Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Forgive Me ❯ Forgive Me ( Chapter 1 )
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Forgive Me
A/N I was listening to this song and had been thinking of a way to do this one-short that has been rattling around in my brain. I hope it’s good but it may not be. Ok people this is a death fic. Someone dies. And it has strong language. You may want something whip your eyes with.
I don’t own Yu-Gi-Oh!
I don’t own Forgive me that goes to Evanescence
Joey’s POV
I was sitting on my bed at my old home thinking that I really screwed up this time. There is no way in hell he will take me back. I cannot believe what I did. There is no reason for it. No excuses for it. Why am I so stupid? And on top of that, I’m running out of time. The doctor said I have only 6 months to leave live and that was 6 months ago. And what I do. I fight with only man I have ever loved. The only person for that matter.
I slam my head against the wall as I think back to what I did. To what I said. I pick up a cd and put it in the player and put the headphones on hoping that maybe music will take away the pain at lest for a while. It turned out to be a cd I burn and on it was Evanescence’s Forgive Me. That song didn’t help take it way it only made it worse. As the music played, I remember why I’m here again.
~flashback~
Can you forgive me again?
We were all sitting down at the dinning room table have a nice dinner when Seto start to talk about the last game design he was coming up with and another business trip he was going to have to make over seas to the states.
“Another one. Seto you just got back from one.”
“I know pup but I have to.”
“Sure you do.” Joey said as he looks down at his food then pushed it away. “Pup. What’s wrong? Usually you would be on your 2nd plate by now.”
“Well if you where around more you know. I’m not hungry anymore.” I said as I started to get up to leave. Seto grabbed my arm and looked at me. “Come on pup tell me? What’s wrong?”
“It’s nothing. Don’t worry. Even if you know, you still won’t stay home. Your company is too important to you to care about me. I’m just your fuck toy.” I said as I pull my arm away and walk up to the bedroom we share.
I don’t know what I said.
I started to pack my bags when Seto walked in. “What did you mean down there.”
“Just what I said. I nothing but a fuck toy to you”
“If that was all you where to me then you would have been long gone by now Joey and I wouldn’t have let you move in when you father was beating the hell out of you. Besides, we have never fucked. For some reason you don’t want to. In fact you told me to found someone else to when I need a good fuck.”
“Oh really. Maybe you did that so your toy wouldn’t be damage any more.” I said as I keep packing my bag.
But I didn’t mean to hurt you
I don’t have a whole lot of stuff. Just clothes, a few cds, a player, my deck and duel disk. That’s it. It all fit into a duffle bag. Ones it was in I zipped and start to leave when I saw him standing in the doorway and not willing to let me leave. “Move it Kaiba,” I said. And yes, I meant to say Kaiba.
I heard the words come out
I saw the sad and hurt look in eyes as I said his last name. He knows something was wrong but I wasn’t in the mood to talk. I could feel a coughing fit coming on but I was able to hold it back just long enough to get past him and start down the stairs. Or so I thought. “Joey. What’s wrong?” I could hear the worry in his voice but I just didn’t want to tell him I was dieing. What I was dieing from was the reason I would never have sex with Seto. I didn’t want him to get it.
I felt I would die it hurt so much to hurt you
“Pup. Please tell me what is wrong with you,” He said as he grabbed my shoulders. I had stopped at the bottom of the stairs to catch my breath but I pushed him away as I got up to walk out of the house and his life forever, so I thought.
Then you look at me
As I made my way to the door, I stopped and looked at him one more time before I turn and walked away and closed the door behind me. I stood right outside the door hoping that Seto would open it back up. If he did I would have told him everything and beg for his forgiveness. He never did. So I walked away. I made to the park and to a tree and sat under it before I start to cough up blood. “Oh great. It’s getting worse.” I wipe away the blood from my mouth and stood up again. But where should I go. I can’t go any of my friends. If Seto comes looking for me that is where he’ll go looking. Maybe my old apartment. So I started to walk there. Hoping that I wouldn’t bump into anyone I know.
You not shouting any more. Your silently broken.
As I walk, I realized that Seto didn’t put up much of a fight. He didn’t yell or anything. Just stood there watching me leave. Was he waiting on me to turn around and come back?
Well if was it then tough luck. I’m not going back. I’m going back to be a lone in that big empty house. I don’t see how Mokuba puts up with. But then again he maybe use to it by now. For me I could never get use to it. It’s too big and at times to quite. Even if I wanted to go back I wouldn’t be able to not after tonight.
