Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Apart Of You ❯ Lost ( Chapter 1 )

A/N: OKAY! This is the trilogy to the B/R ficcies! I may make a fourth...heh ANYWAYS...DRB!!
DRB: y-ye-yes?
Tell them the twist we did.
DRB: OH YES! Well we were thinking on the story and stuff then we got this idea...
Get on with it!!
DRB: okay okay..We decided to do a threesome thingy? A triangle and stuff...there will be a bit of limeish stuff but nothing to bad...
Not until the fourth thing we write if we decide to write it we may just keep it a trilogy
DRB: yeah but anyways i bet your wondering the pairing.
Yeah, wouldn't you like to know :p

DRB: it's pretty obvious if you know how i write but anyways you'll soon find out.
Oki now anyways..
Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh in anyway shape or form nor do I own its characters (damn) I know..I want to own them too...
Warnings: Limeish stuff, fluffy and sap as usual, some abusage..(Not much), self mutilation (just a lil bit as well.) and that's about it.
DRB: just so you know I wrote the limeish part but as i said there are twists so nyah!

Okay, here's the key ~~~ = Bakura's POV (there will be hardly any) *~*~*~*~* = Ryou's POV and ~*~*~*~*~*~ = the mysterious character for now until i reveal her ident and ~^~^~^~^~^~ = third person POV.. // Blagh// = Bakura to Ryou /blagh/ = Ryou to Bakura 'blagh' = thoughts "blagh" = speach and *blagh* = may mean a song or deep topic thoughts that the charaters are thinking. Now, ON WITH THE FICCIE!@)*@$

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It has been a few months now, my yami and me have been going out since then. The beatings have stopped mostly. Occasionally a slap or two, but that's just when he's frustrated. I know he doesn't mean it. He still has a lot to learn about this 'love' thing but I know he tries his hardest and that's all I want is for him to try.

Schools out and I'm walking home from school with the group but I'm not paying much attention to the group, I'm too busy thinking about my yami...So sue me, cant a guy think on his boyfriend/girlfriend (if they have one?) well, screw you then (oh my...I'm starting to become more like my yami...) anyways I'm walking along with the group hardly paying attention and i notice one of them is trailing behind, not much into the conversation as they usually are. It makes me wonder, but i shrug it off and keep walking going back to my thoughts.

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I'm walking home with the group, but I don't feel like talking or getting into the conversation at the moment, I know that everyone thinks of me as the happy sunshine girl everyone thinks I am. I'm not really; I only act that way to hide the truth.

The truth is I'm not always happy, I'm not always a goody goody person, my family died when I was young, I live by myself. No one with me I live my life alone in sorrow and shame and loneliness. It's not fair but life is never fair now is it?

I break off from the group and trail behind a bit the only other person who does that is Ryou. I've noticed he's been happier and has no more bruises and scars on him and he always has a smile on now and looks spacey a lot. I wonder what he did to make his yami stop beating him. I guess I'll never find out.

Everyone starts breaking off to go their own separate ways at the corner but Ryou and me. We live only a few blocks away from each other so it's not that bad. But we hardly talk now, we seem so distant.

I know id never admit it to him or anyone else but I've always had a crush on him. I know what your thinking. 'How could anyone like a kid like him?' I'll tell you one thing. It's easy to like him even love him. He's innocent and pure like Yugi but he's shy and quiet so it also makes it easy to like and love him. He doesn't open up to hardly anyone outside our group but lately he's been keeping to himself and always spacing out. I wonder what he's thinking about all the time. But I know that he wouldn't be thinking about me no, I'm just the friendship girl who preaches about friendship and love and caring. No one really sees the real me at all.

I come to my house and look at Ryou and say a goodbye though I doubt he hears me. I walk up to my front door and around the corner I hear him say Bye it makes me sigh deeply. He'll never know how I feel and never the less return my feelings. I go inside and up the stairs to my room and flop down on my bed and cry. Trying to get all my feelings out I just lay there and cry until I fall asleep from it all.

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Now its just me walking, as I rounded the corner to my house i felt happier and happier, then I thought back to Tea, how sad she looked when she said goodbye, she sounded different, not her normal self. It concerned me for a moment but it left my mind the moment I got into the house.

