Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Abyss ❯ Chapter 1

Disclaimer: I still don't own Yu-Gi-Oh!.

*nervous* This fic was really easy to write, but I don't know how good it is. I think I made Otogi sound too much like Tenma.
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I can't believe that you're dead. I can't believe it. I close my eyes as the casket is opened, kneeling before you and feeling something wet slip out of my eyes. I don't try to wipe the tears away, don't try to stop my eyeliner from smearing. They run down my face like a salty stream, and I open my eyes slowly, feeling the sting of the tears and watching my vision blur.

You look lovely still, Pegasus. Lovely, just as you always did. Croquet is still in the room but I pay him no heed and lean over to kiss your cheek. It is cold and it feels dead, very dead. It still feels like your skin, but now it's inanimate, no different from a pillow. A decaying pillow.

My tears are gone, but my eyes feel heavy again as I caress your skin, skin that will never feel my touch again.

"Are you finished?" asks Croquet, and I say nothing, undoing my hair of its tight ponytail.

I don't want to leave you. I want to stay here with you, forever, Pegasus. I still love you, you know.

Your hair has been artfully placed over your left eye, but I gently lift it and tuck it behind your ear. I know that your eye is gone, koi. I know who took it, but you and I both know that it was not his fault. Croquet told me that your real murderor's name was Yuugi Motou.

I'll defeat him.

He's closing your casket now, Pegasus. Is it dark in there? You've coped with darkness before, but this must be the hardest for you. It's never been this dark before, has it? I'm coming back for you, you know. I'm resurrecting you. It's what you tried to do when your first love died, and it's what I'll do for you. It's the only way I can repay you for all you've done for me, Pegasus. A man like you deserves to live. A man like you doesn't deserve to die at the hands of a sadistic madman or be defeated in your own game by a runt like Yuugi.

Do you remember my game, Pegasus? The one you beat me at, but still liked? I'll play against Yuugi. I'll defeat him, for you. I'll get his Puzzle, and be one step closer to you.

Who am I kidding here? You're dead, you can't come back from the dead. I'm such an idiot! You're dead. You can't see my thoughts anymore. I'm talking to myself. Nice going, Otogi. Switch terms. He's dead. He. Not you. He. He's dead, he's gone, forget about him.

Oh, god. He's dead. Dead. And why? For what?

I'm going to kill this Yuugi! It's his fault Pegasus is dead. Yuugi's the one who's going to pay for this. Selflish bastard. He's probably a dirty little cheater, too. I hate him for doing this to you! I hate him.

I'm moving. I need to get away from this place. I don't care anymore. Why don't I just kill myself?

Because I need to defeat Yuugi. God damn it. I hate this place. I hate everything. That lady probably thinks I'm a bitch for glaring at her like that, but how can she know what I've just been through? She's never been through this kind of torture. I bet it's been all smiles, her whole life. Damn her.

I look like an idiot. My makeup's smeared.

Who cares anymore?

I need to close my eyes again. I need to forget this for a while.

No. I'll never forget Pegasus. Never.

But maybe if I shut my eyelids I'll wake up and find this has all been a dream.

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Nope. I'm awake. Damn it. WHY? I'm crying again, I think. I can't feel it. I can't feel anything.

There's only one thing I can live for now. I need to defeat Yuugi, I need to beat him when Pegasus could not.

Yuugi Motou ruined my life. I'm not going to let him get away without knowing that.