As I walk I have to stop as I start too caught again and ones again I coughing up blood. Spit it out I sigh as I start to feel sicker again. I feel so broken sometimes.
I give anything now
I finally made to my old place. Lucky no one has moved in and no one is around to see me brake in. The place looks the same. Same smells as well. Well we know why no ones move in now. I make my way to my room and find the same bed in the same spot as I left 2 years ago. Who know 2 years later I would be back here of my own free will? Not me. I sure wish I wasn’t. Maybe it wasn’t a good idea to leave him. He did nothing wrong. I’m the one who blow up at him for nothing at all.
~end flashback~
To kill those words for you
So now here I am. Sick, tired and dieing from AIDS. That right. AIDS. How did I get them? I can thank my dear old man for that. Getting his ass drunk then fucking someone with no protection and then raping me. That is why I’ll never sleep with Seto. Not even on are worst days would I have want to give him this. It slowly kills you. Every time you get a cold, it’s ten times worse for you then someone with out it.
Each time I say something I regret I cry, “I don’t want to lose you”
Man I wish I hadn’t left him. I wish I could just go back home. Back to Seto but after what I said to him he would never want me. I really wish I could keep my big mouth shut. But no I had to go and open and say all that shit. And this one line here hits home base. I regret ever saying that stuff.
But somehow, I know that you will never leave me. Yeah.
It’s true. He didn’t leave me. I left him. But what can I do. I accused him of just using me.
“Joey?” I looked up at the call of my name and see Seto standing there looking at me. “Go away. I don’t want you to see me.”
“Why not. I’m worry about you?”
“How could you even care after what I said?”
“Mokuba told me.” I looked at him with wide eyes. “It’s true then. Your dieing aren’t’ you.” I nodded my head. “You have AIDS?” Ones again I nod my head. “Why did you ever tell me?”
“It’s nothing I want to flash to the world and I was scared at how you would act around me.”
‘cause you are made for me. Some how I’ll make you see how happy you make me.
“Seto you have to understand.” I start to say as push the headphones off of my head but let it play. “I love you very much but if I told you I had AIDS because of my dad then I was scared you would dump me. And when you started to want to have sex….” I turned my head I couldn’t look at him. I could feel the tears coming to my eyes as I felt him turn my head and to look at him. “That why you keep telling me fine someone else and that you where ok with it.”
“I wasn’t ok with but what else could I do or say. I don’t want you to get it. If you did then after I gone you wouldn’t be able to found someone new. Well you could but you might end up in my shoes.” I said as I have tears falling down my face. “Being with you has been the happiest times in my life. We’re prefect together. I don’t ever want to live without you.”
“Nor do I Joey. But it looks like one of us wont get there wish. How much longer do you have?”
“The doctor said that with this cold that won’t go away about 6 months left. Maybe long maybe less but that was 6 months ago….” I close my eyes I get really sleepy.
Opening my eyes, I see that it laying down still in my old place but Seto’s looking at me with worry in his eyes. He was setting on my bed with his back to wall and my head in his lap. “Joey?”
“Ya I’m here. Just really sleepy?” I said with a yawn.
“Don’t do that to me. If you’re going to sleep then breathe while you’re asleep.”
I can’t leave this life without you by my side.
I can still hear the cd playing but now it seems to be more of what Seto is feeling as I see him looking over at it. “What is the name of this song?”
“Forgive me.” Smiling at me, he says, “I already have.” I smile back at getting at what he did. “You jerk.” I said as I playfully hit him in the arm as I get up to sit. “Ya but you still love me.”
“Yes I do. I still love ya.” I said as I climb into his lap and lay my head on his shoulder.
I need you to survive. So stay with me.
I watch as Seto picked up the cd player and sang that rest of the song. He has a great singing voice and I love to listen to him sing. He hit pause after that last line and looked at me. “You know that last line is true. I want you to survive and stay with me.” Hitting the play button, he keeps on singing.
You look in my eyes And I’m screaming inside that I’m sorry
I reach over and hit pause. “Seto. I am sorry for what I said. Can you forgive me” With a smile he hits play again and sings his answer to the question.
And you forgive me again
“Really you do” He nodded as he sang the rest. I close my eyes for the last time in my lover arms as I hear.
And you forgive me again
The last things I feel was him kissing my goodbye and I said with my last breath “I love you Seto. Always have and always will. Goodbye love.”
“I love you to Joey. Always have and always…”Tear on my face “Always will. Goodbye love.” as he pulled me close to him in his arms.
You’re my one true friend and I never meant to hurt you.
Was the last thing I heard as I slipped away from this world. My last thoughts where ‘I’m sorry I hurt you Seto.’
