Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Carry Me Home ❯ Submissive Love ( Chapter 8 )
WARNING: SETO / JOEY LIME.
Submissive Love
Joey's POV
I stood in front of Kaiba completely speechless and stunned. He…He loves me? Me? Why? I'm not supposed to be loved. I'm daddy's little whore! Daddy's fuck-toy since I've been seven years old! Why does Mr. Mightier-Than-Thou love me?
"What did you say, Kaiba?"
Maybe I heard him wrong.
"I said 'Because I love you, you ass.' That is why I don't want you to hurt yourself. Joey, this shit can kill you!"
I hung my head and sighed. "When?"
Seto sat beside me. "What do you mean 'when'? Are you telling me you want to die from this? Why don't you want to live, Joey?"
He wouldn't care. Seto must not know about my father! I can't tell him! He wouldn't understand.
"I just…I just don't know anymore."
Seto turned to me and put his hand on my thigh. "Joey," Seto sounds serious. "Joey, I don't want you to die. I want…I want you to care enough about yourself to want to live."
Seto sounded like he was talking to Ryou. He sounded sincere.
"Why?"
"Because, Joey, I….I want you to….Damn! This shouldn't be this hard! Joey, I want you to…stay here and live with me. I want to help you overcome your alcohol addiction."
He wants to help me?
"When did you start….loving me?"
Seto shrugged. "That day I found you admiring me in English class."
"I dropped my pencil…that's all. I'm a klutz."
Seto laughed. "Joey, subtlety is not your strong suit. I could tell you were checking me out. I know I've been watching you, but I'm much more subtle."
I found myself blushing. I should have known Mr. A+ would be too smart for that.
"Don't you…love Ryou?"
"Ryou means a lot to me. He always has meant a lot to me. But, I'm not meant to be with Ryou."
"Did you ever sleep with him?"
Seto shook his head. "No. Gods, I wanted to, though. I've thought about it. But, if I slept with Ryou, it would ruin our friendship and I can't do that to him. I wish I could help you understand. I came very close tonight."
I lowered my head and wrung my hands nervously. "I have been watching you, Seto. I..I do…love you."
'Love.' What does that mean? Daddy always taught me that love is only good if it involves games of submission and domination. I was always taught to submit. I was saying 'love' as if I didn't know what it meant. Seto and I can love each other. He can dominate me anytime. I won't mind. If love is domination, I want Seto to love me until it hurts.
"Do you want me to help you, Joey? I want to help you with your drinking problem."
Do I really want help? I start my day with gin and end my day with Jack. That's been my life since I was twelve.
"I'm not sure if you can help me, Seto. I've been drinking since I was twelve."
"Joey, I can only help you if you want to be helped. I'm willing to stand by you and do what it takes. But, you have to make the first step."
I looked down. Do I really want to be helped? I've been a slave to this stuff for three years. It's cost me money and I'm sick of forgetting entire days because I'm drunk off my ass.
"Well….okay, Seto. I guess so."
Seto took my hand. "You have to be certain about this, Joey. Do you want to quit?"
I nodded. "Yes, I do."
Seto took the Jack Daniels bottle and lead me to the bathroom by the hand. He handed the bottle to me. "You have to make this decision, Joey."
I unscrewed the lid and looked at the liquid in the bottle. I want to do this for Kaiba. He wants me to quit. He loves me. If I do this for him, he'll love me even more.
I poured the liquid down the drain and watched it. Goodbye, old' friend Jack.
I threw the bottle away and Seto hugged me.
"I'm proud of you, pup."
I wish I could be proud of myself.
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I laid in bed late that night. I haven't had a drink yet. I usually drink half of a bottle of Jack before bed. I haven't had that tonight.
My hands are shaking. My head is killing me. Is it hot in here or is it just me? I open the window by the balcony connected to my room. Maybe this will help. I return to my bed. I can't sleep.
I saw a shadow run across the room. That's it! I've cracked!
I saw the door to the bathroom open on its own! I'm the only one here! Who else could be here?
My father walked out of the bathroom naked! How….How could he be here? He's at home! He doesn't even know I am here!
My father walked over to the bed and held the vibrator proudly in his hand. "Time for a little game, son. You know how it goes, right?"
I rolled out of bed and backed away from the bed. "Go away, father! Go away!"
My father walked up to me and raised his hand to me. "What have I told you about denying me what I want?!"
I gathered up my strength and punched my father in the gut. My father shattered into hundreds of pieces.
I looked down and saw my hand covered in blood. I had punched the glass in the balcony window and broke it. My fist went right through the glass.
Damn, that hurts! I went to my bathroom and wrapped my hand up. That's it! I can't take it anymore! I need a drink!
There has to be some booze around here somewhere. I could kick myself in the nuts for dumping that bottle of Jack down the sink! What the hell was I thinking?
Where's the one place that would have booze? The kitchen! Surely, Kaiba likes his food marinated in wine. Rich people like that stuff, don't they?
I ran to the kitchen and found a bottle of wine that the cook used!
Finally!
I guzzled the bottle quickly. My headache went away and my shaking subsided. Oh yeah…..that's the stuff.
My eyelids started to feel heavy. I took the bottle back to my room.
