X/1999 Fan Fiction ❯ Ces Larmes Je Pleure ❯ Wasuresaru ( Chapter 4 )

Author's Note: Please, dear readers, be forewarned that this chapter is where I begin to get twisted. And if you remember the little flashbacks when Fuuma called Subaru "Subaru-kun," I will be explaining that sometime in the near future, so keep your shits on.

Part Four: Wasuresaru

Subaru didn't move from his spot at the door. He glared at Fuuma as the teen stood and walked towards him. The Dark Kamui's eyes burned into Subaru's own, the amber color glowing almost the same shade that Seishirou's eyes once were. In that look, Subaru could see the similarities between the two men.

"You're the Sakurazukamori," Fuuma said, a soft yet evil smile on his face. "And the Sakurazukamori belongs on the side of the Seven Angels."

He stepped closer as Subaru took a step back, shaking his head.

"I know that you can no longer create a kekkai," Fuuma continued. "You can no longer perform your duties as a Seal."

"I won't help you," Subaru said.

"You may not have a choice," Fuuma warned. "The Seals have no use for you anymore. The Ten no Ryu strive to protect humanity. You have nothing left to protect."

Subaru said nothing. Fuuma took another few steps forwards, making Subaru back up into the wall. The Dark Kamui leaned forward and pressed his lips firmly against the older man's. Subaru was too shocked to fight back, so Fuuma merely continued to kiss him, slipping his tongue between the Sakurazukamori's lips, tasting the insides of his mouth. He broke the kiss moments later, in need of air.

"Think about it, Subaru-kun," he said, gently pushing the dazed older man to the side. "I'll come by some other time."

With that, the Dark Kamui opened the door and left the apartment. Subaru stared off into space for a few moments until he ran into the bathroom and poured as much mouthwash as possible into his mouth, trying to get the taste of the younger man to disappear.

*****

Fuuma waited a couple of days before returning to Subaru's apartment. He had Satsuki watching for Subaru's return from his nightly visits to the Tree. She would have BEAST turn on the television in the apartment when Subaru reached the apartment complex.

The apartment was dark as Fuuma waited. He wanted to be sure that Subaru didn't know he was there. The darkness would hide him long enough.

The television suddenly flickered on, letting Fuuma know that Subaru was almost home. He went over to check on something in the light of the television. Then he went back to the couch, sat down, picked up the remote and turned the television back off.

A few minutes later, the door opened. There was a click and the room was flooded with light. Subaru walked into the living room and nearly had a heart attack at the sight of the Dark Kamui sitting on the couch.

"What is it with you and coming into my apartment?" Subaru asked.

"Seishirou left a key under the houseplant outside the door," Fuuma shrugged.

Subaru inwardly cursed Seishirou. He set his keys on the counter and shrugged off the black trenchcoat he wore. Fuuma whistled.

"I see you bought yourself some new clothes," he said, looking Subaru over.

The new Sakurazukamori was wearing tight black denim jeans and a black turtleneck. It looked good on him, but Fuuma thought it still needed some work. Get the guy in some leather and he'd look damn good. He kept this thought to himself.

"So," the Dark Kamui said. "Have you come to a decision?"

"Maybe," Subaru shrugged. He toed off his shoes and went into the kitchen. Opening the refrigerator, he pulled out a can of soda. He wasn't in the mood to make tea for his caffeine craving, so a simple Coca-Cola would have to do. He took another one out to Fuuma. Stupid manners would be the death of him yet.

"I've given you time to think it over," Fuuma said, opening his can of soda.

"I know. And I've come to the conclusion that I will become one of your Angels, but you will not make me fight against Kamui. And you will let me do things my way."

"Fine by me, Subru-kun."

Fuuma stood and went over top where he had put a gift for Subaru. He picked it up and took it over to the older man.

"He wanted you to have this," he said, handing the flask to Subaru. "He was upset that you lost your eye. The morning he died, he told me that he hated me for doing that to you and that I was to give this to you."

