Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ A Series Of One Shots ❯ For My Broken Heart ( Chapter 1 )
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By: EmeraldRains 
Song: For My Broken Heart
Pairing: Ryou/Otogi
Anime/Manga: Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Hentai | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 01.14.2009 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.5K | Visits: 349 | Status: Work In Progress
Song: For My Broken Heart
Pairing: Ryou/Otogi
Anime/Manga: Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Hentai | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 01.14.2009 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.5K | Visits: 349 | Status: Work In Progress
I don't own YGO. Nor do I own the song For My Broken Heart. Reba sings it and someone named Liz wrote it... I think. Anyway not mine.
Of course the only reason I'm actually writing this series is because Kirstin and Sarah encouraged it. Blame them for making the bishies suffer so.
Pairings- Ryou/Otogi
One shot song fic
''- thoughts
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So it had come down to this.
He wasn't surprised really. Ryou hadn't been happy for a while and while he blamed the winter weather for his mood as of late Otogi had known there was more to it. After all weather didn't make you flinch away every time your boyfriend tried to touch you. And it certainly didn't make you spend all hours of the night wandering around Ra knows where with Ra knows who.
But there was no use getting angry. It was over now. He was gone and this time he wasn't coming back.
~~There were no angry words at all
As we carried boxes down the hall
One by one we put them in your car
Nothing much for us to say
One last goodbye and you drove away
I watched your tail-lights
As they faded in the dark
I couldn't face the night in that lonely bed
So I laid down on the couch instead~~
He had helped his white haired angel pack everything he owned into the back of the white death-trap he considered a car. They didn't say a word to each other. What was the point? Nothing they said was going to change a thing.
Ryou slammed the back door of the car and turned around to face the darker man. He opened his mouth to say something then seemed to change his mind.
"It doesn't matter" Otogi said softly. "How many people stay with the person they loved in high school anyway? It's better this way. You know it as well as I do. So? What are you waiting for? Get out of here already."
Ryou had turned tear filled eyes up to him then threw himself forward knocking the dice player over as he hugged him.
"I'd fix it if I could. I didn't mean for it to happen. It just..."
"Just go" came the forced reply. 'Before I change my mind and beg you to stay again.'
Ryou nodded and wiped his eyes with his shirt sleeve before getting in the car and pulling away.
It seemed so final. Watching those tail lights fade into the distance. But of course it was final. The End, no more, show's over folks, goodbye and have a nice life.
Otogi hauled himself to his feet and walked up the apartment stairs slowly. He opened the door and started to head for the bedroom when a sudden thought flickered through his mind.
'If I don't go in there, if I don't sleep in the bed where we first... it won't be real as long as I don't go there.'
He curled up on the couch flicking on the small lamp sitting beside it and fell into his restless dreams.
*Last night I prayed the Lord my soul to keep
Then I cried myself to sleep
So sure life wouldn't go on without you
But oh this sun is blinding me
As it wakes me from the dark
I guess the world didn't stop
For my broken heart*
The damn light was too bright. Ryou always did have this annoying habit of getting up at the crack of dawn which never failed to annoy Otogi when he'd wake up to a cold bed and have to track down his lover before they could get anything productive done. Of course the bedding had to be washed after they were done but that was a small price to pay.
"Ry, baby turn the light out will you?"
Silence. Because Ryou was gone. He shook off the last traces of sleep wondering how he could have forgotten that fact. Maybe it was because for the last 6 years every morning he had woken his love had been there to greet him. Even when things had been at their worst, right before Ryou had left he had been there with a cup of coffee and a smile.
A false smile maybe but he could overlook that.
'Maybe I overlooked too many things.'
He laid there for a minute more before he heard his alarm clock go off playing an old Everclear song about someone who's lover had left him for another. What a way to start the first day of his single life.
*Clocks still tickin, life goes on
Radio still plays a song
As I try to put my scattered thoughts in place
And it takes all the strength I've got
To stumble to the coffee pot
The first of many lonely mornings I've got to face
You call to see if I'm ok
Look out the window and I just say*
With a groan he managed to stand up and make his way to the kitchen his back protesting loudly about the night on the lumpy couch.
