Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Anything For You ❯ One Little Star ( Chapter 22 )

Mystical Dragon: Yeah..he's digging a biiiiiiiiiiiiiiig hole

Ryou's Misstress: I'm sorry. I didn't mean to get too angsty.

Gralnak: Ryou's just lost…he'll be ok

Lupusdragon: Well, I want no one to burst from reading my story…unless it's from anticipation.

Heather: It's ok. I try to give ample warning when I can't update. I try to update even if I can't see to fit it in everyday.

Dragondreamer: Do I want a week of now sleep?? Come on, we both know that's already prophesied.

AMT: Sure…I already decided Ryan's fate…MWAHAHAHAHA…

Shade A: Sure you can…what's left of them…I guarantee it won't be much..even between the three of them. Actually, Ryou forgot his medication. He's been giving Aten the old medication he went to get replaced. It's all they got. Ryou is only taking them sparingly.

Angel Black: These cliffies aren't too hard to come up with…though not all good stories have good cliffies…

I do not own "One Little Star" by Sesame Street. Ok..go ahead..laugh at me, but it is a really nice song. It was my favorite song as a kid. Why do I have a feeling you guys are gonna laugh at me? So do me a favor…laugh at me, listen to the song, and see if you can laugh at me.

One Little Star

Steven closed the door to Ryou's room in the basement and locked it. Once in the room, Ryou turned on the light in the dark room. Aten ran for his tattered rabbit and his Change of Heart plushie that he tucked under the covers on the little cot. He hugged them both tightly.

Aten hugged the bunny and ran to Ryou watching him. "Does the bunny wook better, momy? Does he wook sick anymore? I put him to sweep before we weft."

Aten cuddled the tiny bunny and Ryou sat on the bed quietly. Aten scratched his head and skipped over to Ryou.

"Mommy? Does my wabbit wook better?"

Ryou looked down at Aten.

****Ryou's POV*****

It was almost like looking through a tunnel when I watched Aten standing by my legs, his hand on my kneecap. He was cuddling that tattered old rabbit in his right arm. What fascination could that tattered old rabbit offer him? Well, I guess I can't complain. It is a toy and Aten's always loved stuffed animals.

He gripped my knee and suddenly I felt the urge to run to the door and claw at it. I wanted to break it down! I tensed and it was certain that Aten felt myself become rigid.

I had nothing to fear from Aten. He's my child! So why, when he gripped my leg did I want to scream and run? Why did I want to hide?

These feelings are nothing new to me. Bakura used to do the same things to me that Tim and Jessica did. Bakura used to tie me down and take me….just as roughly as they did. Now that the thought hits me, I'm amazed how I have fallen in love with the exact person who used to do this to me.

I used to hate him, now I love him.

I used to wish he would leave, now I want him to find me.

I used to feel disgusted everytime he rubbed up against me, touched me, kissed me, and when I took his beatings with horrified silence.

Now I look through our tiny window and see the night sky and a few stars. Please bring Bakura back to me…..Please….

"Mommy?" Aten pulled on my leg again and I looked at my boy.

His little body stood there pressed up against me desperately tugging at my pants. I looked down and smiled at him. He was the reason I did that. I offered myself to keep my chibi safe. When I looked at him, his brown eyes lit up and for a moment, he looked like Malik….happy and cheerful. He has no idea what I just saved him from…..and he will never know. He smiled at me and I couldn't help but smile back knowing that despite this entire situation, he remained cheerful and playful as ever.

I reached down and brought him onto my lap. I looked at him as he sat giggling on my lap. As I stared at him…probably almost vacantly, I was reminded of what I was fighting for. His survival depended on me. Speaking of survival….I forgot to give him his heart medication.

I reached into the bag under the bed and brought out a pill. There was nothing for him to drink to swallow it. I wasn't about to give Aten some wine to wash down his medication. That would be completely irresponsible of me…not to mention very stupid. I gave him the medicine, though I wish he had something to drink. I considered making another cut on my arm so he could drink, but Aten wouldn't like that. Surprisingly, he swallowed the pill without problem before I asked him if he could use something to help him swallow the pill.

I cradled him close to me and buried my face in his soft, white and blonde hair. He needed a bath, but I wasn't going to ask my dad if I could give him a bath. Tim and Jessica would probably take Aten into the bathroom without me. It didn't take much though to summarize what they could do to him. Aten smiled and gripped onto me tightly. My boy closed his eyes in contentment.

Without even knowing it, I began to rock him. Funny. Who needed the rocking more? Him or me? He seemed completely happy…as long as I was around. As long as he had me, there was nothing that bothered him. Separated from me, Aten became quiet and withdrawn. I think I needed the rocking more. My body needed the security of cuddling my baby boy. To know he was there was all I seemed to need.

I didn't think I could smile considering the circumstances. I kissed Aten's hair and he looked up at me. A single tear fell down his face. I wiped it away trying to keep the bravest face I could.

"Sweetheart, don't cry. Daddy will come for us."

He reached up and brushed away my tear. "Mommy, you are cwying. Not me."

My cheeks felt hot and it was my realization that he was right. I was crying. Not him.

I pressed his head close to me and I sniffed. I held onto him and pulled back the covers on the bed.

"Time to get ready for bed, sweetheart."

Aten removed his shirt and his shoes and socks. I brushed his hair and he laid in bed.

I removed my shirt and also my socks and shoes.

I cuddled him close to me and looked out the window. A single star

Shone in the sky. Aten curled up beside me and looked up at me.

"Mommy, can you sing me a wuwwaby?"

I looked up at that star thinking about Bakura. I brushed my fingers across his cheek.

One little star, all alone in the sky
Do you ever get lonely as the twilight drifts by?

[Ra, how I miss Bakura. All I have is Aten by my side. But I know that Bakura must be looking for me. I wonder what he is doing.]

One little star, in the darkening blue
Do you long for another just the way that I do?

[Bakura….come back to me…please….wherever you are. If Bakura was here, I would feel his gentle kiss and feel his hand run along my chest and my neck. To feel his warm breath brush across my skin…..I love you, Bakura.]

Sky begins to fill; darkness ends the day
Someone who I love is far away.

[Aten fell asleep quickly beside me. Aten always fell asleep quickly. I carefully left the bed still singing to Aten. But I was also singing to the night. Bring Bakura…to me. Bakura is far away from me and I don't know where he may be, but he will always have my heart, and my love no matter where he is.]

One little star, reaching far through the night
Do you shine on my someone? Are we sharing your light?
Oh, one little star, shine on us both tonight.

[I wonder if Bakura is looking at this star with me. I wonder what is he doing right now. Is he looking for me or is that just a fantasy of mine? Did he give up his search for me and Aten? Is he living with Marik and Malik now…happy that I am gone? He fathered my daughter and now is he done with me? Is he happy? Is he sad? What is he thinking or feeling?]

One little star
Reaching far through the night
Would you shine on my someone
So we're sharing your light?

[Let that star guide Bakura to me. Take me away…help him to find me.]

[I raised my hand to the window hoping I could touch that star for a moment and feel the air on my skin. For a moment of freedom…I would have given anything.]

Oh, one little star, shine on us all tonight.

Finally, when the lullabye was done, I turned back to Aten cuddling his Change of Heart plushie in his sleep sucking on his thumb. I smiled and returned to him. I slipped into bed beside my child and kissed his forehead. Aten cuddled closer to me and I sighed. Aten could fall asleep in bliss…without the knowledge of what his bliss had cost me.

Next Chappie: Bakura and Marik reach Ryan's house…..how graphic do you want this to be, guys? (I'm not saying who dies, though.)