The flask held a single amber eye. Subaru recognized it immediately. After having seen it so many years in the face of his lover, he would recognize it anywhere. He took the business card that the Dark Kamui had extended to him. With a glance at it, he saw that it was for an optometrist who specialized in eye surgery.

"After you get that eye put in, come see me. Our headquarters is in the basement of City Hall."

Subaru nodded and watched as Fuuma left the apartment. He looked at the flask in his hand then held it close to his chest.

"Seishirou-san."

*****

Kamui woke up with a start. The ground was beginning to shade. He grabbed a jacket, threw it on, and ran outside, grabbing his shoes in his way out. He leaped from rooftop to rooftop, heading towards the source of the quake, with Arashi and Yuzuriha shortly following. Sorata slept like the dead, and not even an earthquake would ever wake him. So, the three of them raced towards the kekkai that was already beginning to crumble.

"We're too late!" Yuzuriha cried. "It's beginning to fall!"

"Damn it!" Kamui said.

They landed on a building a safe distance away from the broken kekkai and watched as it collapsed, taking out part of Tokyo. Yuzuriha and Arashi didn't notice the figure that leaping away, but Kamui did. His heart hell as he realized who it was.

"Subaru…"

*****

Subaru returned to his apartment at eleven o'clock, his arm covered in blood. He had just collapsed a kekkai and killed a man to feed the Tree. This night was not going well for him. He ran into the bathroom and was violently ill. The sight of the blood on his arm made him completely nauseous. When he was done being sick, he stripped off his bloody clothes and jumped into the shower. He scrubbed the blood off of him and then just stood there in the shower, letting the hot water pummel his body.

(("Konban wa, Subaru-kun," Seishirou said, his arm covered in blood. "You caught me at a bad time, I'm afraid. I was just about to shower."))

The memories filled Subaru's mind. He just couldn't think of anything without remembering the times he spent with Seishirou. Quickly shutting off the water, Subaru decided to go somewhere to just stop thinking at all. He dressed in clean clothes and headed out.

There was a bar not far from the apartment complex. He pushed the door open and went inside. There was an empty seat at the counter, so Subaru crossed the room and sat down. The bartender turned to him and asked what Subaru wanted.

"Give me the strongest drink you have," Subaru said.

"Okay," the young woman said. "One Fallen Angel, coming right up."

((Author's note: I have no clue how strong a Fallen Angel really is, so if I made a mistake, forgive me.))

Subaru blinked. Fallen Angel. It described Seishirou perfectly, for Seishirou truly was a fallen Angel. He shook his head and stared at the counter for a minute. When the young woman returned with his drink, he thanked and took an experiment sip of the drink, then swallowed the rest of it in two gulps. His throat burned as the alcohol slid down it.

"You okay, hon?" the bartender asked, seeing that Subaru had just turned a lovely violet shade.

"Yeah. Keep them coming, please."

"First time drinking, huh?" she asked. "Let me get you something else."

She turned, whipped up another drink and handed it to him. "Try this. It's a .44 Magnum. Rather strong, but not quite as much as some."

"Thanks."

Subaru gulped down the drink. He made a face. "Where's your bathroom?"

"Right there," the bartender replied, extending a finger.

Subaru ran into the bathroom, kneeled in one of the stalls and threw up.

::Are you sure you should be drinking like that?:: the Tree asked. ::Shouldn't you start off with a weaker drink?::

"Weak drinks won't make me forget things. And that's all I want to do. I just want to forget."

::Fine, but I should warn you, you're going to have one hell of a hangover in the morning.::

"I don't care."

Subaru stood and went back to the counter.

"Feeling better?" the bartender asked.

"Yeah. Get me another drink please. Then I think I'll be done."

"Only if you're sure."

"I'm sure."

"Okay, then," the bartender replied. She got Subaru another drink.

"What's this one?" Subaru asked.

