Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ A new lease on life ❯ A new start ( Chapter 1 )

 

Date…I've stopped counting

 

Life isn't fair plain and simple. No matter how much we wish it were, the truth always remains right in front of our faces and there is nothing that can be done about. Sure people may pray to every god they accept and hope for the better the truth will always comeback and slap you in the face.

 

I sound like a cynic on his deathbed, don't I? Don't worry you can admit it I don't mind. If truth were told I might as well be. Gods how I've changed… I was once so innocent so pure but now… now well lets just say things are different now and it's all because he left me.

 

Wondering what in the world I am talking about? I'm not surprised I am being rather Cryptic… But it's hard to describe, but this is supposed to be what's the word Grandpa used… Therapeutic? Some how I doubt, but hey give the dog a bone.

 

Eight years ago I was for a lack of a better word a nobody. You know that old children's song:' Nobody likes me, everybody hates me, better go eat some worms'? Well that was me, minus the worms of course. I was a freak but not that much of a freak. I was short; I sucked sports, got almost perfect grades and had a freaky obsession with games. In short I was a loner/nerd/geek threw and through. Sure I had Anzu but I think that was more of a community service project for her than actual friend ship.

 

I was bullied, picked on, ignored, shunned you name it, but then he came and made all my troubles disappeared, all those who had ever picked on me had `mysteriously' insane and for the first time in my life I had Friends a feeling that I had never had before and A feeling I have almost forgotten.

 

Anzu, Honda and Jounouchi are the best friends any teen could ask for one would think but they could not match up to my Mou Hitori No Boku. He was everything I wasn't power, grace Beauty and yet he always had time for me, always had the patience to answer all my questions and remove all me fears.

 

I have to admit though our relationship got off at a rocky start but hey how could it not when there's a voice in your head that can kill people. Does that not sound like a certain mental disease to anyone? And after that incident with Seto Kaiba on the roof of Duellist Kingdom… If you don't know what I'm talking about then I recommend you go and look it up I'm sure some crackpot has documented all of my `adventures' by now. Hell if I'm sure that if I looked hard enough I could find that I've been made into a action figure by now but I'm off topic.

 

I soon began to trust him with every fibre of my being. Gone was the wimpy Yugi off old, I was replaced by something better apparently but now I'm not to sure if that's true. That trust is what forged our bond a bond that ran deeper than anything. That bond created our friendship that quickly grew from friends, to almost Brothers and then to Lovers.

 

Yes we where in love for the longest time. It had happened soon after our duel with Yami Marik (was he even a Yami or a magically enhanced split personality? I have never to this day figured that out) in Battle city. Apparently having three quarters of your body taken over by shadows can have life changing alterations on your out look on life. Yami had admitted that he had loved me that night as we sat in his soul room trying to forget just how close he had come to losing, hoe close I had come to dieing. We won on a fluke do you know that? If Malik hadn't taken back control of his body back at the last minute I don't even want to think about what would have happened.

 

Even So I was Happier than I had been in a long time. I not only had Friends but I also had the most wonderful Boyfriend in the world. Besides the occasional save the world thing, which almost always included some sort of stupid self-sacrifice on my part. I was Happier than I had ever been before… but then he left that's right Mou Hitori no Boku… I mean Atem left me.

 

Atem oh the Love, hate relationship I have with that name. It's the name of my soul mate but It's also the memoir of what was taken away from me in yet another bout of gods be damned SELFLESSNESS!

 

I sent him away for the greater good why can't I have what I want for once? Why is it always about everyone else? Why do I have to give up my happiness for people I don't give a rat's ass about? The very same people that before I became famous treated me like that apple you found in your locker as you cleaned it out for summer. That very same apple that you know has been in there since mid October?

 

My heart died that day. Sure it had been a fair duel but I knew deep down that Yami had never tried to win so hard in his life. To Anzu and the others it seemed he left with a smile on his face but the truth of our mind link told another story.

