Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Hidden Feelings ❯ Chapter 2 ( Chapter 2 )

Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh!

Key: blah= other self; blah = emphasis; blah = conversation w/ other self

WARNING: I must warn you that this is a bit strange. I think I've been reading too many strange fics. A bit of violence. No flaming me for this. I warned you. Moving on.

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Ch 2

Mou hitori no boku, my other self. He relieves me, yet he taunts me at the same time. Though I can't say I'm grateful he's there, I can say that I still need him. I hate him. He's the one who lighted the fire for me to cause this terror. It's his fault that I'm like this.

I would never have thought of murdering all these people. But he has. It was his idea. It was his actions that put me through another level of hell. It's his fault I'm trapped in here. It was all his doing.

Now I lay on this bed, strapped arms, staring at the ceiling. I'm surrounded by padded walls. Everything's white. I hate this place. White is such a bland color. I don't even remember how I got here. Wait, I remember. . .

I was going to slaughter this annoying bitch. I had pinned her to a wall. She asked if I was going to rape her. That's a laugh. I would never do that to an insignificant piece of shit like her. I just pulled her hair and kicked her. She would have fell but I was pulling her hair and she just screamed.

I stabbed her shoulder and the wench shrieked even more. Then I slashed her abdomen. Her screams getting louder. What I did next surprised her, I forced the knife down her throat and I punched her stomach. She screamed even more deafeningly in pain. I had laughed at her pain. Call me sadistic.

I went home not expecting anyone to be there. They were never there anyways. But a family member saw me and asked where I went. I didn't answer, I just went to take a shower. I wanted to ignore her.

When I came out, she questioned me. I just told her to leave me alone. But she wouldn't. She thought I was acting very peculiar lately. The next thing I know two men tried to take my away. I kicked and tried to runaway. Then I blacked out. They probably drugged me with a syringe.

I woke up to the silence and blandness of white. I am once again left alone with my morbid thoughts.

Alone? Are you sure about that?

You're not real. You don't exist. You're just a configuration of my loneness.

Oh, really? Then I guess it can't be my fault then can it? You're just taunting yourself then? Is that what you think?

I think I'm just crazy.

You amuse me hikari.

Do I? Really? A hikari, ha. I don't think of me light at all, if not the dark. He just left me, again. He just comes and goes as he pleases. I look around the room.

I detest the color white. I loath these binds that hold me. I despise everything about this place. I bang my head on the padded wall. I hate my life. I hate the world. I hate her. I hate him. I hate myself.

Don't detest yourself my dear.

Stop mocking me. I hate you! Go away!

What did I do to deserve this fate? I just wanted to be a normal, like everyone else. Why does my life have to be this way? Why? Why?!?! "WHY?!?!?!"

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A/n: Sorry it was short. I think I have a bit of writers block on this. And it wasn't as strange as I had said. I didn't have enough courage to write part of it as gruesome as I had in mind.

I don't think I'm going to reveal who it is just yet. Maybe the end or maybe next time. I dunno. Oh yeah, some of the stuff may be altered from the storyline of Yugioh for the sake of the fic.

So how was it? And do you think I rated this appropriately? Well, tell me in your review or flame. Though of course I don't prefer a flame. And keep guessing who it is. Well see ya next time. Hopefully it'll be longer. And thanks for the reviews again.