Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Carry Me Home ❯ How Do You Love? ( Chapter 12 )

How Do You Love?

Joey's POV

The tremors the next morning were not as bad. I tell you that the sweats are a pain in the ass, though. I woke up in the morning with soaked sheets. I hate sweating in bed. At least everyday we have clean sheets.

Monique has become used to me by now. She calls me by my first name and everything! Mokuba ran through the door and threw himself onto the bed! He didn't seem to mind the fact that Seto and I were cuddled up bare-ass naked together. Later, Seto told me that when he was worried about Ryou and Ryou spent the night in Seto's bed. Seto assured me nothing sexual happened between them. Ryou and Seto would often crawl in bed naked together to cuddle after one of Bakura's bad temper tantrums. Seto would hold Ryou all night, sighing with content, feeling warm skin pressed against his body. It was nothing new to see Seto cuddled up with another naked man.

Seto always insisted nothing happened between them. When Mokuba was done, we went into the Dining Hall and ate breakfast.

"Seto, can I take some spare change? I want to do some shopping today."

Seto shrugged. "Why not? You're not going to buy booze with it, are you? If I find you with a bottle in your room tomorrow, Joey, I won't be happy at all."

I shook my head. "No, Seto. I promise you will not find a bottle in my hand when I come home."

"You can't break this promise, Joey!"

"I won't come home loaded, I promise!"

Seto tossed some money into my pocket before school. We showered, dressed, and got ready for school.

Today, instead of dropping me off a block away from the school, the limousine pulled right up to the school.

Seto took my hand. "Puppy, I don't care what anyone says. If people can't accept us, screw them! If the world can't accept us, screw the world! It's you and me, Joey."

I smiled and nodded. He was right. For some reason, I felt the same way. If others couldn't accept us, they had no business in our lives. They were not important.

I know my father would never accept us. So, I didn't need him in my life. Seto was my life now. He was all I needed in my life.

He is all I wanted.

"I'll be home before dinner, Seto. I just want to go get us a little something."

Seto raised an eyebrow. "What is going on in that brain of yours, Joey?"

"I just…I wanted to get us something special for when we make love."

Seto narrowed his eyes. "What did you have in mind?"

I grinned. "You'll see, Seto. I know you won't be disappointed."

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When school was done, I found Ryou at his locker. His bruises seemed to have cleared up. I did realize that as the day went on, Ryou's limp became worse. By the end of school, he could hardly walk.

I walked up to him. "Ryou?"

Ryou jumped back, a look of horror on his face. "Joey! Don't scare me like that!"

"Sorry, Ryou. I just came to see if you need me to help you get home. You look sore."

Ryou looked around. "Where's Seto? Aren't you with him?"

I nodded. "Yeah, but if you need help, Ryou, Seto would be proud of me for helping you when you needed it."

Ryou smiled. He gave me his Music Book and his History book.

I walked Ryou to his home.

"My father called me last night," Ryou said with a smile. "I haven't heard from him in forever! He said he found a really interesting tomb."

I walked beside Ryou and sighed as the warm air hit us as we left the school.

"How do you like living at KaibaCorp?"

I shrugged. "I like it. It's better than home. It beats the hell out of living on the street. Hot food. Hot showers. Warm bed."

Ryou nodded as he stopped and pulled an apple out of his school bag. He bit into it and wiped his chin. "I would imagine, Joey. I was worried about you when you were in that alley."

"You didn't have to be, Ryou."

"How could I not? You're my friend, Joey."

I turned to Ryou as we stopped at a corner waiting for a green light. "As a friend, Ryou, I need to you be honest with me. How do you feel about Kaiba?"

Ryou bit into his apple. "How do I feel about Kaiba? Well, Joey….I…umm…Kaiba is very special to me. He's always been there for me."

"Did you ever sleep with him?"

Ryou shook his head. "No. We kissed, but…..Joey? Are you jealous?"

The light turned green and we crossed the street. "No…Yes…I mean….I don't know. Seto is important to me. I love Seto, but I would never sleep with him."

"How do you love him?"

Maybe Ryou can help me understand what type of love Seto needs. Does he like rough love? I guess not, since he wanted tender love last night. Maybe Ryou knows what love is.

"How do I love him? I just love being with him. I love it when he holds me and strokes my hair. Just being with him makes me feel comfortable and safe. When Seto is away on his business trips, I miss him terribly. But, Seto and I have always been and will always be like that with each other."

I don't get this!

"You love him and yet you don't sleep with him? If you loved him, you would have sex with him!"

Ryou shook his head. "Not necessarily, Joey. I can still love Seto without sleeping with him. I'm happy with cuddling into him and having him hold me. If we ever slept together, it could ruin what we have. Sex is not the only part of love, Joey. Sex is secondary. Sex is one way to show someone you love them. Seto is there for me when I need him to hold me. He's someone I can talk to when Bakura hurts me. Seto makes me feel special, wanted. My father isn't home and my mother died when I was two years old, so who am I going to talk to?"

We arrived at Ryou's house and he smiled at me.

"Do you love Seto, Joey?"

I bit my lip for a second and sighed. "Yes, I do."

