before and it was to say the least- too cute for words. "And what's got you so mad? If I may ask?"

Toboe thought for a moment. He needed to talk to someone about his troubles and Tsume seemed willing to listen. "It's Kiba... he... he told me the truth about my birth-," He scrunched his lips in as though he were scolding them with a bite, then he corrects himself by saying. "burn and Iii- I don't know. I'm just mad at him for lying to me and not trusting me to handle it like an adult."

"Toboe you're fourteen years old." Tsume mentioned. "He's seventeen... he's your brother- Toboe he's always gonna see you as the baby in his life. And as for lying," He shrugged. "talking about things like that are harder on the speaker than the listener."

"Gee, thanks for being such a philosopher." He crossed his arms, pouting bitterly.

'Tsume knew I was fourteen, though, he never treated me that way and whether Kiba would believe or not Tsume did always understand him even if it were just a little bit. ...Tsume listened to me, like Hige listens, not like Kiba who listens like a brother and protecter. Why won't he let me make mistakes? Honestly, I am glad that I told him about Tsume and me sleeping together, he didn't need to know but I wanted to show him how much I trusted him to know what I'm up to that way he knows he can be mad or order me to this and that but I'll be fine in the end and that will eventually lead to his knowing he can trust me to do those sorts of things.

"I know that look, that's the same face you always make when you decide to pick on me." The young boy smiled. "It's rare, but that's what makes it so obvious." He grabbed his usual breakfast things and poured his self a bowl of cereal. Kiba's eyes were fixed on him the entire time. Looking over at his brother, he blushed asking, "What?"

"Nothing." Shrugged the older Wolf boy. "I'm just still getting used to the idea of you being 'grown up', I guess."

Toboe tried to keep a smile but his eyes said otherwise. "Kiba, I'm not going off to join the army or anything... I'm not even planning on getting a job or car- just a boyfriend." Toboe didn't take his eyes from his older brother, this time he just let the frown sit on his face. "Kiba...?" He went on when his brother looked at him, showing he was giving his full attention. "I can still see Tsume, can't I?"

"Toboe," He starts to object.

"No, please listen.... I really like Tsume, I really do. He's nice and kind to me and he buys me nice things,"

"I'd buy you nice things too Toboe but you don't need them." Kiba retorted, cutting his brother off.

"I know I don't but, that's not the point... the point is..." He frowned sinking his shoulders with his mouth. "I forgot." Speaking again the boy says. "He will never replace you Kiba... Nobody ever could." It was said so sad and so faint that Kiba would have missed it had anyone been talking or the tv had been loud in the living room.

Opening his arms, he pulled his brother out of his seat and into an embrace. "I'm sorry Toboe... I'm trying to understand, I really am, but it's so damn hard."

The boy nearly gasped, his brother never swore and if he did it certainly wasn't in front of him. "Kiba... I don't want to lie to you, but I want to see Tsume..." He swallowed with hesitance. "Even if you don't want me to. But I hate lying to you, trust and honesty is what makes us such a good team. I hate having to lie, but that's what I'm gonna do if that's my only means of seeing Tsume."

'Tsume, I hope you know the grief you cause because of us being together but I do it because I love you and I love that my first time was with you- I want all of my times to be with you.. I can still recall that night and how you were so gentle with me especially afterwards when it hurt.

The young boy swallowed seeing how dark it was in the models bedroom. He felt as though he were about to be attacked by something scary, lurking in the shadows. Taking a step back he felt Tsume's hands come down on his shoulders. "The bed's right in front of you." He whispered in such a way chills went up Toboe's spine.

"Haha, right." Walking forward, he banged his knees gently into the bed before crawling across it. Toboe sat with his knees bent under him, hands folded over each other resting on his lap. He was nervous. Tsume knew what he was doing- he didn't.

Tsume tapped the base of the lamp on his night stand and a dim light faded on. Grabbing a bottle of lube that became visible. "I hope you don't mind the light, I thought it would be a better experience for the both of us if we could see each other."

Toboe's eyes gazed at the light like a moth to a flame, he nodded mechanically. He was glad for the light. But now he was even more nervous as he could see a look on the mans face he had never seen before. Sort of like hunger or animosity.

"Toboe?" Tsume climbed onto the bed over to his young lover. His hands came around the boys waist and he pulled his legs from under him so they lay flat spread out across the bed, surrounding Tsume between them.

"Huh?" He blinked, it seemed as though he hadn't heard what Tsume had said.

"I want you to make sure that this is what you want, before we get started." His hungry look turned into one of concern, question, and maybe a little plead.

"Mm- yeah... yeah, I'm sure." He stammered uncomfortably.

Tsume smirked, leaning forward placing a kiss to the boys lips. "Don't be nervous. I promise I would never hurt you."

Toboe smiled, trying his hardest to steady his breathing. He really liked it when Tsume kissed him. "I know but, I'm just a little nervous that I won't do this right."

"Ha, don't worry about it." He began to unbutton Toboe's shirt. "Just hang on to me and I'll show you how." Pushing the shirt down from the young boys shoulders- careful of the shoulder with the burn on it- tossing it to the floor once the shirt had slipped down completely from his body. "Just relax." Teased the model, patting the boys bare shoulder.

Toboe chuckled lightly. "I'm trying to, just give me a minute." He wrapped his arms around Tsume's neck planting a kiss on the mans cheek then lips. Tsume responded by licking the boys mouth as he pulled back, the model moved up a bit kissing him again as though it were a game to see who would give the last kiss.

It went on like that for a moment, until Toboe felt the button of his pants being undone. "Tsume wha-..?" He questioned the mans actions quickly.

"Ssshhh." The model gave the boy another reassuring kiss, while his hands pulled the zipper down moving the pants open once it was done. "Trust me. You'll love it."

'It really sank in why Kiba would sneak off to Hige's house so much. Our fight I thought was gonna be a nasty one but in the end my heart won over my head and I couldn't tell you to leave me just like back in Italy but here now in my bedroom I can finally put what I need to say into words for you and Tsume, I want you to understand me when I tell you that I love you, I need you, and I want you in my life but we can no longer be together I'm sorry.'

I wrote your dear friend Toboe on that letter of our life with little more here and there written so he could laugh like I laughed recalling it and cry like I cried when recalling it. I want us to never stop sharing things as friends but we can't be a couple. It just wouldn't work out.

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5 years later Tsume and I whip the old thing out and have a laugh about it; he would tell me what a brat I was even in memories and I would sock him one telling him to back off. I still keep in touch with all my old friends, Cheza and Mrs. Cher who got remarried by the way and you'll never guess to who? Right, Mr. Hubb. I don't know what happened between them while I was at college but it seemed to work because they've never been better.

Like my dream back then when I moved out Hige moved in and those two are thick as thieves when it comes to phonecalls always snickering about something that I don't get but I come home as often as possible to visit my brother and my best friend but this summer I decided to visit someone else and flew all the way- actually, I drove over to the old penthouse where my boyfriend Tsume lives. I plan on spending the summer with him in New York city. I've never been to America before so I'm really excited plus Kiba is happy for me so I can take this trip guilt free. He knows that Tsume and I got back together over spring break he caught us kissing in my old bedroom at a barbecue he threw for me and Cheza, he only rolled his eyes and said the food was done. I think that Tsume and me are really gonna go somewhere with each other, we could stand behind Hige and my brother if they ever got married hahaha that's what I think but for now we're happy just winging it in life; putting the past behind us and looking forward to the future- although, sometimes I get this itchy feeling that I'm being watched... naah. Hahaha.

The End.