Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ A Different Kind of You ❯ Admittance ( Chapter 19 )

Yugi healed slowly but surely. He would smile more often and let others beside Yami be closer to him now. He didn't like it when Yami left though; they found out that the hard way. A couple days after Yami showed up he went to his apartment for the night to check on his dad and a few minutes after Yugi realized his savior wasn't there he screamed and cried and it was impossible for anyone to get near him. Deadly silence met Yami when he came back the next morning and even deadlier sight when he went to Yugi's room. The youth was in the corner of the room rocking back and forth asking Yami to come back and not leave him all alone. Tears were slipping periodically down his cheeks and his eyes were red and his voice sounded scratchy and horrible.

 

The red-eyed teen slowly crept to him and knelt down quietly. Yugi glanced up for a second and his eyes filled again. Before Yami could ask him what happened Yugi looked down with shame and croaked, “You weren't there.” Yami was shocked that his disappearance caused Yugi to react so horribly. He shifted forward and leant against the wall, stretched his legs out and held out his arms for Yugi, who pushed away from his own wall and started sobbing into Yami's chest, holding on to him tightly.

 

“I'm sorry, Yugi. I won't leave you again. I promise,” Yami swore. He held his broken look-a-like closer and kissed his forehead lightly, knowing Yugi wouldn't mistake it for more than just compassion. He couldn't let Yugi know of his feelings lest he get hurt again. He's better off with someone else. I know he is. He glanced at Yugi before quickly looking off to the side. I promise you, Yugi, I'll find you someone worthy. I'll make sure you don't get hurt again.

 

That was a few weeks earlier. Now Yugi felt more and more comfortable with having Yami leave him as he grew stronger. He even admitted to not even knowing why he had reacted so violently before apologizing to everyone for keeping them up, which, of course, everyone brushed off anyway. They might not have known what he was going through exactly, but everyone was there because they were hurting one way or another.

 

Duke was having a party about a month and half after the incident and invited the group of friends the whorehouse. It was in celebration of selling one million copies on the first two days of one of his newest products. It was rumored that it might even make it to the states since it was so big. Anyway, he wanted to throw a party and it was the perfect excuse to see Yugi, even if it was with all of his friends with him, and let him know there were no hard feelings about what happened between them. He knew he could've just called him and asked to meet him, but he heard things about what was happening at the whorehouse and figured he'd be more comfortable with friends surrounding him rather than being alone. Besides, it was partly because of him that Yugi was in his condition.

 

Malik and Marik were walking ahead of the group, both wearing tight leather pants and similar shirts that showed off a fair amount of tanned skin on their stomach; Malik's was a light purple and Marik's was a soft grey. Joey was wearing a pair of fading black jeans, a white shirt, and a blue jacket. Seto was wearing his usual attire of trench coat, white pants, and white shirt, which Joey always exclaims as making him look incredibly sexy (which Seto had replied with, while your outfit always lets off what a mutt you are. A slight argument followed by the two lovers making out on the street corner about a block from the whorehouse.) Ryou had on a light blue sweatshirt and black dress pants, saying he wanted to look nice even though it wasn't required. Bakura, however, had taken complete advantage at not needing a dress code. He had a black button-up shirt with at least half the buttons undone and baggy, plaid pajama pants, which Ryou had joked that he was lazy all the time. (Bakura got a wicked grin on his face and picked Ryou up bridal style running around in the middle of the street jokingly while his younger lover screamed for him to put him down.) Yugi and Yami were the least rambunctious of the group. Both wearing jeans, Yami's tight and Yugi's baggy, while Yugi had on a light sweatshirt and Yami wore a black leather vest with a chain coming out one pocket, across the back and into the pocket on the other side. They were silent most of the way, but the block and half or so there Yugi stopped and chocked out, “I don't think I can do this.”

 

Everyone had immediately stopped what they were doing and watched him, while Yami wrapped his arms around him and held him. “You can, Yugi. You're the strongest person I know. It's understandable that you're scared to see Duke again what had happened between the both of you, but I'm sure he doesn't hate you or have any negative feelings towards you because of it. However, if you're uncomfortable about it than I'll take you home and forget about the party.”