Ryou gripped my shoulder reassuringly. "I know he loves you, Joey. Good night, Joey."

Ryou ran into his house and I stayed motionless. As I walked towards the row of stores by Ryou's home, I thought about what he said.

I do love Seto. I want to be there for him. I want him to hug me and do all that kind of romantic crap. But, how can sex be secondary? My father always told me it's not love unless my partner is pounding me into the mattress with a ball-gag in my mouth. That's all I know.

Well, I want to show Kaiba how much I love him. I opened the door to a shop I knew pretty well. Intimate Pleasures had everything I needed.

I looked at the variety of vibrators. They came in many shapes, sizes, and colors. I had a pink one at home. Maybe I should get a different colored one. That way, I'd feel that I wasn't with my father. I'd be more relaxed. I grabbed a purple one that was medium-sized. It had three settings for its vibration function. My father always taught me an important lesson: No vibrator is complete without a cock ring.

I picked up a leather cock ring with blue fake jewels on it. They matched his eyes. Gods, that would be so hot! My Seto's eyes matching the beautiful jewels of the cock ring surrounding his throbbing length.

Shivers ran up my spine. I had to get this! I'd be betraying my hard-learned lessons if I didn't get the cock ring to match my lover's eyes.

I walked to the corner where I found BDSM stuff. I saw a whip made from braided leather hanging on the wall.

That could be fun. That looks painful. Pain is good. I guess I can do that.

I also found a really nice leather collar.

The next time Seto and I would make love, we will really be making love. Making true love.

Hmm…Seto's lubricant was almost gone when I used it last night. Maybe I should get us some more. Let's see…Strawberry….Kiwi….Raspberry….Vanilla…oh look! Blackberry! There's something new you don't see every day!

Sold!

I bought my stuff and I felt a warm breath down my neck.

"Hello….son."

I turned and saw my father standing behind me with a grin.

"Daddy!"

"Where have you been, boy?" my father asked me, grabbing my arm.

"You are going to come home with me, boy!"

My father put a new dildo on the countertop.

My face turned pale and covered with sweat. "No….dad…I'm not going home with you."

"Nonsense!" My father threw money at the girl and told her to keep the change!

My father pulled me out of the store. "You're coming home with me this instant, Joseph Wheeler!"

My body walked beside him compliantly, but my mind continued to struggle.

My father took me into the alley which I called home for one year. He pressed me against the brick of the alley and his lips pressed against my own. His body was so large, I couldn't push him away!

My father's hands went up my shirt. "Gods, I miss tasting you, boy…..I miss your sweet kisses…your touch."

I dropped my bag of toys in shock.

"What do you say, boy? Maybe we can try this new dildo out tonight? Would my little boy like to play with daddy's new toy?"

I closed my eyes tightly, trying to muster the courage for what I was about to do. This always made my father beat me to a bloody pulp, but, if I want to see Seto again, I have to do this!

"I'm not going home with you!"

I bent my leg, but my father knew what was coming. He moved out of the way! No way!

My father brought me into a headlock and I grabbed onto him tightly. I turned and slammed him against the brick of the building. My father squeezed harder around my neck. His powerful hands reached into the bag and grabbed the collar. He slammed my body against the brick. I tried to cry out, but my screams were muffled by his powerful arms.

He took the collar and buckled it around my neck, despite my struggling. I'm still too thin to fight against him! I haven't been able to gain weight at Kaiba's quick enough.

My father buckled the collar around my neck and I whimpered in defeat. Tears streamed down my face.

"This belongs on you, Joseph! You belong to me again!"

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Normal POV

Seto stood looking out over the city from his office. He sighed and bit his lip.

Joey wasn't home yet. It was not like Joey to be late for supper. He ordered the cook to stay late again. Mokuba walked slowly into the room.

"Joey's not in his room, big brother. I also checked in the library and the study." Mokuba stood by Seto's side.

Seto heard the chibi sniffle and start to cry quietly. "What if Joey never comes home? What if he left us?"

Seto put his hand on Mokuba's shoulder. "Joey hasn't left us. I don't know where he is. Did you finish eating?"

Mokuba nodded. "I couldn't eat much, though. I'm so worried about Joey!"

Seto sighed sadly. His eyes filled with tears quickly. "Mokuba, go get your bath. Joey will be just fine."

Mokuba left the room slowly. Seto went to his desk and called Donny.

Donny entered the room. "Yes, Mr. Kaiba."

"Donny, I want you to….." Seto turned away and wiped a renegade tear that had fallen from his eyes. "Donny, I want you to take the boys and go looking for Joey. Check every bar and every alley in the city."

"Yes, sir."

"Also, get the car ready. You and I are going to the alley on 42nd and Logan streets. That's Joey's alley. Tell Jacob to come with us. I will be down in twenty minutes. I have some…..paperwork to finish."

Donny nodded. "Armed, sir?"

Seto nodded. "Yes. Tell Jacob to bring his revolver."

Donny left and Seto returned to the window.

"Did Joey leave because of me?" Seto sunk to his knees and bent over, crying on the carpet. "Joey….I love you…Please come home."