Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Dear Bakura ❯ Dear Yami no Marik... ( Chapter 12 )

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Dear Yami no Marik,

Ah.. this is Ryou, if it's hard to tell from my handwriting. I would talk to you in person - that's what Anzu says, that no one will ever listen to me if I continue to write letters like this - but I've been writing letters all of my life and it really comes naturally to me. I hope you don't mind. Besides, both of our other sides write letters to each other as well. It can't hurt anything, can it?

Well, I'm sorry for bothering you and making you read so much. Your eyes must be tired of reading by now, and I'm sure you're busy and have things to do. Speaking of that, how old are you? Do you have a job, or are you in high school still? Or since you're a part of Malik does that mean that you're sort of the same as him?

But I digress. I feel like such a coward, always avoiding the subject.

It's just that... well, I don't know if you've heard, Yami Marik, but there's a rumor going around. That we're dating. Even my dark side believes it - I don't know what to think.

I didn't start it! I want you to know that. I'm not as desperate as that, and besides, I barely know you. But the thing is that I've always wanted to date someone. More specifically, I've always wanted to date someone male.. girls have always scared me. I don't know how to act around them! You know that already, don't you? I know I sound stupid, Yami Marik. I know that I do. It's just that I can never find the right words to say what I want to, and I can't start this letter over because I'm writing to you in ink.

My life seems like a picture book, a tragedy. Everyone forgets that I have something to say and then when it's my turn to talk, it it's been so long that I've forgotten how to speak. I don't know the words, and then everyone comes to the conclusion that I really don't have anything to say. It's a circle, always repeating.

I'm lost, Yami Marik. Lost and frozen in the frost of a winter that is warm to others. The ice has slowly entombed me and now I am cold and alone.

If these words are making you fear me, that's all right. Most people think there's something wrong with me, anyway, and you're the one who thinks you know me, thinks you love me. I don't like to say this, but you must be wrong. There is no one who knows me but myself. The closer I try to get to others, the further they they drift from me. I accepted that years ago, when my dark side first showed himself to me.

I am always going to be alone, and I am always going to be seeking someone to bring me out of this sea of loneliness.

It never works, Yami Marik. But I've been thinking really hard about this. And I think that this time, it just might work. It doesn't matter if my dark side throws you away. It would just be nice to have somebody to be with, that's all.

I don't know if you still feel the same way you used to, because it's been practically a month and I received no reply from my letter. It's OK if you changed your mind about me.

Don't feel that you're obligated to have feelings for me just because I want you to. It's perfectly all right if you don't.

I just wrote this to say that since the rumors think we're already dating, why shouldn't we? But I still haven't met you in person yet. If you're still interested in me, let's set up a time, all right? If you think I'm insane, you can ignore me, let the frost build up. It's all right; I'm used to it.

-Ryou Bakura

Authors Notes: x.x I have no idea what this chapter is. It's so confusing! Ryou just plain confuses me.. and then I try to write from his perspective. Randomness and confused viewers ensue. I think I did a little better with his personality this time, though. He wasn't so... crazy and HYPER!!!1!11!! But I'm not sure yet. And I'm probably going to edit this chapter, since it's late and I've only read this over once. Oh, and thanks, everyone who reviewed! ^^