 

Yugi looked up at him and then at everyone around them, standing around the two boys silently, and then hid his face in Yami's arm. Yami shook his head and looked at Marik pointedly. “Could you and the others go ahead of us,” he mouthed out. Marik paused a few beats before nodded and heading down the street again. Malik got the hint first and hurried after, Seto not long after him with Joey holding his arm tightly. Ryou didn't want to go, but Bakura pulled him gently by his arms until both of them were walking away; none of them looked back.

 

Yami pushed Yugi to arms' length and smiled serenely at him. “Yugi, no one will think any less of you if you don't go.”

 

“It's not that I don't want to go - I do - but what if Duke hates me for what I did?”

 

“Then why did invite you and everyone else to his party?”

 

Yugi looked away, unable to answer. He knew what he wanted to say, but he knew Yami knew he didn't believe it. Duke was incapable of hurting people intentionally. Joey joked that Jiminy Cricket was constantly on his shoulder. Thinking of the conscience always got a smile on Yugi's face when Joey said that. He nodded and looked past Yami to where his friends had gone and then back the way they came. Taking a deep breath and nodded, taking Yami's hand, not catching the look that passed Yami's face when he did, and they walked slowly in the direction of the Devlin mansion.

 

Duke opened the door for the umpteenth time in anxiety. He was starting to get nervous as the minutes ticked by and was beginning to think Yugi wasn't showing up. His fears only increased when only his friends were at the door. He looked behind the group to see if he was trying to catch up with them only the stairs, but his crush wasn't there at all. “Good evening,” he forced a smile, “Glad you could come. The drinks and snacks are over there, help yourself, and have fun.”

 

Bakura smirked and slapped his hand on the game creator's shoulder. “Don't worry, Devlin, he's coming. Him and Yami got held up for a minute, but they should be along soon.”

 

Duke offered a small smile and a nod of thanks before leading everyone into the living room. After settling down on the couch and closing his eyes in relief that Yugi was coming he heard a knock on the door and sprang up again. Upon nearly throwing open the door he saw Yugi slightly behind Yami, but still there. A large smile grew on his face as he greeted, “Hey there Yugi, Yami; glad you could make it. Come on in.”

 

Yami nodded a hello and started to walk in, but the tug of hands on his shirt made him pause and look back. Yugi was shivering slightly with an unsure and nervous expression on his face, which was hard to tell in itself since he was looking at his shoes with his bangs covering his face. A sad smile crossed his face and he looked back at Yugi, which made Duke nervous because he wasn't sure what was going on. “Yugi,” Yami whispered gently, “don't worry; I'm here.” The small one nodded and allowed himself to be pulled in.

 

Duke watched them worriedly, wondering what was going on between them. Of all the things that confused him about the duo now, there was one thing he couldn't mistake: the look that Yami was giving Yugi as they walked together. It seems that either Yugi doesn't feel the same towards him or he just doesn't know.

 

After seeing to the other guests and making sure they were having a good time he wandered around in search of Yugi or one of his friends. He spotted Malik and Marik by the refreshments and headed over to them. “Hey, guys, have you seen Yugi anywhere? I need to talk to him.”

 

Malik shook his head `no' and replied after taking a sip of cider, “Nope, haven't seen him since he got here. I'm sure Yami's with him though.”

 

Duke resisted grinding his teeth together in irritation. I want to be alone with him. I can't tell him something privately between us if Yami's always around him. “Alright, thanks anyway.” He turned to leave, but Marik stopped him.

 

“I don't know about Yugi, but I did see Bakura and Ryou by the stairs a few minutes ago. They might've seen him.”

 

The game creator nodded once more and walked off again, but when a hand landed on his shoulder he looked back to see the owner of the whorehouse watching him seriously. “What is it?”

 

“Don't hurt him.” He didn't say anything more, only went back to Malik.

 

Duke was surprised that Marik could tell what he was up to. Am I that obvious that I'm going to try getting him back…

 

Like Marik said, Bakura and Ryou were sitting on the stairs talking and munching on a plate of chips and assorted cookies. “Hey, Bakura, Ryou, having fun?”