The coffee wasn't made. Ryou had always been the first up. The first to turn the damned thing on. As much as he needed his morning shot of caffeine he just didn't get along with the coffee machine. Still it couldn't be that hard right? He opened the cupboard doors and a piece of paper fell out and landed on the counter in front of him. He didn't even have to pick it up to know it was Ryou's handwriting. The flowing writing was too much like that of a girl's to be anyone else's.
'Togi,
Change the filter. Three scoops of coffee into the new one. Fill the pot with water and then dump it in the back. It won't take long until it's ready. Filters are behind the coffee can.
Ry
He hugged the paper to his chest and sunk to the floor with a sob. He couldn't do this. He wasn't anything without the other. They had been together since they were 16. He didn't understand how it had happened. They loved each other. Two people couldn't just fall out of love one day. Could they? What good was life if they could? What was the use in loving someone if they were just going to leave you without warning?
He was broken out of his musings by the phone ringing.
'Let it ring' he thought. 'No one important would call me anyway.'
"You've reached Otogi and Ryou. Leave a message."
"'Togi? Pick up the phone. Please?"
He jumped to his feet and grabbed the phone. His breath seemed to leave him as he whispered the name. "Ryou?"
"I just...I was worried. You seemed so cold last night. It's just not like you. Are you okay?"
Was he okay? He had woken up to tears on his cheek and he seemed to remember thinking 'If it hurts this bad forever just let me die now.'
"The world keeps turning. I gotta get to work. I lo...I'll talk to you later Ry. Ryou."
"Togi..."
He hung the phone up gently and picked the letter up again.
*Last night I prayed the Lord my soul to keep
Then I cried myself to sleep
So sure life wouldn't go on without you
But oh this sun is blinding me
As it wakes me from the dark*
*I guess the world didn't stop
For my broken heart*
He made his way to the window watching cars drive by and mothers ushering their children out the door to school. His neighbors laughing could be heard from the hallway. Newlyweds who thought the days of sunshine and roses would last forever.
He hoped it would for them. Someone deserved to be happy at least.
He had a headache. Maybe he'd go take a painkiller or two. Or three. Or a handful. After all if the world didn't care about his suffering why should he care about it.
He stumbled his way to the bathroom unable to see through the tears in his eyes.
And the phone started ringing again.
*I guess the world ain't gonna stop
For my broken heart*
Of course the only reason I'm actually writing this series is because Kirstin and Sarah encouraged it. Blame them for making the bishies suffer so.
Pairings- Ryou/Otogi
One shot song fic
''- thoughts
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
So it had come down to this.
He wasn't surprised really. Ryou hadn't been happy for a while and while he blamed the winter weather for his mood as of late Otogi had known there was more to it. After all weather didn't make you flinch away every time your boyfriend tried to touch you. And it certainly didn't make you spend all hours of the night wandering around Ra knows where with Ra knows who.
But there was no use getting angry. It was over now. He was gone and this time he wasn't coming back.
~~There were no angry words at all
As we carried boxes down the hall
One by one we put them in your car
Nothing much for us to say
One last goodbye and you drove away
I watched your tail-lights
As they faded in the dark
I couldn't face the night in that lonely bed
So I laid down on the couch instead~~
He had helped his white haired angel pack everything he owned into the back of the white death-trap he considered a car. They didn't say a word to each other. What was the point? Nothing they said was going to change a thing.
Ryou slammed the back door of the car and turned around to face the darker man. He opened his mouth to say something then seemed to change his mind.
"It doesn't matter" Otogi said softly. "How many people stay with the person they loved in high school anyway? It's better this way. You know it as well as I do. So? What are you waiting for? Get out of here already."
Ryou had turned tear filled eyes up to him then threw himself forward knocking the dice player over as he hugged him.
"I'd fix it if I could. I didn't mean for it to happen. It just..."
"Just go" came the forced reply. 'Before I change my mind and beg you to stay again.'
Ryou nodded and wiped his eyes with his shirt sleeve before getting in the car and pulling away.
It seemed so final. Watching those tail lights fade into the distance. But of course it was final. The End, no more, show's over folks, goodbye and have a nice life.