The end.
A/N I was listening to this song and had been thinking of a way to do this one-short that has been rattling around in my brain. I hope it’s good but it may not be. Ok people this is a death fic. Someone dies. And it has strong language. You may want something whip your eyes with.
I don’t own Yu-Gi-Oh!
I don’t own Forgive me that goes to Evanescence
Joey’s POV
I was sitting on my bed at my old home thinking that I really screwed up this time. There is no way in hell he will take me back. I cannot believe what I did. There is no reason for it. No excuses for it. Why am I so stupid? And on top of that, I’m running out of time. The doctor said I have only 6 months to leave live and that was 6 months ago. And what I do. I fight with only man I have ever loved. The only person for that matter.
I slam my head against the wall as I think back to what I did. To what I said. I pick up a cd and put it in the player and put the headphones on hoping that maybe music will take away the pain at lest for a while. It turned out to be a cd I burn and on it was Evanescence’s Forgive Me. That song didn’t help take it way it only made it worse. As the music played, I remember why I’m here again.
~flashback~
Can you forgive me again?
We were all sitting down at the dinning room table have a nice dinner when Seto start to talk about the last game design he was coming up with and another business trip he was going to have to make over seas to the states.
“Another one. Seto you just got back from one.”
“I know pup but I have to.”
“Sure you do.” Joey said as he looks down at his food then pushed it away. “Pup. What’s wrong? Usually you would be on your 2nd plate by now.”
“Well if you where around more you know. I’m not hungry anymore.” I said as I started to get up to leave. Seto grabbed my arm and looked at me. “Come on pup tell me? What’s wrong?”
“It’s nothing. Don’t worry. Even if you know, you still won’t stay home. Your company is too important to you to care about me. I’m just your fuck toy.” I said as I pull my arm away and walk up to the bedroom we share.
I don’t know what I said.
I started to pack my bags when Seto walked in. “What did you mean down there.”
“Just what I said. I nothing but a fuck toy to you”
“If that was all you where to me then you would have been long gone by now Joey and I wouldn’t have let you move in when you father was beating the hell out of you. Besides, we have never fucked. For some reason you don’t want to. In fact you told me to found someone else to when I need a good fuck.”
“Oh really. Maybe you did that so your toy wouldn’t be damage any more.” I said as I keep packing my bag.
But I didn’t mean to hurt you
I don’t have a whole lot of stuff. Just clothes, a few cds, a player, my deck and duel disk. That’s it. It all fit into a duffle bag. Ones it was in I zipped and start to leave when I saw him standing in the doorway and not willing to let me leave. “Move it Kaiba,” I said. And yes, I meant to say Kaiba.
I heard the words come out
I saw the sad and hurt look in eyes as I said his last name. He knows something was wrong but I wasn’t in the mood to talk. I could feel a coughing fit coming on but I was able to hold it back just long enough to get past him and start down the stairs. Or so I thought. “Joey. What’s wrong?” I could hear the worry in his voice but I just didn’t want to tell him I was dieing. What I was dieing from was the reason I would never have sex with Seto. I didn’t want him to get it.
I felt I would die it hurt so much to hurt you
“Pup. Please tell me what is wrong with you,” He said as he grabbed my shoulders. I had stopped at the bottom of the stairs to catch my breath but I pushed him away as I got up to walk out of the house and his life forever, so I thought.
Then you look at me
As I made my way to the door, I stopped and looked at him one more time before I turn and walked away and closed the door behind me. I stood right outside the door hoping that Seto would open it back up. If he did I would have told him everything and beg for his forgiveness. He never did. So I walked away. I made to the park and to a tree and sat under it before I start to cough up blood. “Oh great. It’s getting worse.” I wipe away the blood from my mouth and stood up again. But where should I go. I can’t go any of my friends. If Seto comes looking for me that is where he’ll go looking. Maybe my old apartment. So I started to walk there. Hoping that I wouldn’t bump into anyone I know.
You not shouting any more. Your silently broken.
As I walk, I realized that Seto didn’t put up much of a fight. He didn’t yell or anything. Just stood there watching me leave. Was he waiting on me to turn around and come back?
Well if was it then tough luck. I’m not going back. I’m going back to be a lone in that big empty house. I don’t see how Mokuba puts up with. But then again he maybe use to it by now. For me I could never get use to it. It’s too big and at times to quite. Even if I wanted to go back I wouldn’t be able to not after tonight.
As I walk I have to stop as I start too caught again and ones again I coughing up blood. Spit it out I sigh as I start to feel sicker again. I feel so broken sometimes.
