Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Death Is All I Want ❯ Chapter 1

Kalie: This is just another one time FIC! Please forgive me. I tried hard to work on my other story. It really was going good until I started High School. People are right. High School sucks. There is way to much homework and the teachers are so demanding that you can't work on anything in there class unless you want to feel their rath. Oh well, on with the Fic!

Disclamir: I don't own Yugioh and I never will! Damnit it all to Hell!!!!!

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Yugi walked into the kitchen not noticing anything around him. He didn't really notice alot, since his soul was practically gone anyways. He didn't want to live anymore. He wanted just for all his pain to go away.

It had started three months ago when Yami had gotten his own body. It wasn't that everyone forgot him it was just that he secretly had a crush on the once pharoph. He had loved being able to talk to him when ever he wanted and had him there to care for him and fight for him. Ever since he got his own body though he had been gone every weekend and would be gone on the weekdays to at Kaiba's mansion. People thought that Yugi was a little innocent boy that nobody would lay hand on. Yeah. Right. He had learned the hard way what it was like to be in love. He had started to train hard and lift weights to build up his frame. He wanted to somehow get Yami to look at him in a different way than his once host.

Yugi walked past the sink that held dirty dishes from earlier. Yami had cooked a homecooked meal. It was amazing what he knew how to do. The food had been delicious but Yugi didn't eat much of it. The fact that Yami only did this because he was happy about his date had made Yugi so heart broken that he just picked at the food. He didn't eat much these days anyways so he didn't really mind. His body had gotten used to the food deprivation that Yugi made it go through no matter what. His stomach never even growled any more. It was odd sometimes.

Yugi looked at the knife laying in the dish drainer. It was so shiney and it was perfect for what he wanted to do. Could he really do this? Would he really do this? he didn't want to find that he had second thoughts. He wanted out. The pain gone and his head free. No body would miss him much anyways would they?

(With Yami)

Yami walked through the rain soaked streets. He didn't know why but for some reason he just wanted to get home. He had a bad feeling about Yugi. He never laughed anymore and anytime Yami tried to go into the little one's soul room he had found it locked. The young boy had begone to get paler and thinner. Yami noticed that he hadn't eaten anything barely at dinner tonight. Seto had understood what he had been going through. He even gave Yami his number if anything went wrong with Yugi. *AKA: Suicide or attempted* He hoped that it wouldn't come to that. He really loved Yugi. He never showed any to him though because he didn't want Yugi to freak out. Yeah, he knew that Yugi was gay but he didn't want to make him go into a relationship just because he didn't want to hurt Yami. He knew that was what made Yugi date that crazy girl that drew anime cartoon. Most of it was pretty good and he even had her draw one of Yugi and himself together. She had gone really crazy though and was now stuck in a mental hospital getting treatment for thinking that there was an actual way to make portals to other worlds. He never knew that she was that crazy.

Yami started to run down the streets as fast as he could to get home before Yugi hurt himself. He knew now what Yugi was going to do because he had caught some of Yugi's thought through the mind link that they shared.

*Yugi's Thoughts*

I want to end it now. *sob* please let me just die Ra. I want out of this Ra forsaken world. I want to die. Nobody loves me *static* I... can't... love... any.... PAIN!!!!

Then it was gone. He threw open the game shop doors, and ran to the kitchen. Yugi sat there on the floor crying. He had made a small incision on his arm but it barely bled and Yugi cried out in pain again as the knife cut in a different spot. From the looks of things Yugi wasn't trying to commit suicide, but was trying to cut himself up. Yami reached around Yugi and grabbed the knife out of his hands. "Yugi, what the FUCK do you think that you are doing?" Yugi peered up at Yami as more tears fell from his eyes. God, even his own Yami wouldn't let him get rid of his pain. "Yami...Give me back that knife. I want to do what I have to do. You wouldn't have even noticed what was going on in my mind if you hadn't tried to probe at my door all night, tonight." Yugi calmly stated. Yami gaped at him and was surprised as ever to see that even though Yugi was very thin he still had bulging muscles.

