Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Don't Tell ❯ And Hard Diamonds ( Chapter 6 )

Kaiba stayed up late that evening, as usual. He stayed up under the pretense of working, but really he wasn't getting anything done. Something bothered him; irritated him. He couldn't place a finger on what was the matter, but... he was still worried.

`But she said she wouldn't,' he told himself firmly. `So there's no way...'

But there was. He knew it. One of the things that made him so anxious was that he didn't see how it could be possible for her to be so convinced one minute, then turn right around and never think about it again. When he tried to kill himself, the doctors had found out that it was attempted suicide from Mokuba; he was too worried not to tell, even when Kaiba asked him not to. Even though he tried to convince them that he wasn't going to do it again, they had still made him see a psychiatrist, just in case he had `second thoughts.' As much as he would never admit it, he was glad they had. He wasn't so sure now that he would have stuck to his word...

`It just isn't supposed to be this easy,' he thought in frustration. Maybe she genuinely thought she was better now, but there was always a chance...

And of course, there was that feeling... The reason he called Tea's that night wasn't just because he wanted to talk to Serenity. He had been feeling restless, for lack of a better word. And now he felt like that again. He strongly suspected it was just paranoia, but whatever it was he didn't like it.

Finally he gave in and picked up the phone. When he called the hospital and told them that he wanted to speak to one of the patients, however, they told him to call back in the morning. He put the phone down again, feeling distinctly annoyed.

He shot an angry look at the paperwork waiting on his desk. He really needed to get it all finished by tomorrow, and it would take a large chunk of his time to drive over there... Not to mention it would make him look like a fool if he was wrong.

Finally he sat back down and tried to do some of it. After all, practically all he had to go on was a stupid feeling. Given, there was a chance that she might still be in danger, but it wouldn't make sense for her to try so soon after she said she wouldn't. She had really seemed to mean it. `And plus,' he thought reasonably, `it's not like I could actually get to her. If they wouldn't let me talk to her over the phone then it's not likely they'd let me in to see her.'

And still he couldn't concentrate. The feeling continued, nagging in the back of his head like a persistent headache. It didn't seem to care whether or not Kaiba had himself convinced that everything was going to be fine... Or did he? The best thing she had been able to give him, he couldn't help but think, was something that contained an `I don't think...' Not that he didn't trust her. In most circumstances, he would have trusted her completely. He would trust her with his life, certainly. But the question was, would he trust her with her own...

Fifteen minutes went by. He started pacing again, thinking that with every second that passed... `Damn it!' he thought. `I should have told somebody, even if it did mean that she would have a harder time trusting me... To hell with it!' He abruptly stopped pacing, grabbed his coat, and started downstairs.

Mokuba looked up, startled, as his brother went by the living room. "I'm going out for a while," Kaiba said.

"Okay," Mokuba said skeptically. His brother never went out this late... He shrugged it off. If there was an emergency he would have said, the young boy decided as he heard Kaiba's car start up. The video game called...

The whole way to the hospital, Kaiba kept having to remind himself not to be so tense. When he got there he walked down the halls with perhaps more speed than was called for, taking care not to let the woman at the front desk notice him in case she tried to stop him.

Serenity's nurse was another matter. He couldn't get past her, because she was standing right outside in the hall. When he saw her he frowned, as did she.

"What are you doing here?" he demanded.

"I could ask you the same thing," she said, examining him closely. "It's well passed visiting hours, you know."

"I know," he said curtly. "I asked first though."

She glowered at him, which he defiantly did not like. "Well," she said testily, "my patient asked to be alone for a minute, right after she took her medication for the evening." He could have sworn he heard her mutter, "As if it's any of you business..."

His frown deepened. "*Right* after she took her medication?" he demanded. "Then... Where is it?"

She blinked. "Oh, um... Well, I guess I left it in there," she admitted. "But I really don't see why-"

"All right," he said firmly. "Let me in."

"No!" she said angrily. "Look, who ever you are... It's passed visiting hours!"

"I don't actually give a shit," he commented, taking a step forward.

She downright glared this time. "I could call security, you know," she said, brandishing a walky-talky type thing at him. "Why are you so interested in seeing her, anyway?"

He hesitated. He could tell her, of course, but that would mean breaking his promise to Serenity... He would have to, if he wanted to get in. "All right, fine," he said tensely. "Serenity... She told me..." He took a deep breath, trying to calm down enough to get a sentence out. `Every second I waste...' "I'm her boyfriend. And she told me that... She has thought about killing herself."

"What?" the nurse gasped, horrified. "Why didn't you tell anyone?!"

"She made me promise not to," he said, realizing just how feeble that seemed. "She said she wouldn't, but... Look, if you left that medicine in there..."

"Oh..." All the color drained out of the nurse's face, and she spun around and opened the door. What Kaiba saw there made his heart stop.

Serenity was standing beside her bed, facing the door and crying freely. She held a bottle in one hand, and in the other there was a heap of little white pills. She was staring at them, but when the door opened she looked up, shocked. Her eyes widened further when she saw Kaiba.

"Don't," he said, just loud enough for her to hear. He didn't seem to be able to move...

While she was still frozen in surprise, the nurse rushed forward and knocked the pills out of Serenity's hand. The little white things scattered everywhere. Serenity stared at them numbly, but made no move to pick them up. As the nurse called security, she slowly sunk to her knees among them; she made no sound, but Kaiba could see that she was still crying. He finally forced himself to move and went over to her, the medicine crunching underneath his feet.

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