Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ All I Ever Wanted ❯ The Revenant of an Innocence ( Chapter 3 )

Chapter three: The Revenant of an Innocence

~ Ryou ~

As I began walking up the stair way to the Kaiba mansion (after disposing of a few guards), I had figured out how the Sennen Ringu worked. It doesn't reply on command, but of anger (and that explains why the other me is able to use all of its power). I was full of it.

With the Sennen Ringu, I was untouchable. I could feel not the pain that lurched in my heart, nor the sensation of blood trickling down my face (or of the pain from which the blood had formed), but of the pure hatred I felt oh `him'. The one that I had loved, the one that had used me and left me to die in the streets of Domino. Jonouchi Katsuya.

**I'm hurt,

Other me

I feel so empty

What has happened to me?

What have I become?**

Although, one emotion does still linger (besides anger). Confusion. Before I had access to the Ringu's powers, something had happened that I will not forget.

The other me had hugged me.

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~ Yami no Bakura/flashback ~

I could hear my light whimpering in his Kokoro. Little rain drops of sorrow fell from his eyes and I tried my best to wipe them away. Nothing made sense. Why would that fucking bastard do this to my light? My beautiful light who had done nothing to deserve such a fate as this.

"Shush, light, shush…"

It wasn't fair what Jounouchi had done to him. All Ryou had ever wanted was to be loved, but that love never came. His mother dying (as well as his sister), his father not giving a damn about him. Always at work. And I could never supply this love for him.

He deserved someone better. Not one that abused him and hated him for being so weak. But I had only done that to protect him (despite how it was killing me on the inside). No. I could never be able to forfill his needs. I am to dried of emotions.

**Why am I ignored?

I'm screaming,

Other me

Why,

Other me?

Why am I ignored?

When all I ever wanted was to be loved?**

I remember the pained expression of my light's face when Jounouchi had led him to the park. My light expecting a nice surprise. But that bastard had said something that I'll never forgive him for. "Bakura, you were fun, but I'm moving on. Goodbye." And had released the trigger of a gun…

I remember how he cried. His sweet, angelic-like face pained betrayal as he grasped his arm in his Kokoro and me coming out to kill him for that. As I beat him and beat, before I got to kill him, my light had pleaded: "No! Don't kill him…" and I allowed him to gain back control.

Why my light had let that bastard live is beyond me. My light, as I gaze upon your angel like face, I could see the pain of a thousand tears. I never wanted this to happen to you (despite all that I have done to you). My light, how hard is it to understand that all you ever wanted was to be loved?

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~ Ryou/back to normal ~

The more I thought of it, the more it sickened me. Why I had let Jounouchi live, I don't know. I was so innocent back them (even though my change only happened in a matter of hours). I swear, Jounouchi, `love', you shall pay for what you have done to me. Hell hath no fury, for betrayers, and revenge is always an added bonus.

My revenant.

**I'm hurt,

Other me

I feel so empty

What has happened to me?

What have I become?

I'm screaming,

Other me

Why?

Other me,

Why am I ignored?

When all I ever wanted,

Was to be loved?**

I could feel my hate crushing my love under a dark hole of where my heart should have been. Of where my love was to be. I couldn't feel it there anymore, I was empty.

As I held the same gun that had been used to execute me, I smiled. Little, innocent, Bakura Ryou…Timid, sweet, Bakura Ryou…Gay, psychotic, Bakura Ryou…Murderer.

I flung the door open and I could see Jounouchi in a corner. Kaiba was shouting something, but all was mute. All was quiet to me, and all I could hear was the sound of two gun shots, see Jounouchi flying backwards, and all I could feel was a jolt to Hell itself.

Kaiba had shot me after I had done the same to Jounouchi.

Everything was going dark. Surely I was being dragged into the depths of Hell, for there was no light. After all, isn't that where murders go? Those who have committed an act agent God and His creations? Should He be sent to Hell as well? To be so selfish, in making hundreds of people pledge their deity to Him? And he does nothing.

Bastard.

Out of the darkness, I saw light. Those few moments, I could hear a familiar voice say, "Ryou…" it was…The other me's voice…? "Ryou…Oh Gods, Ryou…"

"Other me…?"

"Yes, my light," I could feel warm lips brush agenst my own, and hot tears fall on my frozen skin, "my light-Ryou…I love you…"

"Thank you, other me…Even if you don't mean it…"

"But I do, I'm so sorry for everything…"

"Thank you, other me…This was all I ever wanted…"

**Dawn goes to night

Feeling wrong

Love all gone

You cry

And you weep

But he's still gone

Love for him

Was so strong

You finally said it

And he loved you too

Dawn goes to night

Feeling wrong

Your love all gone

As you fade away

You smile at what he had said

"All I ever wanted"

Both, dead

But your love still alive

Shining bright

"All I ever wanted"**

~ The End ~