 

“We haven't seen him, Devlin,” Bakura answered immediately.

 

Duke's eyes widened in surprise; before he got a chance to question about it Ryou started in.

 

The white-haired teen hit his older lover's shoulder in annoyance. “Bakura, you shouldn't be so rude. At least give him the chance to ask or say whatever he wants to before you go making accusations.” Ryou then turned to Duke again and smiled innocently, as though he hadn't just scolded someone known by many people to kill people for talking back to him. “Did you need something, Duke?”

 

“Um..well…actually,” he stuttered, watching closely as Bakura grew more and more irritated at having been disturbed, “I was looking for Yugi and Marik said that I should ask you.”

 

“We saw him outside about half an hour or so ago with Yami, but it's gotten chilly since then and I'm sure Yami brought him in shortly after that,” Ryou told him.

 

“Alright, thanks, I'll go check there.” He turned and quickly walked away in fear that Bakura would come after him.

 

As he was walking away though he heard Bakura mutter under his breath, “I don't want that dice weirdo hanging around Yugi, Ryou. He doesn't deserve him.”

 

“Don't worry, Bakura,” he heard Ryou whisper back, “As long as Yami's with him I doubt Duke's even got a chance. Not to be rude, but I don't think Yugi would really go for him again.”

 

His hopes diminished considerably, Duke headed for the sliding glass door that led towards the pool. He didn't see Yugi or Yami anywhere, but he did see Joey and Seto sitting with their feet dangling in the heated water with a blanket around their shoulders. He walked over to them. “Seto, Joey, have you seen Yugi anywhere? I need to talk to him about something and it's really important.”

 

“You don't deserve him, Devlin,” Seto answered rudely.

 

“What?”

 

“We know what you're planning; it's obvious,” Joey replied.

 

“Planning,” Duke repeated, not knowing what was happening.

 

Seto and Joey turned to glare coldly at him, causing Duke to step back lightly.

 

“Don't play stupid; everyone knows you want Yugi back. It only took a short while to realize it, since we know you as well as we do. We didn't have a problem with you coming to the whorehouse as a customer, but we do have a problem with you not showing up when Yugi was hurting as much as he would. You didn't even call to see what was going on. If anything, that just proves how much you don't deserve him since you couldn't be bothered to do anything,” Seto growled.

 

“So just leave him alone. Yami's with him now and they'll be happy,” Joey finished.

 

“Those two…are together,” Duke swallowed harshly around the ball in his throat.

 

“Not yet,” Joey answered,” but it's only matter of time. They have feelings for each other, Yugi just hasn't realized it yet, not like Yami has.”

 

“So there's still time. I don't care what you or the others say! I will have Yugi back!”

 

The blonde and brunette watched as the host of the party marched back into the mansion and slammed the glass sliding door closed.

 

The nerve of those guys! Duke thought as he made his way down the hall, intent on staying away from his guests so he didn't blow off his steam on them. He stood stock still though we he saw Yami standing next to the bathroom door, waiting for whoever was in there to get out. “Yami,” the said teen looked up, “Where's Yugi?”

 

Yami pointed to the bathroom door and Duke nodded. “I see.” He didn't want to ask, he knew it was sound rude, but apparently his manners left as soon as Seto opened his mouth. “What do you get out of being with Yugi?”

 

“What,” Yami asked with surprise, not understanding what Duke was getting at.

 

“Don't play dumb,” Duke continued, “I see the way you stare at him. Yugi's mine and I won't let you have him.” He was careful to speak only loud enough that Yami could hear him and Yugi couldn't.

 

The widening of Yami's eyes was enough of an answer for Duke: it was true; Yami had feelings for Yugi.

 

“I won't let you have him; not without a fight,” he growled.

 

Yami stepped forward slightly, away from the wall, “I don't know how you possibly found out my feelings for Yugi, especially if you happened to do it by yourself, since you can't care for Yugi as much as you're letting on; only that you're possessive of him. When he locked himself in his room you couldn't be bothered to go see him or call to ask him about him. If you're trying to tell me that you love him, than I'm afraid I'm not at all convinced.”