You know, I never paid Kaiba for bringing me in here. I should pay him. Joey Wheeler always pays his debts.
Kaiba's been so nice to me. I should pay him. Maybe he'll love me back.
But, he can't find out I've been drinking. He'll get angry at me.
I wonder what a vicious lover Kaiba is. The bigger, the better. The harsher, the better.
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I found Kaiba in his room. He was laying on his back. The moonlight hit him in such a way that it illuminated his body under the sheets. I could tell every contour of his body.
Lucky me….Kaiba sleeps naked.
Oh goodie!
More fun for Joey.
I crept to his bed and stripped. Kaiba continued to sleep, ignorant of my presence.
I'll pay you for your generosity, Kaiba. I'll give you what you want.
I crawled under his sheets and Kaiba turned his head, his eyes still closed.
I leaned down and kissed him on his lips. He moaned into the kiss. His fingers crawled into my hair.
Seto opened his blue eyes and he gasped. "Joey? Joey, what are you doing?" He lifted the sheets. "Let me rephrase my question. What are you doing here completely naked?"
I straddled his waist and I grabbed his manhood, stroking him. "I'm giving you what you want."
"What?"
"I'm here to make you feel good, Seto."
I continued to stroke him, his fists gripping onto the sheets. Oh yeah! Just what I was hoping for.
I became an expert at this quite early in life. Seto doesn't seem to be able to resist my busy, busy hand.
"Joey…gods…you don't have to do this."
"But, I have to do this for you."
Seto shook his head as his body started shifting uncomfortably. "No, you don't….Joey….stop."
"I'm going to pay you for being so nice to me, Kaiba."
Seto clenched his eyes shut.
***Seto's flashback***
Normal POV
Behind his closed eyes, a woman was sitting over him, naked. She was leaning over him, kissing him. Her bare breasts brushing against his chest. The woman leaned over him and whispered in his ear, 'I'm going to pay you for being so nice to me, Kaiba.' Kaiba told the woman he was gay, but she had insisted on following her own plans as she drove herself onto his arousal.
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Joey's POV
"Get off of me…please," Seto almost sobbed.
Kaiba…crying? Now there's something you never see! Why is he crying?
"I'll make sure you enjoy it, Kaiba. Don't worry."
Seto's eyes opened and he grabbed my shoulders. Before I knew it, I was on my back and he was straddling my waist seething.
Oh…crap! What did I just do?
Seto narrowed his eyes. "Joey, when I say 'Get off' it means 'Get off'!"
"I just wanted to pay you, Seto!"
Seto released me. "Pay me? For what?"
"For letting me stay here. I figured since you love me, I should pay you back for how nice you're being to me."
"Joey, you don't need to pay me for anything. Love isn't about payment."
What the hell is he talking about? Love is nothing but payment!
"I want to take care of you, Joey, because I love you."
"Aren't you going to put a beating on me?"
Seto shook his head and raised an eyebrow. "Now why would I want to do that?"
He must not love me. If he doesn't beat me up, he doesn't love me. I bet I can make him, though. He got pretty upset when I refused to move off of him.
I reached for Seto and began stroking him again. Seto moaned and shifted himself back a little. "Come on, Kaiba. I know you want me."
Seto rolled off of me and laid beside me, facing away from me. Perfect opportunity.
"Joey, you should go back into your room. You need some sleep."
A grin crossed my face. I'm not going back to my room until you prove that you love me, Seto!
I started rubbing Seto's hip. "I promise you will enjoy it, Seto."
Seto shuddered again. What is with him tonight? I can help him relax…the only way I know how.
I took my finger and I slipped it into Kaiba. If there was anything that would piss him off, this will!
Seto's body tensed and he started trying to slap my hand away. "Get out of me! Gozub-Stop Now!"
Seto elbowed me in the ribs. Damn, that hurt! Seto turned around. His eyes looked glazed over, like he wasn't even seeing me.
"I told you before to stay out of me, you freak!"
Freak? Is this my Seto?
"I told you to keep your hands off of me and Mokuba!"
Before I knew it, the familiar sting of a slap in the face knocked me off of the bed.
I rubbed my cheek, burning hot and red from the force.
Seto shook his head and came over to my side. "Joey! Joey, I'm so sorry! I don't know what came over me!"
I shook my head. I got what I wanted. I know Seto loves me.
"It's okay, Seto. I was out of line. I apologize."
Seto helped me off of the floor. "Go to bed, puppy. You're tired and tomorrow will be a long day for you. I'm so sorry I hurt you!"
"Don't worry about it, Seto. Goodnight."
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Seto's POV
I watched Joey leave and I crawled back into bed. Why did I react like that? I should be over this by now!
I crawled back into bed, the feeling of Joey's intrusion still flooding my body. What he did was wrong, but I enjoyed it. I hated it and I enjoyed it at the same time.
I killed Gozuboro five years ago! Five years that freak has been dead! So, why does his memory continue to haunt me?
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Joey's POV
I returned to my bedroom and slipped under my sheets. Seto slapped me because I pushed him.
I rubbed my red cheek, still hot from the slap. He hurt me. He loves me. Now I know for sure.
He truly does love me.