X/1999 Fan Fiction ❯ Us ❯ I hate you Then I love you ( Chapter 1 )

Us

Rights: I don't own Tokyo Babylon or X, they belong to CLAMP. I also don't own rights to song "Us", it belongs to Billy Pace and Celine Dion

Pairing: Seishirou Sakurazuka and Subaru Sumeragi

A.N.: Sorry for my mistakes. I'm not used to write in English (actually in Ukrainian, Russian and German). This is my first fic, so please don't kill me.

Story: Life of Sei and Subaru.

Chapter One

I hate you

Then I love you

Subaru P.O.V.

*I want to know why

You're letting this die

Without the blink of an eye*

That was the night before the tragedy, before he lost all he had. His sister, his love, his heart. When he could only think that this would happen to him, he would never go to Seishirou.

Seishi - was his love, his fiend.

It all was broken in one night. He lost, Seishirou won. He cried in his pillow and his heart will not beat anymore without Seishirou. For Seishirou it was just a game he plays without any regrets, but this game destroyed his life and leaves just the bitter emptiness inside of him.

Next day, looking at his sister's lifeless body, he was so emotionless that he could not cry or feel pityness for her. He thinks that Seishirou destroyed it too…

*You say that you need time

I say you'll be fine*

The time keeps running through my hands. I grow up from the little boy I was to the emotionless and cruel man, who needs no one in his life. The life without my sister and Seishirou make me feel useless, but I have good work to do. With more time, I get better.

*If you would only see

Like you did before

You became imprisoned

Can I reopen the door*

I saw him there, in the Tokyo Tower, when he was alone. His beauty made my heart beat again. His eye is full of cruelty and lust. I know that I must kill him, but I just do not want to. I go to him and try to make him love me one more time. If I try, we will be together.

* You say it doesn't matter

Then tell me what does

And why that isn't what

You've been thinking of

You say it's never easy

Then tell me what was

Is it never worth the pain

Could you believe it was

When life keeps living

That's what life keeps giving

To us*

Normal P.O.V.

"Hi, Seishirou. Would you mind if I take a place near you?"

"No. However, I don't think that it give some pleasure to you, isn't it? I see no changes in you. You were so weak and breakable, now you as much as dismissed child. Did you really think that love exists and I can love you?"

Subaru tried not to cry at these sharp words.

"Yes, I do. I love you"

"Don't cry pretty thing. If you laugh, I will show you what love is. Now come on let us get out of here."

They ran through the streets of Tokyo, pass the big shops and people laugh at the two young men, holding their hands. They ran to the little apartment, which belong to Seishirou…

Chapter Two

Let's talk about love

Subaru P.O.V.

*Once we were one mind

Drifting in one time

And ever true

We were friends

But something is gone from my

Picture of this life

If we could only see

Like we did before

We became imprisoned

Can I reopen the door*

First, that I could fell was the slap at my lips. I opened my eyes and saw a big room I was laying in.

"Good morning you sleeping beauty",-Seishirous cruel smirk remind me what was happened last night.

*Flashback*

"So you want to know what love is?" Seishirou smiled as he took me in his hands and I fly through the hall in the wall. I felt broken. He beat me. Whole of me: my face, my body. He broken my hand, my lips were bleeding, but my heart was crying for him and I found myself pleading for his kiss. It was like disease. I flushed with fever and couldn't think normally or try to protect myself from his grip. I kissed his face and he stopped embarrassed from what I was doing. Last, that I heard was his laugh and I fell in nowhere…

*End flashback*

Now he stands upon me with his cruel smirk and I cannot remember anything of what was happened.

"You were so tired last night, so you fall asleep. I had take care of you and bring you in my bed"

Seishirou`s smirk get more unpleasant in minute he was spoken to me.

"Have I made something wrong, Seishirou-sama?" I was so afraid to look at him that didn't notice him looking at me with the pleasure in his eye.

"Do you know that you're such a good lover and don't say anything to me, Subaru? You disappointed me" Seishirou´s smirk grew wilder.

"How did you know I am?" I was surprised.

"Last night I use you for some my needs and you were perfect"

"You did it? You really did it. You use me? How could you?"

I cried, take my clothes and ran away from him. I heard his laugh ringing in my ears.

Seishirou P.O.V.

He was so beautiful and childish. I had expect this kind of reaction from him. So little…

*Flashback*

"Seishirou" He was begging for me, but I don't want to stop this torture. I will show him how mistaken he was. No love. I know it. Know from the moment I was born until the moment he kissed me. His lips were soft and smell like a sakura petals. I couldn't do anything with the feeling inside of me, so I knock him out.

When he woke up we were just talking. He had so many questions I couldn't answer. Then we lay at the bed and were talking about his love to me. Before he fall asleep, I could here him saying: "I love you" I don't wanting it, because I must kill him. Moreover, I was feeling it deep inside of me. Love. Therefore, I must make him feel painful for me and hate me.

*End flashback*

Subaru P.O.V.

How could he? Why? Why me? Why he? Why now, as we find each other? Maybe he is right, no love. Now I can understand it. I must die in name of love, but live in name of Earth. I love you, Seishirou.

Chapter Tree

The reason

Love is one way

*The hope has vanished from your eyes

You were my faith and one truth

There's every reason to get through

And you're why I know there's

A reason*

This moment I finally find my strength to kill him. I ran to his house only to find him there waiting for me.

"Subaru? You're here again? Such a pleasure to see you again"

"Not longer, because I want to kill you"

"Oh, tat is bad. I thought that we could play like at night before"

I hate him in this moment. All of him: his eye, his stupid smirk, how he sat there laughing about me and how hi used me. I was to angry to understand where I was and what the hell I'm doing. He reached me in one second and kissed me.

"Let us play, then you may kill me"

Seishirou know that I love him. He used it against me. He is right, I am too weak. I can't help, but answered his kiss I was longing for. That were the reason I came to him now, not kill him, but love him. He rip my clothes from my body.

"I wonder how good you is in it?"

I heard him whispered in my ear.

"You had saw it last night, don't you?"

He laughs and said: "It was a lie"

Therefore, I know that he loves me.

We fall at his bed. He cared me and, after we ready and tired, he kissed the tears of pain from my face.

This love could give us so many things…