Yami realized then that Yugi wasn't wearing his normal baggy pants and hoddie. If possible it looked like the young boy had raded Yami's closet and threw on his leather. The only difference being that Yugi's leather hung off his skin more than Yami's did. The young boy had discarded the shirt and was now in only leather pants. Yami gaped at the sight of Yugi's muscled chest. It was tanned and looked flawless. You could barely see the scars from Yugi's dads drunken nights.

(FLASHBACK)

Yugi layed on the floor in his room. Hoping that his dads inflicted wounds to Yugi would just kill him then. He had one piece left before the millinium puzzle that his grandpa had sent him was finished and he wanted so much for this all to be over. The pain to go away and his spirt free. He stood up and walked over to the desk that held his computer with a;; his storys that one day would go into a book of angst.

Yugi picked up the last puzzle piece and easily fitted it into the hole. There was a bright flash and everything went black.

He woke up in a dark room sorounded by black. He liked the room. 'maybe I'll paint my room this color!' Yugi thought to himself. Suddenly he felt a prikle on the back of his neck like someone was staring at him. He turned around and came face to face with the red eyed god, Yami. His pain deminished as the god looked at him with worry in his eyes. "What is wrong chibi ichi?" Yami asked Yugi. Yugi smiled at the nickname that the god had given him. Usually he would yell if someone had called him that and he would tell them off that he wasn't as "chibi" as they think. "nothing is wrong, why do you ask?" Yugi looked confused at the comment that Yami had made. "Because, you are crying and there is blood on you. Should I help you clean up?" Yami asked. Not waiting for an answer Yami took Yugi inot his soul room and let him lay on the big bed. Yami cleaned his cuts and Yugi fell into a deep sleep. Not to wake up for two days.

(END FLASHBACK)

As Yugi came out of his memories he noticed that the knife was now on the floor in front of him. He tried to grab for it but he found that there was soemthing keeping his hands at his side. That was when he noticed that that something was warm and breathing. Yami had grabbed Yugi as he came out of that same memorie(sp?). He wanted to show Yugi that he had felt something between them then and that he still felt that way.

Yugi looked up into Yami eyes. The pain, grief, and dare he think it, love were all there in his eyes. He did a double take and found that everything was there. Pain that Yugi thought no one loved him. Grief that Yami would loose him. And Love for Yugi that he had never been able to share until Yugi brought up that memorie and should Yami how much he truely did love him.

Yami picked Yugi up bridal style and carried him to there room. Yami was happy that he still shared a room with his Aibou. He loved to be able to wake up and find Yugi's flawless face as he slept.

Yami kicked oped the door with ease and set Yugi gently on the bed. Yugi looked into Yami's eyes and found everything replaced with passion. Yugi gave in and let Yami move him on to the pillows at the top of the bed. Yami eased Yugi into a wonderful, mind blowing kiss. Yugi gave him what he wanted and pulled Yami deeper into his mouth. The feeling of Yami checking every creavece (sp?) of his mind was the best thing in the world.

(AN HOUR LATER)

Yami layed on the bed with his Tensi in his arms. He laughed at the thought that he hadn't shown Yugi his love before. Yugi and fucked him like there was no tomorrow. Yami peered down on his sleeping lover to find that he wasn't as carefree as everyone thought. He knew that there was a different kind of person inside of the once innocent Yugi. Yami reflected on his life and found that everything he did was around Yugi or he had been thinking of Yugi. He needed to call and tell Seto that he didn't want him as his fuckbudy anymore because he had the love of his life now. He smiled at that thought and kissed Yugi in the dark. The little one snuggled up to Yami's chest and sighed contently. This was the best day ao there lives. Soon Yami was asleep and started to dream about his Chibi ichi!

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Kalie: This was my first time at a one shot and I think that it came out well. Granted I didn't feel like putting in the sex scene. I made them kiss though. ^_^' Anyways, please R&R and I will try to make my storys better. I've been working on this one fic and it still needs a little revising and I need to type it up. Please don't hate. I will get up my storys as soon as possible. Love Ya all. (Not in that way Hentai's) Thanks for being loyal and I swear that I will try my best on the story Trouble Ahead. I still haven't decided if I want to take it down or not. Well anyways, Thankies.^_^!!!