I give anything now
I finally made to my old place. Lucky no one has moved in and no one is around to see me brake in. The place looks the same. Same smells as well. Well we know why no ones move in now. I make my way to my room and find the same bed in the same spot as I left 2 years ago. Who know 2 years later I would be back here of my own free will? Not me. I sure wish I wasn’t. Maybe it wasn’t a good idea to leave him. He did nothing wrong. I’m the one who blow up at him for nothing at all.
~end flashback~
To kill those words for you
So now here I am. Sick, tired and dieing from AIDS. That right. AIDS. How did I get them? I can thank my dear old man for that. Getting his ass drunk then fucking someone with no protection and then raping me. That is why I’ll never sleep with Seto. Not even on are worst days would I have want to give him this. It slowly kills you. Every time you get a cold, it’s ten times worse for you then someone with out it.
Each time I say something I regret I cry, “I don’t want to lose you”
Man I wish I hadn’t left him. I wish I could just go back home. Back to Seto but after what I said to him he would never want me. I really wish I could keep my big mouth shut. But no I had to go and open and say all that shit. And this one line here hits home base. I regret ever saying that stuff.
But somehow, I know that you will never leave me. Yeah.
It’s true. He didn’t leave me. I left him. But what can I do. I accused him of just using me.
“Joey?” I looked up at the call of my name and see Seto standing there looking at me. “Go away. I don’t want you to see me.”
“Why not. I’m worry about you?”
“How could you even care after what I said?”
“Mokuba told me.” I looked at him with wide eyes. “It’s true then. Your dieing aren’t’ you.” I nodded my head. “You have AIDS?” Ones again I nod my head. “Why did you ever tell me?”
“It’s nothing I want to flash to the world and I was scared at how you would act around me.”
‘cause you are made for me. Some how I’ll make you see how happy you make me.
“Seto you have to understand.” I start to say as push the headphones off of my head but let it play. “I love you very much but if I told you I had AIDS because of my dad then I was scared you would dump me. And when you started to want to have sex….” I turned my head I couldn’t look at him. I could feel the tears coming to my eyes as I felt him turn my head and to look at him. “That why you keep telling me fine someone else and that you where ok with it.”
“I wasn’t ok with but what else could I do or say. I don’t want you to get it. If you did then after I gone you wouldn’t be able to found someone new. Well you could but you might end up in my shoes.” I said as I have tears falling down my face. “Being with you has been the happiest times in my life. We’re prefect together. I don’t ever want to live without you.”
“Nor do I Joey. But it looks like one of us wont get there wish. How much longer do you have?”
“The doctor said that with this cold that won’t go away about 6 months left. Maybe long maybe less but that was 6 months ago….” I close my eyes I get really sleepy.
Opening my eyes, I see that it laying down still in my old place but Seto’s looking at me with worry in his eyes. He was setting on my bed with his back to wall and my head in his lap. “Joey?”
“Ya I’m here. Just really sleepy?” I said with a yawn.
“Don’t do that to me. If you’re going to sleep then breathe while you’re asleep.”
I can’t leave this life without you by my side.
I can still hear the cd playing but now it seems to be more of what Seto is feeling as I see him looking over at it. “What is the name of this song?”
“Forgive me.” Smiling at me, he says, “I already have.” I smile back at getting at what he did. “You jerk.” I said as I playfully hit him in the arm as I get up to sit. “Ya but you still love me.”
“Yes I do. I still love ya.” I said as I climb into his lap and lay my head on his shoulder.
I need you to survive. So stay with me.
I watch as Seto picked up the cd player and sang that rest of the song. He has a great singing voice and I love to listen to him sing. He hit pause after that last line and looked at me. “You know that last line is true. I want you to survive and stay with me.” Hitting the play button, he keeps on singing.
You look in my eyes And I’m screaming inside that I’m sorry
I reach over and hit pause. “Seto. I am sorry for what I said. Can you forgive me” With a smile he hits play again and sings his answer to the question.
And you forgive me again
“Really you do” He nodded as he sang the rest. I close my eyes for the last time in my lover arms as I hear.
And you forgive me again
The last things I feel was him kissing my goodbye and I said with my last breath “I love you Seto. Always have and always will. Goodbye love.”
“I love you to Joey. Always have and always…”Tear on my face “Always will. Goodbye love.” as he pulled me close to him in his arms.
You’re my one true friend and I never meant to hurt you.
Was the last thing I heard as I slipped away from this world. My last thoughts where ‘I’m sorry I hurt you Seto.’
The end.