 

I could tell he was trying to keep his emotions from me but some emotions are just too powerful for any block to hold back perfectly. I could feel his anguish, his unadulterated sorrow, his pride in me and the anger with himself. But most of all I felt His love, but not that magical fluffy stuff that you hear about... you know the `and they lived happily ever after' crap. No this was the love that William Shakespeare had portrayed in his Tragedies, the most noticeable being Romeo and Juliet. That sense of tragic love brought tears to my eyes as I stared into Crimson for that one last time. I felt my legs start to move as I was about to run to him to tell him to stay with me, to live forever at my side but I was to late he was gone and he is never coming back and I can never be near him again.

 

Did you know that? Oh yes is true. Never again can I see my beloved Dark not even in death. I was so ready to join him only after a few hours. I had stolen a knife from the kitchen and had slit both my wrists with an almost brutal precession. Soon a comforting Darkness surrounded me it was Atem's darkness I was sure of it… but when I woke up I saw not my beloved Yami but instead that creeper Shadii and What he told me devastated my life forever. I could not join My Yami in the afterlife even if I died. Even in the afterlife our different times would separate us, him still in ancient times myself in Modern. When I woke up my wrists where completely healed and the knife was gone. I have never cried so hard in my life as I did that night.

 

I then gave up on trying to end my life gave up on trying to be with the other me. What was the point? It wasn't like I was going to see him anyway and besides I knew he was happy with Heba. Heba is apparently the me the Gods created to keep Yami in a false sense of Happiness he was their `son' after all. Yami honestly thinks its, me or at least that's what Shadii said. As long as he's Happy I guess.

 

I tried to live my life from then on you know to move on with my life. I was doing okay for a while I had my friends to help me though it… until one day I saw somebody that I had hopped was gone. Standing there in a heated argument with Ryou was non other than Bakura. I literally swear that my heart had stopped beating at that point and I swayed on the spot. Why could Ryou get his Yami back when I was stuck here alone? I just stayed there as they argued and then suddenly Ryou slapped him. I couldn't believe my eyes. Ryou had been given the chance to have his Yami back and he didn't even want him. Why would the gods give such a blessing to the one who didn't even want it?

 

I've decided that I' m going to leave tonight. The only one who knows is Seto. He's been strangely nice to me suddenly. I still don't understand. He paid for my plane ticket and even offered to pay for my expense when I got there I denied him for the later though. This is all about leaving everything behind and the knowledge that I was being paid money by my past arch Rival would do me far more harm than good. He just gave me enough to get me started. And for that I am truly grateful.

 

This is my last entry in this journal. Before this was a happy collaboration on what had happened in my life so I could go back and reminisce on all the good times. But they bring me nothing but pain now so this along with everything else besides the cloths on my back must remain here. I'm even leaving my deck behind I guess I'll leave it to Mokuba I Think he'll enjoy it. I won't leave it to Joey he has his own monsters now and I won't ask him to betray there trust like that.

 

Never will I return here as Sorry as I am to say that so to all those that may see this please don't follow me.

 

I know that my friends will be fine on their own and I know that so I hold no regrets.

 

Yuugi Mouto

 

Yugi sighed as he laid down his pen back onto his desk and looked at the clock sitting beside his bed. Five past one, it was time to go. Yugi smiled softly as he gapped the small beg that sat by his door hefting it onto his shoulders before talking one last look around the small room that had been his bedroom for so many years.

 

The Room looked untouched all belongings that had once seemed so important to him before where now just sitting on shelves looking almost forgotten. His deck lay beside the journal on his desk.

 

Only a few things where missing from his room, some cloths, his jacket and Backpack. He had also taken the golden box that the puzzle had come in as well as a small Photo album filled with pictures of him, his friends and most importantly of Atem. It was the only thing of his past that he was taking with him. A little anticlimactic for sure but everyone need at least one string to the past. Right.

 

Yugi didn't even look back as he climbed into the limo that Seto had supplied to take him to the Airport. Even as he started to fly over top of Domino he didn't even look down to see the city of his birth disappear into the clouds below him.

 

 

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Well there's the first Chapter I hope you enjoy it. Oh and a warning for the future this is going to be rather Au-ish as it won't have much to do about Duel monsters (at least I think this may change but I kind of doubt it) And Yugi is going to seem a little out of Character but that's all apart of the story, but I don't want to explain anymore than that right now.