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As soon as Ryou walked in the house and shut the door he was tackled to the ground by his yami who sat on top of him and started tickling him non stop with Ryou laughing till he couldn't breathe "Yami stop, stop, STOP!" He said while laughing and trying to catch his breath. "But whyyy?" His yami whined. "Do you want me to live to see another day?" Ryou asked his yami and his yami nodded. "That's why." was all he replied as he tried to push his yami off but Bakura wouldn't budge all he did was grin insanely.

"Um, yami? What are you doing?" Ryou asked wondering why his yami wouldn't get off. "This." Was all his yami said before he leaned down and kissed him then get got off and helped Ryou up and Ryou went upstairs to do his homework while Bakura went back into the ring while Ryou worked.

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I woke up around 7 O'clock and went down stairs and got a little bit to eat then went back up stairs and did my work but I couldn't concentrate. All I could think about was Ryou. 'GAHH! Why cant I get you out of my mind?!?' I screamed mentally. We hardly talked but he would be amazed at the number he did to me.

'When did I start loving him?' I wondered in my mind. Then I started thinking back to when we first met him...It was at school of course he was very shy and often picked on. I didn't pay any attention then. But when we got to duelist kingdom and got trapped by his yami in the cards. He was going to sacrifice himself for us..It was so nice of him to think of us instead of himself. Then when we got back from duelist kingdom and went back to school he went back to the same quiet Ryou that he always was. Then when battle city came he was looking forwards to it...But I think i began loving him on duelist kingdom...

I sighed and started thinking of his yami. 'His yami's….so cold, dark and mysterious..We hardly know anything about him..Just like Kaiba at one time...' True Kaiba had been co distant and cold to us but he started opening up during and after battle city because of Mokuba, if it weren't for him, Kaiba would still be cold and mean. But Bakura..Ryous yami was totally different...He was exactly like Ryou, but different in many ways. He tricked us into thinking he was Ryou so many times, but I can now decipher which is which, but at a difficulty. Although I haven't seen him for a while He must've changed because we no longer see bruises or scratches on him so Ryou must've done something to make him change...

*To love one is to love the other. There is no one or the other. There is no choice they are one in the same whether they are different*

as I thought this it became more true and clear. I didn't want to admit it but I've always loved them both it seemed..I can't choose one or the other because they are the same one way or another.

I sigh and feel tears in my eyes as I thought about it...The more I thought about it the more I realized I couldn't have them. Besides, What could they possibly see in me? I'm just the cheerleader to the pharaoh as Ryou's yami says..Ryou? well..I have no clue but I know he couldn't possibly feel anything for me; he never expressed anything about wanting a girlfriend..Or a boyfriend for that matter...

My eye catches on my candle that I had lit when I had come home. I grabbed it and looked at it, entranced by the flame and the deep ember color burning in the center of it. I slashed my finger through it a few time then I held my hand above it a foot or two, feeling the heat off of it I lowered my hand down a few inches to the flame.

It was incredible. The feeling, it felt hot yet it send a wave of adrenaline through my body, it coursed though my veins and body making me feel pleasure. I lowered my hand right over the flame and screamed out.

It burned, Oh it burned. But the adrenaline that rushed through me drowned out most of the pain. I pulled my hand away reluctantly and looked at my red puckered and blistered hand. I went to the bathroom and ran it under cold water, my heart racing and the adrenaline still running through me. I put petroleum jelly on my hand and wrapped it, not putting it on tight yet not to loose. I went back out to my room and then my eyes caught sight of the letter opener on my desk.

I got a massive grin on my face and grabbed it. My eyes entranced again by the look of it. It was so shiny and sharp. I ran my fingers along the blade slowly and carefully. Then I slashed my arms and screamed again, and I watched the blood spurt out of the cuts. I didn't care. I slashed my legs and watched still as the blood ran. My head started spinning, my breath was coming in jagged and hard. I couldn't think straight and my vision was getting hazy. Soon I fell into a blackened sleep.

A/N: Well...there's chap one for you. Sorry but i cant write all of it at once but I will write more tomorrow or continue on right now as chappie two so heh we'll see review thingy comments or flames welcome so nyah I'm not review hungry i accept anything ^^ so there!