"Assisted Suicide."

Subaru drank that one down, pulled out some money, paid for his drinks and stumbled out of the bar. As soon as he walked out, he ran into Fuuma.

"Need to work on your alcohol tolerance, I see," the younger man said.

"Nngh. Lemme `lone…" Subaru mumbled.

"You don't look so good. Let me help you home."

"Mpmh…" Subaru said, carelessly waving a hand, and then nearly collapsing.

Fuuma put an arm around the older man and helped him walk to the apartment complex, just three city blocks from the bar. The two of them went up to Subaru's apartment and had just about reached the door when Subaru finally passed out. Fuuma sighed and struggled to reach into the older man's pockets to get the key to the apartment. It took a few tried to get the right key, but he eventually got the door open. He dragged Subaru into the bedroom and laid him on the bed. Then he went into the living room and went to sleep on the couch.

*****

Hokuto looked at Kakyou. "What do you mean, Subaru went to a bar and got himself so hammered that Fuuma had to take him home?"

"I mean exactly that," the golden-eyed yumemi replied. "Subaru-san went to a bar to drown out his thoughts, go three drinks, left the bar and ran into the Dark Kamui."

Hokuto sighed in exasperation. "That stupid brother of mine! I can't belive he got himself drunk!"

"Well, those are three of the strongest drinks out there," Seishirou said from his spot in the Dreamscape.

((Author's Note: Again, if I'm wrong, you'll have to forgive me. I'm too lazy to do any research at the moment.))

"But Subaru knows damn well that he has a very low alcohol tolerance!"

"You heard what he told the bartender. He wanted to forget things. He must have thought that getting drunk was the quickest way to do so."

"Sei-chan, go talk to him!" Hokuto said, shoving her friend towards Kakyou.

"But…!"

"Kakyou, take him to Subaru, please."

"Hokuto, I'm sorry, but not now," Kakyou replied. "You two have to get out of the Dreamscape. The Dark Kamui is coming."

"Eep!" Hokuto gasped. She grabbed Seishirou's wrist. "Let's go, Sei-chan! We'll try again tomorrow."

The two of them leapt out of the Dreamscape just as Fuuma entered. Fortunately, the Dark Kamui hadn't seen them. He turned to Kakyou.

"What the hell is up with him?"

"He wanted to forget," the yumemi replie.d "He's having a hard time getting over Seishirou's death. And taking over as the Sakurazukamori hasn't been easy, either."

"Well, he needs to get over everything if he's going to make a decent Angel," Fuuma huffed. "I can't have him getting himself drunk every time he collapses a kekkai."

"Give him some time. He'll get over it eventually."

"But I need him now," Fuuma whined, sounding completely childish.

"Patience is a virtue."

"The hell it is."

Author's Note: And here's where I stop for now. Sorry, guys, but this chapter is getting kinda long and I want to get on to the next one

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Subaru's Voice: Again, thanks for the review! Your encouragement is greatly appreciated! Ooh, good luck on those finals. Hope you do well.

Chris Pwure: Sorry, I'm having memory lapses! >< Being eighteen does that to a yaoi whore like me. No one's going to murder you. Yes, this is not really a SxS fic, though I'll randomly put SxS scenes in. Judging by this chapter and the summary I put up, I think it's going to be more of a FxS. If you need help with the third chapter of your fic, you can always e-mail me!

Mysterious Blue Eyes: You've read all my fics?! I'm honored! I'll be sure to read yours when it's up (or is it already?).

Hiruka-chan: Thanks for the encouraging review! Here's another chapter. I hope you find it okay.

Tekoo: The KxS bits are mostly Kamui pining after Subaru. There's no true KxS scenes in here. I despise the pairing. Two ukes should never go together (sorry to all KxS fans out there!). Sad to say, the FxS bits are going to be rather common. But we'll possibly see some FxK. Depends on how much sugar/caffeine/homicidal urges I have while writing.