 

The way Yami spoke surprised Duke entirely. He thought by confronting him they'd end up in a screaming match to end all matches, than turn into a fist fight, and the end result with one or both of them in the hospital. Instead, Yami was talking softly, sincerely, more honest than anyone he'd ever heard before.

 

“It's true that I hold deep, strong feelings for Yugi. I was scared that by seeing him with you I couldn't control myself or my feelings. I didn't want to be away from him, but it was the only way to lessen the pain. Then I got a call saying Yugi was in his room and hadn't come out. Despite how I felt I went to see him and it turned out Yugi came out because of me. Reasons for that are still unknown, but I couldn't care less about the reasons because I knew Yugi was hurting so I helped. I've been trying to make it up to Yugi for staying away from him and because of me he's been getting better, me and his friends. I won't let him know how I feel because I don't deserve him, but I know you don't either.”

 

Duke was frozen where he stood. What he's saying…he's saying…it's all true… Duke bowed his head in defeat. “I know, but I still want to be with him. I want another chance to prove I can be a good friend to him.”

 

“To who.”

 

Yami and Duke looked to the door and saw Yugi looking at them curiously. “Nobody; forget it,” the game creator replied. “Yugi, can I talk to you alone for a second?”

 

Yugi was hesitant, but a glance at Yami gave him the confidence and he nodded, walking side by side with him and away from Yami.

 

Guess I'm not needed anymore. Yugi's too polite to say no… Yami thought sadly. He made his way to the living room and collapsed on the couch; his thoughts all in a jumble.

 

He looked up a few seconds later and saw Yugi and Duke talking off to the side, the words drowned out by the noise of the party. The look of surprise that came over Yugi confirmed that Duke was telling him exactly what he feared. Goodbye, Yugi… He dropped his head and was about to make his way over to the refreshment table to tell Marik and Malik that he was leaving. He glanced up again when a shadow fell perpendicular to his.

 

“Yami, is it true?”

 

Yami's head shot up in surprise, “Yugi?”

 

“Is it true?”

 

“W-what true?”

 

Yugi didn't answer, but instead studied him for a minute, as if his eyes searched through his soul like an x-ray with a person. His amethyst eyes were holding something new as he looked at Yami and a tender smile covered his face after a second longer. His next words came at such a surprise.

 

“How was I to know your feelings if you never let it show?”

 

Yami was motionless he didn't know what to say, what to do. Instead, he looked across the crowded room and he saw just as Duke turned away and walked out of the room, the slightest of smiles covering his face. Looking back at Yugi, he still didn't know how to respond. Sensing this, Yugi took his hand and led them outside so they could be alone. The elder finally got his voice back as he gasped out, “How did you…”

 

“Duke told me.”

 

“B-but why?”

 

“He didn't say much, just that while he was talking to you earlier that he realized how much you really felt for me when you admitted to not deserving me and how you wouldn't tell me and also that he understood what everyone else has been trying to tell him, however harshly it might've been. Duke told me that he wanted me to be happy and the only one he felt could give me that…”

 

Yami prepared himself for the worse. Here it comes, when all my hopes come down and he tells me he wants to stay with Duke…

 

“Was with you,” Yugi finished. “He admitted to me that he realized he wasn't right for me and then about your feelings towards me; that you loved me.”

 

Yami was speechless; what could he say. Duke gave him up when he had a chance to be with him again? When he swore he would get him and Yami wouldn't?

 

“Why weren't you going to tell me, Yami?”

 

Yami turned away, the stars the line of his vision, as he let everything out. “It's true,” he said. “For a while now I've hoped and I've dreamed, loved you from far away. I cried in my dreams and wished on every star, but nothing I did seemed to get me closer to you so… so I locked all my feelings inside.

 

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Bejeezies!!! I'm so sorry this took so long to get away. I knew how I wanted it to go, but it never seemed to come out just write. ARGH!! *blush* hehe, well, I'm finally satisfied with it so I hope you like it too. Enjoy!