Otogi hauled himself to his feet and walked up the apartment stairs slowly. He opened the door and started to head for the bedroom when a sudden thought flickered through his mind.
'If I don't go in there, if I don't sleep in the bed where we first... it won't be real as long as I don't go there.'
He curled up on the couch flicking on the small lamp sitting beside it and fell into his restless dreams.
*Last night I prayed the Lord my soul to keep
Then I cried myself to sleep
So sure life wouldn't go on without you
But oh this sun is blinding me
As it wakes me from the dark
I guess the world didn't stop
For my broken heart*
The damn light was too bright. Ryou always did have this annoying habit of getting up at the crack of dawn which never failed to annoy Otogi when he'd wake up to a cold bed and have to track down his lover before they could get anything productive done. Of course the bedding had to be washed after they were done but that was a small price to pay.
"Ry, baby turn the light out will you?"
Silence. Because Ryou was gone. He shook off the last traces of sleep wondering how he could have forgotten that fact. Maybe it was because for the last 6 years every morning he had woken his love had been there to greet him. Even when things had been at their worst, right before Ryou had left he had been there with a cup of coffee and a smile.
A false smile maybe but he could overlook that.
'Maybe I overlooked too many things.'
He laid there for a minute more before he heard his alarm clock go off playing an old Everclear song about someone who's lover had left him for another. What a way to start the first day of his single life.
*Clocks still tickin, life goes on
Radio still plays a song
As I try to put my scattered thoughts in place
And it takes all the strength I've got
To stumble to the coffee pot
The first of many lonely mornings I've got to face
You call to see if I'm ok
Look out the window and I just say*
With a groan he managed to stand up and make his way to the kitchen his back protesting loudly about the night on the lumpy couch.
The coffee wasn't made. Ryou had always been the first up. The first to turn the damned thing on. As much as he needed his morning shot of caffeine he just didn't get along with the coffee machine. Still it couldn't be that hard right? He opened the cupboard doors and a piece of paper fell out and landed on the counter in front of him. He didn't even have to pick it up to know it was Ryou's handwriting. The flowing writing was too much like that of a girl's to be anyone else's.
'Togi,
Change the filter. Three scoops of coffee into the new one. Fill the pot with water and then dump it in the back. It won't take long until it's ready. Filters are behind the coffee can.
Ry
He hugged the paper to his chest and sunk to the floor with a sob. He couldn't do this. He wasn't anything without the other. They had been together since they were 16. He didn't understand how it had happened. They loved each other. Two people couldn't just fall out of love one day. Could they? What good was life if they could? What was the use in loving someone if they were just going to leave you without warning?
He was broken out of his musings by the phone ringing.
'Let it ring' he thought. 'No one important would call me anyway.'
"You've reached Otogi and Ryou. Leave a message."
"'Togi? Pick up the phone. Please?"
He jumped to his feet and grabbed the phone. His breath seemed to leave him as he whispered the name. "Ryou?"
"I just...I was worried. You seemed so cold last night. It's just not like you. Are you okay?"
Was he okay? He had woken up to tears on his cheek and he seemed to remember thinking 'If it hurts this bad forever just let me die now.'
"The world keeps turning. I gotta get to work. I lo...I'll talk to you later Ry. Ryou."
"Togi..."
He hung the phone up gently and picked the letter up again.
*Last night I prayed the Lord my soul to keep
Then I cried myself to sleep
So sure life wouldn't go on without you
But oh this sun is blinding me
As it wakes me from the dark*
*I guess the world didn't stop
For my broken heart*
He made his way to the window watching cars drive by and mothers ushering their children out the door to school. His neighbors laughing could be heard from the hallway. Newlyweds who thought the days of sunshine and roses would last forever.
He hoped it would for them. Someone deserved to be happy at least.
He had a headache. Maybe he'd go take a painkiller or two. Or three. Or a handful. After all if the world didn't care about his suffering why should he care about it.
He stumbled his way to the bathroom unable to see through the tears in his eyes.
And the phone started ringing again.
*I guess the world ain't gonna stop
For my broken heart*